A Piece of Broken Wing

miss the most

"my pain increased, my wounds got worse, when I saw you hurt because of my actions, and my miss grew, because it was forced not delivered, because my miss was forbidden."

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the trap....

the trap....

the trap...

we heard footsteps quickly, entering the house.

"cook what bik today" she asked.

"ah has come home den, this is for SOP ribs, and make fish parchment". replied bik Siti, still with her activities.

"heem... his fragrant make my stomach even more hungry, oh yes bik, who came just now it's my sister, her name is Fara, from today she will stay with us here."ken explained it.

"oooooh yes, allhamdulillah added a new member, may added rame, Fara's, biological sister, or cousin sister, or distant brother aden?"said Bik Siti while asking again.

"my stepbrother bik, the story is long, kapang-when if I have time to tell the bik, now please take it right, and ready for me yes bik, bik,like him I'm going home tonight, I have to do a lot of projects that I have to finish immediately" Ken said at length.

"assiiiappppp den, glide.." said Bik Siti while bringing a meal to Ken.

while Fara, who heard the conversation from outside, was curious and tried to look out of her room, she saw her older sister, who was chatting casually with Bik Siti, who looked familiar, and also friendly, occasionally a smile appeared on his sister's face.

"yes, it was Ken's face, a few years ago, a friendly face, cheerful, and also sweet. Brother Ken is very polite, and friendly, when with bik Siti, why did his time together change so differently? does he hate me? butwhy? what's my fault?" batin Fara tried to find answers in her mind.

when finished, Ken immediately got up and prepared."where's my stock bik? "asked her

"this is den, it's ready." replied Bik Siti while handing her lunch box.

"oh yes bik,titip Fara yes, do not forget to take him to eat, he is not used here, please help ya" said Ken, after that passed, and drove his car quickly.

arriving at the office, Ken was immediately presented with a stack of files that he had to learn.

his head felt a little throbbing, his stomach began to feel hungry, with immediately he opened his provisions, and devoured him regularly, until his last bribe.

the sound of the door on the knock from the outside, Ken who had just finished his provisions, tidied his back.

tok.....

"just go in, the door is not in the key," replied Ken, then continued drinking his mineral water.

"this is a pack of reports this month, and some of his other reports" he said politely.

"thank you Jasmin, you're so sweet" Ken praised.

"wah, thank you again sir, for the praise" replied Jesika with a feeling a little wrong behavior.

while Ken, who saw Jasmin's blushing behavior mengobum his smile.jasmin is his new secretary, who has only been working for the last few months, and Ken, very happy to tease him.

in fact, Ken Dimata friends, and people around him, is someone who is loving, humorist, but still firmly.that's why his employees feel very comfortable, working in his place, and more and more days, but still,the more advanced the business, and its efforts.

as for his amorous affairs, until now, no one has been able to melt his heart.when Ken never restricts, and he happily receives all the attention, as well as affection, and also,from any woman.but if her heart does not feel suitable, can not be forced right?he also has as much as possible to reciprocate all the attention, which someone gives to him.

but when with Fara, even though it was only five meters away, he had already had his heart gymnastics .he did not understand, why it could happen, he was fully aware, he was fully aware,Fara is her younger sister.she must not have other feelings.Makanya, she always tried to open her heart, for others.in addition to her age who is no longer young, she wants to get married soon, she wants to get married,and have a family, so that his strange feelings for Fara are not continuous prolonged.

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Fara was bored, she decided to walk out of the room, and occasionally saw the contents of the house by occasionally touching something that she thought was beautiful.she saw an empty room, and the door opened, she curiously looked, she looked,but no one else, slowly, he traced the room, which looked clean, and comfortable.there was a study table like his in the room. there was a blue book, and very beautiful pattern, and,without realizing it, he opened it curiously.

