The Injured Heart.
part 76's
"Sometimes someone overvalues us, until when we make a mistake, they see only one mistake we make, and forgets every good we do. "
Zahira Al Mahyra's.
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"I'm sorry Ra" Razi said with a feeling of guilt, because that was all he could say.
"Sorry?? " asked Zahira staring in disbelief at the figure before her.
Zahira's tears trickled back to hearing Razi's apology.
"You know Raz, I hate the word sorry, there are millions of people who say sorry and regret, but still never stop to go back to hurt and hurt, he said, I've heard so many apologies from everyone's lips that hurt me, but what do they do after they get sorry?? " Zahira rubbed her tears that kept dripping. "As if they are not satisfied with hurting, they repeat it again, there is always an apology and a feeling of regret in every word, sorry, but did they ever know that forgiveness also takes a big heart to forgive Raz? "
The room was again silent, neither mamah nor mamah Razi could say anything at this time. Razi could only quietly see the outpouring of Zahira's heart that looked heartbreaking.
"I don't want anything from you, Raz, I just want us to split up as soon as possible, and we don't have to deal anymore! " break up Zahira with a heavy heart.
Razi shook his head quickly when he heard Zahira's decision, he did not want to part.
"Ra, I beg you not to be like this Ra, I don't want us to split up, please give me a chance to fix all of this, I promise I won't leave you again, I promise, I need to be clarified for media coverage that vilifies your name, but please don't say Ra's divorce"
"You also promised to make me happy, Raz, but you didn't, did you?, so agree to the divorce papers I love, and you don't have to bother to clarify that I'm a good wife, maybe what Andri said is true, I don't deserve to be loved or married"
"No, I don't want us to split Ra, please give me a chance to fix all this, I beg Ra" Razi insisted.
"I don't want anything Raz, I don't ask anything from you either, you just need to agree to the letter I love, I just want to live quietly with my baby"
"I know I'm wrong Ra, but you can't just say so, anyway I'm still your husband, you can't kill all this, we can talk about all this well, at least give me a chance to fix all this Ra"
"A chance? " asked Zahira then stood up and looked at Razi. "Before we got married when we had a fight just because of work problems, at that time you also asked for the same opportunity I Raz, but what happens now?? and you're asking for another chance? "
Razi was silent at Zahira's words.
"Is my fault that big Ra until you really want to part Ra?, is there not the slightest love for me in your heart Ra? " ask Razi so softly.
Zahira did not answer and remained silent.
"I love you so much Ra, you're the first person I love, I don't care if you're Al Mahyra or not, I realize I'm wrong, I know I've fucked you and your family, but can't you think of our son? "
"I don't care if you're Al Mahyra or not, because all I know is that I love the girl who used to always be so cute and ugly to me, always flat and cold to me, I love and Love the girl who always sees the twilight in the afternoon, I Love the same you who are always simple, you who are always good, you who are always patient, you who are always strong, you who are always strong, and you love your family so much"
"When I love you because you're Al Mahyra, maybe since I got back I've been using your name to advance my company, but I don't admit it's all Ra, Ra, because I love you because it's you, not somebody else"
"When you feel I hurt you so much, and you think my mistakes are so big and so hard to forgive, at least try to ask your heart, is there not the slightest Love for me Ra? "
Zahira went back into silence without saying anything.
"I'm sorry for my mistake, I know I was wrong, I just don't want to lose the person I love, but if you think being with me only makes you suffer I'll agree to your wishes, I just don't want to make our son feel incomplete because his parents are separated, but if you don't have the slightest Love for me, and you still want a divorce, fine, fine, I'm not going to force you and hold you back from being with me, Ra, because I realize I'm wrong here, and something that's forced isn't good"
"I.... L'm... " Zahira looks nervous.
"Have you no need to say anything Ra, it's not your fault, I know you feel hurt, and I realize because it's my fault, if you really want to get divorced I would agree Ra, and I know that, although I do not want to, the important thing is that you feel happy" Razi said meaningfully.
Zahira could see the look of disappointment in Razi's eyes, he could see clearly that Razi's eyes looked teary, and inexplicably Zahira's heart was filled with tears.
"You can go home now, no need to take care of me here, you just rest at home, I will take care of everything, according to your wishes" razi said then walked slowly to the bathroom and left Zahira who was only silent to hear Razi's words.
His heart ached as Razi accepted his request.
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Zahira was silent looking up at the sky, her eyes glaring far away remembering many things in her life.A few times she remembered Razi's words.
"What do you think Ra is?" nadia asked who had suddenly appeared.
"When you think about the good name of the office, you take it easy, everything is safe under control, anyways this time the office is held mas Radit, so the news on TV will not affect the good name of the office" said Nadia did not want to make Zahira feel burdened and a lot of thoughts.
"I already know that, " said Zahira so quietly.
"Then what do you think?, I've been watching you, and you've been daydreaming ever since, did you think of the news on TV that called you not good to be a wife?, he said?, do you think many people think of you? " ask Nadia.
Zahira nodded slowly.
"No, I don't care about everyone's opinion, because they only judge based on what they hear, but they don't know what's really going on, it's up to people to judge me how, it's up to people to judge me, god knows what is right and what is wrong"
"Klo so what makes you daydream since then?, does anything disturb your mind? Look Ra, don't think about that obscure news, I don't know where the media can find out about you, but please don't think about any of this, I'll take care of it and clarify it,I'll shut up everyone who cornered you let alone the comments of the netizens who always felt right, you just need to take care of your health, because you're pregnant"
"I didn't think about it, Nad! "
"Then what do you think? Ever since you got home from the hospital? "
Zahira let out a heavy sigh and looked at Nadia with teary eyes.
"Razi agreed to separate me Nad!" said Zahira and inexplicably her tears suddenly flowed.
"My mistake may be huge, but can't you forgive me and give me a chance to correct it? "
Fachrul Razi El - kaady.
