Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 60

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It feels so from Mom's tone, if she has a lot of questions on her mind. I also felt curious behind the walls of my room, my legs were still heavy to step up to meet Mr. Febrian and I decided to wait for my mother to call me.

“I need to be both father and mother,” I heard those words, reminded me of Mas Ferdian when applying for me.

“Do you need to meet Febrian with Hira first? I'll call you."

“Let's go Mom, before I want to ask Mom. Sorry if I was being disrespectful. Is Hira always open with mom?”

“Yes, whatever it is I'm facing I'm always told sooner or later. Because we are always open.”

“Thank God if it is like that. Mr ada?”

“Bapak is inside, I will call.”

“I introduce myself first, Mr.. Ma'am.. I am Febrian, I am from my city B in Hira's office as Hira's boss replaces Mr. Ryan. (Mother Hira mangosteen) I here have the intention to propose Hira, if the Fathers would like to approve. I know what Hira's status is now with her boyfriend. I know and know exactly how to sit the things Hira is facing right now. Before I knew all the things about Hira, in short, I have been in love with him since I first saw his CV (both parents Hira look at each other less understand) researching the file know my employees before I plunge directly.”

“We wong sepuh kari manut karo anak to Le, sing kuwi Hira. Nek wong tuo sak dermo.” The voice of the Father sounded calm and wise made me sob, how much I have tarnished the name of my parents in the community if the community knows if I am not married to the face of a person who is always spirited into the house to take me to late at night even morning blind as if I am not a holy woman anymore.

“I'm sorry my parents didn't mean to take advantage of the moment that happened to Hira, but I really loved him. With the incident that befell Hira, I am sure this will have an impact on the good name of Mr-Mother and also Hira in the community.” Mr. Febrian said as if to ease my sobbing that might have been heard.

“It's true what you said, son, but we'll ask Hira first. You're patient sing. Terimo opo sing cooed my son's decision, I don't want to burden Hira. By forcing him to close what people think. Hira kawit cilik yo wes urip recoso, we wong tuo pasrah karo opo sing dikarepno.” My father gave no certainty to Mr. Febrian. It made me dizzy, bearing the burden of making decisions for my own life but having to involve my parents' faces in society.

“Iya Sir. I'll wait for the good news. Since it's getting late, I'm sorry.”

“Lho, don't want to see Hira first?” ask Mother.

“No need Ma'am, let him rest. Please tell her what my good intentions are for her Mom. I expected it once. I will not demand that he continue to love me directly. I will be patient waiting for her love to grow, if she receives my proposal.”

“I matur nuwun sanget Nak, matur nuwun mogo-mogo kasil opo dadi kekarepanmu.”

“Amien. I'm sorry about Mr-Mother.” My parents didn't answer maybe they just answered with a nod.

Flash back off.

“Woe! Why bengong. It's a file between Mr. Febrian's rooms. I'm busy, ask for a signature send to the finance section.” Bang Ryco surprised me who had been sightseeing. Thank goodness she didn't realize what was the focus of my gaze.

“Why don't you just bang! I'm busy too.” I reasoned to avoid meeting with Mr. Febrian because until now I have not given any answers, even thinking about it is not. Even though every day does not greet each other and avoid it already feels very awkward.

“I know you avoided it right? You missed this story session Ra. Whatever happened to you without me knowing. Don't avoid Ra anymore. We work here, and he's our boss. So...”

Without hearing what was advised by Bang Ryco I immediately stood up to take the file that had been placed at the end of his desk, I took it to the room of Mr. Febrian.

Tok.dok…

“Log.” I looked at him without taking his eyes off the file that was being inked by him.

“Begging sir's signature,” I let out my voice, hoping inwardly he won't ask my sorrow.

“Please sit down first Ra,”

“Pak, requested immediately want to go up because.”

“Iya I know, I'm careful first. I want to talk to you.”

“This office Mr.”

“Iya I know this office, if you know what I will talk about personal matters. Have you ever given me a chance to talk to you in person? I know Ra, when I talk to your parents you listen to that. Is that true what I said?”

“Iya is right, sorry.”

“I don't want to hear an apology from you Ra, I just want to hear the opportunity you gave me to receive my proposal.”

“Pak, please sign immediately.”

“Will I sign, let the finance staff take me on the phone. Let's talk first. I'm sure you'll keep avoiding me. I didn't mean to force you. I will wait for your love to come to me patiently. But let there be some certainty between us to keep your good name and your parents.”

“No, never at all. It's not like that at all. I really love you Ra. I've always been watching you, don't you feel that way?”

“I did catch your gaze when I was with Mas Ferdian at the top. With Mas Ferdian style like that, are you sure if I still..... and you do not mind the traces of Mas Fedian that he left?”

