Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 4

The days passed so quickly, after we got to know each other. A year after the long night we went through with each other open who we were. I ended by sending a chat with my home address.

 

After a year of me and Mas Ferdian always chatan and telephone, we also have never met in person. Although Mas Ferdian once said he would stop by when serving. Somehow God wrote my way of life. Maybe when I want to see the figure that I imagined all this time, I can see for real. Time does not allow. In my decorated days full of comfort from the attention of Mas Ferdian in his busy days. I was expecting once again he would ask “Is there a throne for Mas in your heart's palace?” because she always hoped to be in line to be a husband. Even though he hasn't made a real appearance in front of me. But this feeling is like it's linked.

 

At the end of the final semester of 2nd grade, I was expecting something that was not-no, I should have been more active in studying. But thankfully my values persist despite often staying up late telephonant and chatan the same Mas Ferdian.  

 

From : Ferdian (18:30)

 

Evening Deck, no time? Or is it still busy? If you are ready, reply?

 

To: with Ferdian (20:30)

 

Sorry, just reply. Just got to know, did you eat? Why else? Or is Sunday night still hidden in the office?

 

Mas Ferdian

Calling........

 

“Assallamoallaikum, why call...??”

 

“Waallaikumsalam, it's not busy, is it? It's been a busy night what else?”

 

“Not busy Mas, emang I've stayed on top of the Padded while.( Immediately I diverted, I, because I don't want him to close the phone because I know I'm summarizing the material ) Where is it? At home, right? Or...again hiding as I thought?”

 

“ Mas is still in the office, Mas was overtime. Mas work stacked, do not ngledek Mas yes, after all Mas is waiting for you to Mas call. Wh why? What was it while? Don't tell me you're busy, are you? It looks like Mas who has a job of sedabrek, but you are difficult to contact!”

 

“Mas will not negur that anymore or I have to repeat the reason that Mas does not like if I say it? Heem?" I warned him and acted annoyed so he wouldn't ask me what I was doing.

 

“What a surprise, Miss Hira here? Very sensitive, sorry.sorry...” "It turns out that my article is powerful, it looks like he won't ask again!" my inner.

 

“Dek, I want to talk seriously even if only on the phone. But I hope you listen carefully. Because all this time you also do not want if Mas vidio call. And you don't want us to exchange photos either. I hope you don't think of the wind then. ok?”

“ Deck, you are still horrified Mas right?”

 

“Iya, Mas. I listen to Mas really, and I will look at each point of the coma also”

 

“ Mas serious darling!” with a rather irritated face.

 

“ Nggih... Please, I'm so deg-degan, like an interview!” said cengengesan.

 

“Bismilbornrohmannirokhim. Deck, Mas wants us to officially have a more definite relationship. Mas wants you to be Mas's girlfriend at this time, and will be Mas's life partner someday. They will wait for you until you graduate. It's still 1 year, right, you graduated High School? If later you want to go to college Mas will not prevent you and if you want to work, Mas will not hinder. Comfortable with you. Before Mas know your background even though Mas is comfortable with you.”

 

“Mas don't want to know how my face is, before saying this all?” I answered with despair.

 

“ Mas want to meet you, but not to make sure Mas feeling after knowing your face. I'm sorry, because we've known you for over a year, but Mas hasn't seen you yet. Believe that Mas has a desire but maybe God really set it up like this. Testing our hearts. But I really love you and am comfortable with you. As if Adek's ship was the compass."

“Dek, you're still there, right?" I was silent because of my happy feelings to my tears, my aunt was heavy to say something. I felt sincerity in every word he said. It makes no sense if people listen.

“Dek, just shut up? Give the answer, do you mind answering before knowing Mas?”

 

I was still speechless, because my lips seemed to be silenced just like that, I still listened to him.

 

“ Deck, for Mas know the nature, polite speech, comfort in the heart, the, compatibility in discussing which means from there we can see that we can respect each other and appreciate already thank God, it can be brought marriage. A beautiful face is a bonus from God."

 

My crying suddenly sounded,

 

“Darling, even crying. Did Mas's words hurt you?” I couldn't stop, when hearing her voice feel heavy in my heart made my sobs even louder.

