About the Heart

Assessments

On the way home, the condition of my heart was better than before when I left. Meeting Dion wasn't as scary as I imagined. Although it had rumbled, in fact my heart could be relieved after being able to talk to him.

"Can you smile?" goda Mas Rud's.

"I'm afraid you miss my smile, Mom!" gombal.

"So that's Dion?" Mas Rud took a look.

"Constrict?" my many.

"Beauty, but I can't want my good looks!" Fetal.

"Hukk!" my style wants to puke.

"Don't be so smart not interested in me!"

"No one!" my firmness.

"But your eyes can't lie!" Mas Rud concluded.

"I won't be able to compete with them to touch your good looks" I explained.

"Hukk!" Mas Rud replied to me.

"Mas, don't tease me, I'll fall in real love!"

Mas Rud just smiled at my request.I myself was also confused why was it so brave to say such words.Why do I like to change it? seduce her? tease her? or what he called it. Anyway, the actual mode joke is also just a joke.Because basically I am the type of person who likes to joke with people who joke around as often as possible.

"Mas, after meeting Dion, what do you think of him?" tanyaku seriously.

"Why would you want to hear my assessment of him?" ask Mas Rud.

"Second opinion!" my answer.

Indeed, I deliberately asked mas Rud to be objective.Usually I confided with Tria, or himself a fellow woman will tend to be subjective.Mhenya I want to ask for the opinion of a man.

"I've only met him once, how can I judge him!" tukas mas Rud's.

"First impression mas!" I'm cluckin' asking.

"He loves you!"

"That's what I know, Mom!" my search is deeper.

"That's what I know, too, Mom!" I'm starting to growl.

"He's looking after you!" answer Mas Rud then.

"Mas mean?"

"Although he can't be around you because of your status, he still makes sure that you are happy" explained Mas Rud.

I thought about what Rud said.Truly? That's how much she loves me? I think he hasn't cared about me since that last incident.I even thought maybe he hates me now. But why would mas Rud give such an assessment?

"Care you sure of your judgment, Mom?" I'm getting curious.

"I'm Sa's man, I understand without having to hear him speak. Even from the way he looks at you, I can read what he has in his heart." he said.

"Are you sorry?" ask the Rud.

"I'm sorry why, Mom?" I pretended not to know.

"I know everything, Sa, are you really sorry?" mas Rud looked for answers through my eyes.

"You what?"

"You and Dion."

I sighed.Who's mouth leaked my dark sadistic story to Dion? I can only mumble.

"Yes I'm sorry, but I don't know I'm sorry because I'm in love with her or just a pity" I honestly looked down.

"It could be, too, that's a regret because you miss his affection!" said Mas Rud.

True also the argument mas Rud this time.Did I just miss the attention that Dion always gave me? It does not feel wrong.Now there is no one who gives me attention like him.Why did I become a miss of those times? Though at that time, I was very uncomfortable with his attention.Why now I miss it?

"I'm confused by how I feel right now" I explained.

"Not to be confused! Just do something that can leave you without burden. You should be able to make yourself happy!" advice of Mas Rud.

I'm nodding. I really should be happy. Didn't Dion let me go so I could be happy? I developed my smile and looked towards Rud. He told me that I understood what he had just said.

"This is the Rosa I want!" said mas Rud with a smile and his hand rubbed the top of my head.