The Cost of Trust

The Part 112

"Let go!", I slammed his hand that was gripping my wrist.

"Dian, please tell me that you have no feelings for me."

"Yes mas Rifai, I don't have any feelings for you. I've blown my feelings on you."

"Lied!"

"Well, if you don't believe."

I tried to go back outside her room.

"You remember our memories, you remember our valuables. I can't believe that you can just as easily forget me."

"Why can't you? I have a future. Got Aziz and Diaz. They're my future, my happiness."

"And I'm just your past?"

"Yes. We only have a past. And.mika is your future. Mika will make you happy like Aziz has made me happy."

"You don't have the slightest sad feeling with my engagement plan and mika?"

"Why sad? I am happy mas. At least, you stopped nosy at my husband."

Mas Fai smiled forcedly.

"You still leave that taste in!"

"Sisa? Alright.Okay.There's still leftovers. Everywhere the name of the rest is a little, right? But unfortunately, all are no longer left mas. Missing. Since you decided unilaterally on that day. On the day we both should have passed. You didn't show your nose though. You're the one who's been a loser. You're the one I trusted to keep everything but you're the one who destroyed everything. Since then, my feelings have died for you."

I've been venting my emotions that I've been craving for years. He's the one who's been fishing for her. Why is this so? The intention is not I just want to help Abah persuade Fai, why even become nostalgic like this? Diane...Dian.wrong. You're wrong!

"Sorry Di!", that's all Fai can say.

"Forget it, we're out. We're leaving soon, right? Just prepare your mentality!"

"Dian, I still love you. Until whenever. Maybe, someday I'll love Mika. But, my feelings for you can never change."

"I've often said, don't talk to me about love anymore. I'm somebody's wife, your best friend's wife!"

"i'll keep this love."

"Bodo is very. Reverse down ah!"

"All right I'm down, but....!"

"But what else?"

"Stay be my old Dian. I don't want any tears on your face. Aziz's betrayal back then, I hope to be the last painful thing in your life."

"You don't know anything about it!"

"I don't know everything, but I know what your feelings and your heartache are like."

I stared intently at her eyes that felt very familiar with my feelings.

"Yes. I'm used to heartache. Come down, if not..."

"If it's okay?"

"I'm going home, don't expect you to set foot in my house."

"It has to be you here, Dian. This should be your house with me."

"Enough mas! Enough is enough. If you don't want to come down with me, whatever. Aziz and I are going home!"

I also left his room. The unfaithful discussion that had happened earlier, should never have existed. I went down the stairs myself. Bodo is very, he wants to go down or not. I don't wanna care. But as it turned out, Fai followed behind me.

Ah, not in vain that unimportant chat was in his room .

"Alhamdulillah, you have come down at last. We're getting ready, right? The bus is ready!", said Abah happily. Fai just followed his brother.

I let the others in first. Aziz and I remained silent.

"Dek, why? what's going on inside?"

"It's okay."

Aziz grabbed my shoulder. Mama got Diaz on the bus first.

"You managed to persuade him. Someone must have made it according to you deck. If you can figure out, what's a deck?"

"I'm just threatening you!"

Mas Aziz furrowed his brows.

"Threatening?"

"Yes. If he doesn't want to come down, me and you go home. And I forbid her to just come to our house."

"That's all?"

"Yes. You don't believe me?"

"Don't you believe it, but Fai just sort of took it?"

"Well, our house is already rich second house for him."

Mas Aziz rubbed my head.

"We get on the bus!", his hand held my friendly hand. Mas Fai and his two parents were sitting behind the driver and I was sitting in the seat a bit back.

I don't know why it's like I see Fai's eyes watching me as I go through them.

Dian, I know how you feel, baby. You're just trying to cover it up. Three years with him must be different from me who has been with you for almost six years. I know you love me, give your future to me. But , Fai is your first love Di. I try to make you happy in my own way.

"Why are you?", I asked. Mas Aziz grabbed my shoulder, making me lean on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry..!", she whispered softly. I think I'm the only one who hears it.

"For?"

"I often make you cry, often hurt you, can't make you happy."

"Mas...why are you so whiny?", I pinched her stomach. But my hand was still on her stomach, she held it tightly.

"Stay with me Deck."

"Yes, where would I go if it wasn't you."

Mas Aziz smiled. Even though I didn't see his face but I felt his jaw moving.

"I'm sorry, when I proposed to you, I didn't have a special event, let alone one like this!"

I also confirmed my sitting position.

"Am I asking for it?"

"You didn't ask for the deck. But.even a wedding alone without any party. I can give it to you."

"I want our wedding without a party. The important thing is that we are legal in the eyes of religion, in the eyes of law and the state."

At that time, mama Farah had not been able to accept me fully. I'm just an orphan. Plus because I was with Fai before Aziz and I decided to get married. Much was mama Farah considering about me. But I am grateful, now my mother has really changed. Loving me like my own child.

"Here you go, don't talk rich like this. Now we're also happy, right without having a festive party?"

"Yes. Mas happy. I'm lucky to have you."

I was so honored by her compliments. For a moment I forgot, that my Aziz mas never accidentally hurt me.

The bus was traveling at speed towards the residence of Mika's parents.