Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 45

“Dik, have you scheduled a meeting?”

“Already, another two hours after lunch is finished in the ground floor meeting room. You should meet first Sister Rinna, and visit Mr. Agum. There is anything between you at least you still have tolerance. I think this is the right time, meetings you can use as an excuse not to linger.”

“It feels like there is something bad in my chest when talking about this.”

“Like girls only!”

“I'm serious, I don't know what's going on. From yesterday I felt bad, uncomfortable. Do’ me so that I survive in the circumstances that hit me.”

“I always mendo’akanmu Fer, your happiness will bring a lot of benefits for me. You're the one who's insensitive with me Fer.” Dika's face showed her disappointment.

“Alright, I will visit Mr. Agum first. Half an hour before the meeting, please save me. Telephone me, so I can escape immediately.”

“Ok. It's my job to remind you of your schedule, right? But don't blame me too if I forget, I'm having lunch with Ana." Ferdian just nodded and gave his thumb. Ferdian stood up and stepped out of his room.

“But I still hope you call me, anticipate if later I really can not get out of the state.”

“Alright! Although this is my duty but you never tolerate me, already know I will create a smile on your sister's face, you are still not understanding.”

“Sorry, prepare your ATM. Don't let me take a phone call from you because there's not enough balance. Hehehe.”

“Damn it! Are you warning me for my good or are you deliberately mocking me? Basic friends don't have your good reply huh?”

“Sorry, just be careful. Maybe Ana just tested you, you don't know, right?” Dika gawked at hearing Ferdian's words that might have a point as well.

“Truely too, yesterday Ana indeed directly warned me. But will he seriously drain my ATM?” gunam Dika slowly.

“Ah, I don't know.. I leave my fate to you O Allah. Fer, get ready.if my ATM is not qualified I hope you are willing to save my face. You still have my account number, right?” dika's face was clear, making Ferdian a little calm even though his feelings were mixed thinking about the surprise that would occur when facing Rinna later.

“Quickly you go, we even preoccupied chatting. Although close but you need time to organize your feelings right?” Ferdian nodded and immediately left Dika, who was busy cleaning up important files, locking his room and Ferdian's room.

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“How is Mr Agum? Sorry I was busy last night, don't know if you're calling. When I found out it was night. I'm afraid if it bothers you.” Ferdian reasoned with a calm countenance.

“It's okay Mas, Papa is still like this. Just this morning I was allowed in.”

“You're alone here? Or last night go home?”

“I've been here all night, if I go home maybe my mind is not calm either. Febrian's sister accompanied me, ''” Rinna said a little spoiled looking for Ferdian's attention.

“Thank God if anyone accompanies you. Where is Febrian now?” Ferdian seemed not to know if there was a Febrian on Rinna's side.

“Febrian sister came home to take a quick shower and all of you brought me a change of clothes.”

“Oh, maybe come back from there she's straight here. Thank goodness it was like that. From Rinna's attitude maybe Febrian didn't tell us anything. Thank goodness... I don't want to hurt Hira.” Inner Ferdian.

"I can't stay here long, there'll be an important meeting."

“Mas, how do you always avoid me? Feels like you were just avoiding me, after that incident you just met me this time and you are in a hurry to immediately disappear from my presence. How special he is that you always want not to be away from him.” Rinna said softly without looking at Ferdian who only looked at Mr. Agum who was lying in a hospital bed. Ferdian just silently did not answer a single bit of the words that Rinna complained before him.

“Mas, you remember if you still have an answer debt to Papa. When you left us first, you didn't give Papa a definite answer. Yesterday had crossed my mind, when Papa suddenly discussed wanting to calm down at his old age. Maybe he's waiting for your answer Mas,”

“Didn't I tell you, someone already occupies.”

“But Mas, I can't afford to lie to Papa to cover up your feelings that don't have the slightest feeling for me and I really can't without you. I've been waiting for you for a long time, ever since Papa introduced us and you've always been by my side I've been harboring feelings for you. Because I know you already have Emma's sister and I'm holding myself back Mas, not just yesterday Mas I fell for you. And also not only because of Papa Mas's encouragement, I want you to be my priest. From my heart I was really expecting you. If you can't afford not to leave it, that's okay. For Papa Mas's sake, for the rest of Papa Mas's life, I beg you, I plead with great (Rinna facing Ferdian staring at Ferdian's face with great compassion, Ferdian was still staring in the other direction regardless of Rinna staring at him ) Mas, marry me.”