“ Deck...Dek...” sounds very soft voice, Mas Ferdian sounded groaned.

“ Take a deep breath baby, calm yourself."

 

After 10 minutes I calmed my heart, took my phone away from my ear, and I saw that she had not turned off her phone connection. Take a deep breath, then I connect the phone again, because I feel calm and think normal again.

 

“ Mas..”

 

“ Yes baby, how? Have you calmed down? Is there a talk of Mas hurting your heart?”

 

“Absolutely not even a little bit, none of Mas's words hurt my heart. Other than us, maybe people will say silly when they hear what we feel."

 

I can't wait for Ferdian to interrupt me after hearing what we felt.

 “Dek, your words mean? You're not crazy alone, are you? We can equal?”

 

“Yes, we will be together in this relationship, let God decide my fate. And that will lead you to set the pace. As long as Mas is patiently waiting for me, I will patiently also with our relationship which may be ridiculous to others. I'm just a village girl Mas, Mas know 'kan in the village many girls who marry young, and so people talk if not practice. I'll put a note on my forehead if I have an owner, if someone wants to ask for me."

 

“Alhamdulillah Deck, thanks for your willingness. I will never disappoint you. Being disappointed is painful. I feel very relieved. Honestly, I've been keeping this taste for so long. But Mas doesn't want you to feel that Mas is just a zombie, and Mas is afraid because we've known all along we've never met at all. Can we start now vidio callan?”

 

“For vidio callan I think it's better in pending until we meet, anyway I'm comfortable with this situation Mas. Mas said, beautiful face is a bonus given by God. Aye right?”

 

“ Guns to eat sir nih story..( while patting jidat ) pangilan unfortunately no longer complain 'right?”

 

“ Yes, not anymore. I will make Mas as my passion to fight to change my social status, fight to deserve to be with you someday."

 

“ Thank you, I am sure you can, any will God will surely give way. As long as we try, there will be results. Results do not lie to one's efforts. And I am sure, God introduces us even though we have never met and gives comfort in our hearts until we establish a relationship. God must have planned something. And let Mas help you in any trouble. And that may be part of his plan. And maybe God gave you a bonus through Mas."

 

“Mas want to help me especially?  Mas has always sent pulses to me so I can not spend. Saldonya just stacked up. I don't buy a quota to study. That alone makes me feel like a matre chick, using Mas."

 

 

“By receiving a pulse from Mas, I already feel utilizing Mas,“

 

“ Suttttt... Oya dear, Monday tomorrow you permission first yes not to go to school."

 

“Kok permission..." I was dumbfounded.

“Will he come here?" my inner.

 

“ Yes, I want you to Bank only. Not far from that house. You open an account. Let Mas can transfer, yesterday until now you always protest the pulse mostly. I was confused about what he wanted to help. (i thought I wanted to come here, I sighed without me noticing and maybe he heard ) Mas danger deck, why the breath is that?"

 

“Mas really want to make me a matre girl huh?”

 

“ No dear, how come!”

 

“Lha how, people will interpret it?”

 

“ No need to listen to what people say, who will know. The numbers also do not fly knocking on your door and make a loud noise, right? The only ones who know are Mas and you, most also Dika. And Dika would not dare to think like that. Okay, tomorrow Monday permission yes?”

 

“ No! Then Ibuk, how should I explain? Tell me what try me later. I don't want to lie to you, Mum."

 

“Besok morning, Mas who will phone Ibuk for his explanation. After all, Ibuk also knew that you have known Mas for a long time. But I think I'm sensitive how Mas feels. Not like this daughter. Gemes me! Adek's next to Mas, already red's nose!"

 

“Mas want a KDP trial huh?”

 

“ What is it?” the shell, because of the coco.

 

“ Hardness In Coursane”

 

“ Yes ngak is dear, meaning that if Mas gemes, do not want to be denounced his nose, but do not protest if kissed ya?”

“ Mas just realized this, long ago someone forgot the topic. What about that, permission, right?”

 

“ No ah, shame me! Part of my part-time work, I'm enough already."

