About the Heart

Your pain

Maya PoV

"Mas Ren," I'm holding Mas Rendra's arm.

I saw clearly, how your expression changed, as it turned from before Mas Rud. I caught a grain of tears beginning to be born from the end of your eye.

"Look down, Dion will take care of Rosa" Mas Rendra calmed me down.

"Rud, you should be able to keep your word!" Mas Rendra was angry.

"I'm just talking facts" Mas Rud replied casually.

"That's a painful fact for Rosa! you know, that," Mas Rendra explained.

"it's better for her!" said Mas Rud as he left.

*****

Dion PoV's

The footsteps that were walking in front of me suddenly fell staggering. Yes .. I made it lying down.

"Don't come again, if it'll just make her cry!" my voice sounded along with a punch towards the face of the man lying down.

"Isn't that what you told me?" the man opened my memory.

"I'm gone, but you're coming!" my victim defended herself while swinging a counter blow to my face.

"How dare you leave a wound on him!" I came back ready to punch, but then I ended my punch to the ground.

"My hands are too precious! I won't break it down just for a cool guy like you!" I then stood up.

"Don't look your face again in front of Rosa! Or, don't blame me, if you're going to experience more than this!" threaten me and leave my grimacing victim enduring the pain.

Blood flowed from both corners of her lips. My victim then removed the red stain and walked away leaving the sadistic background.

*****

"Where are you, Di?" I caught Dion's overflowing emotions.

He got out of the car for a while and after 15 minutes came back with angry eyes.

"I beat up your ex!" dion said as he ruffled his hair.

"What do you mean? Why are you doing all that?" manyu.

"Nobody can make you cry in front of me!" Dion gave me an excuse.

"But you don't have to do that, Di!" I held her arm hoping to dampen her emotions a little.

"I can't see you crying!" Dion positioned his seat to face me.

Gently, she wiped away the remaining tears that were still wetting my cheeks.

"Looking at you crying is more painful than this!" Dion pointed at the bruise on the tip of his lips.

"This is not the name you beat him up! But you're dueling!" I said while picking up the medicine box that was in Dion's car.

Slowly, I treated the wound that made it seem to be experiencing that pain.

"Where is Mas Rud? That worse?" I asked while treating his wound.

Dion brushed off my hand and turned her body towards the wheel.

"Here, I'm medicine!" I said while touching his face.

"Can ya, Sa, you want her to be with me?" dion's tone was high.

I stopped my activities to treat him.

"That's not what I mean!" I gave an excuse.

Dion turned his face out the window to his right. He looked at the distance while holding his breath.

"Di, sorry about what I said! I just want to make sure you don't get in trouble after this. It's not that I care about her more than you do," I softened my voice.

Dion shifted his gaze straight ahead.

"Do you think I'm angry because you're more worried about her than I am?" Dion turned his head for a while towards me and returned to his straight gaze.

I put my ear to hear his explanation.

"I'm usually hurt because of you! But I won't be able to, if you keep getting hurt because of him!" Dion explained.

Jamba!

That expression of Dion's feelings was really raining right at the heart of my heart.

Commonly injured because of me?

That word sounded even more hurtful, from the sentence that said I was crying again because of Mas Rud.

I put my head on his left shoulder. Wanted to say the word, but I was afraid I would go back to injuring him. At least in this way, Dion could sense that I was taking it as a place to return to. It sounded sad to her, but that was what she wanted.

"Don't do anything that would make me like this again!" Dion stroked my hair with his right hand.

"I'm sorry, I!" I looked up my head in his eyes.

Dion was still staring straight ahead, only his gaze began to shade.

"I don't need your apology! I just need your smile!" Dion showed his smile as he looked at me.

I nodded and returned his smile.

*****

Feelings ....

Enthroned sweet in a vacuum called the heart.

He has no mouth, but he can speak.

Sjssstttt ....

Listen out!

Listen to me, there's a scream from a heart at the end of there!

I realized you were looking at me.

I know you expect a smile from me.

But ....

I-i'm sorry!

I can't give you what you want, which is what I really want.

I have to pretend to be happy without you.

I know it hurts so much.

I'm not just hurting myself.

But I hurt you, who I never really wanted to hurt.

Do you know, baby?

I had to put a damper on the turmoil in my heart.

I was forced to lock my neck so I couldn't look at your face.

I had to stab my eyes, so that they couldn't find your beautiful eyes.

It really hurt me!

Love ....

I miss so much the sweet smile that adorns your lips.

I've always dreamed of your crisp laugh that used to play in my ear.

And I'm really crazy, because you can't afford to indulge in the twinkling of your eyes anymore.

Do you think I'm okay, when I have to watch you join hands with her entering the room?

I want to run and get you out of it!

But honey!

I'm weak!

I can't do that!

Do you think I can see you constantly with him?

Do you think I'm handing you back to him?

Actually not!

Absolutely not!

I'm just a fragile man who has to keep pretending to be strong in front of you!

Until I didn't realize I hurt you with my words.

I saw clearly how you were theatrical about greeting me with your sweet smile.

I know your heart was crying at the time.

I know I'll cry if it gets closer to us.

That's my only way to keep us from getting hurt.

I hurt you

Again and again

I saw you turn from before me with tears beginning to fade in the corner of your eye.

I know your heart broke at that moment!

And I also felt my broken heart.

I'm back to hurting you.

Seeing you get hurt and that wound he treated.

She was!

Not me!

I can no longer control my feelings.

I quickly moved out of this situation.

But the punch suddenly hit my face.

Those words made me realize that he really is your guardian.

He took you back from me, because I made you cry.

I'm sick!

But I'm happy!

I'm relieved that he will always take care of you from the cruelty of my heart

Let me bleed!

Bloody heart!

And also bleeding from the blow

The blood on both corners of my lips is sore.

But my heart aches more when I see the tears that fall from your eyes.

And that's because of me

Honey, I'm sorry!

I can't keep my promise to always be with you!

But, there will be 1 promise to you that I make someday.

And I hope you understand everything.

Rosalia Citra Atmadja

Iloveyou!