A Piece of Broken Wing

message from the heart

"though I knew how to get up again, I was still afraid to fall again, so I chose not to run, but to walk for sure."

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"hello dear mother." said Nisa raised her call, her phone rang since she was still in the bathroom.

"what's mom doing?"ask her.

"just finished bathing sorry so long ago pick up the phone, Abi today play what's the same teacher in school ?"ask Him.

"many ma'am, Abi same friends had made fried rice loh same teacher Mom later you have to see that Abi wears clothes like a chef loh." he said cheerfully.

"oh yes, wow must be so exciting Abi must look handsome dong?"say it again.

"iya is Abi is indeed handsome, when did mom come home still long time not go her? Abi wants to eat chicken grilled by mother and father."he said again sounding clear.

"lusa darling, mom comes home ready later we make the same yes, now Abi rest first yes do not sleep the nights mom will also rest this." said Nisa with a smile.

After turning off her call, Nisa returns out of the room and makes sure all of her doors and windows are sealed shut after being sure to lock all of Nisa back up, and enter her room.

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Nisa was doing some work after her before already asking Abi, not without cause he just does not want to one day tired her make her forget and make her become away with Abi but if both her must be in priority can't, it can't, everything has to be chosen, right?

After feeling comfortable Nisa immediately relaxes her body that feels a little sore because it has been a long time no longer traveling what alone, before really sleeping Nisa remembered something given to her, immediately he moved and opened it slowly.

"dear my beloved wife when this ink scratch has been read by your heart that loves me every day, lovingly, that means I am no longer by your side and I have gone far in eternity - do not be sad! that's all I want from you who with all my body and soul is willing to accompany me even to the last point of my life. sorry for not having the chance to make a sweet surprise like you did to me, everything was too sudden and I was also surprised even so badly hit back then, how not I just feel so perfect because we are really happy what else with Abi present among us. increasingly complete the story and also our days, the, even so I understand your struggle to stay with me which at that time I knew your heart still belonged to someone else. while I am the same even though my heart is not tethered to anyone but I had my doubts because my old story felt too painful. and seeing you earnestly trying to accept me and trying not to remember her again makes me feel happy at least you're still willing to choose to live with me, although in the end I left you first.God is so good dear, god is so fair, know if I go first you can definitely be strong, dear, and you can certainly continue the story even though it is no longer perfect but your spirit and also your attitude that has never been pessimistic makes me sure everything will be okay, right? but if you go first and leave me alone I'm sure I won't be able to bear it, I've been too weak about the feeling that even have died, there's nothing left only you who can grow it again, you remember? I also know that even though you always close with a smile on your face, your heart still can't lie, right? I don't even know why I could just fall for you, I don't even need to see your angry face so much I can smile happily, you remember every day I always make you feel angry, yes I like even every thing you do I keep it in my heart forever. sorry honey I never told you accidentally, but I'm more vulnerable when I see you crying because of me you know I can't see you crying and what will happen if I tell you what really happened? can every second even forever your two beautiful eyes are watery even swell I don't want, you yourself said right? you don't like it when you're sad and cry because your ugly face will look like it, right? even when the doctor said that I wouldn't be able to heal it made me worse off, Namaun when she saw you smile and always hugged me warmly when I could not sleep for fear of not being able to look at you the next day.I know, I know, although I'm not saying that you feel that I'm not okay so you always try to accompany me even without me Mita. I love you very much, baby, love you so much I just don't want you to keep remembering me I want you to keep going and move on with your life well, don't always think bad, don't always think bad, I always wish you all the best and I tell you that Abi taught her that she is as kind-hearted as you love everyone and never hated anyone even once she hurt him. I absolutely do not mind if someday someone replaces me Abi also need a father figure in his growth period, and raising him and growing alone is not easy, Abi, don't worry, I'm okay, as long as you're always happy, because I can't see you crying, sad, you know, baby. I'm sorry honey I'm not a romantic guy everything I write is purely from the bottom of my heart, that's why I can't say beautiful just like this I can even this is the first and last love letter I've ever made in my entire life. and you are the woman I love and love the most for the rest of my life.Please quickly remove your tears may you be healthy always I love you guys hug and kiss for you from a distance. don't be sad remember yes, continue your life continue our imperfect story even though it's not me at the end of the cover, continue your dreams dear I always support you from a distance. don't always feel alone I'm always by your side and forever in your heart.I'm sorry baby I can't express how much love I feel like you're always saying sweet things to me every day, I just want you to be happy baby, believe me baby I just want you to be happy for good."

"how can I be happy without you? how can I continue our story and give your role to others? I'm not that bad because I can't how can you think of me doing that?we all love you mas always, always love you even until anytime.I've tried hard to rise mas, I, I don't want to go back to falling sick, you know I'm not a patient human being, so I'm going to repeat the same mistake."

Say it by wiping his tears, and seen in the part of the letter was a streak of ink so long,"are you in pain while writing this you haven't even finished your heart to me."say it again slowly and hug the small paper and then move, and going where there is a tool that is commonly used for office purposes immediately he put a paper containing the contents of Ibra's heart and put it into a plastic press after it took his when been finished. Nisa does not want to lose again therefore after reading her she immediately laminating the paper even seen some students teardrop her fall.