About the Heart

Finding a Way Out

My heart was completely muddled in the face of a situation that left me unable to think clearly. I haven't managed to convince Dion of the choice, but he has deliberately heated me up with another woman.

"You, jealous?" the voice I recognized as Mama's was suddenly in front of me.

I turned my gaze and immediately burst into his arms. "Mama," I said gently as if to find a place to shed all the burdens that hold me back.

"You, jealous?" Mama repeated her question. "Dion was more jealous when he saw you with Rud," explained Mama then who made me think about what had happened between me and Mas Rud the past few days.

That kiss, his embrace during the photo session and his gaze before leaving, was more than enough to make Dion's jealousy overflow. And I casually repeat again and again the scenes that can trigger it to happen. It was only fitting that Dion's jealousy reached its peak.

"Sa, how, even invited to chat here? Mama's been invited in, dong!" mami's voice broke my daydream.

The two women hugged each other while smiling perfectly. With familiarity, as if he had known each other for a long time. Mommy lets Mama in and I follow behind them.

I left them chatting in the living room. Preparing two cups of warm lemon tea to accompany them told me and Dion for sure. Why would Mama come after me if not for an important matter. And I think Dion and I are the most important thing you have to find a way out of right now.

Put one cup on Mami's front desk and another on Mama's front desk. "Please drink Mi, Ma!"

I sat down, shared a couch with Mama. Tacit. I'll listen to what they're gonna talk about.

"When do we get them married, jeng?" suddenly, Mami was discussing marriage.

Are you sure that there will be a holy bond? Dion is doubting me right now. And maybe now he's picking up some other woman to take my place. I lowered my head, I was afraid to let them down. I was afraid that Dion would end our relationship.

"When are you ready to be Mommy's child, honey?" mami asked with a teasing smile.

"Ask the same Dion, aja, Mi, still want not the same Rosa?" answer me for what it is.

My mother rubbed my head gently. "You're afraid Dion left you? That's not gonna happen. Last night he could not sleep because he was accompanied by you," explained Mama.

A timing? Time, anyway, Mi? Iyeakah? Did ya? Really? I want to touch Mami with all those questions. But Dion's attitude that he showed earlier, made me doubt Mami's confession. Maybe Mama just pleases my heart. Yeah .. it looks like it.

"Dion gave up Mi, just yesterday she told Rosa to chase Mas Rud," I told her heartily.

"Actually, whose heart is it for, Sa?" My mom is introspective about my feelings.

Of course for Dion. Merely, there was a hint of rudimentary flavor missing for Mas Rud. That's why I'm confused about how to explain it. If I'm honest, how do they respond? That lie? Ah ...

"Tuh, right, Mi, Rosa still love Rud," tap Dion's hammer who never returned.

She was sitting next to her mom, right in front of me. He crossed his legs while his hands were ready in front of his chest.

"Jeng, we leave them both, yuk! Let them fight until satisfied," said Mami while standing from her seat and followed by Mama behind her. They walked outside the house leading to Eyang's house.

I'm still silent, and so is Dion.

"We, just break up! Please choose, I'm breaking up or you're killing me?" dion asked me to make a choice.

"I ..," I didn't finish my sentence but he hurriedly cut it off.

"All right, I accept you broke up. Now please come back Rud. Tomorrow I take you and Mama back to Jakarta," he said, then immediately move from his seat.

"I .. don't want us to break up" I explained before he could step foot.

He stopped the step he was about to reach. "I don't want to be a shadow lover" Dion said.

"Have you got my replacement?" my search.

Dion drew closer to me, took the place next to me. "If you're looking for a replacement when I'm still there, then I can do it too."

A vendetta? Is that what he's doing now? Oh ... how cruel he is!

"If I have your replacement, why am I still here?" I looked at her with tears in her eyes.

"Ask your own heart! Come to me when you can decide!" firmly Dion while grabbing the keys of the motorbike on the table and out of the house with a look of unfriendly face.

Stunned I saw his departure. Is this the pain he felt when he no longer felt loved wholeheartedly? Maybe the song there's a band "Half Heart" can represent the feeling, yesterday Dion's feeling and now is my feeling.

*****

Papi put an invitation on Dion's front desk. "You must come to represent Papi!" papi's orders later.

Dion took the invitation and immediately opened it. Mr. Raymond Weil, CEO of MANGO Corporate, was the name of the groom-to-be who invited him. "Why didn't Papi attend?"

"Because the one who got married was young, so the one who deserved to come was you," explained Papi while sipping coffee in his cup.

"Son, ah, Pi. Let Mas Dito, yes. All the while Sharika's mother took Arrki on the way to London," Dion continued to resist.

"Anyway, you!" Papi did not accept rejection.

"If you go there, you have to bring a partner, Pi." said Dion.

"Bring a partner, it's a hassle!" seloroh Mami with ease.

Dion let out a rough breath. "The pair, nothing, Mi. Who'd you take?" sindir Dion glanced at me sharply.

I am like an unregarded lover. Real in front of the eyes even said nothing. The nyeseknya go everywhere.

"You guys, still marahan? Talk to both! One hour back here, set your wedding date" Papi exclaimed.

Nothing's going on, neither me nor Dion. Just look at each other and watch them both.

"If you're not on the hunt to go, Papi get married now!" threatening Papi that finally made us leave the soft sofa we were sitting on.

*****

"You want me to marry you?" dion asked the point after we both just sat in the living room.

"You!" answer me without thinking.

Dion shifted her body and looked at me meaningfully. He didn't seem to expect my quick answer. A deheman he voices to cover a feeling he wants to cover. "Geez, niesel?" tanyanya wants to make sure.

"Faster is better," I myself was confused as to why the sentences suddenly slid from my mouth just like that.

Not that I'm sorry but honestly I'm relieved. If I force myself to talk, I can't say all that. Now, Dion is the one who's inflamed. All my answers seemed to be beyond her expectations. "Can you love me completely?"

"I can't see you with another woman, my heart hurts," I obviously didn't give an answer to the question she asked.

"I as your fiancee also do not accept that you are with another man" Dion said, reversing my confession.

"We love each other" I explained.

"I love you with all my heart, but you don't" she said, which made me recall everything that had triggered our quarrel.

"I love you," I'm making the most of a loving expression.

"And love him too" he said, which unfortunately was a reality.

A reality that I did not deny the truth for some time. But I deny it for now. I've decided to love Dion with all my heart. He is trying and will keep trying to make her the only one.

"Why silence?"

*****

Rosa will make Mas Rud a love of the past, like the story of this one temen author novel, please stop by, yes!

Mas Rud as the past, and Dion was always there to be a place to lean. Thus, similar to the novel below, please visit while waiting up Dion and Rosa every 0.00 WIB!