Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 30

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Ferdian released his embrace from Hira walking towards the door, food orders coming. Hira picks up a film tape purchased by Ferdian, he tries to play it. The first image that came out of the screen made Hira aghast in shock.

“ Why buy a movie like this anyway Mas,” I raised my feet on the sofa. Ferdian only had a small smile in response to my behavior. He opened the food that he had placed on the table with his rest.

“Whatever's why, baby. Here maem, just go cold.”

“We don't have to watch it? The movie is not friendly!”

“Enjoy it, if we don't watch it continue to do what?” I saw Mas Ferdian's slightly mischievous gaze. Makes me gather courage.

“What is enjoyed? But rather than me being enjoyed, yes already.” my mind read his gaze.

“Ok, we watch until it's done.” I said full of confidence. I remember the announcement I made this morning. There's no way Mas Ferdian would have known about this show.

“Mas, “ Mas Ferdian still enjoying his food. It made me hesitate and afraid to tell him.

“ Mas,”

“ What's up, baby? Don't you like the menu? Isn't this your favorite?”

“I want to say the same Mas, seriously.” heard the word seriously Mas Ferdian put the food in his hands.

“ Talk, will I listen.”

“ Friday’at later I will join the summit, office event.” I dare not say for permission, though,

“Sorry I did not ask your permission, if I ask for permission for sure you will not allow me Mas,” I hold it in my heart. I looked at her gaze, I couldn't guess.

“Absolutely office? Or can there be a family?”

“ Can invite a partner, was the notification like that.” Ferdian has not spoken a thing in a long time.

" or...Would you like to come?"

" It seems like Mas can't accompany, this week it seems like Mas is busy." he replied to me disappointed.

 " Yes..have fun,” he added felt a burden on his heart. But I can't possibly not come along, not feel good about the others.

“ Thank you,” I looked at him with a smile, although in my heart I knew that Mas Ferdian actually had a hard time allowing me.

 

Time passes by so quickly, “Can it be much longer? Please stop the time like this. I still want to be with him.” A groan in my heart, hugging her from behind. He's still busy hooking the buttons on his shirt.

“ Should Mas, not go?”

“ Can your kingdom there not miss you?” I said.

“ They can't afford not to miss me tonight Mas overtime, until there Mas directly to the office. There was a meeting in the morning. Or you who come with Mas only.” I just shook her back from behind her back. Mas Ferdian turned his body so that it made my embrace come off.

“My wife, do’akan me to always be healthy. So that Mas can go back and forth without getting tired.” I just nodded my head, without saying a word.  I was afraid my tears would fall.

“ Mas will take you home."

“ I took a taxi Mas, pity Mas muter-muter. “

“ Is it okay? It's okay,”

“ Excuse me yes...” just instructions excuse me his lips greet my lips, feel warm, deep and the tighter he hugs me.

It was as if this old meeting would never meet again. It makes my heart afraid. I want to give up what I have, so he won't leave me. Even if he goes far away, he still comes back to me. But my fear of my creator has always been an alarm in my senses.

“ Darling, has all the goods Mas?” he said softly, after being content to greet my lips.

“ Already, just take.”

“ Never get tired waiting for me. Make sure we're always together.” Mas Ferdian hugged me back, pecking my head gently. Warm and full of affection, that's what makes me comfortable.

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After the departure of Mas Ferdian yesterday I was working as usual, three days ago I returned to the campus. The night of the new day there was a time for telephonies with Mas Ferdian, it seemed like Mas Ferdian was really busy. There was no early-morning chat or lunch anniversary, as before.

“Ra, have you left yet?”

“Numbered, Bang.”

“Wait, I'll pick up.” Bang Ryco's phone connection is closed immediately.

“ Good thing I haven't booked a taxi yet. Why didn't I say from last night.” My gerutuku took a carry bag containing the items I would carry.

Before long Bang Ryco was already noisy outside the house honking his horn. I'm getting out soon. I saw the seat next to him empty.

“Bang, didn't you jump Erna? It really fits the condition for people dating.”

“He's coming tomorrow. Today there is an important event in his office.”

We drove to the company, there was already one big bus parked in front of the company. A sign that not all employees are coming, all I know is that the casual division with my division is coming.

“Bang, meaning not the whole of our floor right?” I asked while observing the faces of anyone who was seen.

