The Injured Heart.

part 45's

"I'll never leave you, and give me a reason not to leave you. "

Fachrul Razi el kaady

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Actually every feeling that shimmered in my heart has been felt. sad, sick, happy and happy I feel, disappointed or hurt also I feel, I feel, but I never made me stop hoping that from every feeling I felt I would get good later...

Maybe God wants me to feel all kinds of feelings so I can be more grateful for what I feel,...

Losing does not mean stop being grateful, getting hurt does not mean not being healed, falling does not mean not being able to get up, sad does not mean not being happy..

Everything we will feel at the right time, everything we will feel,

if not now then one day you will feel it..

I've been at the hardest point of my life, lived by someone we trust, and stayed away from by people we love,...

When the self is unable to withstand the weight of the test, the only thing I have in my possession that strikes the heart, I can only face God..

And God is truly my strength and I am grateful for that....

Now when everything feels fine I am again grateful for having taught me to be a strong figure to this day...,

Later if one day I return to the test, may Allah strengthen me and make me someone closer to you...

  The beautiful girl nan Ayu was staring fixedly at the scene before her, it was late afternoon but the girl was still at home sitting and staring at the afternoon sky.

"Huf...  Time to visit mama" he murmured softly and then moved from his seat.

  Zahira had been in his hometown for two days, there was a warm feeling when he could visit in his homeland as well as where his mother was buried, it felt very strange as he was about to open a new page his mother could not watch.

  Zahira walked slowly carrying the flowers in her hands, stopping at a tomb that looked well preserved and clean of leaves. Zahira rubbed the tombstone that read his mother's name.

"Assalamualaikum mah, Zahira came again here, Ira was very mamah, and it felt like Zahira wanted to hug mamah so closely" he said as if the Mamah could hear.

"He has good news for you, soon your daughter will be married, will soon have a husband and build a household.Mamah knows it does not feel very strange because mamah is not next to Zahira"

Zahira's eyes began to glaze over.

"Sorry Ira yes Mah if Ira used to be very difficult mamah, but Ira sure kok mamah must always apologize Ira. do'ain Ira yes Ira wish Ira's marriage smoothly, but Ira is sure, Ira can be a good wife, a good daughter-in-law and a good mother later in shay'ah "

  Zahira was silent for a moment as she tried to hold back her crying so as not to get sobbing.

"Ira promises that Ira will invite my husband here and my grandchildren later in shayah, you know? your son-in-law's candidate is determined to come here but Ira forbid"

  Zahira told me as if his earth-bound grave could hear.

Zahira stared at her mama's tomb with teary eyes.

"Ira kangen very mamah" he said so softly sounding very sad.

Zahira rubbed the tombstone with the name of her mother and kissed her.

"Zahira said yes, Ira promised Ira would come back here again with Ira's husband" Zahira said and then sprinkled flowers into his mama's tomb, he smiled briefly before he finally left.

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  Noisy sounds rang out to make Zahira disturbed and woke up from his sleep, but he had just rested because this morning around ten he arrived at Surabaya juanda airport with his grandmother. He intends to take Amira to Indonesia with him, but Amira refuses because of her work in the office and she will follow two days before her wedding.

  Zahira was upset because once again Fakhira and Nadia argued, whatever they were arguing about but that made Zahira upset because she did not want to if until her grandmother was disturbed because of their voice.

With a lazy and disheveled hijab Zahira stepped out to reprimand Nadia and Fakhira who were so noisy.

"You can't be in them, can you?  Grandma's getting some rest and your voices can bother Grandma!" reprimanded Zahira stared intently at the two.

Both Nadia and Fakhira suddenly silenced to see the sharp gaze of Zahira.

"Ehh..... Ma'am sorry" said Fakhira looking nervous.

"Don't until I hear you guys noisy again, if I don't send you two to the office taking care of Radit and Muhammad's work let them take a day off! " threatened Zahira sounded so cold and no kidding.

  Nadia and Fakhira immediately panicked because they did not want to go to the office.

"Yes, yes, we promise not to make a fuss "

  Zahira rolled her eyes lazily looking at the look on her second face which Zahira said was very ugly.

"You guys don't have to work mending you to the mall deh rather than being noisy here and disturbing people's rest!" said Zahira then left the two who shuddered in horror because of Zahira.

  Zahira walks leisurely but not with her mouth continuing to curse Fakhira and also Nadia who is noisy and disturbing her sleep.

Zahira sat in front of his house playing his cellphone which he took from his pocket, even during the day Zahira was wearing a nightgown.

