THE ANGEL I HURT

No Dare!!!

The door to Chaira's house is open. I'm happy because I think he did welcome me. I saw he was sitting on his porch chair and looked busy with his laptop.

I purposely tiptoed a little so he wouldn't hear my footsteps. I came with my hands hidden backwards. I don't want Chaira to see what I brought her.

"Assalamualaikum bidadiku" I said as I handed over the flower arrangements I brought.

Chaira who was shocked immediately closed the laptop that was being held.

"Waalaikumsalam Dare, sit down" he replied.

"You don't want to take flowers from me?" my many.

"Oh sorry, thank you" he said and accepted my bouquet.

I sat right facing him.

"Where is Chai's son, then,,? much

" They're inside the same madam. Do you want to see them first?"ask Chai.

"Yes, if you will" I said.

"Why talk like that?? You're the father, you can meet them anytime Dare,, for a moment, yes, I'll call them." Chaira immediately got up and went inside.

A moment later she returned with the Princess in her arms and Levi was taken with her.

"Hello son of a father, isn't he, naughty? Can't be naughty yes same mother, pity mom tired later. Here let the father who carried the Princess" I unhesitatingly called her mother in front of our son's son.

I saw him not showing any expression of objection or objection when I called him that.

Chaira let the three of us play in the park and she resumed her work. He seems busy to himself. But that's not how this should have happened.

We should accompany the children to play.

" Motheraaa, here, playing with us" I finally called him to join us.

Again, he did not refuse. He even played with us. Our little family feels full and happy.

"Lord, don't separate us anymore" I said a prayer.

Feeling quite play Chaira reminds me that children need rest. I'm following him and want to help him bring the kids in.

"Sorry Dare, get here. Let me bring them myself." she refused gently as I was about to enter her house.

"Why Chai?" much

"I just don't want any slander" he said briefly and rushed in.

I just according. I sat back in my chair waiting for him. He returned after putting the Princess who was already full with her milk to sleep.

"Chai, I have something else for you" I said as soon as he sat down in front of me.

Without waiting for an answer I immediately took out a small box containing the ring I had bought for her earlier. I opened the box and showed her the ring.

"I know you don't like receiving rings when we're not officially married, but I just want you to take them and keep them first. You can wear it after we reunite" I said

"Thank you in advance but sorry Dare, I already have this" Chaira said as she lifted and pointed at her fingers still wearing Ray's ring.

"What does that mean? She turned down my ring and chose to wear Ray's?" my mind started to fret

"Dare, I invited you to come because I wanted to give you an answer to your request the other day" he said

I started to wait for his words to come back.

"I'm sorry, I can't grant your referral request. Ray has asked me for Dare, and I have consciously, without coercion, received his proposal. I hope you understand" Chaira said.

"Are you sure Chai? You should be thinking about children, not thinking about who asked you first. If I wanted to I could've come that night ahead of him.

Chai, I chose the ring for her. I can pay the price of the ring if you like it and don't want to return it.

You should also know that children need Chai's father, his father is me. Try to think again"

I'm starting to feel like I don't accept starting to talk a lot.

Chaira sighed.

"You haven't changed Dare, either," he said.

"Whatchu mean? I've changed, baby, I really want to change even better, I want you to watch all my changes in the future" I said

"You're still selfish, Dare, you never think about other people's feelings. You always impose your will.

If you think that I don't want to cancel our wedding just because I love this diamond ring, then I don't need your money to pay Ray some money,,,,,, uh,,,

I can still afford it myself.

And if you bring up that you were the one who helped her choose this ring then I thank you very much because you still remember and know what my favorite is...

You don't have to worry about them lacking a father's affection or maybe they'll miss a father figure. Are you not still alive as his father?

You can come and take them to play, study with them or do whatever they like. I'm not going to ban you, my door is open to you.

You can even call me mother in front of them because I always used them to call me that.,,,

They also have Ray's abi,,,, uh,,,

So if you're worried they're lacking in paternal affection then you're mistaken Dare."

Chaira stopped talking for a moment.

"Your money can't make me happy, Dare, even the money you send every month is not a dime I use. You can take it back if you want" he continued

I bowed listlessly.

"Am I no better than Ray?" much

"I have no right to judge who is one of the best among you. You two are just as perfect creation. I who are despicable and small before HIM do not deserve to judge one of HIS creations" replied Chaira

"Do you love her?" ask me again

"Yes Dare, I love him so much" he replied firmly

"Exceed your love for me?" I asked back

"I love you more than I love my Lord" he replied

"If you love your God why don't you take me back? Don't you know that your God doesn't like divorce? And when I want us to reunite, shouldn't you accept that your god isn't angry?" I started to corner him.

"Dare, it is contemptible for a wife to resist her sholeh husband, a husband who works hard to provide for himself and to provide for his children, who have taught religion to his family, moreover, it would be very despicable if a wife against a husband who is able to provide a living born and his mind.

But when you silenced me, being rude to me, spitting out the divorce sentence easily, driving me out and even more trusting in another woman who slandered me on charges of causing the death of my mother,,,, that is,,,

would it be too much if I was afraid to be with you again?

No Dare!!!! Not anymore,,,,, no,,,,

I can't take it anymore. I'm just a normal human being. You have crossed the limit of my patience that I have made a shield in defending our household.

I don't want you to disobey me anymore just because you know that I have more patience and sincerity. I don't want you to take my patience and sincerity as my folly."

That long Chaira sentence slapped me hard in the face.

I was stunned to be unable to say any more words.

So deep was the trauma of the pain I incised in him that I did not even know where to start healing him.

So many wounds left for him that he who was so patient could no longer accept them.

"O Lord, how badly have I hurt her, Is there any remnant of YOUR forgiveness for me??" I cry in my heart.

"I love you Chaira, still love you so much. I want to make amends for all my mistakes to you" I said

"If you really still love me, then manifest that love in a way that loves your Lord more, because only with your love for HIM, HE will guide you to become a better person" he said

"You don't have to apologize to me anymore because I've forgiven you. All you have to do is beg your Lord for forgiveness for hurting one of HIS creations" he continued.

"If you really want to make amends for me, then promise me, you will be a good father to our children" he concluded

I can't answer that anymore. His harsh words were very tearing down my soul.

Chaira's right,,,

This sinner is unworthy of him,,, this,,,

"If you have nothing to say, you better go home. It's not good to linger long in my house if it's not a child's business. I hope you can understand and accept my decision" Chaira got up from her seat.

I put my feet up and headed to my car. Until there I saw Chaira had closed the door of her house just as she had closed the door of her heart to me too.

I sniffled in my car,,,

Oh my god, that's,,

It felt like he was being driven away by it,,

A subtle sentence of expulsion is able to tear my heart,,,

Unimaginable how broken his heart was when I used to drive him out violently,,,

Lord, forgive me

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