THE ANGEL I HURT

Grievous

"The mother's content is taken care of, yes, do not forget to take the vitamins I gave" the doctor said.

"Thank you doc, my husband would be so fierce to her if she forgot to take his vitamins" Ray teased Chaira in front of the doctor.

Chaira pinched his arm in agitation. Mama also hit her shoulder in order to maintain the attitude in front of the doctor.

"I believe in the father that the father will take care of both the wife and the prospective father. For that I also want to advise that the father and mother can hold themselves first during the first trimester yes, can relate but not too often and for long. Afraid of interfering with the development of the fetus sir,,, mother, because the mother is still too young and vulnerable" the doctor again advised.

This time Chaira couldn't bear to hold back her laughter seeing Ray's expression that seemed unacceptable if she had to reduce her night schedule with Chaira.

That afternoon they stopped by a restaurant that became a favorite of Mama Ray. They wanted to celebrate this happy day.

"Mama hope the granddaughter of the mother but whatever God gives you receives. What is clear is that the granddaughter and beautiful daughter-in-law of this mother are all healthy" said the mother while holding the fingers of Chaira.

"Yes ma,, pray for a healthy and uninterrupted Chaira pregnancy" Chaira clasped her hand back.

"Where's ma?? Ray's great, right, instantly so loh" he joked Ray.

Chaira hits Ray's arm. Her mother was also worried about her son's question.

"Raayyy, I'm ashamed!!!" skink.

Ray laughed and was always content to tease his wife. They immediately finished their meal and rushed home .

"Remember well the doctor's message earlier yes dear. Mama did not want to happen what to this granddaughter of mama" said the mother when they arrived home.

"Especially you are Ray, don't make it!!!! Remember the doctor's message!!!" My mother warned Ray.

Ray's face again showed a sense of inadmissibility.

"That doctor doesn't know what if I'm still looking for it" he said.

"Go Ray!!" sahut mama who had heard Ray's words before he went to his room.

Chaira pinches Ray's waistband.

"I'm ashamed to know you're like that." protested Chaira.

"Let it go, it's true that I said it's baby" Ray still defended himself.

Chaira smiled hearing her husband's spoiled rindai. She hugged Ray's waist and placed her cheek on her husband's chest.

"I love you dear" said Chaira.

Ray returned the warm embrace.

"I love you too dear" he said as he kissed his beloved wife's head.

I paused my intention when I went inside. Seeing the affection of a happy couple made my heart scream.

I came to escort Levi to his mother but again God punished me because I had to see the friendly scene.

"Eeehhmmm,, Assalamualaikum" I said a greeting and it made them startle and immediately let go of his embrace.

"Waalaikumsalam" they answered in unison.

"Did Levi have Dare's lunch?" chaira asked who immediately hugged Levi who was running small towards her.

"Already Chai, even he had eaten a lot. I bribed him" I said.

"Thank you Dare" said Chaira.

"You want to go Ray?" tanyaku is stale.

"Oh yeah, I have to go to the office. Do you still have to be with me? Ask Ray.

" No Ray, I'm just dropping off Levi. I also have to go back to the office immediately. Oh yeah thank you for letting me take Levi. I'll be back on Saturday" I said.

"The door of our house is open to you, Dare" Ray said.

Before saying goodbye I took the time to see and kiss the Princess who was sound asleep in her room. Ray himself took me to the Princess's room.

I served Ray on his farewell. I looked at Chaira who cupped her hands together in front of her chest and nodded politely at me to replace the handshake.

For a moment I was stunned and remembered the first time I met him. He did exactly this kind of thing. If my heart used to feel like jumping over to see it that way, this time my heart ached.

You feel further away from me, baby,, you,,,,

"Let's Dare" Ray, who didn't want me to linger, looked at his wife and took me away.

I immediately nodded following his steps out of the house. I got in the car. From there I felt slashed back to see Chaira kissing Ray's palm and back. Ray then kissed his wife's forehead and head and rubbed it.

Oh my god,,, that's,,,

I hope You blinded my eyes so I wouldn't see any of that, you know,,,

This sick god,,,,, the,,,

Seeing them kiss each other just once I was already very hurt, then how was the pain felt by my old nose that was unable to prevent me when I slept with Rosa every night???

I drove my car right out of the house. I couldn't bear to see another friendly scene.

Along the way I hit my claustrophobic chest many times. I wish the sense of her wheezing could disappear but the more I hit her the more claustrophobic it whack.

I stopped my car on the side of the road when I felt I couldn't anymore. I bowed my face at the wheel of the car. I wept.

God,,

it's a pain in return from you, I don't feel capable anymore.

I was satisfied crying there. I stopped my crying as my phone rang. Hana called. I didn't answer and just glanced at my watch.

I will soon have a meeting with a few clients. Hana would have reminded me. If you follow my wounded heart, it feels like I just keep crying.

But considering that I have Levi and the Princess who also need my affection and material sufficiency, I wipe my tears.

I had to be strong for them, I turned on my car and drove back across the street.

You will be strong, baby!!!!

No matter how grievous God's reply to you, you will try to be patient and accept it. I deserve it, son,, I, I,,,

Later if you are an adult, when you already understand what happened, I just beg you not to hate me, Dad,,

To my son Levi,,,,,, to,,,

Don't hate me because it was you who hurt me, Mother,,,

And to my daughter,,,, the,,,

Forgive me for doubting you, son,,,

For my two children, I promised you I'd change. Dad has failed to be a good husband for mom but I will try to be the best father for you.

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Arriving at Hana's office who immediately prepared all the materials I needed during the meeting later. He was very helpful and very helpful to me.

We both headed to the meeting room where we were waiting for our client. Leading the meeting to completion and reaching a good deal even though my heart is being very unkind is my plus.

I'm trying hard to re-invigorate this papa legacy. I don't want you to be disappointed in me.

I visited the graves of my mom and dad that afternoon,,,

"Papa, mama, Dare, come." I whispered as I rubbed their adjoining belly button.

"I'm sorry Dare has disappointed you so much. Dare has failed, Dare failed to become the company leader, Dare also failed to be the family leader,,,,," I began to sob considering how happy papa and mama used to be when I introduced Chaira to them.

"Dare promise,, Dare will change. Dare penance." I promised in front of their belly button.

I plan to take Levi to visit papa mama's grave on Saturday. I want Levi to know his grandparents too. The princess is still too small for me to take to the tomb so I will wait for her to be a bit big first.

I called Ray and told him my plan.

"Yes Dare, I can, you can take him. I'm gonna try to ask Chaira if she wants to go see your papa's mama's grave, too" Ray said.

"Thank you Ray" I closed.

I glanced at the clock in my room. It's in isya time. I hurried to get water and pray. I keep trying to keep my prayers from ever breaking.

Although I am busy working but I do not want to miss my worship as well. Currently many services and getting closer to HIM is the only way so that I can be more patient in accepting everything that happens.

I hope this will lessen the pain God has given me. But I am willing if indeed God's reply is still more painful because what I did to my bidadar used to make it more painful.

My bidad,,

How many times have I apologized to you never lessened my regret.

I'm sorry my bidadar,,,,, I,,,,

Forgive me all my fault,,,,, I,,,,

I'm sorry I still love you, though, and,,,

I'm sorry I still put your name in my prayer,,,

I'm sorry I still wish the miracle of God could bring you back to me,, you know,,,

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