Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 18

Mas Ferdian took my hand out of the room, after a brief introduction with Mbak Tari and Bang Ryco. He hooked his hand on my waist walking up to the parking lot as if no one was looking.

 

“Please come in, my Bidad" ala-ala let the princess make me float. I entered his car, there was already a grocery bag in the back seat that I accidentally lyricized.

 

“Dek, we stop by first arentar on the front mart huh?” he said after going far.

 

“Hemm, buy a stomach extension yes mas," I said

 

“Or we go to resto only?”

“ Entar aja dzuhur Mas prayer, bentar again also dah want adzan”

 

“ Yes already, Mas buy drink the same snack huh? You're in the car, bentar.”

 

After Mas Ferdian came back, we drove fast. It turned out that Mas Ferdian took me to a beach that was so beautiful and comfortable.

 

“ Tired of this long journey, it seems replaced Mas. I know there is a place this beautiful.  I who have a city do not know,” said I opened the seat belt and my eyes have gone around obscuring every corner in front of me, even though the sea is not yet visible.

“Let's go down, to the mosque first yes.” Mas Ferdian had not answered the question that was inserted in my amazement.  

 

I got off and met Mas Ferdian in front of the car. Mas Ferdian took my hand walking towards the mosque in this coastal area, without finding out where it was. Ferdian seemed to have memorized every corner that was here. I just kept quiet, without questioning him.

 

The first time he was a priest in my prayer, in every reading he recited made me shed tears. “Subhanallah.yes Allah, make him my priest for the rest of my life My inner” heard the beauty of his voice reading surah-suraah. I’a in silence until my tears are seen by him. He was already sitting facing me without me noticing, I did’a with my eyes closed. He wiped my tears with his index finger, making me shocked to open my eyes.

 

“Do’a what are you saying?” Ferdian was still sitting cross-legged in front of me. Staring at me deep, made me drown in it.

 

“I don't want to know who you want to cover up. But my heart was worried about it, my mind was full of my inner prejudices” that was immersed in his gaze. I just kept quiet answering her question. And he kissed my forehead in the house of God. Maybe if people saw it would think we're newlyweds. Fortunately the mosque was empty.

 

“ Yuk, we look for maem, worms in the stomach Mas has revolted” said Mas Ferdian broke the sad air, I replied with a smile and a nod. I stood up to return Mukena. Ferdian was waiting for me in front of the mosque. When he saw his sturdy and burly back, he was looking at the streets. "There's no way you're gonna hurt me. Seeing your idolatry, there was no way you had lied to me Mas.” My mind wrestled my feet stepping up to him. Noisy my high heels met the floor, making her turn around. He took me down the street and turned the diner, all the menus I liked. He ordered without asking me, as if we had been out together a lot.

 

We walked down the road not far from the beach, booking a seat that we will sit until the afternoon to see the beautiful sunset.

 

“ Baby, are you tired? Why not wear short shoes?"

 

“ Anyone who knows want to go to the beach, know that I brought double”.

 

“ If tired, say..entar Mas gendong (Mas Ferdian smiled tease ) oy, yesterday said there is something you want to say?”

 

“ Enable mas dong!" I focused on the word to carry.

“ How do you make a mas, which is carried by you?" Hira doesn't talk about it anymore.

“ About the question I want to ask, I answered honestly yes?” I said connect the one earlier.

 

“ If you doubt the honesty of Mas, why did not just ask right in his house God alone?” her tone was smooth but my heart ached hearing it.

 

“Why did Mas never talk about Mbak Rina?” I held her hand to warm her heart.

 

“The most important thing is our time together, making the best use of the time when we are again with” Mas Ferdian tightened my hand grip, put his fingers together on my fingers and kissed the back of my hand short.

 

“No problem 'kan Mas, if I know people who are around Mas and..”.

 

“For what dear? The important thing is that you know Mas, Mas' brother, and Mas's daily life, enough right? The other is not important!” sela Mas Ferdian

 

“He is in your daily life also Mas," said I memelas.

 

“Guns eat sir (gunam mas Ferdian, so that I hear ) Mas must be very careful yes dear if talking to you.”

“That's important he wasn't in Mas”'s heart Mas Ferdian bit off my finger that was still in his grasp, venting the grige in his heart.

 

“Ih...iii..( pitting me with spoiled ) What the hell? Sick knows! It's scary!"

“ You don't want to lose? Trus..trus..Who are now Ryco's brothers? Hemmm?”

“ Appreciation Mas, he has protected me, even he gives me comfort, advises me a lot. Just the name of my brother, not expensive and does not reduce anything from what I have." I glanced at him see the expression on his face.

 

“ Don't talk to Febrian for long, I denger Ryco said you make coffee for him too!”

 

“ Yes Allah Mas, just make coffee and I only ask for file approval, nothing else." I'm not telling you about how much Ms. Rina was so deep in Mas Ferdian as Mr. Febrian told me.

 

“ Ryco aja protest have never tasted your coffee, a long office again! Is it not wrong if you protest too? As your girlfriend....”.

