About the Heart

My Heart Decision

"Pursue it if your heart is still his!"

The sound surprised me. Immediately I turned my head and found Dion standing behind me. The look on his face was flat like Mas Rud, painting an almost similar feeling. The chaos of feeling comes from one name called love. A taste triangle that has sides that each tell about a complex love. It has to come down to one point but in fact sometimes still glance at the other side.

I looked at his face without expression. Makes me sure he saw everything. Especially with his command line that really makes me feel slapped and thrown from his heart. Is he tired of my ever-changing heart?

"I'll stay here!" I pressed my sentence to make her sure that I chose her anyway.

"Think about! Before he leaves and you will regret it. I'll take you to see him, come on!" he said no less convincing. Trying to be tough when I am sure if his heart is at the weakest point.

I hold his fingers. "I'm not going anywhere!" once again I give you the assurance that my heart still chooses it.

Didn't expect Dion to let go of my grasp. It's not something he's ever done with me. Does this mean if he begins to undermine his belief to end our story?

"Come in, not here! It's not good to see people," Dion stepped in and left me still staring.

She had already disappeared from my sight the moment I entered the living room. He was so angry he wouldn't talk to me. I decided to go back to my room, break my body. I actually wanted to rest my mind for a moment, but it felt really hard. Finally I forced my eyes to close, leading myself to a dream that was either bad or beautiful.

Time was approaching when I woke up from my sleep. It feels very lazy to immediately throw yourself under the shower. Kuraih HPku and check if there is a message coming in. My mom called me an hour ago. That's it, no other message there.

"Ma, you called Rosa, what's wrong?" I asked as soon as Mama picked up the phone.

"You want to marry Dion?" mama to the Point.

"Kok, Mama asked that?" I felt strange about my mother's question.

"So Dion's phone, ask Mama, if you guys married siri first how?" obviously Mama's still confusing me why Dion asked that.

"Continue?" kukorek Mama's answer.

"Mama gave it all to you guys" Mama said, agreeing with Dion's wishes.

Wh-tok-tok!

The sound of knocking on the door finally made me hang up. I heard Mami's voice calling my name. Soon I opened the door and Mami revealed her sweet smile.

"Just woke up, huh?" ask Mami who I answered with a sweet smile.

"May Mami come in?" pinta Mami because I only opened half the door did not let Mami in. I opened the door wider, shifted my body and invited Mami to step in.

Mami sat on the edge of my bed. "You guys got into a fight?"

I felt so clumsy that I kept standing near Mami. Lowering my head, I had no power to look Mami in the eye. "The wrong sin, Mi."

"It doesn't matter who's wrong, all you have to do is talk to each other" Mami said as she patted the side of the bed next to her allowing me to sit down.

"Dion's avoiding Rosa, Mi," I'm honest.

"He is so when he is angry, it takes time to calm himself. Later you will also talk, find a way out. You're patient, yes, son!" Mama explained the nature of her son.

I nodded my head, confirming everything Mami explained. Little by little I understood the nature of the man. Before this, he had already silenced me when I was jealous.

"Yes, you take a shower, soon magrib! Later you come with us for dinner, yes," said Mama stroked my hair and went out of the room.

*****

After dinner, Mami, Mami and Mommy Sharika are still struggling in the dining room. Clean up dirty food and dishes to immediately move to the sink. I washed all the dirty dishes.

"Your sister hasn't come back yet, Shar?" Mami asked Ma'am Sharika who was cleaning the table.

"You fought Rud's problem?" Ma'am Sharika to the point asked me the base of my problem without being awkward even though there was Mami.

"Yes, Ma'am," I honestly finished the job and chose to sit on the dining table chair.

"What else, anyway?" korek Mbak Sharika followed sitting next to my chair.

"I'm wrong, Ma'am. Can't move on from Mas Rud. Last afternoon Dion saw me looking at Mas Rud's departure from the porch, "my story is like what happened without me adding or subtracting.

Brother Sharika took a long breath. "Are you not actually married to Dion? If you're still fickle with your feelings, don't give hope! Let alone Dion, I also can't accept that you're still struggling with your past."

Mami approached us, warming the mood of Mama Sharika who began to be provoked by emotions. "Shar, you don't talk like that. As a brother, you should help find a way out of their problems instead of getting worse."

"All decisions are in Rosa, Mi. Why does he stay with Dion if in fact his feelings are still the same Rud," Sharika's emotional turmoil increasingly tempestuous.

Sentence after sentence Sharika made me feel even more guilty. Everything he said was true. I am indeed the root of this endless matter. "Would Rosa go back to Jakarta, only, Mi?" my words while looking down.

"You want to run from trouble, Sa?" madam Sharika's message was full of judgment.

Wasn't it! Not like that! I just don't want to make this thing go away.

"If you want this problem not to drag on, we will solve this problem tomorrow. We as parents will interfere with your problems. Because your relationship is not just a courtship, but is one step away from marriage. Now you rest, boy!" said Mami while holding me in her arms.

I follow Mami's request. Leaving behind Brother Sharika who was still angry with the doubt of my love for her beloved sister. And also left Mami who gave me warm support like a mother to her child.

*****

Lying my body on the bed, trying to be able to immediately rest my body soul. But in fact my mind that continues to struggle with the problems I face cannot be reconciled. The shadow about Dion's expression was able to shed Mas Rud's expression that had always bothered my mind.

Eyes that I could not close, finally made me decide to call Mama.

"What's wrong?" asked Mama when I was silent even though my phone had been picked up some time.

"Dion was angry with Rosa, Ma," I finally started to confide in Mama.

"Responsibility with something you've chosen!" mother's advice is like already knowing what problems we are experiencing.

"How is it, Ma? Rosa wants Dion to believe that Rosa chose her," I said.

"Hurry married! It seems like with just that, you can forget about Rud," Mama's advice that made me even more familiar with the word today, getting married.

"Is there no other way than to get married, Ma?" I'm looking for a second opinion.

Be married? That's something I can't start anytime soon. Besides because my heart is not 100% ready, marriage also takes a short time to prepare.

"Married in the near future or mengikhlaskan he married someone else. That's your choice, now. Think about it maturely! Mama hang up the phone first" Mama said before ending the conversation.

I exhale heavily. Want to thin out the problem but instead thicken the mind. What steps should I take? Do I have to get married this fast? Is it true that if I marry Dion I can forget Mas Rud?

*****

Hi Readers "About the Heart"! Let's not go on because Rosa is fickle, just want to read the novel has this author, deh!