
"you are always present in my heart at all times without giving me a chance to explain.explain how I should live without you? the two eyeballs that used to always look at me lovingly are now just left alone there."
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Kenzo POV's
If you could choose to whom your heart is anchored and settled, it probably wouldn't be this complicated.
As far as this foot goes it will not be able to move away, even more longing and continuing to long for something that should not have happened and created is now present and I must immediately deliver it back. I don't know where to take it and give it back. A pair of very beautiful eyeballs that always look at me with love and love, and he's my most precious owner, and now I've lost mine forever.
When I tried to trace my loneliness that somehow ended, again I found my sadness on the edge of the empty road, I hugged tightly as if I could no longer step.
how can I lose my precious possession? these two beautiful eyeballs that always look at me with love, now I no longer find love for me there is only sad and lonely in the corner.
Finally I dare to try even though my heart always rejects the presence of another love.I look at her the woman who secretly loves me in her silence, yes I know although never expressed directly by him, but I am a normal man of course I know ordinary women, have a sense, or just pay respect to me. that's why I always tease her when I meet her even though she just joined us. But I know from the corner of her eyes and also the way her works for me, this is where I look for loopholes so that I can be free from the shackles of my own taste.
She's a nice woman and also her good looks are always interesting there's no reason for me not to be interested in her must. but all that doesn't apply to me and I hate myself at the moment.My body doesn't respond at all even though we're very close, whereas when with Fara even though we were still five meters away my body had overreacted and with great difficulty I had to play the role of fine.
At the very least Jasmine is willing to help me at the moment and give me the opportunity to try she is very good at trying to make a deal with me. yes just one month, quite clever right ? something I hadn't thought of was unthinkable for her, and we would have been together here if in a month she could make me fall for her, then he'll be lucky because his taste is reciprocated, and if he can't make me fall in love in a month, then I have to take him off and give him a good job, it was quite advantageous for her at least she would not wait for her sense of being reciprocated for too long.really a smart woman I admire her dexterity in every way.
I tried to spend some time with Jasmin because we happened to be on a business trip, but still I still couldn't stop thinking about it, how he was there and what he was doing with his male friend.I think I want to contact him right now, but damn I don't have his cell phone number. because for a few years I deliberately avoided her and never contacted her hoping I loved another woman here and could also take away my feelings for her. I tried to make him hate me Namaun when I looked back at him who I had lived for several years the gaze was still the same.
Sometimes I want to ask how she feels about me, but I realize enough that she thinks of me as her older sister, of course, things like this will not make sense. an older sister asked about her feelings for her sister who had been living together and growing up together.
When I returned home tired, it felt like I wanted to look at him immediately but quickly I pat right. I miss her so much I would love to hold her tightly like a few years ago when you were still looking after and loving each other happily.
When I saw him in front of me with his flat face wanting to reach his thin body immediately, I could feel his sadness because the actions of the father of the last few months must have made it this way, I could feel his sadness, in addition to my treatment of her certainly hurt her more. after hearing Jasmin carefully I tried to throw away my ego that had been controlling me, so far, I gently say my apologies to her and also all my guilt on her. look at once her surprised face and also the corner of her eyes that have been watery, watery, finally I can hug her thin body after a long time.I promise I will not hurt her again pain once saw her choked like this, like this, and the female Lady who had been taking good care of me approached us all this time, and also together crying after a while we woke up and there was a sense of lightness at the end of the day I saw her smiling beautifully at this moment.
I will keep trying even though somehow the results, at least I have tried it now and most importantly, I can see again the happy smile that I broke a few years ago. and I will always try to stay as strong as I can, and for Jasmin I am so grateful to be willing to wait, and to always support me even though she knows my heart belongs to another woman bravely she tried, she said, and that's what I should be an example of. not afraid to try even though the possibility to happen only a fingernail tip even once.
Kirain's phone that vibrates in my pocket my trousers are embedded sweet Jasmin's name there, I don't know why I can give her that name in my cell phone contacts.
"good rest, may you have a good dream, do not forget to take the vitamins that I have stored in your briefcase, and put it in your room drawer I see your body is too tired these days, some days, don't get sick there's me always waiting for your sweet words every morning in this room."
Instantly the corner of my lips smiled reading the contents of his message, and immediately I opened my briefcase was sure there were some vitamins stored in it.