About the Heart

20 And 19

The reddish rays at the end of the sea were fading away. Slowly drying our wet clothes as it played water all afternoon. The exhaustion that began to appear pushed these legs to the silt in the white sand. Mas Rud looked at me.I can read the meaning of his gaze. Figuring out the turmoil that plagued me last night. He hasn't said a word, just take my hand and hold it.

"Darling," early Mas Rud.

I turned my gaze from the roar of the waves towards him.

"Do you know the numbers 20 and 19?" ask Mas Rud.

"19 and 20?" I try to justify.

"No! but 20 and 19!" mas Rud Sure.

"Our birth date?" manyu replace.

"Yes!"

"I was born first, baby! So 20 first, 20 is the epitome of the gentle man of heart and the lover of the family, and that's me!" obviously Mas Rud.

"19 is me! Selfish and love to gossip! Aye right?" my many.

"Yes, our natures contradict each other, but we will become complementary.Such as the numbers 20 and 19. We are close and always will be on the road. So don't even think that I'm going to leave you! There will be a limp, if I am without you or you without me!" he continued to look me in the eye.

"Do you remember Tuesday and Wednesday for us?" ask Mas Rud again.

"Our birthdays are not, Mas!" kosaku.

"Believe me! My tenderness is the antidote to your stubborn poison, dear!" said Mas Rud continued to convince me.

"I'm selfish, Mom! I just want to love you! I just want to, you're always next to me! But I'm afraid, if you don't want me the way I want you, Mas!" I turned to look into Mas Rud's eyes.

"I'm selfish too, baby! Only I can wipe away your tears, when you cry, and only I will take your place to look after you! Not anyone else including Ardi! Mas Rud revealed the name that had been the source of my unrest since last night.

"The ardi?" I tried to look.

"Yes, Ardi is betrothed to you baby. I know everything!" obviously Mas Rud.

"How do you know, Mom?" insist me.

"It doesn't matter, I know from where, the important thing is that I want you to know that you're the most important thing in my life!" said Mas Rud.

My tears can no longer be broken. I feel like I found a new backrest after papa's departure. My freshness that I have often set the maximum, this time I really left at the minimum point. I spilled out all the anxiety that bothered me. Anxiety I can't tell anyone, especially my mom. I put my head on his shoulder. For a moment I want to dampen all the rage in my mind.

"Cry now, I'm here!" said Mas Rud while peeking at my forehead.

"Trust me, if we're gonna get through this!" calm Mas Rud.

I drowned my body in his arms. I really feel comfortable in his warm embrace. The gentle caress of her hand seemed to be a magnet that calmed my soul even more. His voice that kept calling me with the word dear further washed me away in peace. Even when I realized that the sun had come home from now on, I still did not want to let go of his warm embrace.