Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 48

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“Fer, are you still in the office? I thought after the meeting you would go home!” Ferdian had not raised his head at all, Ferdian used his arm to cushion the table.

“Why Fer, is the meeting no result?” Ferdian simply shook his head without raising his head.

“If there is no problem, why not go home for a break! Your bed is no longer good to lie on! Your sister is waiting for you, she says she wants to collect souvenirs!” Ferdian was silent, ignoring Dika's words.

“What's up with this guy, but it's been happy-happy for a few days until it torments me. Less what try I tolerate you Bro!” inner Dika,

“Oh yes! (Dika patted her forehead) or maybe, something is not right with her meeting with Mbak Rinna. Oh my God what this is, I hope what Ana fears is not true. Dear God, have mercy on her, allow her to be happy.” Inner Dika, twisting her mind trying to second-guess sitting in the front seat of Ferdian without making a sound.

“I can't show off my relationship with her sister..” Inner Dika, still had time to think about her own happiness after seeing Ferdian fall apart.

“Fer, if you want to tell a story let's tell a story. If not better you go home soon. (Ferdian is still completely motionless still calmly using his left hand for cushioning and his right hand holding his head) Or am I escorting you home?” He was still waiting for a patient answer.

“It looks like a serious problem!” batin Dika still guessed the thing that made him curious.

“Dik, would I be wrong if I took steps to attach importance to the interests of others in greater numbers than my own?” suddenly Ferdian said with no movement at all from his position.

“Means?” dika replied in shock, a question that did not connect his mind suddenly appeared just like that from Ferdian's lips.

“Step your head, so I can clearly digest your words! What topic are you discussing?” said Dika again.

“Should I hurt Hira?” Ferdian raised his head to look at the curious-faced Dika. Dika still could not digest what Ferdian said.

“What do you mean, I still don't understand. How many hours have you been separated by the distance? Why are you suddenly talking like that?” Dika looked at Ferdian's red eyes as if holding back anger.

“I don't know what else to do Dik, like there's no choice I want. If I marry Hira, there are parents on the verge of her death expecting me to marry her daughter and this company needs me. If I let go of Hira, I hurt her and humiliated her parents I've bonded to her. Even though Rinna gave me a choice, she didn't demand me completely and she didn't get in the way of my relationship with Hira. But I can't stand you, you know, I really can't make a choice. I have to how, even until now I have not contacted Hira.” Dika stood up to Ferdian pat Ferdian on the shoulder without saying anything.

“What advice should I tell you Fer, I would not be able to if I were you. Just seeing Rinna yesterday made me shake your happiness. But if you leave Hira, I'm sure Hira will be able to get through it all. Uh! Why do I think like this. Although it can be but very painful because their love has long been intertwined.” Inner Dika still patted Ferdian on the shoulder.

“Tell me something, Help me to take away the sin I will commit for the decision I will take.”

“I will always be by your side Fer, I will hear your complaints. But decide for yourself, you are wiser in thinking than me.”

“Or you negotiate this with Hira, Hira a wise and noble-hearted woman. I'll handle your job if you think you want to go back to Hira.” Dika said back, which sounded to have no man of caution.

“Your nonsense! You want me to hurt her heart so blatantly after I give her a thousand wishes, as if I clasped the world in the palm of her hand?”

“Then how will you get a solution if you just keep quiet?”

“In the meantime, I can only do’a hopefully Mr. Agum will soon be healthy again so that I can take a breath in thinking. Marriage is not a mess.”

“I know that, moreover Sister Rinna loves you very much Fer, I am sure as good as anyone must be she still has a selfish side as well. You are the loyal type. In the end you will definitely not be able to double, boro dua far from the circumference of his view alone you will not be able to! Which woman would you like to ask Bro?” The look on Ferdian's face grew gloomy after having a long conversation with Dika.

“One that I will assure you Bro, if you want to double please. Your brother's fate will be safe! He won't get any karma from your actions, because I'm officially in a relationship with him. He would never hurt me, even a little bit! So just relax.” Dika patted Ferdian on the shoulder, convincing Ferdian to take a decision he would never regret. Dika smiled full of victory of confidence.

“Thank God, there is finally some good news I heard today. But you can still insert a showy aura in my state like this." Ferdian's smile rose though it was not bright, there was still a burden on his heart because until late at night he had not contacted Hira.

“Whatever I live later still support me and do not be disappointed in me.” added Ferdian warning Dika to remain loyal to his side.

“I can't guess what's on your mind this time Fer! From your words leads you to choose Hira and take everything off here and it makes it difficult for me, so you warn me to support and do not be disappointed in you. But on the other hand it could be that you let go of Hira and are seen as irresponsible and materialistic men.” Ferdian only the mangosteen listened to Dika's conjecture.

“If that's the case where will you choose Dik?”

“I still can not argue, if you choose you release here you also will not be poor, but I do not know with your heart that may feel guilty with Mr. Agum.”

“Sorry, I only speak as is as I see it. Go home, phone first from your heart. Calm your mind, soothe your body.” Ferdian glorified and stood up,

“Thank you Bro, don't say this to Ana.” Ferdian patted Dika on the shoulder.

After arriving home, Ferdian finally moved his heart to send a message to Hira.

To : Hira beautiful

Darling, I'm sorry I had a meeting. Sorry just told you. How did he meet Ryan? So then?

“Hopefully you can bob and dream of Ra, without any worries waiting for news from me. I'm sorry Ra, I don't know what to do. But really I hope to be with you until the end of my age, my last breath without you feeling hurt.” Ferdian's heart whimper stared at his flat screen that could never be answered. Message sent but not yet read, because Hira handpnone in changer in silent state. After a long wait, Ferdian finally fell asleep in a chaotic feeling without trying to phone Hira.

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“Oh, still haven't you opened dear message from Mas. Are you angry with me? Or are you too busy? Can't be busy, yesterday didn't leave for work and met with Ryan.” Ferdian patted his phone on his palm.

“Yes Allah deserve my prejudice? Should I suspect him? She's the innocent girl I fooled with sweet words full of hope and I promised a future that had been loyal to me. Should I think badly of him like this?” Ferdian patted his head guiltily.

There was no courage from Ferdian's heart to make voice or video calls to the Women he had missed even though only yesterday they were separated by distance.

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“Hira's heart attendant!” Dance patted Ryco's already busy shoulder in front of the wide flat screen before him, as the Febrian who was still on leave today made Ryco's work multiply.

“What does Ri mean, early in the morning already rese. Don't make things complicated just by things that have already passed.”

“If there used to be it will still worry the heart Co! Don't be your hypocrite, it's just the two of us.”

“In our surroundings there is an ear-eared wall Ri.”

“Fear once you!”

“Not scared of Ri, just don't want to hurt people!”

“But if Hira is still alone you still embrace right?”

“Your discussion can not be digested by brain, just asked what?”

“Adik met gedhemu kok not yet nongol, what's wrong? With permission? Or is it too late? Or do you no longer want to bother with overtime events? Or is she a wedding without our lady?”

“Woe... I present my handsome and beautiful brothers! I'm reluctant to part with you.” Sahut Hira suddenly startles Tari and Ryco fears that Hira has overheard their conversation.

“Without greetings, make people surprised!”

“Why? You guys are not satisfied gossiping jama’ah huh? Or do I need to go back to the door and say hello?” Dari and Ryco gawk at Hira's expression and Hira's speech which is not as usual.

“His words are really great spirit huh Ri?” sindir Ryco, looking at each other with Dance who is still staring at Hira's face.

“But what's with tu face?” tari replied, Hira has no answer at all.

Seriate,