Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 62

My heart can always melt even with the look of his eyes, like exposed to magic. I don't know how to handle all this. Honestly I want to maintain my pride and be a wise and legowo woman with the reality that is in my life. But his attitude like this made me unable to pull my heart to ignore him anymore.

“I know, but now it's meaningless no more right Mas? Our circumstances are different.” Ferdian was a little surprised by what I said, maybe he thought I didn't know about his marriage. We were still in a kneeling position on the floor.

“We really have to talk Honey,” Mas Ferdian stroked my cheek, and his left hand clasped mine.

“Now we are already talking Mas, Mas itself which makes it a dramatic scene like this there is a knee buckling event all. If anyone saw what they would think? A Hira, an ordinary employee can make our shareholders bend their knees. So the news is very warm and maybe this news will not cool even though it has passed by time. And maybe even they'll figure out what magic I use.” I lowered my gaze slightly letting out a smiley grin, accompanying my words that seemed like a sharpened knife looking for a target to prove its sharpness.

“Darling, I beg you. I still won't stand, if you haven't agreed to talk to me later after the meeting is over.” Ferdian tightened his grip even more, not taking heart the spicy words that I was clear about.

“What should I do, should I obey him? If not, will he really do what he says? He's been kneeling like this for a long time, will it last if I don't pay attention to him? If he's really gonna do it, will I put where my face is? Come on Ra, open your lips to what you're gonna answer. If you refuse, your heart will not be calm forever but if you are sure you will be the third person in the household seseirang even though he is still your beloved status.”

I saw the wall clock on the wall right in front of me, fifteen minutes to go.

Dret…

I took the phone in my pocket, I stood up with difficulty feeling my feet were tingling with Mas Ferdian who never ended the action.

“Kok hasn't returned yet, since Mr. Febrian saw your desk. His face was clearly worried even though I was watching him from my desk. Where are you?”

“In meeting room.”

“You met Ferdian huh?”

“Hem.”

“You guys chatted there? He told you if.. “.

“But.”

“Ya has been spit back, bring coffee for me.”

“Hem.”

Bang Ryco ended the conversation just like that,

“Well we meet after office hours. I don't want permission.” I held out my hand for Mas Ferdian to stand up immediately. I immediately turned around wanting to leave the room.

“Soy, thanks.” Mas Ferdian hugged me from behind clenched his hand on my stomach, leaned his chin on my shoulder, stole a kiss on my cheek without me thinking he could still behave like this.

“Ya Allah forgive us.” My inner. I remembered that this was a sin, even though I still wanted to feel it, I missed it so much.

“Mas, I should be right back. I've been here a long time. Soon there will also be many people coming.”

“Hem,” he nodded his head, felt his chin move on my shoulder.

“I love you, Ra.” He said after turning my body to him and kissed my forehead before we parted.

It felt like he was still staring at my back, watching my steps leave the room. I opened the door that had been tightly closed by Mas Ferdian, I opened it wide with the organizer under the door so as not to close it again. A little I lyrically, Mas Ferdian who holds his thighs maybe he feels his legs are a little cramp because of his own actions.

“Crazy you Ra, what office do you have? Once said not back and forth, that person who was in sono had a beard fire.”

“Iya knows, sorry to bother. Sorry not to me but that. (Bang Ryco raised his chin towards Mr. Ferbrian's glass-walled room) after you entered and noticed the file on his desk. From the last look at your table continue, fortunately here is only me and fortunately men if women have GR me because it feels noticed.” I kicked Bang Ryco's leg with the tip of my shoe slightly taper.

“About Yes Ra,”

“Luckily I didn't pour hot coffee, order A-Bang! Already know me later outside e, rumuh back even wait in the pantry that OB busy making coffee for meetings he said!”

“Tumben the treat is coffee, usually also water.”

“Which I know, I was shocked too. I was already drinking water.”

“Long discussion times yes.. “ I shrugged my shoulders in response to Bang Ryco.

“Semolor-molornya instead want to discuss the benefits only yes, in addition to the reshuffle agenda.” I thought after sitting in my chair.

“Oya Ra, later can ngak go home help me overtime.”

“Sorry, can't. Me... “

“Good...” Bang Ryco replied after cutting off my words as if he already knew what I was going to say.

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Honey I wait in the parking lot, get in the car.

I read the message that came into my chat right after one minute of office hours was over. I packed my bag immediately.

“Don't come home late at night Ya Ra, follow your heart don't think too much about what people say. You are living your own life. Me and your parents will support what makes you happy.” I just nodded with the napa said by bang Ryco.

“If you need any help later, call me!”

“Waallaikum greetings, thank you my beautiful sister.” Bang Ryco forced his smile.

I walked through Mr. Febrian's room, I knocked on his glass wall. Seen his glasses are still perched on his pointed nose, staring at the computer screen that lights up brightly to show his handsome face clearly visible. He was not at all bothered by the tap of my finger. And I walked by just like that right away to the parking lot. Still vividly remembered Mas Ferdian's car plate so it does not make it difficult to find his car.

“Assallamoallaikum,” my handkerchief after widening the opened door from the inside.

“Waallaikum greetings dear,” without asking Mas Ferdian forwarded his car, and I just kept quiet. My mind was too busy with how I should behave, it felt like all this was sudden even though I knew from yesterday that a big future would meet.

“Kok towards here Mas, notya this direction to.. “.

“Yes, this is the direction to the hotel. We will stay, we will talk there more freely. Not a tone you're worried about.”

“This actually makes me more worried.”

“Are we not as usual?”

“Then, not with now.” Ferdian was silent about what he was going to say.

Mas Ferdian directly parked on the second floor, not as usual. Making my mind wrestle with this difference, slashing my heart.

I followed Mas Ferdian's steps, still the same path. Her legs stopped making me hit her back, the perfume I missed. He opened the door with a card after taking it from inside the wallet.

“You walk while daydreaming yes dear.” He asked without turning his body. I did not answer him at all until he turned and led me who was still frozen into a room full of memories of our togetherness.

Ferdian sat me down on the couch, got me a drink from the fridge. I heard she was on the phone ordering food that I liked.

“Dek, I want to talk to you. Seriously!” He sat on the carpet right in front of me, keeping my feet locked up by him.

“Iya, I know. Speak.” Nadaku softened with his gaze looking up at me full of pleading.

“Darling, Mas really begged for your forgiveness. They are not willing to fight the situation. And indeed everything that happens outside the wishes of Mas, hope Mas never.”

“I will let you go Mas, from now on we will not tone any relationship. So. I beg you not to complicate matters. Accept reality, slowly everything will be fine.”

“What do you mean Deck? You've... (i just nodded) Febrian said it?”

“I was just expecting it, Mas's attitude alone convinced my guess was right.”

“Mas knows if Mas is selfish but Mas please remain a person who is always on the side of Mas.”

“I don't want to miss another woman's husband Mas. Even if he allows you to be double! I beg you to end this silliness.”

“We can live it dear, Mas will go back and forth here. I don't want to lose you.”

“Can-can Mas say like this huh? I don't want to hurt or hurt another woman. Let our relationship be a memory,”

“I can't help it baby, after the last time we met until now it just makes me unable to survive. Just imagining it I can't feel the pain I've inflicted on your heart, and what about you and Mom?”

“They're fine, Mas feels like it because Mas hasn't been honest with me. Because now Mas has been honest with me even though I already know for sure your heart will be better. From now on, live your life. Give what is right to your wife.” Mas Ferdian touched my chin and directed my gaze at him. He looked me in the eye, probing with what I said.

“Talk by staring Mas.”

Next episode, then,