The Injured Heart.

part 74's

"I'm not going to hold you back from staying by my side, I just want you to know that I really love you without you because. "

Fachrul Razi El Kaady

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Zahira breathed a heavy sigh while he was still in the hospital, but it was already very late afternoon, even he had been in the hospital for an hour, and the doctor was still not out of the ER room, razi's place is checked.

  Fakhira had even snorted many times and invited Zahira home, because they had intended to go to the mall tonight.

"Here Ra, let's just go home, why the hell wait for him, besides I've contacted Sarah and she has told her parents" he asked.

Zahira rolled her eyes lazily when she heard Fakhira's invitation, did she not know that Zahira was very anxious at this time.

"You want to go home, go home Fah, and yes call Nadia and tell her that we're not going"

"Loh?, why? " tanya Fakhira looked disappointed.

"Have just gone home and said there's Nadia, you're a real nag! " gigu Zahira.

"I don't want to go home alone, let's go home too" his son.

Zahira just stared silently at Fakhira who looked worriedly at Zahira.

"Don't tell me you want to wait for your coward's husband? " guess Fakhira.

Zahira did not answer and just kept quiet, making Fakhira cluck.

"Whether you wait for him?, he already left you Ra, justin aja why the hell, later his parents also come here, care very much the same situation he, he just does not care about you"  said Fakhira so flat.

"Fah please, I don't want to argue with you, this is the hospital, and he's still my husband Fah, he's the father of my son" he looks tired.

"Yes well, whatever you are, I'm going home, and yeah don't forget dinner, I don't want you and your baby to go around "

  Zahira nodded slowly, then hugged Fakhira.

"Klo there's nothing tell me yes" he said and left Zahira who was still standing in front of the ER room.

Not long after the doctor came out of the ER room, Zahira immediately approached the doctor and asked about Razi's condition.

"How is my husband doing, Doc? " ask Zahira.

"Mother's husband has an ulcer, and the stomach acid is also high, the mother's husband must be hospitalized because the mother's husband has a lot of fluid deficiency, and it seems the mother's husband is also too much thought "

"Huh? "

Zahira looks confused to hear the doctor's explanation.

"Mother's husband has too many thoughts, that's why the mother's husband eats irregularly, and yes the mother's husband is also too tired to work"

Zahira grimaced softly hearing the doctor's explanation, I don't know what made Razi exposed to ulcer.

"I live first ma'am" the doctor told Zahira.

"Yes dok please, thanks "reply.

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  Zahira looked at Razi who was still unconscious, and from that moment he waited for Razi to make him yawn because he was sleepy, Zahira even forgot that he had not eaten dinner.

Chequek.....

Zahira gasped when she saw a man appear with food in his hand. Zahira never seemed to see this man, and his face seemed to be unfamiliar.

"You who? " ask Zahira wondering.

The man who was none other than Zain was just a small smile.

"I'm Zain, your husband's friend, it's so nice that I get to meet Al Mahyra" she said with a smile.

Zahira just nodded and smiled faintly.

"I brought you some food, it looks like you haven't eaten yet, so eat first" Zain said, then placed the food he was carrying in front of Zahira.

Zain nodded and let Zahira eat the porridge he had bought before going to the hospital.

Until a while later both of Razi's parents came but Zahira was already asleep due to exhaustion.

                                         ***

  Zahira awoke from her sleep at midnight, and felt someone stroking her stomach, leaving Zahira shocked and immediately away from Razi.

"Well, why are you sneaking me? " question Zahira looks dislike.

"You're pregnant with Ra, and you sleep in a sitting position, you shouldn't have to wait for me" said Razi so slowly.

Zahira did not understand Razi's words and was busy drinking a bottle of water, until a while later he felt nauseous and rushed to the bathroom.

"Huwekk..... "

Razi who saw Zahira nausea instantly felt panicked.

"Ra, are you okay? " tanyanya then walked with her infusion hose.

A few minutes later Zahira came out of the bathroom with a tired face and also pale, this nausea really makes Zahira feel weak.

"Are you okay, Ra? " ask Razi looking worried.

"I'm okay, besides I'm used to nausea at midnight" he explained.

Razi seemed to feel guilty hearing Zahira's words, Zahira must be very difficult to sleep.

"Rest there, don't sleep here, "

"No need, you rest, you're sick! " he said so snugly.

"You sleep there, you get pregnant, you don't sleep in a sitting position"

  Zahira could only say what Razi said, because at this time he really felt weak.

Zahira tried to close her eyes so as not to look at Razi's face too long, when she saw him Zahira remembered the words of Razi who said he had deceived her and played tricks on her feelings.

  About four and a half hours Zahira awoke from her sleep, she looked around, and saw Razi sleeping beside her in a sitting position.

Zahira cursed himself who was sitting on Razi's bed, Zahira rushed down and let Razi fall asleep in his position, he immediately went to the hospital musholla.

  Zahira was in the musholla until the end of the prayer, even he refused to go from there because he did not want to face Razi, he did not know how to behave towards Razi.

Zahira sat leaning in the musholla, even the mukena he borrowed was still wearing, his eyes staring at the ceiling of the musholla.

Zahira was confused how to behave to Razi, really he was really tired because he constantly felt a feeling that made him feel uncomfortable, to this day his mind is depressed because of his household problems that make him sad.

Actually, the household problems are not so big to be made an excuse for divorce, but what Razi did that made him feel that he did not need to maintain his household.

Sometimes Zahira thinks what was true Andri said that he did not deserve to be married or loved, so Zahira has to experience disappointment again now.

"Astagfirullah "

Zahira cursed himself for his stupid thoughts, he should not think like this, god must just be back testing him. God cannot test it beyond its limits, God tests it for sure because God believes he can get through it all.

Zahira let out a heavy sigh and then looked at her stomach which seemed to be moving.

"Sorry mommy, baby, you have to make you feel all this" he said so quietly.

  Zahira again sighed heavily because she felt guilty about her baby, this pregnancy was heavy because she had to live hard days, there were many problems, and everything she lived alone.

If someone knew how fragile his heart and his feelings were, maybe people would not try to persuade him to maintain his marriage with Razi, even though he is currently pregnant with his child.

If they knew how hurt his heart and his feelings were, even his heart still grieved at the passing of his grandmother, all the sadness he felt was still neatly stored in his heart, but he tried hard, hard, and hiding all his sadness, he tried not to cry when everyone reminded him of the hard days he lived.

  Zahira covered her face with both hands, Zahira sobbed and hugged both knees, it felt like her heart was very sick, at the moment she just wanted to calm down. Zahira just wants to calm down without feeling depressed because of thinking about many things or work, he just wants to calm down because he feels tired.

"I just want to live my life in peace, can't you just let me calm down without thinking about a lot of things?"

Zahira Al Mahyra's.