“I really can't share my heart anymore, and I already said this when you asked me. It is impossible if I label my forehead with the word ‘ I already have a future wife, do not approach me’ and thank you you for having feelings for me so far like this. But I couldn't hurt her even if she wanted me to.” Ferdian turned to look at Rinna who was already covered in tears, without the sound of her tears flowing endlessly.

“I am not a man worthy of respect until a woman wants me to be with Rin,” Ferdian gives a handkerchief to Rinna, without having the desire to help Rinna wipe away the tears that flow on Rinna's face.

Behind the entrance was Febrian who stood, not so open the door handle when he heard Rinna's complaint pleading with hope.

“I want to help you my sister is beautiful, but I also don't want my loved ones to get hurt when I help you. Even if you get Ferdian even if you know Ferdian is loyal to his partner, you will not be happy. If Ferdian can stay with you, I can enter Hira's life. That would be my way with Hira, but it would hurt your feelings. Everyone will be hurt. Can't you just let it go, can't you just with the others. You can tell Uncle that you're in love with someone else. You can ask for my help to convince Uncle. But you've never told me anything up until now. You're just solid with your feelings for Ferdian. Yes I know in your eyes Ferdian is a perfect man and I also admit that. But if it's like this you can hurt yourself and others.” The still silent Febrian spirits listened to the conversation of those in the room.

“But for me this is the way out. Maybe I'm the one who deserves to be second in your heart Mas, no matter how sick I will live. I promise I won't hurt him, I know if you plant a stake in the company where Mas works. And that, you can make an excuse to visit there to cover from all the thoughts of people in this city. How?”

“Oh, O God, this is the surprise you gave me. You put me in a difficult choice. I am not lulled by the treasure they offer, but the man who lies before me. The filial piety of a princess who begged me, which in fact she was a woman who was crumbling with treasures no less than a little even almost perfect just can not take care of the affairs of the stomach alone, just can not take care of the stomach, praying expectantly in front of me like this makes my heart ache. Though nothing harms me from every word spoken to me”

“Iya hello, Dik."

“Boss it's time to meet, you're not lulled by comfort right? It seems like there is no movement from you alone to get out of there immediately!”

“Yes, yes I'll be there soon."

“Damn you Fer!”

“All right, I'll be on my way.”

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“When you warn me, soon the meeting will begin. I'll leave now.” Pamit Ferdian to Rinna doesn't seem to want to discuss Rinna's request.

“Mas, I hope when Papa realizes you can give an answer. Consider what I say, I am really begging you Mas.”

“Don't be like this, you are too valuable to behave like this. If anyone listens to her as if I am a very perfect and proud person Rin, until it makes you beg me.”

“Indeed you are a perfect person in my eyes Mas, a great fortune if you can be by your side Mas."

“I say goodbye, take care of your health too. Don't let you fall. The company needs you, because you're the owner. You have to think of the thousands of employees who depend there.”

“Instead I beg you for that reason also Mas, me and the company that has thousands of employees depend on you.”

“I really should go Rin soon, sorry.” Ferdian stepped towards the door, though,

“Eh, Fer... already want to go? It's been a while?” Febrian pretense just arrived at the hospital, Febrian immediately held a handle opening the door when she heard Ferdian's move leaving Rinna.

“Yes, already from earlier. I'm going to a meeting. Thank you yes,” said Ferdian while patting Febrian's arm.

“Yes, it's okay. Indeed it should be, later coffee with me mumpung here.” Febrian.

“Okey, just call.”

“You'll have to tell me first, Boss. You are busy.” Febrian's voice returned with a pat on Febrian's shoulder.

“Ok,” Ferdian left Mr. Agum's room, only his perfume scent was left behind.

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“Ih... It looks like someone has finished crying?” febrian ridicule looked at Rinna's face closely scrutinizing, as if ignorant of the discussion between Ferdian and Rinna.

“What, anyway Brother!”

“Try to avoid it! No need for you to ignore my existence which always opens time and heart to complain about you.”

“No punches!” Rinna put her lips against Febrian's face.

“I know I can't solve the problems you're facing right away, but at least you can't handle it yourself. Can help your heart a little more relief.” Febrian clucked Rinna's still-manyuning forehead in front of Febrian, making Rinna stroke her forehead.

“I want to take a shower, brother, maybe this will help me more. This handsome brother of mine only adds to my pain.” Rinna still stroked her forehead, leaving Febrian to advise her.

“Huh..Your little princess uncle is a grown-up, tough-ass face to all this. But the dam was no longer strong enough to contain the tears it hid. Sorry Uncle I am not wise to behave, attach importance to my own interests to not care about you guys.” Gunaman Febrian beside the bad where Pak Agum lay.

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