A Piece of Broken Wing

I didn't want to hurt but I was imprisoned

"if only I could understand it sooner, perhaps regret would never have been present here in the depths of my heart."

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All things can change with the passage of time can be inedible age or fade because too long dwell, too long, not also do not want to start but in fact enjoy the spaces created after too long together a little feel different, although in reality it actually creates more space that makes it never meet with points or exclamation marks.

I don't know the more here bland in the heart and also my feelings are more clearly visible so that it can be felt by my body that is never together again or just let go of longing like at that time, But usually even though I don't care that he will come by himself to often make me feel bad and that's the reason I have to stay together to defend it so far, because I feel too long myself decided to approach her who lately has not contacted at all even though it is just a caption on her cellphone.

By slowly turning my car down the highway that felt hot and noisy during the day, I deliberately did not tell Ken, brother, because if I knew he would only trouble me with all his drama, I only gave my mother permission because if I didn't it would have terrorized me with all his calls on my phone.

Quite far along my journey therefore I choose to travel today because tomorrow I have a holiday, so that I can relax a little bit not too rushed I also miss the noise of the city that for several years I pass every day, I always follow her with her, her, yes, because he was the best in my life even though I never did him any good. I don't know that sometimes the feeling is what makes me survive so it forces my ego to not attach importance to the deepest content of my heart that actually my taste for it is only limited to it no more, no more, and often I try to convince myself that I can enjoy this moment until later when he really fills the space in my heart forever.

but in reality, my heart still cannot turn away, but it is increasing every day because he is always able to make me feel helpless when beside him, my heart balked but my body could not escape I hated myself when this situation really happened where I enjoyed it very much when the moment with her came, she said, although I shouldn't be asleep anything else drifting in his deckap.

for almost two hours I walked down the road alone until I finally reached where he used to live and also work here, but I did not see his favorite motorbike is also invisible immediately I rogoh my jeans pocket and I press his name there, shortly afterwards connected.

"yes, hello Ra, what's the matter, baby?"answer her.

"where?"ask me flat.

"just finished work, why go home?"ask her again.

"share Lok now!"I said flatly then I turned off the unilateral call.

shortly after the message appeared and was seen on my phone screen, immediately I press and seen there immediately I do my car down the road right where the phone leads me, soon I got to that point and got out of my car.

"sister Ken's company, what's he doing here?"inwardly Fara was astonished, since earlier he did not realize that the direction of his car towards the company belonged to his sister who several times he had come, since then, although not often but considering the direction is not too difficult with a slow he immediately rushed and down the gps that are on his phone but when he was about to step further someone reprimanded him."Fara's? you're Fara, right?"ask her.

"you're Ken's brother, right? who ever come with him?"ask her again.

"yes I have come a few times anyway." said Fara with a small smile.

"where are you going? here is no longer the room of Mr. Ken here the room of the new pack, the room of Mr. Ken went up one more floor." he explained.

"i don't want to meet Ken, I'm looking for someone excuse me first." said Fara by passing and following the GPS of his phone again and stopped at the door hesitating he knocked.

tok.....

"please enter." said someone from the inside, and immediately Fara stepped on her legs and entered into her eyes immediately found Ferdi who was trying to find something out of nothing, upon realizing his arrival Ferdi immediately turned his head towards her."hai has arrived? I thought someone else was." said it by approaching Fara then hugged her and kissed the tip of her head a few times.

whereas Fara was still speechless yet could digest why she was here in her sister Ken's room.

"hey, why shut up? I know there must be a lot of questions in your head, right?"her words with a small smile and do not forget her sweet smile printed clearly on the corner of her lips, making Fara anxious instantly "ah she is very good how can I let go of a person as good as this"her inner self with a silent blinked an awful lot of both her eyes.

"here I will answer all the questions that make you feel confused" said Ferdi finally, bringing Fara sitting on the sofa with her.

"why shut up? tired huh? okay I'll order your favorite ice cream wait five minutes." said Ferdi by grabbing the phone in his pocket and soon put it back on the table next to him. seeing Ferdi so kind and attentive to her made her heart feel pity for a moment how to tell her that she actually wanted to end her second relationship because she felt uncomfortable even though she had many years in forced. until without feeling his tears flow immediately make Ferdi panic because of her."hey what's wrong?" asked her slowly, immediately Ferdi brought her in his deckap and rubbed the tip of his head slowly make his sobbing.

"its okay everything will be fine nothing bad will happen believe me." said Ferdi trying to calm down. whereas Fara feels increasingly guilty how can all be fine while himself who did bad by breaking his heart when saying his honesty. again he doubted his intention to tell Ferdi honestly, but after this what else to wait for? the longer it won't hurt? he was very confused as to what to do now.

"how can I not hurt a good man even a gentle heart like you? you're too kind even your heart is too soft for me to break I should what now? do I have to lie again with my feelings right now? how can I be released immediately from the shackles of feeling that I never had but his presence makes someone feel meaningful? while my own heart is still elsewhere when another day accompanies me at this time." Fara's mind continues to thrash and also monologue in her cries.