The Cost of Trust

The Part 141

After the departure of my father and mother. I became more quiet. I rarely interact with people around me.

Only Kendra and Aunt Selly look after me.

Om Kendra asked me to stay with her. But I always refused. I chose to live in a boarding house away from the hustle and bustle of public transportation.

Every day Aunt Selly visits me. Until finally, om kendra and Aunt Selly took me to a psychiatrist.

They're trying to get me up from the ground.

I was left behind to enroll in high school because of my depression.

I'm not crazy! It's just, I can't if there's people yelling and yelling. Even if it's not shown to me.

Slowly my trauma began to heal. Om Kendra told me she wanted me to homeschool.

But I refused it. I chose to go to the jungle, without having to go to school.

Half a year later, I tried my luck getting into High School where the relationship om kendra. I took acceleration classes, and I was able to.

Two years in High School, I'm getting used to my life. I've never been 'crazy' again. Om Kendra and Aunt Selly started to let me be independent.

At the beginning of college, I met a man. His name is Revan. We are close because we are a major.

Our closeness, began to smell by om Kendra. Kendra also doesn't mind, as long as I know my limits.

The tragic and traumatic event happened before my eyes.

"Come on Ra..sorry me!", whine Revan at that time.

"Van, that's it. Why are you so sorry Rara! Let it go! You're young, we're free to vote" said his new girlfriend Revan.

"Listen to what your girlfriend Van said!", I said.

"But you're also still my girlfriend Rara!"

"No. I can't be the same unfaithful guy!", I left the campus parking lot. Turns out Revan's after me. I crossed the road without looking to the left. Suddenly Revan pushed me to the side of the road. And....

Brakk!

Revan's body crashed into the middle of the road because it was hit by a car.

"Revan........!!!?", I could only scream. At that moment, my trauma relapsed.

"I'm unwanted, they died because of me!", only that line repeatedly came out of my mouth.

Someone helped me stand up.

"Dec? Are you okay?", asked the man.

"All because of me. I was unwanted, they died because of me!", I replied without caring about the person's question.

Shaken shoulders. That guy hugged me. I don't know who the man who hugged me was.

"Dad! We go to the hospital, right?" he said.

I shook my head quickly.

Revan was taken by ambulance to the hospital. And, it turns out that person also took me to the same hospital.

Revan's girlfriend crying in the arms of her best friend, while I? I was in the arms of a man whom I did not recognize at all.

Many times your phone rings. But I don't mind him.

The man who hugged me earlier, took the initiative to lift her up. Maybe it's a call from Kendra.

I sat on the bench and bit my nails. Revan?! It's all my fault !

Not long after, kendra came to the place where I was sitting.

"Rara!", Kendra hugged me.

At the same time, the ER space is open. I didn't hear exactly what the officer said. But to be sure, Revan's girlfriend and her friends are crying hysterically. That meant... Revan....

"All because of me, I'm unwanted. They died because of me!", I always monologue.

Kendra couldn't stand to hear my voice. He held me back in his arms. I still bite my nails.

Kendra spoke to the man who brought me here.

"Thank you...?!" said kendra.

"Rifay Om!"

"Om together."

Since that introduction, Kendra and Fai often meet. Fai was determined to cure me of my trauma.

Fai's age is five years above mine. He became a grown man to me.

Sometimes a friend, a brother and sometimes a father figure.

From there, I trusted Mas Fa'i. I've been pouring all my problems out. Tell him all the complaints and anything.

Even Kendra seems to like Mas Fa'i. Ever since I became friends and was close to Fai mas, I felt like I was coming back to life. I have the passion to continue living my days.

For about a year, we were close without any status frills. We're just close. Just close.

Until one day, while he was helping me with my college assignment, he expressed his feelings for me.

"In..!", call Fai.

"Yes. Why mas?", I asked while continuing to press the keyboard on my laptop.

"People love you!" said Fai.

Without looking at him, I smiled too.

"Yes. I know you love me just as much as I do. I love you too. Thank you, always help me with my college assignments and. nemenin I went to a psychiatrist until I got well!"

Rifai seemed to catch his breath. His hand is now on my shoulder. Forcing me to look at him.

And..cup!

Our faces clashed together, even our lips fused together. It made me slightly resign my body. But Fai held him back.

"I love you Diandra!", he said before my lips. I can even feel his breath.

My blood suddenly rippled. What is this feeling?

"I love you!", Fai kissed my lips. I can only open my eyes. This is the first time I know how it feels to kiss.

I was closed, feeling a warm sensation in my mouth for a while until I finally realized then pushed the burly body of the man in front of me.

"Mas..!", I said slowly.

"Sorry!", Mas Fai rubbed my wet lips because of his actions.

I too was embarrassed.

"Di, I love you. Love is with you!", he whispered again.

"I am.I love you too!", I said slowly.

Mas Fai suddenly hugged me tightly. There was a sense of comfort when I was in this man's arms.

After that day, we went through the days as usual. Om Kendra and Aunt Selly also support us.They feel, if Fai is able to take care of me.

One night....

"Rara, you're all grown up. Om will give up your rights as soon as possible."

"No, Rara doesn't want to."

"But it's yours!"

"Make om only. Who raised Dad's company!"

"Om take enough of Om's right."

"But om...!"

"Om thinking, Rifai is the right guy for you Rara!" said Selly.

"But we haven't thought about that direction!"

"Well, after you get married."

"no Om!", I said firmly.

"Then, after om is not around, inevitably you have to accept her Diandra!", Om kendra also left my room.

I thought about a lot of things. I don't want their legacy. I don't deserve it. I'm not the kid they want!