THE ANGEL I HURT
B.Y.K.S Part 92
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Some of Chaira's favorite rose stems are placed Darren on top of the navel bearing Chaira's name. Darren rubbed the tomb.
"Assalamualaikum bidadiku,," she said with a smile that was indistinguishable whether it was a happy smile or sadness.
Darren was silent for a moment and was stuck staring at the name in the tomb.
"Until this moment I still want to replace your position at that time, baby, just let my body feel all the wounds and pains you suffer. Even if it's the life I have to give up I'm willing," he said.
A moment later his eyes were round hearing his own words. Such great regret still often makes him feel that what Chaira experienced first was something unfair.
It wasn't Chaira who should have had an accident,,,
It wasn't Chaira who was supposed to die,,,
It should be him,,,
He is full of sin,, and,,,
It's not Chaira who's that angel, it's,,
"Astaghfirullah, it is inappropriate to blame the fate of my Lord. The Most Merciful love you so much more that you are taken away from me dear, so that you no longer need to feel pain or pain due to my actions,,," Darren sighed heavily.
"God didn't want to see me yet, who wasn't quite aware of my mistake, yet, God still wanted to give me time to correct myself. And I'm so grateful that God has so well presented two of our little angels who accompany me dear, dear," Darren recalled well the faces of Levi and little Rayya.
He rubbed his face violently so that the tears that had filled his eyelids did not fall. Sow flowers that have been separated from the stalk and petal to the tomb Chaira.
Darren turned his body and smiled looking at the navel that was right on the left of the Chaira Pusara.
He also sown flowers on top of the navel. He also rubbed his tombstone.
"Assalamualaikum Ray, I came to fulfill my promise to myself. You're still not bored, are you seeing me coming?? The umpteenth time I visited your last home and I still bring greater love again and again to our angel. I hope you're not jealous of Ray," Darren smiled to himself.
Once a week to visit this tomb Darren always speaks the same thing when in front of Ray's tomb.
"You took care of him better than I did Ray, even he chose to catch up with you rather than survive with us here. I envy you, Ray, you know that, right?? But what my day is, your love is greater than my love." Darren again sighed expelling the tightness that lurked in his chest.
"Now all I can do is love and take good care of our daughter's son. May you forgive me for betraying you. You know Ray, too, my love for Chaira never goes out even when she's with you. I'm sorry, Ray," Darren rubbed the gravestone with Ray's name.
Darren shifted to the small tomb beside Ray's grave.
"Assalamualaikum daddy's little daughter,, Princess happy there yes want same mother,, same abi, same mother. Forgive me for not having the time to show you how much you love your daughter. I was too stupid to dump your mama," Darren lamented again and again what he had done.
The shadow of the Princess' cute and cute face is clearly emblazoned on the small tomb.
Until the end of Febby's life, Darren still did not believe that the child he was born with was his biological child. His own flesh. But all of that was done because of Febby's attitude that often made him lose faith in the woman.
Chaira accepts and takes care of the baby Princess, Dan, and,,,
"Ahhh,," Darren really felt a huge tightness in his chest.
"Why, dear, why is your heart so airy that even your honey child takes care of it with your own hands,,,,??? Why are you so good, baby,,,???" Darren hit his own chest hoping to reduce the tightness he felt.
Darren's crying,,,
Sobbing in front of that little tomb,,,
Full of guilt when remembering himself firmly rejects the child,,,
Shameful as Chaira with open arms accepted it,,,
"Stupid you are Darren, Outrageous you are Darren, where your heart is then," Darren cursed himself.
After being content to cry over everything, Darren raised his face that had been hidden behind his two bent legs. His tears were wiped out and he heaved a heavy sigh.
Darren tried to stand with his knees feeling limp after a long time of crouching and crying. Darren heads to another tomb next to the princess's tomb.
"Assalamualaikum aunt," he said after finishing sprinkling flowers.
"Thank you for loving my little girl and daughter so much. Thank you for accepting them. May my aunt be happy and calm there. Meet my aunt's heart there. Say hello to someone who even though he has never known me, but I'm sure he's also a good person as good as Ray." this time Darren smiled in front of the grave of his mother Ray who was also a victim in the fatal accident.
Darren stood up again and took a position right in the middle of the tomb. He closed his eyes and offered the best prayer for Chaira and all the other inhabitants of the tomb.
His eyes opened and pounded on the empty land right next to Chaira's tomb. The land he had paid for would later become his last home.
"I was just waiting for that time my bidadar,, the time when I had no power over my body anymore" he said in his heart.
Not hoping to die quickly but Darren is well aware that there is a Creator who has full rights to his life. Which will at any time take his.
"Darling, why don't we go there??" Tiara asked Levi while pointing at Darren.
"Dad always asks for time to be alone every time he comes, baby, and I appreciate that. Ayya and I will always wait for Dad to finish his inner war and call us there" Levi said with a smile.
"Oo so apparently," said Tiara as a mangosteen.
Although once a week Darren and his children to the tomb Chaira but Tiara was only this time had the opportunity to visit the tomb Chaira since marrying Levi.
Before before, it was always bumped by the schedule of his lectures or his party hours. But now that Tiara's pregnancy is no longer taking her job it's because Levi forbade her.
"Let's go, baby," Levi asked as Darren waved at them.
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