Not Just a Shadow

Chapter 51

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From anywhere Fer, I searched everywhere I could not find!” Dika followed Ferdian into his room.

“Whose fault, gini day search everywhere! Fast phone only no solution.” Ferdian sat in his great chair.

“I think, there are many things you need to do but you just stay mojok for a while, still in a company area this big to joke with the owner of your heart.

“Boro-boro joked, until now I have not called it. He hasn't even replied to my chat!”

“Maybe he already has a bad feeling times Fer! You know for yourself that he is a sensitive person, I told you yesterday that you should talk to him directly, deliberation to him.”

“Crazy! Crazy one! (Ferdian responded to Dika's suggestion full of emotion) It was a crazy idea in my opinion Dik, (the tone has started to decline, the tone of his speech has started to decline, inner Ferdian was really shaken ) had things really pinched me and made me marry Rinna I'd rather be a selfish man. Bad man in his eyes, I don't want him to forget me, forget all the memories that exist between us. I love him Dik, I really can't stand this situation.” Ferdian let out his tears, sobbing feeling the tightness in his chest. I feel unable to hold back everything I feel.

“Now I just call it I don't dare Dik, let alone to meet him. How should I stand? My legs feel limp to stand.” Ferdian gasped for breath in speech, aching in his chest, imagining Hira's smile that he would tear down after carving sweet promises in his heart.

“I... I really can't Dik, what should I do? Or do you want to replace me? It's definitely not possible, right? Because you're in love with my sister. That's how I feel right now. How many treasures are presented how high the rank I will sit, I am not surprised by all of them. I just want my love, and Hira doesn't want luxury to make her happy. Then what reason should I give him? I'm sure no one wants to be cheated on, brother. There ain't! Even if that person has many flaws! No one wants to be cheated.” Ferdian exhaled a breath that seemed rough in the ear. How much pain he endured.

“Seeing people we love talking to other men only hurts especially if they have to be cheated when married. I can't imagine Dik!” he complained again with an empty look after sighing. Dika is still sad face to hear what his best friend complained.

“Uh... What fate do you bear this Fer...Fer... so successful and handsome people are not as good as people imagine. When people look, they crave life as you live it but they never know what responsibility and risks lie behind it.”

"Now you're talking like a drunk, drinking Fer bottles, it's sad. Seeing you like this it feels like my heart is hurting. People like you can be like this." Inner Dika. Closer to Ferdian patting Ferdian's shoulder strengthened his heart, without being able to speak.

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“Ra, Co... I went home first already picked up my father... Bye...” Mbak Tari went home first. Makes me listen to Bang Ryco's sigh of relief. Makes me think a lot.

“As if I was cheating on Bang Ryco and afraid of being caught. Until you have to hide like this.” My inner.

“Ra, why? How come you're so dumb, Ra! Let's go home!”

“Again Bang Ryco pulled me by force as if I was going to reject him. Hopefully no one saw, maybe if anyone saw I don't know what they think saw all this.” Inwardly, it made me look left-right to find out if anyone had seen us.

“Bang Patience! Why such a rush!” Bang Ryco clasped my hand into the elevator.

“Udah just shut up! Hunt you many excuses and run away!” bang Ryco replied without letting go of his hand.

“Yes not, it's also for my benefit. It is precisely I who troubles you in this.” I tried to make him believe and raise his hand so that Bang Ryco would let go.

“Ok” Ryco raises both hands in surrender.

“Thank you, Brother.”

“Bang, are we safe? Know ngak?”

“What?”

“I feel like I just cheated on you.”

“Ngawur!”bang Ryco snapped at my head mercilessly making my head covered in a veil I elus-elus in pain.

“Sick, Brother!”

“Means if talking filtered if your own talking like that later what says the person who saw it?” I just put my lips together.

Bang Ryco let me walk out of the elevator first. In front of the elevator I accidentally saw Nadia who was waiting for someone.

“Good afternoon Ma'am Nad.”

“Sore, home Ra?”

“Iya, Ma'am. I first yes...” I know a little about the good and friendly Nadia.

“Iya, please. Careful, Ra.” I left where Madam Nadia was standing, Bang Ryco walked first when I greeted Madam Nadia.

“Bang, already not afraid if I run away?” I said as he aligned with his steps.

“So you convinced me,” said Bang Ryco with a smile making me smile.

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“What drink order first, Ra?” ask Ryco bang after occupying our favorite seat when it needs privacy.

“Ayo Ra, order immediately. What do you want to drink? Eat it later first.”

“Yes, yes I know. Nothing is free in this world. I have to sell my story first I just got a bonus meal. Hehehe.” Bang Ryco pinched my nose.

