Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 16

Ferdian walked out of the Febrian room with an indescribable look on his face how gloomy it was full of explanations in his mind. Febrian followed in Ferdian's footsteps who suddenly stood up and walked out of his room without saying goodbye. Febrian's steps stopped when he saw where Ferdian's steps were, Ferdian who walked to Hira's desk made Febrian go around thinking about how yesterday Hira's face looked at the photo, the wrong name in the file. Febrian found the answer to a question that didn't cross yesterday. "It was no coincidence" Febrian gunam softly.

 

Ferdian reached Hira's desk, took Hira's bag and forced Hira out of the room without saying a word. Without permission to have taken away the people's employees, Ferdian pulled Hira out past where Febrian was standing. Ryco and Tari just looked on without saying, because the atmosphere was so tense.

Ryco and Tari just whispered to each other without reprimanding Hira for just leaving her computer still on.

“Co, save the Hira file and then turn it off" said Tari who whispered as she looked up.

“ Turns out important people are Ri, and his looks are not inferior."

“ Mouth! The guy can be horrified."

 

“Fer....tung..” unfinished Febrian said when Ferdian passed in front of Febrian standing up. Ferdian paid no heed, a word didn't come out.

 

“ Sorry sir I permission,” said Hira with a high volume because the distance is getting away because walking hastily behind Ferdian, Ferdian's step is so long.

 

Arriving in front of the car, Ferdian was still holding Hira's hand so tight.

 

“Mas, lelatin shy to know. From earlier, Mas pulled me like a wife who was caught cheating in someone else's place." I said irritated because my wrist and heel hurt because the brisk walk was pulled by it. Ferdian was still silent, making no sound. He opened the car door and let me in, opening my high-heeled shoes.

 

“ Just leave Mas, (he caresses the blisters on my heels, and slightly massages slowly. Maybe he realized that he had tortured me in following his steps ) Let go! Then also do it yourself." I said while trying to pull my feet from the hold of his hand.

Still not heard the voice that usually sweetened me. “My feelings are angry mode again, why is he the one who is over me. Is there anything more I don't know?” my question is full of emphasis in the heart, because I'm worried.

 

He drove his car very fast without talking to me, suddenly the car turned on the hotel. He opened the car door, still in silence. I walked beside him in his hand. He cheked in the hotel that had been booked last night, heard from the hotel receptionist who asked Mas Ferdian. I was thinking "It turns out he's been planning on coming here from last night and the chat was a code for me, but I ignored it."

"Oh Hira why are you insensitive." I use slowly.

He took me as if I was just going to run away. He invited me into his hotel room. But it didn't cross my mind that he was going to do anything to me. I don't know what anyone would think if I saw me in a hotel room with a man. He sat me down on the couch near his bed, fetching a warm water compress. Pulling my foot on his lap and raising a bit of my pants, compressing my heel, still in silent mode. " If he's like this he's such a cruel person, gone is his friendly seal" my inner self saw him treat me.

 

“ No words excuse me, to act like this? “ said I opened the sound of breaking the cold between us.

 

“ What I touched just according to earlier." he replied there is no sweet taste of temptation. I was trying to pull my leg, and this time I thought "May she consider me a sloppy woman? Only because I am a poor woman when compared to her“ I remember the lyrics of a song that lately in the play Mbak Tari.

 

 

Impossible to me too

Reaching the stars in the sky

Who am I

Just an ordinary guy

All of that I really can't afford

It's my fault too

Because she's in love

Insan like you is a fairy

I should have reflected myself

Before the curtain of my heart I open to love you

 

Suddenly my tears trickled down, remembering the lyrics of the song that these few days have always sounded in my ears. Without saying Mas Ferdian approached and peeked at my forehead for so long. The warmth of her lips on my forehead touched the recesses of my heart felt the depth of her affection for me.

 

“ Forgive me, sorry..sorry...” his apology is like he can't make up for my pain.

 

“ Dear..." Mas Ferdian stared, cupped my face, without saying anymore he held me tightly, ‘forget not his muhrim’ leaned his chin on my shoulder and repeatedly apologized meaningfully.

 

“ Your apologies cannot explain many of the questions that have sprung up in my heart Mas, nor do they melt the prejudices that are in my mind Mas” said as I released my body from his arms.

 

“ Dear...dengerin Mas well. We clarified from the beginning, though,

First: I'm sorry, you called Mas but I didn't pick up. Mas when it was outside the city with boss Mas' daughter 'He still covered, did not mention his name' my inner feeling nysek. And 2. Hp Mas, Mas is staying in a hotel room. That night I called Brother, but you didn't pick up."

" Normally you can never stay your phone My inner Mas“ protested his words.

 

I was still silent, because he still did not continue his explanation. The more my mind was carried away by the lyrics of the beginning of the song, which always disturbed my mind. Put me in it.

 

The wind tonight

Greeting my body

But cannot cool

the heat of my heart

 

“Dek, darling..." Mas Ferdian pressed his index finger against my chin and made me look up at his face.

 

“Can I do it for you Mas, hm?" I said softly filled with a sense of humbleness, meaningless to me.

There was no answer just a shady look in my eyes, suddenly he kissed my lips that were shaking because of my question, a kiss on the lips for the first time. In but short because of the limits of faith that still remind us.

 

“If you are still discussing such a thing again. It looks like Mas will lose the faith Mas, which Mas has been defending all this time. You know that, right? I don't like you to talk about things like that!”

 

“But the problem here is closely related to that Mas!”

 

“ Which problem leads has something to do with it? “

 

“ Sister Rina and I are different, she is more...." Ferdian kissed my lips briefly again and I fell silent no longer saying.

I saw her shocked to hear the name Rina I mentioned, but there was no further explanation of the name I had mentioned. I stood up and took my bag that Mas Ferdian had placed on his bed. I stepped towards the door, she repeatedly called me not to leave her, but I ignored her. He followed me from behind and hugged me.

“ By Allah Deck, don't be like this. I love you so much, you know very well, the feelings Mas showed up before we met, the feelings Mas real before and after knowing your background. I love your heart Dek, not the others. I hope you never again humble yourself, compare yourself to others." I held her hand tightly coiled around my stomach.

“ Will one day still be like this Mas? Your feelings won't change for any reason?” I turned my body and looked into his eyes.

“ If anything happens you will still be in the life of Mas, in the heart of Mas. I'm not strong without you Deck, for a second Mas can't. Your heart, you say, that which is in you is the most comfortable place for Mas layover. Now Mas will take you home, Mas does not want to cross the line. You're sorry, aren't you, baby?" his words were full of supplication.

I just nodded my head. I really can't let go, I can't do without him, even though there's still a wedge in my heart because he never talks about the name I've mentioned.

 

 

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