The Injured Heart.

part 63's

"Maybe through this ordeal God wants to lift my degrees, and make me more patient in facing His trials. "

Zahira Al Mahyra's.

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  Nadia helps Zahira pack her things, this afternoon Zahira will leave for Malaysia with Fakhira, and also Sarah, Razi's sister.

Mamah Razi asked Sarah to accompany Zahira, as it was likely that Zahira would take days to resolve her problems.

Given the condition of Zahira who was pregnant young, let alone vomiting often, made everyone worried, but Zahira tried to convince everyone that she was okay, and there was his family.

Zahira had asked Razi's parents for permission to go to Malaysia, he was worried that if Razi came home, he would look for him, but until now Razi had no news, no chat, sms, sms, or a phone call from Razi, and all that makes Zahira very sad, he has tried to contact Razi, but the number is not active.

Every day Zahira always check her phone, and hope there is a message or phone from Razi, but until now Razi has no news. Zahira felt that she was like a wife who lived in her husband while pregnant.

"Ra, are you sure you want to go to Malaysia in your unhealthy state? " tanya Zahira looked at Zahira who was silent in her daydream.

"Rho? "

Zahira remained in her daydream, Nadia sighed softly then patted Zahira on the shoulder.

"Rho? "

Zahira was shocked and awakened from her daydream.

"Huh? "

Nadia looked at her best friend, she felt very sad to see Zahira now.

"I nanya, are you sure you want to go to Malaysia in your condition that looks less good? "

Zahira smiled and nodded slowly.

"I have to go Nad, surely there Amira was overwhelmed by hunting everything alone, especially so far she was often exhausted because of work, employees there also said Klo Mira sometimes to sleep at her desk"

"I understand Ra, but seeing you like this, I'm worried about Ra, because I can't get you"

Zahira gave a small smile looking at her best friend's face.

"I'm fine, I'm healthy! " said Zahira trying to convince Nadia.

"Ra, I've known you since I was in college, even I've lived with you for almost three years, I know and understand exactly what you're feeling right now Ra"

Zahira looked at Nadia with a small smile, and her eyes turned bright.

"I'm fine Nad, maybe not as good as people see, but at least I'm not too late in my grief"

Without them knowing, Mamah Razi and Sarah stand at the entrance of Zahira's room, both of them intend to meet Zahira but when hearing Zahira's conversation with Nadia, both do not become and just quietly listen.

"You want to not, when you returned from Surabaya malem-malem and raining? " ask Nadia smiling little.

Zahira nodded slowly.

Flowing the story from Nadia's mouth.

"You know, when I saw you crying and feeling so miserable back then, it felt like I wanted to strangle the people who made you cry, I didn't know how painful you felt back then, I didn't know how painful it was, when a man tells you that you don't deserve to be married or loved, I don't know how hurtful you felt when your family kicked you out of your house, and blamed you"

"But I know one thing Ra, at that time you looked so devastated, just as your feelings were shattered when Razi chose to leave and ignore your problems, and then you lost your grandmother, and then you lost your grandmother, and now God gives you another trial, Ra"

  No tears Nadia trickled down considering the painful times Zahira went through.

"Starting from you slumped because of your sadness that was expelled from your family, you are strongly trying to get up and start many things, starting from writing the story you experience in the story application, the, until finally your novel is published and becomes a best seller, then you really become a writer, then you reopen your cafe that almost went bankrupt, and I still remember very well how your efforts to make your cafe return rame as it is now, you always busied yourself with many things, you always busy yourself with many things, you are always busy working just to divert all the bitter memories that continue to haunt you, you even until the pain of that time"

"I still wonder how you scream, sometimes cry while you sleep, sometimes you don't sleep, because you always want your family, your father, your mother, and your two sisters, he said, but lucky you can still meet your sister every weekend"

"I want it all Ra, I remember when you couldn't sleep, and just looked at the face of the woman who turned out to be your mom, and now when I thought everything was fine, I thought you'd be happy, I thought you'd live your life quietly and happily, I thought after marriage you could find a happy ending in your life, but it turns out..."

Nadia did not continue her words and instead cried, long enough until Nadia wiped her tears.

"Now that I have seen Zahira again two years ago who was wounded, now I see again the wounded heart of Ra, that is your heart of Ra" Nadia pointed to Zahira's heart.

Zahira was silent to see Nadia who cried sobbing, so much so Nadia cared for him, to remember every detail of difficult times that Zahira passed.

Zahira looked at Nadia with teary eyes, then hugged her.

"I'm fine Nad, I'm fine, I just need time, I'm sure I'm strong Nad, I'm sure I can get through all this Nad, this time I'm not alone, I'm not alone,  you are here with me, you support me now, I am not alone Nad, I am not alone" he said.

Both of them cry while hugging, even mamah Razi and Sarah are moved to see the friendship of Nadia and Zahira, but behind all that tucked guilt on Zahira, because he again grieved after so long.

"I know you're going through the same thing Ra, and maybe this time it's a lot harder, but please don't shut yourself down, no matter what happens to me, Radit, sir, and your family will always support you, and accompany you, you are not sad continue, I am sad to see you this way"

  Zahira let go of her embrace and wiped Nadia's tears.

"I'm not sad Nad, I just think why when I was pregnant, my husband even went so away, when we had problems, at the same time I lost my grandmother, too, it's hard to go through it all alone Nad, it's hard Nad, I really find it very difficult to do this all alone, but I realize God is with me Nad, and you're all with me too" Zahira looks so fragile.

"You know that going through this pregnancy is not easy, sometimes I want something bad, and I even disturb you and Radit, sometimes I can't sleep because I feel nauseous, I can't sleep, for me it feels like all this is very heavy, especially now that my office is having problems Nad, I think after marriage, I will go through all my problems with my husband Nad, Nad, but in fact again I was alone facing it, I faced everything alone, alone again Nad" said Zahira so softly.

"I think this marriage is something that can make me feel calm, safe, there is someone who accompanies me when I have problems and also strengthens me, I don't know if this marriage actually hurt some people, even Mas Razi thought of me as a fraud, and played with his feelings, even though his feelings were that I was being played with, I was being tricked, I was being tricked, seeing his attitude I felt that Razi wanted Al Mahyra, not Zahira"

"I never intended to deceive him or play with his feelings, it was here that I was deceived, I was more disappointed, do you know how hard the days that I had to go through , even that was alone Nad" his breakup looks desperate.

Zahira looked so sad and fragile, but finally Zahira wiped her tears and clasped Nadia's hand.

"You know I've been through a lot in my life, Nad, you know when I'm down, when I'm sad, when I'm going through hard times you know, too, I don't want to talk about it all the time, I just want you to take care of my family while I'm gone, because maybe I need some time to get in trouble there"

Zahira looked at Nadia expectantly.

"You just need to take care of my family, for all work affairs you can leave aside first, the important thing is you take care of my family as long as I am in Malaysia, my family klo good, my family klo, I'll be fine as well Nad" Zahira assured Nadia.

..."Whatever happens, whether good or bad, we cannot change it, so it is better to live it and try our best to improve everything. "...

...Zahira Al Mahyra's. ...