About the Heart

Expires

The excitement at Tria and Rio's wedding yesterday was inversely proportional to the atmosphere of the office today. After Mas Rendra and Maya officially resigned, I was left alone stricken deserted. There was no more Maya crunchy voice that always bothered me. And also no more Mas Rendra who always took care of me like his own sister.

"Mr Rosa's lonely, huh?" asked Bang Kotan who happened to have just delivered coffee to the secretary desk of Mr. Aryan.

"Yes, Bang. Usually rame, now very quiet," I explained.

"Especially Mr. Aryan also no longer can't work, empty maximum yes, Ma'am?" bang Kotan.

Tumben Pak Aryan does not work, where is he? Why don't you tell me? Hmmm .. but it doesn't matter to me. But it is also important, if there is at least there is still someone I can chat with, do not join very much.

Didn't want to ask but in fact the question came out as well. "Sir Aryan, where are you going?"

"He said the reunion ,Mbak," said Bang Kotan.

A reunion? Reunion where? On planet? Not yet returned and not working. Bodo is also very, in fact, mending the focus of work, work and work.

"It's not like Miss Rosa Deket with Mr. Aryan, why don't you even know?" search Bang Kotan frowned.

"It's customary, Bang. We're just friends" I explained.

"Say, Ms. Rosa's boyfriend, Mr. Aryan," whispered softly Bang Kotan.

I raised my head. "Who said?"

Bang Kotan showed his cry. I did not open my mouth to answer my question. After a while, he decided to go back to the pantry. And I looked back at my work, ignoring Bang Kotan's words just now.

*****

Work alone, lunch no one accompanied, and no one came home. How sad.

Sitting at a stop that was getting crowded by people who had just returned from work, I was engrossed in playing my HP. Dion was late to pick her up because she had to finish her job. I told you I was going home by myself, but he made me wait. It won't be long, that's what he promised.

"Can we talk?" the voice I was very familiar with came from someone sitting next to me.

Mas Rud, why is he here? Is he waiting for me? What else for?

My decision to forget everything about her had a huge impact on my heart. Right now, I can deal with him without experiencing a wave of tempestuous taste. At least I can control myself. Be as normal as possible, like two people who have never loved each other and been hurt.

"What are you talking about?" I asked without looking at his face.

"We talked in my car" he stepped into his car.

Should I follow his request? What if he did something to me?

"Just a moment" he said after I picked up his phone.

I exhale heavily. Slowly get up from my seat and head to his car. I hesitated to open the door, but then I convinced myself. This is the time, I myself will ask him to step down.

"Is the story between us really over?" Mas Rud turned his body towards me.

"ultimately? There will be no end if there is no end to it. Don't you know how our story ends?" I am reminded of what happened between us.

"I know, can't we start over?" repelled.

"I'm engaged" I said.

The cracks she could use to re-touch me were really trying to keep me tight. No longer want to get carried away with the feeling that will hurt me, not only but also Dion. A man as good as he is I should leave for Mas Rud? Nah! I'm not gonna be so stupid, that's.

He looked at me gently. "I still love you,"

Ddrrtt-ddrrtt-drr!

Dion called. Just in time. Does he feel if I should he secure it immediately. Secured from my race destroyer this afternoon.

"I'm sorry, Mom, I think we've had enough. Thank you for still loving me" I said.

I didn't see his face at all during the conversation. Even until I decided to get out of the car, I didn't look at him. I am glad I can talk to him a lot. Even though the phrase "I still love you" still shakes my heart a little. Ignore it!

"Mas, open the door" I asked as I could not open the door, locked.

Instead of opening the door, he put up my seatbelt. I gasped at the distance he suddenly cut. I keep my face out of her eyes. He returned to his position and then stepped on the gas pedal of his car.

"Mas, stop! I'm going down" I ordered.

"For this time, let me take you home" he asked calmly.

"I've been picked up by Dion, Mas," I refused politely as I let go of my seatbelt.

I never thought, Mas Rud pulled the car over. Not to open the door but instead put on another seatbelt that I just released. At the same time, Dion called me back. Asking me where I wasn't at the front stop of the office.

Mas Rud took my HP. "Rosa, with me. I'll take her home."

Only that sentence was spoken and he turned off the call. My HP is also activated and then it is stored.

I want to take it back. But I think it will be free. I finally let go of everything he did. I also no longer whine to be taken down. I decided to listen to what he was going to tell me this time.

"While my mind can't focus, I try to calm down. I thought of Dion. My fiancee must have been a drunk once knowing I was with Mas Rud. But if I don't give Mas Rud time to talk this time, he will definitely bother me next time.

"Mas, the story between us is over, now we have to live each of our lives" I said.

"I want to start again," suddenly Mas Rud grabbed my hand and clasped my finger gently.

I clasped his grip with all my might. This time Mas Rud did not hold my hand, he loosened his grip. Immediately I kept my hand out of his reach. Afraid that he might change his mind and get back in his arms again.

"Sa, we're going to be happy, I know you still love me" he said later.

"Don't be too sure, Mum. I'm happy with Dion. Please, Mas also look for happiness with people who Mas love and love Mas," said I wise.

"I know, just you," he said.

I stared straight at the road in front of me. "If I were the only one Mas wanted, Mas wouldn't leave me without an explanation.

Mas Rud turned his head towards me softly. "I had to leave you."

"And now Mas is also forced to accept if I leave it alone," I am sure.

"You don't lie to yourself, Sa. Don't pretend to be happy. Only I will make you happy" explained Mas Rud again grabbing my finger.

I shook the touch of his hand. "Don't bother me, again, Mom. Marry someone else, because I'm also going to marry Dion."

That word I had to say. I no longer know how to destroy my dreams. If I can't speak well let her go with disappointment as long as she's happy.

Silence .. apparently my last sentence was able to make him silent. Maybe he's in shock, not expecting to hear it from my mouth. I can't hurt him like this either. It's too cruel, but it feels even more cruel if I choose to go back to her and leave Dion alone.

Mas Rud stopped his car as soon as he got to the front gate of my house. No more chatter created. He was silent, making my feelings all the more awkward. Am I being too outrageous?

"Come down" only the weak word was spoken.

Hearing her words, my heart was slipping. I take off my seatbelt and I turn my body to face it. "If Mas sacrificed feelings for me to be happy, now let me sacrifice for Dion's happiness. I'm sure we'll be happy with everything we've sacrificed, too."

I was just about to get off, but all of a sudden he hugged me. I don't know .. I don't intend to turn it down this time. Let this be the last hug we feel. A farewell hug to two hearts that once gulped the sweetness of love.

"I came down" I said after taking off his embrace. I held his fingers for a moment, and I repeated a smile. He looked at me gently. Deja vu's look made me fall in love. And now that deja vu look broke my heart.