Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 28

“ O Allah, forgive me.” My mind is forgiving. But only with the person in front of me I expected to be my priest, I did this.

The rumble in my heart felt something deeper, felt awakening something I had never felt before. The fear of my Lord and the glitter in my heart confused me, I was lulled with pleasure but this is sin, I fell silent without recompense.

“Can this be accounted for?” I protested after his lips were away from mine, as if I had not enjoyed the sensation.

“ Sure, Mas sure it is. Even though we both enjoyed it," Mas Ferdian stopped talking still looking at me, peeking in my bead as if looking for something, then he re-applied his car.

“But Mas has asked God for permission. What did Mas did earlier, will be his own sin.” he continued his talk earlier. I could only smile doubtfully, because his nonsense was completely absurd.

“ If everyone did as they pleased with the proposition that his own sin would be borne, there might be no guilt."

“Alright if Adek objected, I will take it back... ” the speed of the car slowed down and I saw Mas Ferdian want to pull over his car.

“What is meant by taking back, he will kiss me again?” my mind, I looked at him confused. I held my lips, as I looked at Mas Ferdian completely pull over his car again. My mind started to look.

“Do not stop, later not to Mas, “ I whine like a child asking to buy a toy. Mas Ferdian looked at me making my heart ask “What is the meaning of his gaze? What does he want to do?” Mas Ferdian brought his face closer and made my heart skip a beat.

“Can I take it back?” Mas Ferdian drew his face closer with no distance, a breath of his nose felt on my lips. Makes me lean my head against the windshield.

“Do not repeat again,” I said quietly while closing my lips.

“ Afterwards Adek really nyesel Mas do that!” I just fell silent. Avoiding surprise moves from him.

Mas Ferdian sat back in the right position, I also confirmed my sitting position. My mind went on an excursion after the incident, “Makin day, even like a tiger is not fed. Scaring me!”

“Dek, before lunch hour you permission first yes. Follow Mas 2 hours, before Mas return. If wait Mas control to your office we just met, maybe it will be long.”

“And another one, can't refuse. It's as a ransom last night. Tell me who made me wait but who's waiting doesn't know where to say. Caught again!”

“Sorry..sorry, I am so vindictive! But today I'm busy Mas,”

“Let me have permission on Febrian.” I just gulped my saliva.

“Here alone, in the streets Mas like this. Where will I be taken, and what will I be?” thought I was looking out the window.

Mas Ferdian's car drove with a quiet atmosphere, no more talk after the last he said.

“Mas, I work first ya” I greet his hands and kiss the back of his hands. His left hand rubbed my head down, peeking at a glimpse of my head covered in a veil.

“ Do not forget, later Mas will pick you up at eleven. I'll wait in the lobby.” Ferdian repeated the message, I just nodded my head.

“Hallo Dik, the business there is in order right?” Ferdian called Dika.

“Safe job Boss, but don't know with your cute bunny. This morning he had an impromptu meeting. All the managers were made. Know for yourself with Mr. Handoko, he always ngaret to the office even though the system works well without defects.”

“Let him, let him act as he pleases.”

“Why Fer, are you tired of covering up you have another wife out there?”

“Mulutmu! Still this morning Bro,”

“What to say, I described your situation?”

“At least you are silent, no need to comment if you talk carelessly.”

“Do not ask anything if you do not want to hear something from me.”

“Sial you are yes..do not want to lose! Morning not here not there ngajak debate just.”

“ Who else started, I just followed the groove.”

“Oya Fer, Mr. Agum yesterday asked you. I'll just answer that there's your brother out of town who's married. I'm confused what to answer, that's all I have in mind.”

“ Then How is he?”

“ Only mangosteen, seems to believe.”

“Ya is the back business. If many demands, I will exit the Company.”

“ Lha keep my fate how?” fret Dika.

“As of you,”

“Don't joke Fer, would you like me to feed your sister if you quit this Company?”

“I still have a stake in it in your name, right? You work, send the money to my account. Hahahaha.”.

“Badness, it turns out that's your wits! You hide your hands when you do.”

“Ha...ha..ha Ferdian just laughed satisfied.

Ra, yuk's lunch! Later at the cafe deket office.

 

I saw a chat from Mr. Ryan. “Okay, how is this? He hasn't rhymed in a long time after yesterday taking me home. Not bad, if I refuse. Yesterday, I made a farewell agreement. What is that show? But more importantly with my dear, hehehe” I use myself.

 

To : Mr. Ryan

Sorry, Mister. But I have a need. Maybe some other time.

 

I hope my reply doesn't offend him.

 

From : Mr. Ryan

Ok, I'll wait another time.

 

“Heh...still less Bu was friendly in the car? Still chat-chatan everything!” the talk of Ma'am Dari surprised me, though,

“Iya Ri, early in the morning can have a warm breakfast” added Bang Ryco no filter.

“Apaan sag Bang, kiss hand kok Bang.”

“Kiss hands until pale yes Ri,”

“ Co., don't be so obvious you are ya!” mbak Tari's reprimands try to stop the morning babbling.

“ Just relax Ra, the Netherlands is still far away!" whispered Ma'am Dance that still sounds Bang Ryco.

“ Hi..women, do not be surprised if you are addicted to our action Si... ” rattles Bang Ryco stopped by the arrival of Mr. Febrian.

“Morning Sir,” Our greeting simultaneously, like the SD child the arrival of his teacher.

“Color of our project goal, there is good news for all of us.”

“Jum Day’at this week, we can holiday bonus. Monday just in. We take this opportunity to peak 3 days 2 nights. As promised, you can bring your partner. Who does not bring a partner hopefully can take home a couple.”

“Amien make Mr. Febrian” replied Dance unconscious.

I just fell silent, wrestling with my thoughts “How should I say the same Mas Ferdian huh? Say no, huh? Would I be wrong if I didn't say, when I met him later. If I don't tell you, what if Mr. Febrian talks to him?”

“Hai..Ra, you yourself are silent.” Ask Mr. Febrian in front of friends.

“ Imagine..anu...anu at the Peak with his girlfriend Sir,” I threw the pen cap on Bang Ryco.

“ Sick Ra, fortunately not hit the eye. Is it anu..anu...why try? Don't you think it's dirty Ra?” bang Ryco replied.

“Sorry, the end of the conversation!”

“ Really dirty Ra, thoughtmu” teased Bang Ryco.

“ Already, you are like a child. Get ready for Friday’at. Another leak, the one Mr. Ryan's buying. Yesterday the inauguration of SK manager went down. Next week he's our General Manager.”

Me, Madam Tari and Bang Ryco looked at each other. Mr. Febrian did not respond much to our shock at the news.

“ Ra, wau..wau...Ra.. “ Bang Ryco whispered to me.

“ Amazing yes briefly moved Division, no farewell greetings. It's been jumping again, getting higher. Like there is a race race only.” Grumbling Ma'am Tari made me think when I heard it.

Baby, you didn't forget, did you? Otw.

 

Seriate....