“What happened Bang, want to drag the aura of a tired repellent on the head and heart.”

“If it's not in this cafe Ra.”

“Means?” my question was answered with Bang Ryco's lips were woven while literate.

“Ih... “ I clenched a tissue, I threw it in Bang Ryco's face.

“Lha keep what? Is that a tired repellent on the head and heart?”

“Coffee Bang! Or you just go back to Erna's house! Brother's mind is already unhealthy.”

“Idih...idih... Brother's sister, so just angry bring others into the arena again!”.

“Capucino warm!”

“It's safe his stomach? Avocado juice without ice only, ok?”

“If determined why should nawari? Uh.. “

“Let's sound more polite, dedek.” I rolled my eyeballs hearing Bang Ryco's words.

“Continue what was it?”

“Gini, Madam Emma once told me that the point is that I have to withdraw because Mas Ferdian has been betrothed to the subsidiary of the Company Owner where he lives, right? (Bang Ryco was listening to my story) and Emma's mother was warning me again, to wait for the day it would prove. And yesterday Mr. Ryan said Mr. Febrian was leaving with a family business permit and Brother also said the same this morning, even Brother said Mr. Febrian awaits the development of his uncle. As long as you know, his uncle Pak Febrian is his father Mbak Rinna who owns the company that Mas Ferdian works for. Mr. Febrian is Mbak Rinna's cousin.” I took a breath pausing my story making Bang Ryco sigh so deeply.

“Bang, which was my thought when I found out. And Mas Ferdian who had no news at all made me think, he was with her Bang, or maybe he had just resumed his marriage. Moreover, his father Mbak Rinna is in such a critical state.” I sobbed without me noticing, the tighter Bang Ryco's grip the firmer my cries.

“Sutt, sutt, sutt.. I know Ra, it's tough and it's really tough times. You know the best place to share a story. That's all I can do for you. You calm your heart first, your mind, I will try to think.. Drink this,” Bang Ryco brought the juice closer to me, patting my hand that I held on the table slightly shaking withstanding the pain in my chest.

“I want to ask you, but you're not offended? I hope you answer with a calm heart and think broad.” Bang Ryco asked me after being silent for so long, I just nodded giving him an answer. My heart skipped a beat staring at the serious Bang Ryco as he spoke.

“If only, (Bang Ryco looked at me while patting my hand that was still clasped on the table ) if only… (i nodded my head still looking into Bang Ryco's hesitant eyes to say ) in case Ferdian takes a step to feed you how?” I was still confused, gawking, unthinkable in my mind something like this would really happen even though I once told Mas Ferdian if it would not be discovered if Mas Ferdian was double, then, because of his work that must be served out of town for days.

“Hai...hai... don't keep blank that dong! (Bang Ryco waving his fingers in front of my eyes made me aware of what I was thinking ) What action will you take Ra?” I still can't answer what Bang Ryco is asking.

“Ok, I know Ferdian loves you very much but we don't know what happened there? The situation that made him squashed was possible! You've been thinking that, haven't you?” my tears couldn't stand it, flowing endlessly on my own making my hands busy wiping it off the hands of Bang Ryco who had been perched on my hands.

“I don't want to hurt another woman's heart, Bang. I'll step back.” I said it with conviction and conviction.

“Not want to hurt other people Bang, but I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm not a woman of steel heart, I can't let my loved ones share her love. But... “ after a long talk, I remembered both my parents.

“But what, Ra?”

“I suddenly remembered my parents Bang, what would I tell him huh? I have to how?”

“Ya just say if it has broken up there are those who might not be able to be together anymore.”

“But Bang.. “ I stared at Bang Ryco full of words in my eyes, until Bang Ryco noticed it. He sharpened his gaze until his head moved, staring at me demanding further my words.

“My parents are waiting for the day of certainty Mas Ferdian.”

“Due of certainty?”

“Actually Mas Ferdian has officially proposed to me in front of my parents Bang!” Bang Ryco instantly looked at my finger, as if asking ‘what is it!’ I just nodded just confirming his gaze.

“Oh Lord! If it's like that, how do you?” bang Ryco's tone wasn't as smooth as it was, he seemed to have been irritated by me. He threw away my face as if I had betrayed him.

“Then from that I was confused, Bang!”

“Eat first!” his tone rules, scares me, goes awry in front of him.

“It's been dizzy with my problem. Bang Ryco is like this!” my inner.

“Sorry, brother is angry because I didn't tell you about Mas Ferdian's proposal?”

“Hmm” Sound Silence between us, I focus with my food ordered by Bang Ryco. He ate with a face that was still irritated.

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