“Anything is for Ra, who also chooses Mr Ryan. Who funded him. Maybe this is his farewell redemption for us first. Hehehe”

“Don't say that! Bang I was with you, huh?”

“ Can, I park first. Pity this my car will I find a warm place so as not to get cold for a few days here.”

“Ok.” Suddenly Mr. Ryan approached me taking me to the bus first.

 

“I'm looking forward to Bang Ryco, Sir.”

“Let me call him, let's go up first.” I just follow it, can't give it much. I followed Mr. Ryan from behind who was calling Ryco.

Mr. Ryan let me sit in the row of seat number four from the back row of the driver. I got on the bus without looking. Whoever occupies the seat I have passed I do not know.

“ You are near the window only,” I nodded,

“ Present, with him this I sit?” my inner. I took off my not-so-heavy carry bag, Mr. Ryan helped me put it in the middle of our seat. Without asking my consent, he decided we were sitting side by side.

“No problem right Ra we sit side by side?” I just smiled, confused as to what to answer.

“Luckily just now not so sitting with her, could be the widow of my flowers.” my inner while weaving my lips when Bang Ryco passed the chair where I was sitting. He got a seat in the second row from the back.

I was just quiet on the way, Mr. Ryan gave me 1 bluetooth headset. He looked at me at a close distance, winking so I could wear it immediately.

I got it

The journey you are now going through

I wish

Although heavy, you don't feel alone

You're fighting

Conquering your days is not easy

Let me accompany you

Wash your tired

Let me paint twilight

Carve your name there

Heard you tell a story

Crying, laughing

Let me paint a night

Bring you the stars

'Your friend's injured

Until you're happy

 

The lyrics of the song that played made my mind travel, “How should I be? Is this just a song or is there something behind the song?” I try to enjoy without being visibly distracted by the lyrics. Whether because it was too good to listen to slow mellow music or tired of thinking about how I should behave, I fell asleep in a dream.

I woke up because of the crowded contents of the bus that was jostling out to take their luggage. There was a jacket that covered the top of my body. I opened my eyes looking next to me, Mr. Ryan looked at me as if waiting for my eyes to open.

“Sorry Sir, I fell asleep.” I folded his jacket and gave it back.

“Not sleeping anymore, but deep in your long dream Ra.” I just smiled shyly listening to the answer.

“ Thank you, the jacket.” I picked up my carry bag and he started standing in line from the remaining people.

“ Be careful you are yes!” I read Bang Ryco's lips still in line in the back row of my chair. I just held onto my forehead, giving an answer from the movements of her lips that I caught.

Mr. Ryan let me in and protected me from behind as we were coming down the bus. Febrian noticed Ryan's attitude alone, not much complaining in the heart. Febrian just thinks, affection for his former men.

“ Many protectors yes Co.” Said Tari was still queuing behind Ryco.

“ It's nice a lot of protectors, but can be chili affair behind it.” Answer Ryco slowly.

“Kak Fer is jealous, if you know...waduh!" sahut Erna's in front of Ryco.

“Where is our bet, Co?” tanya Dance.

“I'll definitely win! You didn't hear what Erna said?”

“Listen, but I'm sure he won't come. I hear he's busy, he's a top brass at the company he works at. There's no way he's here anymore. Yesterday long ago, he was staying in our city.”

“But I'm sure, he will definitely come.”

“ Once sure. Or maybe you already got the leak?”

“Yes, just contact I don't know. We did eat together, but not to exchange numbers.”

“ Come yank... "id Erna stop the chat Dance and Ryco, prospective Dance just silently listened.

We had all gathered and listened to the instructions from the guide, we were going through a steep road to get to the location.

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By evening, we had just arrived at the location. Villa Hira rooms near Tari and Ryco rooms. A one-room dance with her boyfriend and Ryco. There are two beds in one room. Hira is alone, as if waiting for its inhabitants. Ryan's in line with Febrian. Tonight there's nothing to do just having dinner together. Maybe only devoted to rest after traveling a very long foot.

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The silence tonight, made me play a song and sing the lyrics in a clean, clean way,

Help me out of this void

Save my love from breaking my heart

Throw away the never-ending solitude

Free me from this situation

Perfect my life from the fragility of my soul

Someone has released me

Of this loneliness?

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The door to my room suddenly the key rang someone turned it from behind the door. Making my heart beat fast, the handle moving I closed my eyes enveloping my body.

"Who dares to open without permission to its inhabitants? O Allah, protect the servant."

Seriate....