"dear is the owner of half my heart,

although I will never say, my longing will never be destroyed.when staring at the beautiful two balls of your pliable eyes, my heart feels like slashed hundreds of times sharp knives, which are able to tear my feelings, my heart feels like a sharp knife,who never want to fade, even though time continues to run.when this self is not able, even just to look at you, the feeling of longing in my chest is getting hotter, without knowing, without knowing,that I will never be able to have you beautifully.even this heart grew sicker, when looking at the sadness that had been engraved in both of your beautiful eyeballs, with which it flowed profusely, painfully, and painfully,and the sadness you feel, and all that, because of me.

I want to feel like I hold you, wipe away all the tears, and also the pain that causes you to get hurt.However, I am too afraid, even just by looking at you who are sad, has broken all my body, do not accompany, not accompany me,getting you hurt, I've been slashed first.when you're away from me, this heart always misses, without asking who you are in my life, I want to give up, don't want to feel anymore, but I still can't stop it, I still can't stop it,this feeling, present by myself, without ever asking.I am indeed a loser, and also a coward, what's the name, then I'm too afraid to admit, but can't end, this feeling is clearly wrong, but I'm too afraid to admit,I realized, I really had lost my mind, and also was not sane.want me to throw as far away as possible, if it needs to be destroyed, right, but how?I can't, I can't, maybe by making her hate me, as time goes by, I can end this feeling, I'm really sick, when I have to consciously hurt her, make her tears fall, she said, and it certainly hurt her feelings.even though I realized, we'd both be hurt, and tortured, at least, with her hating me, we'd both be hurt,there is no chance for my feelings to increase every day.My longing for her increasingly makes me sick, the reality always dawns on me, that she is the sister that I must always take care of, and also love, me,and I love every breath I take but this feeling is wrong, not like that, this feeling of asking for more, and hoping to be avenged.when I really want to stay away, again reality makes me have to be more sane again, and again,because he needs me, as a protector, not as a lover, who loves him all the time.when this longing expands, ask for more space, because this longing is never delivered, not not delivered, but forced not delivered, but forced not delivered,because until now, I have to stay sane, I do not want to hurt again, as my father had done before.although it can only make a wound in his heart, I can not still hold back, at least,and persevere with my sanity, not to follow my ego which is clearly wrong, and also out of bounds.I will make sure, when you are with me, I already have another love, so as to be lost soon, I will be sure,my forbidden longing that these few years tormented my heart, even every time I was with you."

"astaga, this is really beyond my common sense, I didn't think something like this really existed, even now it's happening in my life" said Fara, then closed the book again,and put it in its original place neatly.do not want any trace of him left behind.In fact, because want to make sure he is safe, Fara tried to find, whether there is a cctv around him, or not,exactly like the drama that is usually watched by her.real she is still very curious, with the following page, but she is afraid, if suddenly her brother returns, it will make the situation in between more complicated. with a slight tension, he turned his head towards the door."why was the door closed?as I recall I didn't close it, "the inner man was getting scared.

in fact, it was Bik Siti who had closed the door, because the bik Siti was cleaning the room, and when throwing garbage out, Fara went inside, and the bik Siti also did not know, and did not realize, and did not realize,if Fara has entered the room, then she just closed it, lucky for Siti not to lock it, because there was a sound of objects falling from the kitchen, and the bik Siti immediately ran towards the kitchen, and then she could not get back to the kitchen,it turns out that Siti forgot to close the closet where she kept the side dish for Ken, and the cat got into action.

after getting out, and feeling safe, Fara took a deep breath, trying to neutralize her heartbeat, which felt like a marathon run.

"non Fara, let's eat first, since noon non have not eaten." said bik Siti disperse her daydream.

"ah yes, thank you" said Fara looked surprised.then, he followed the bik Siti who walked in front of him towards the dining table.

"it turns out, adding to my problem, brother Ken, not hating me, but he loves me, he tried so hard that I hated him, and wished I hated him more than he did,what surprises will I get tomorrow?god, my life is really this complicated" Fara's heart as she forcefully ate nan in her mouth.