Evelyn's Regret

The Forty Six

"What should I do Ra, Noah refuses to discuss the past. How do I express my feelings?"

Eve does as she pleases while calling her best friend. He actually did not feel good to contact his best friend this late, lucky Aira really understands him.

"Slow down Ve, because the problem is not that simple. The source of the problem is not you, it would be easier if Noah kept sick for what you did first, you could struggle desperately to apologize. But the problem is not that, it has to do with Noah himself. Noah just considers the root of the problem is in him, You have to grow his confidence that you will be happy with him." Evelyn heard an explanation from Aira.

"Am I giving it up Ra" The feeling of a panic that filled her brain made Evelyn unable to filter her speech.

"Yes give it up if you are tired. Though just starting" Cebik Aira anxious.

"Jerah and run away again if you believe you can let go and forget our feelings for Noah. But if the edges fail to move on again, you are just a waste of time" continued Aira again.

"So I have to" said Eve, wiping away the rough tears that ran down her cheeks.

"Loose and slow. Cultivate the belief in Noah that only he can bring you happiness"

"But is Noah really like this because he is like the assumption of Sjahira and you? if actually Noah behaved like this because he did not love me how?"

"Yes gave it up" Aira chuckled, especially hearing Evelyn's desperate cries.

"So I give it up, but pity Cilla if I give up. He can't be far from me Ra, strangely I'm too heavy to leave him"

"Follow your heart Ve" said Aira softly, Eve knew the girl was very sleepy.

"Yes, thank you for beating me. You are my best friend. Play here sometime dong. Take Darrel too"

"Iya Ve I'll try to get Darrel"

"Okay bye Aira"

Evelyn disconnected her phone connection. The girl was silent for a moment, her mind glaring. Strengthening his heart to pursue Noah again, this time he will not run away again.

****

"Eve where's ma?"

Noah, who had just arrived from the office, looked surprised when he did not see the girl, while Cilla seemed happy to play with her babby sitter.

"Why kangen?" Temptation of the mother who made Noah wrong.

"Lately Cilla usually does not want to separate from him, but that I see Cilla again playing the same mbaknya." Today Noah came home early because there wasn't much work.

"So Eve took a moment out, met her friend. Coincidentally Cilla again good mood so okay time Eve said there was no excessive drama as usual"

"That means Cilla uda is not too dependent on Eve ya ma, it's good if Eve left Cilla all right" said Noah, he brushed off his feelings that like not willing to imagine Evelyn back away.

"You still love Evelyn, don't you, son?" The mother's question made Noah flinch.

"Mom what the fuck, how the hell is it" Noah smiled wryly.

"To be honest with yourself Noah, up to this moment your love for Evelyn has never changed, has it?"

"Ma, Noah's not a teenager anymore. Noah is Shahira's husband, Cilla's father. It's not worth it to ask that question." Said Noah, turning his face away.

"What's the relationship?"

"Noah meant, it was no longer time to discuss Noah's feelings with this condition. Uda doesn't matter, now Noah's priority is Cilla's happiness and future"

Noah replied firmly.

"But some of Cilla's happiness lies with Evelyn son, she needs Eve's whereabouts" Noah stared in protest at her mother

"Cilla's Noah's responsibility, don't burden Evelyn ma. As Noah always said Evelyn had the right to decide her own life"

"But if Evelyn wants her how? Evelyn still loves you. He also loved Cilla sincerely, try to go back with her" Noah chuckled at his mother's words.

"Ma, Evelyn's a beautiful girl, nice, and like you said, she's sincere. Therefore he deserves a man who can make him happy. She couldn't have loved Noah"

"You're also a good and responsible man, son" Mama Noah couldn't accept Noah humbling himself like that.

"But Noah can't make Eve happy, Noah's love only hurts her. Noah couldn't love her in a normal way. Noah doesn't want to make Evelyn suffer the way Noah loves her. Noah's not the right guy for Eve. Therefore Noah chose to bury and forget about Noah's feelings" the man insisted.

"But you didn't manage to forget Noah, mama knows that. You still love him but try to deny him. It hurts you, try talking to Evelyn, you should know how she feels about you. If Eve doesn't love you there's no way she's staying here for Cilla"

"Let Evelyn be with Satria or another man who can love her properly ma. Noah did not want to take her in misery. Noah doesn't want to be selfish, Noah just wants his happiness and Evelyn's happiness isn't with Noah"

Mama Noah was stunned to see her son, only this time he saw a flash of deep wounds in Noah's eyes. He did not expect Noah to secretly cover up his own pain.

"Evelyn was the first girl to win Noah's heart, Eve colored Noah's world so beautifully. But Noah grasped it so tightly that he felt pain. It turns out that Noah's love hurts her ma, how can Noah continue to force himself to be with Eve while the love Noah has only inflicted pain for Evelyn? noah's love is so great for her, but Noah's love hurts not protects. That love can never be lost in Noah's heart, but Noah can be lost from Evelyn's life, that's the only way that Evelyn doesn't suffer" Noah's heart felt tight, everything he kept tight now opened.

"Because of that Noah even ignored Shahira's last message asking Noah to return to Evelyn. Let Noah take sin on Shahira for not being able to fulfill his trust, it was better for Noah than to have to hurt Evelyn"

The mother gaped at Noah, losing the word to refute any speech that slid from her son's lips.

"Evelyn's happiness is Noah's strength in living life ma, It's okay even if not with Noah. Don't bring Evelyn into Noah's life again, pity him"

Close Noah while wiping off his tears. For him all done, his task was done when he released Evelyn 5 years ago. Saving as much as possible her feelings for Evelyn was the same as closing all the doors of the girl's suffering.