“I believe, you will not easily give your crown even if you are naked with it. I don't care about it, everyone has a past. And I know not everyone can make peace with his past.”

“Do you not mind?”

“If I answer and sincerely do not mind if you receive my proposal?”

“Sorry, but I really don't want to bring people in my pain sir. I really want to make sure how I can take my heart first. Before I start the relationship again.”

“If your answer stays that way, what's the point of you talking to Ra.”

“Sorry maybe I got carried away by emotions.”

“Ra, I hope beyond what I hope you still want to be kind enough to have a good relationship with me.” I just nodded, looking into her eyes filled with sincerity.

“Excuse me. I'll drop it off myself in finance.”

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“Ra, it looks like your story will be revealed, not my story to be discussed.” Bang Ryco asked after I got back from the finance section, it seems like he noticed me who was in Mr. Febrian's room a long time ago.

“Can't, whatever is in my story for today's agenda must be skipped first. What is available today is your story Brother! You promised me?” Ryco is just a mangosteen.

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“Without we knowing later we walk together like this there is someone's gallery even fuller with us both Bang?”

“Perhaps, it is impossible for outsiders so far this area is only employees of our company who are obtained. Why can outsiders yes, it is clear that here someone is spying on us. Or are we just making a mistake with Ra? Just this time today the hired detective is still reacting.”

“We make a romantic moment?” Bang Ryco's whisper in my ear, already giving the impression people will misunderstand. I hit his arm, looked up at him sharply warning him not to mess around.

“I have not officially parted Bang, but it seems that we do not need to do even though it will not affect my relationship.”

“Do not discuss first dong, we have not until the cafe has finished the story.”

“Looks like my story and your story is not up yet even though we are staying at the cafe. Hehehe.” I laughed a little, even though I had to.

“Ra, it's arrived. You find a table first, I need to find a parking space. Or am I parking at your house?”

“Distance Brother, I already reserved earlier. Hehe. Ordinary table. But I'm going down first huh? Relax parking!”

“Your base yes!” Bang Ryco nosed my nose, it's his habit.

“Why not order first? I've ordered avocado juice, but I haven't ordered a drink for Brother!”

“Good yes?” Bang Ryco gurgled while screeching.

“Anytime want to change what it is!”

“Yes I've just coffee, Mbak coffee, don't be too sweet! (screaming bang Ryco who is not far from the cashier table ) let my mind and eyes clear. It's possible that Ms. Hira would like to ask me a difficult question.”

“Bang, until now Abang has not met Mbak Er?”

“Iya, no. That night after from here I immediately met him and I had a little fuss. “.

“What's fussed about? He doesn't believe we have a relationship, does he?” bang Ryco raised his eyebrows and shrugged both of his shoulders making me doubtful.

“Yes Allah, seriously! Or we are too much to have no boundaries? If your problem is okay, I will keep my distance from you! I will take care (i hold my lips I move my hand which signifies locking ) not to be lazy with call ‘Abang Darling’ your mouth todayyou really do this! At the end of it all is my fault!” I was lamenting what had happened to me and now Bang Ryco is taking things with him.

“Oh, No...no... no word keep distance! We are the best friend and I am your brother! Brother met big, it's not wrong. But I have promised mom yes, to always take care of you.”

Before long I enjoyed my juice and Bang Ryco sipped his hot coffee, not yet ordered a meal or cake the door of the cafe opened, Erna entered the cafe and already saw me sitting without turning away. Our eyes stared at each other, I just winked to welcome his arrival. His facial expression was neither surprised nor angry, he walked over with a calm face. Maybe he had guessed before if I wanted to bring them together or something.

“Sore by night Ra?” I stood up and poked with him. Bang Ryco just fell silent without greeting and did not protest me out loud at all like he always did.

“Please sit down Ma'am, thank you for taking the time. (Mr Erna just looked at me with a flick of her eyelashes and gently rubbed my right hand that was still landing on her thigh) I just wanted to make it clear that I had nothing to do with Bang Ryco was just an office friend, confided in a friend, and became my brother. I'm sorry if the relationship we have doesn't make you comfortable. I'm really sorry I wish you guys all got along. I do’akan best for you guys. Looks like I'm done explaining, the rest please Bang explain, if my privacy needs to be dragged is okay. Please just tell me. I say yes first, if you want to stop by the house please. but do not forget to bring something yes.. “ I blinked my eyes teasing Bang Ryco.

“Sorry Ma'am, habit!” I stroked my own eyes, hoping for Erna's indecency over my bad habit of teasing Bang Ryco. I say goodbye to leaving them behind, giving them space to solve the problems they have been putting off.

“Sorry Bang, payin' this huh? Hehehe.” I raised the glass of my juice that I had spent in a hurry. Before I step out of the cafe.

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