“ Sutttt, (I covered Mas Ferdian's lips with my index finger ) is not finished if Mas discuss it. Get to the house I made (Mas Ferdian who had moved next to me, kissed my left cheek briefly) Mas.." My voice sounded exasperated.

“ Sorry, you are snacking if you are annoyed. For a long time I could pawn my faith Deck if I met you. Savings of the Hereafter, can be 0. The angel till give the report, your balance is zero."

 

“ So do not mess around, keep this.." disrespect my finger that holds his lips, bright because never touch a cigarette. I was shocked that suddenly Mas Ferdian devoured my finger that was stuck to his lips .

 

“ Mas...(call me spoiled and pull my finger from his lips ) Mas, why memorize this place? Is there any personal experience? (i saw the look in his eyes) There's no way it's a business experience?" I preceded him not to be lied to.

 

 

“See his icon”

 

“ Mas used to be here, not often when there is a certain moment. Get ready (Mas Ferdian looked at me and held my hand as if preventing me from running, making me gurgle what I would hear ) You remember when Mas told me about the former Mas?”

 

“ Hmm, Madame Emma right?”

 

“Remember the younger brother who shipp or because there is a heart that is not right (the gaze of Mas Ferdian who is proud because it smells an aura of jealousy in my heart ) Tu.kan only got here, you are not clear his face...Mas sure Mas will be able to kiss + dear “

 

“ Mean + dear what? Emange Mas thought all this time I did not love that ama Mas?”

Ferdian kissed me on the cheek for a long time, until I smacked his thigh, to let go of his kiss.

 

“I mean + unfortunately yes it is, like it was kissed disposable old, wear affectionate feeling. If you feel tight, it means that your love for you is so great. Do not compare with the past, do not compare with those around us. Enough of you and me. Do you know now?”

 

“ Not clear Mas it ah! We are surrounded by many people, right? Is there no shame? I want to hide my face” said I was annoyed by embarrassment.

“ What was the follow-up? What does this have to do with Emma?”

 

“ His grandmother's house is around here, now maybe his sister is also in this city. Lastly, Mas knew his sister was accompanying his grandmother, and went to college here. Maybe it's already work. Mas has told you, if Mas already does not want to know about him and Mas always avoid him, even though he often comes to home”

 

I just kept silent about Letiana's warning.

“ About Mbak Rina, how??”

 

“ Yes how-how, how is it? Mas just think of him as a friend, especially just as adik”.

 

“Photo in the room Mr Febrian?”

 

“ Only the original work of the Febrian clip, you can ask it directly to the person. And he misunderstood Mas”'s feelings. I was silent at Mas Ferdian's reply.

“ Mas once said, remember well Deck my words. Under any circumstances, whatever happens someday you remain in the heart of Mas, the only one in the heart of Mas, the most comfortable place for Mas. And that regardless of beauty or social status, before I saw the beauty of your face I loved your heart. And I make sure you will always be there all my life”

Mas Ferdian kissed my forehead deeply, expressing the depth of his feelings for me.

 

Fun Ferdian and Hira combined love, busy with what became the topic of problems in their hearts. Not looking around them.

They do not realize that there are lovers who pay attention to them.

“ Looks like it's Brother Ferdian deh, Ryc?”

 

“ Ferdian who? Where?” Ryco doesn't think of Herdian, Hira,

 

“ Ex-sister I told you about, that's where I'm going.see the direction of my eyes" Erna turned Ryco's gaze toward her.

 

“Oh... "

" It turns out that this world is really narrow, the same person" Ryco's inner self. Ryco responded with oh, not saying that the girl next to Ferdian was a close friend of his who he had considered a sister.

"Leave it, we just enjoy this afternoon in peace..ok?” erna's views have not been shifted from Ferdian and Hira . Ryco diverts Erna's thinking, as Ryco remembers Erna's hatred for her brother when she learns that his brother wasted Ferdian.

Emma used to be tempted by the subsidiary owner of the company, which should have been close to Erna. Before Erna had a love affair with Ryco.

 

“Sorry I won't tell you at length. I wish there were no rainbows, meaning there would be no rain. Enough of the pain, I want to see the happiness of Hira. I hope Hira will know whatever it is just from Ferdian's mouth not from someone else Ryco's inner” is full of hope.

 

“ Don't think about it again Yes Er, it's your brother's problem.”

 

“ Honestly, I feel sorry for Brother Ferdian. He's a good guy, Ryc, he's been very kind to my family. I feel I owe him. Mother Em alone is too shameless. He won't let Brother Fer be with anyone else, if he knows this for sure.” Ryco stops Erna's conversation with a brief kiss on the lips.

 

“ If it is like that, all you have to do is shut up. Don't let your brother know” Ryco's request

 

“ If I keep quiet, nothing else is impossible, right...? Mbak Em is always fast in getting info..”

 

“ We do’ course”

 

After enjoying the beautiful sunset, Ryco immediately invited Erna home without greeting the owner of a warm relationship with intimacy, still surviving on the shore.

 

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