THE ANGEL I HURT

Another match

I drove my car to Kyai sir's house. I want him to give his advice to calm my turbulent soul again.

It hurt my heart to see Chaira's happiness when Ray kissed her forehead when I got out of their fence.

"I should only be the guy you touched, baby, it should be just me!!!" my heart screamed.

As an ordinary human being I am still haunted by a liver disease that is still far from sincere. How much I separated them.

I turned off my car when I got to Pak Kyai's yard. Looks like Mr. Kyai came out and greeted me. Only mr. kyai. Mum and Hana are invisible.

I said my greetings and kissed her hand at once.

"How are you doing, son? I want to thank you for letting Hana work in your office. Please teach him and just rebuke him if he makes a mistake" said Mr. Kyai.

" Hana's a smart woman, sir, she's quick to master new things. And I'm glad he could join my company and help me move it forward."I only answered her words about Hana.

"What's up, son? you don't look good" Kyai guessed correctly.

I'm bowed. My tears are starting to melt. Kyai patted my shoulder.

"Seekly, son, you must be patient and accept all of this with sincerity. You are still more fortunate, however, because God allows you to feel the pain of reward in this world. Can you imagine if God had called you when you hadn't realized your mistake in the world. Worry in the world is not how bad" Pak Kyai began to give his advice.

I was sobbing in the light of my sin against Chaira, remembering my treatment of her. Mr. Kyai kept patting my shoulder trying to calm me down.

"Trust me son, a soul mate is a secret of God. No man can know who he is fighting with. God is turning back the heart of man, son. Maybe now you are crying but who knows tomorrow you will laugh or vice versa" he continued.

"Thickness of your faith, a lot of worship, pray, ask for everything only to HIM, but do not forget, trust also son. Whatever happens is part of God's good record. He knows all about son.

Right now he's separating you from your wife because he wants good things to happen to your wife. He wants the woman to taste happiness by finding her new partner.

But never misunderstand HIM by thinking that HE does not care about your wounded heart. HE loves you, son, therefore, you are separated from him so that you may be aware of your faults.

So that you start fixing your mistakes and no longer do it. HE doesn't want you to keep making mistakes.

Now that I see you sobbing crying over all your mistakes, I'm witnessing your efforts to change. If one day you can take it all away, you become a better person again, that's where you'll understand how much HE loves you, son."

The words of the long Kyai sir really calm my heart. I thanked him and also thanked the god who met him.

"Maybe at this time God has prepared another soul mate to replace him son,, believe me, God loves you" he said again.

I smiled even though my heart disagreed with her words. I don't want anyone else to replace my bidadar. Only she will be queen in my heart.

Hana wiped her tears when she saw that I had calmed down somewhat. I didn't realize it was there from then on. When I looked, he smiled at me. I returned his smile.

He came in when she called him.

"Don't expect more of her Han, did you not realize she came to our house not to see you but only to see you. You also heard yourself how much he still loves his ex-wife" mother recalled.

"Hana will help him forget his wife ma'am. He just needs a tranquilizer." said Hana

"Don't kid, I don't want you to be disappointed." I forbid you.

Hana did not reply and immediately brought a tray containing drinks that mother made for me and Pak Kyai. Mother shook her head looking at the wayward Hana was.

"Please drink it" Hana called me sir.

"why did you call me sir again?" my many.

"because I don't recognize you at all, sometimes you're so strong and cold but this time you're so weak. Who exactly are you?" Hana lightly said it and went straight back in.

"Hana Husssttt!!!" mr. kyai warned him.

"It's okay sir, what he said is true" I said.

Mr. Kyai who felt bad about Hana's attitude apologized to me.

"May I ask him to accompany me to dinner outside sir?" I asked Mr. Kyai for permission.

"May son but don't come home too late" he said.

He immediately got up and went inside to call Hana. I don't know what message she and her mother sent to Hana. I can't hear it.

"Let's crybaby, we're leaving!!!" bring him who is ready.

"I can do it myself. You just take care of your own car door. Don't forget to wipe away the rest of your tears before taking me away. I don't want your eyes to blur while driving" Hana said lightly.

He went straight in and sat in the car.His words again could make me smile. I immediately did what he asked. I wiped the rest of my tears.

I got in the car and started driving my car to a restaurant not too far from his house.

We ordered enough of the menu and started eating when the dish was served.

"Did you not want to remarry Dare?" tanyanya relax.

I almost choked on it. He laughed at me who was in a hurry to drink.

"Did you have no other questions?" my murmur.

"I just want you to know and remember that in this world there are still many women who are suitable for you. Why do you have to be sad for someone who doesn't want you?" heed

"Another woman? who for example??" I answered the question with a question too.

"I might," he replied indifferently as he continued his chewing.

I'm speechless. I looked at him sharply. Despite wearing the hijab, she still acts like a tomboyish woman like the first time I met her at home.

Again, I could not find anything interesting about his appearance. His face was far less than Chaira's. His attitude was also far from soft.

It is very much compared to Chaira.

I can't tell if he's my type or not. Because I never had a type. When I was with Chaira I was just blown away and just fell in love without much consideration.

"What are you thinking? Are you comparing me to Miss Chaira?" tanyanya.

I stammered hearing it.

"How does he know I'm comparing him to Chaira" my inner self.

"Look at you, you are with me and you are still thinking of him. I'm less beautiful than her, less Muslim than her, but I'm no less good at making you laugh" Hana tries to remind that she also has advantages with her style that is indifferent without shame.

I made him laugh again at his behavior.

Hana,, his indifferent, indifferent and totally unjaim attitude is very much different from Chaira.

Hana, the woman who was able to make me laugh after all this time I was sad.

I like his always cheerful attitude, loose without burden.

"Don't forget to go to bed and read your prayers first let your dreams be beautiful, Eeittss but don't dream of me because I'm afraid of making you wet your bed because most of you laugh" she said as I drove her home.

"Wait for Hana" I prevented her from getting out of the car.

Hana. He looked at me expectantly. Maybe he was thinking that I'd kiss him.

"Thank you for comforting me so much" I said.

"That's all??" tanyakanya.

I don't understand what that means.

"I can make you keep laughing if you want to open your heart to me." he bowed.

"I'm sorry Dare if I'm so presumptuous to talk like this but I don't want to keep lying to you by pretending to be sweet to you. I want you to know that I've been falling for you since I first saw you, coupled with the kindness of your heart helping me first. I just want you to wake up, Dare, I want you to remember that in this world there are still sincere love you. There is another soul mate that God has prepared for you. Your fire is free to decide whether you accept me or not which I obviously have said." he said straight out of the car and into his house.

He left me alone in the car. Thinking all of his words.

"Another fool?"

could it be that God had prepared it so quickly for me?

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