 

“ Mas tired yes, persuade you! Mas send a photo of Dika, Monday you meet Dika in Bank B near there. Let Dika take care of. You don't have to protest too much."

 

“ Forcing this dong, Mas know first dong da dagku how, surely Mas Dika will leak! cheat on his name,"

 

“ How to call Dika with 'Mas' too, how is there no difference between a girlfriend and someone else?”

 

“ I keep calling him what, cook 'sir' he said the same age as Mas, and he also protested feeling old. Protest will be called sir."

 

“ Yes call Mas who replaced what is it? Let it sound sweet and make a difference to others, maybe it can be 'honey' that?"

 

“ Gak ah, ticklish! Already at the tip of the tongue is used to call Mas, although the call is the same but it feels different!"

 

“ You yes, by the way can not be fought again! What are your ideas?”

 

“ Office work for sure, Bank or Company so,"

 

“Is there no intention of becoming a teacher or a lawyer? If you are a lawyer then become a lawyer for the company. Adek pinter really negotiation”

 

“ Teacher, every day I have taught. It's fun, but it could be a side. Later can open private tutoring, continue if the lawyer is not ah complicated! It was a challenge, but I had no interest. You can't smile."

 

“ Yes, can-can be! If I meet you, I'll make you smile."

 

“Gak ah, thank you. Connecting earlier, is not it strange? We just made it new, immediately use the event to create an account."

 

“Let me be the first opener in your account book, the date will remind us to step in the beginning and in the future can be filled with sustenance that is still abundant."

 

“So sweet very, but not a paid contract 'right?”

 

“My darling, I'm tired of it ah! Assalamualaikum”

 

Without waiting for a greeting from me he immediately closed his phone. It seems like he was really offended by my words. I was so ashamed of her treatment. The more he gives me the more facilities he feels if I always struggle to hunt the rupiah coffers. But who would wish to live in such a shortcoming as I am. Spending his teenage years hunting down the rupiah “Waallaikumsalam dear, may he return home safely, protect him O Allah. I really love him” gunamku slowly while looking at my hape, my gaze teary omens 'it's raining on my cheek.

 

The next day, I heard my mother talking on the phone, friendly, tender and full of gratitude.

 

“ Yes Nak, yes.iya...matur nuwun sanget. Matur nuwun, ngapuntene ngrepotke mugo gusti Allah always maringgi healthy and protection always. "the words of Mother that ended with deep gratitude. I'm guessing it must be a phone from Mas Ferdian.

 

While stroking her chest Mother looked full of gratitude, when I approached her I pretended not to know if I knew Mas Ferdian who called her.

 

“Nduk, suk ameh ono guest, kudu cake ready ora popo permission. Son Ferdian wants to nelfon Mom. O Allah matur nuwun wrestling, bejo kuwe Nduk, mugo dadi jodhomu tenan. Sewu siji ono koyo ngene Nduk, Alhamdulillah son and mother, iseh diparingi bejo. Mengko no cerito karo your father (Kids, tomorrow there will be guests, you must be prepared. Permission only, Nak Ferdian already explained. O Allah thank you God, very lucky for you, son, may you really be your soul mate. One thousand there is such a thing. Thank you God my son has been given good luck, later I will tell the Father)"

“Nggih Buk, alhamdulillah do’akan always your son. But nopo to nggih mboten nopo-nopo Buk? Dereng onten bond sing must be buk, mosok Mas Ferdian koyo shouldering my needs?" (Yes Buk, alhamdulillah do’akan your son. But what is Buk? There is no definite bond yet that Mas Ferdian will meet my needs? )

 

“ In tompo wae disik Nduk, maybe God sent your titulungan, Ibu yo wes nolak. But Cah Kuwi keeps pekok piye maneh. Nek diparedgi, sing setiti ngunakno. Ora reti ngarep would piye! Yo mugo-mugo wae slick koyo sing karepno but ora reti Allah planned opo. Iyo? (By first, God may have sent your helper, Mother has also rejected him. But the boy was still on his wish. If you are loved, use it as best you can. I don't know what's going to happen up ahead. May be well according to our expectations but do not know how God will plan. Aye right?)"

continue the story in the next episode yes.makin exciting you know....😍😍