THE ANGEL I HURT

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I decided to stay in this city so I could keep Chaira and my son in the hospital. My job business left it to my confidant.

They are sorry for the disaster I experienced.

Levi and Rayya have realized they can be moved to the hospital room. I was quite relieved when the doctor delivered the news. Even Levi who was the lightest of his injuries had started to be healthy and normal.

All I need to do is heal her trauma from the accident. He still often delirious and screamed at night in between his sleep.

Rayya also showed signs of rapid recovery. His broken bones were able to recover quickly because he was a child. Unlike the bones of adults who take longer to recover.

I deliberately asked the hospital to allow them to be treated in the same room so that I could always monitor their situation.

"Thank you doc, then what about her mom?" my many.

The doctor breathed.

"Sorry sir, the patient has not shown any change to date and is still in critical condition. We just pray that the patient is strong and there is a miracle from God for him" the doctor patted me on the shoulder.

I nodded and thanked him again. My heart is about hearing the doctor's description of Chaira.

"Dad, Levi wants to meet abi's mother. The same grandmother the Princess was also the father, "Levi whined to me.

I really don't know what to tell him. A moment later I was silent thinking of an answer.

"Dad,, Aya angen abi, where's daddy? Aya wants to be accompanied by mother bobo" Rayya's voice resuscitated me.

"Levi,, Rayya,, you're still sick, son, you still can't wake up. you pray yes for the mother so that the mother can wake up immediately and recover continue to play again the same we yes son" said I while holding back my tears.

I don't want to cry in front of them. I don't want to look fragile in front of them.

"Telusss,, where's father?" Rayya asked her brother again.

"Abi is now in God's house dear, Abi, oma,, Princess, they're all in God's house with Levi's grandparents too, they're waiting for us there baby" I am very careful to say this.

"Makanya Levi and Rayya must be a sholeh and sholeha child, dear, so that they can pray for abi and all." I continued.

"Yes dad, but later if Aya has been to school like Levi's sister,, can abi antal Aya not father?" Little Rayya is very innocent.

I caress his head. I kiss her cheeks and forehead.

"Later the father who will take Rayya with the school sister Levi. Dad will always pick you up and pick you up. Rayya want to be unaccompanied by dad?" I asked to hold back my crying.

"You want mauuu, father, take care of kak kak Levi kak also yaa" Rayya cheerful.

I breathed a sigh of relief because he no longer asked for his ashes. Even two weeks later they were both allowed to go home by the doctor once in a while Rayya asked where her ashes were.

Rayya is very close to Ray. She slept with Ray almost every night. I'm not surprised because Ray is his real father. So the inner bond between the two is strongly intertwined.

I, who could not stay in the city for long because I had to return to Jakarta, asked the doctor to make a referral to move Chaira to a hospital in Jakarta.

I chose the best hospital for her. As long as he's in a coma I'm the one who takes care of Rayya and Levi's needs.

This single daddy turned out to be able to replace the position of the bundle for a while.

I visit him almost every day to the hospital. I asked him to talk and kept talking about the kids. People say if there's a comma we talk to they can hear it.

Every day I wipe his face, hands and body. I took care of her with all my heart that still loves her. Sometimes I also bring Rayya and Levi when visiting him.

I just let Rayya continue to babble in front of her mother who still closed her eyes tight. I still cry every time I see them like that.

Until finally,, the,,,

That afternoon,,,,, that,,,,

"Sir, there's something we want to tell you about Chaira's mother" said the doctor who asked me to meet in her room.

"What's the doc?" I tried to guess what the moody-faced doctor would say.

"I called you to come to ask for your opinion and decision whether you still want to continue waiting or ask us to remove all medical aids. I know you are not unable to finance all the costs of care bu Chaira, but I need to explain that the vital signs are very weak sir, the medical aid is just stalling time. Not cure it" doctors stressed.

I'm speechless. I can't answer.

"Alright sir, you don't have to answer right now. You think it's good" said the doctor.

"Thank you doc" I said it and immediately left the room.

I walked over to Chaira's treatment room. I took a chair and sat down on the edge of his bed. I looked at my little face that looked so thin.

"You're beautiful baby" I stroked her cheek

I don't care about those thin cheeks, I don't care about those pale lips, I don't care about the hands and bodies that are getting more and more printed, obviously, the bone-streaks,,, I don't care,,, I don't care about the long hair that's falling out more and more,,, I, uh,,,

To me you're still pretty my side,,,,, you,,,

I held that skinny hand, and it looked as if his nails were paled.

Wake up, baby, don't you want to see Levi and Rayya, they miss you so much, man,,

Wake up, baby, tell me what to do, tell me what you want, I really don't know what to do, baby,,,

So great was my desire to see you alive and rising,, laughing at the funny look of our son,, crying out of their waywardness, then laughing again as they asked us to marry them immediately,,,,, and,,,

Come on baby wake up,,,

Don't be like this,,, no,,,

I cried as I kissed her cold hands.

I can afford and willingly pay whatever you want to wake up,,,

I'm powerless to agree to the doctor's advice to remove all the medical devices that are attached to your body,,,

It was so against my heart,,

I sobbed there for a long time. I kissed her hands many times and then cried again.

"Stop him bro, look at his weakened self, see, Do not torment him any more, and let him go after the priest whom he has chosen, who has already waited for him in His Heaven, and,,, Don't you block the road anymore,,,

No matter how much you want to see her alive, you also have to know how much she wants to follow her husband,,, Relay bro,,, let go, take her, love her,, Let her follow her love" Dion held both of my shoulders.

I was getting sobbing hearing his words. My chest feels more and more cramped.

My idol,,,,, is,,,

Is that how you want to choose to accompany your chosen priest??

Until you don't try to get up and open your eyes,,,

Is there an opportunity for me to make amends for all my mistakes?

I can accept you even if you can't step anymore, then,,,

I'd be your leg,,,,, I,,,

My idol,,,,, is,,,

tell me what I should do,,, you know,,,

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