Zahira sees a message from an unfamiliar number.

+6285xxxx

Can we meet? I want to talk to you.

Andry.

  Zahira sighed heavily knowing Andri who sent the message, whether Andri got the number from where.

Soon he will get married if he leaves without telling Razi there will be problems, Zahira will meet with Razi and will ask Razi to accompany him, without thinking Zahira immediately called Razi.

"Hello? " greet Zahira.

"What's up, baby? "

"After my work is done, share Lok I will go there"

"Okay, I'll wait" Zahira said, turning off her phone and texting Razi and Andri.

Zahira immediately went to get ready and before long, he had already left using an online taxi.

   Zahira smiled her smile when she saw Razi coming out and looking so neat.

"What are you doing? Tumben asked me to nemenin you?  Usually go everywhere with those two chatty girls?" ask Razi.

  Zahira laughed softly as Razi called Fakhira and Nadia chatty.

"They're at home either debating what? But they were noisy until I couldn't sleep" he replied.

"Well, why are we here? " Razi asked again.

"Ah yes, Andri invited me to meet and wanted to talk something, because I did not want to happen misunderstanding between us, so I asked you to accompany me "

  Razi was quite grateful because Zahira began to open up to him and chose to invite himself to meet Andri, even though Zahira did not invite him he fully believed in his future wife.

"Let's go in, all of us can have lunch together. Starting tomorrow we can't see you again if you forget" Zahira reminded and then walked into the cafe.

"Huh!  Somehow there is still a tradition in pingit, later tonight I will go to your house to meet your grandmother" said Razi and sat opposite Zahira.

"When did you meet grandma? " asked Zahira staring at the astonished man before her.

"Well, acquaintance of your grandmother-in-law, I want to know your grandmother, is something wrong? "

  Zahira nodded slowly.

"Oh yeah where's Andri?  Why not come yet?  He wants to know what the hell? "

"I don't know Raz, look at it later"

  Razi nodded then ordered a drink for her and Zahira.

Until a few minutes later Andri came with a surprised face to see Zahira taking Razi with her.

"Sorry so late!" he sat in the middle of Razi and Zahira.

"Nothing "said Zahira so flat. "What do you want to talk about? " ask Zahira thu du point.

"I want to apologize for what happened two years ago, sorry I just left you and got you kicked out" he said.

  Razi and Zahira just quietly listened.

"I just followed my mom because my mom was everything to me and her happiness was everything to me" she said.

"And you forget that for the sake of your mother's happiness you hurt a lot of people.There is indeed a law that allows that for the happiness of your mother you can hurt others?  Don't you think about other people's feelings before you do? " Tanya Zahira stared flatly at Andri.

"I know I was wrong, and I'm sorry for everything that happened, I'm also sorry for my Mom's attitude" she said.

Zahira glanced at Razi who seemed to listen to Andri.

"I've forgiven you and forgotten about it anyway I don't blame you for everything that happened, maybe it's fate and you're right for yourself, but for me you're still wrong but I forgive you"

"Thank you Ra"

  Zahira nodded slowly.

"Can't we go back to what we used to be? " ask Andri so carefully.

  Razi looked at Andri so closely. What the hell is this man in front of her.

"What do you mean? " question Zahira looks dislike.

"Can't we go back to our marriage? "

  Razi was silent to Andri's words, for some reason his feelings were suddenly desperate.

"You're a man who doesn't know himself? " said Zahira so sarcastically. "I've been willing to forgive you and you still wish I'd come back to you?  You think I can still accept a man like you in my life?  Do you think because I forgive you I'll come back with you again? "

  Zahira clucked softly and looked at the man before her.

"I may forgive you, but I will never accept you in my life, and I remind you one thing, Ndri, in a lifetime what you did to me I will remember forever and yes one more. "the words of Zahira are restrained.

  Zahira takes an invitation to Razi from her bag and offers it to Andri.

"This is my wedding invitation with Razi, you come with your mother! " he shouts and throws his face away in annoyance.

  Andri looked at Zahira, Zahira was really going to get married, he really regretted having wasted it.

"Thank you, I will definitely come, if once I say goodbye, assalamualaikum" he said and left Zahira.

"Waalaikum salam" said Razi and Zahira.

  Zahira breathed a sigh of relief as her affairs were finally over, and she was able to calm down. Razi, too, was very happy that Zahira would soon be his wife.

..."Wrong for you, not necessarily wrong for others. "...

...Zahira Al - Mahyra....

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