A Piece of Broken Wing

Discuss

"the eyes felt so deep as to touch my soul-friendly whether this was a signal A message from your heart speaks the love you crave."

The Fara POV

🌻🌻🌻🌻

I don't understand what I think is missing so much now that he's always with me and I can always see him whenever I want. maybe because this feeling that should not grow makes me continue to be anxious and circumstances force me even though I actually do not want to. I never cared because we were far apart and when we met it was only for a moment because he never cared about me, but when I found out that he had a taste in me my heart felt joyful but also indecisive at the same time.

When I was busy thinking and chestnut my phone rang and I immediately grabbed it from my pocket.

"hello nis ya." said I,

"hi what's wrong? call me at night?"ask her?

"nothing, I just want to talk a little but afraid to disturb you" I said again.

"why do I feel like something's wrong with you? lately you've been contacting me a lot like building people up for tahajud alone." she said, and I guess Nisa must have realized, she was the best I was happy.

"are you busy?"ask me again.

"no, I was relaxing just tell him I'll hear him." he said later.

"actually, it's true there's something wrong with me I also know but I don't know how to fix Nisa I'm confused as well scared, too, I also do not know who to talk to other than you but I'm afraid to bother you the newlyweds must be your husband again spoiled same you." said I at length.

"for a while, I'm looking for a place that's comfortable and safe first it sounds an emergency." he said.

"well, it's better now, so how about what you want to tell me? about you with Ferdi? or about your father? or about your brother?"ask her to the point.

"all the hell, but the first thing is, about Ken's brother." I said with a breath.

"the other one." answered me.

"it's not a bad thing to have it, unless there's some other reason." said Nisa .

"and yes there's another reason, he likes quizzes, we're not Ken's siblings paternal children with other women. father turned out to have a lover before finally marrying his mother and until now mother does not know." said me again limp.

"what? it's like FTV times Ra." said Nisa again.

"and I'm confused by my own feelings right now, I don't want to hurt Ferdi not to let him down again he's been with me all this time. but my heart seems to reject it and I feel also have feelings with Ken I want to throw this feeling away but what if you just get closer because we are home. and brother Ken has been honest even tried to establish a relationship with other women, should I also try but very difficult, mother asked me to live with Ken's sister, Ken, kak Ken also has no reason to refuse it is impossible for him to say that you are not a sibling, I don't know what will happen to mother if she knows the truth. while my father's business is not finished." said me again.

"you should immediately part, if you really want to be together apart unless you want your sense to grow, soon there will be KKN Ra, if you want to be together, you can take care of your excuses a lot and stay with Ferdi even if your day is still undecided at least he won't hurt or make bad things happen to you because he loves you. after that, just look for housing that is closer to your campus, just say if you have a lot of guidance and must finish on time, and it would be very tired to leave your sister's house and say also that you are with a girlfriend if you need to look for real, so Ken will accept and also your mother. and to keep the speech between you added Ferdi in each of your activities, although I'm not sure anyway but at least have tried and tried sometimes love is difficult bini Ra, Ra, that's why it has to be forced." said it at length and I listened well.

"and regarding Ferdi, you just need to add a little more groove, after that you just follow what you want while it does not harm you and does not harm others, if he really loves you I think he will understand and will not be anything except his return to you only to reply to something that you have not started but has itself ended, damn it you're the target of a victim of retaliation.

"yesterday I said sorry to him was better but I was still awkward if I had to start it." said me again.

"beginning, or not at all Ra. must be in the bottom line sometimes love is sadistic Ra, can not understand the situation and conditions. just an example of your father and it has happened if not firmly do not let the bad things happen again, listen yes, listen, although love is blind but must be logical you may love anyone and any amount of it, but do not harm yourself what other people. your father loved Ken's mother but couldn't resist your mother what happened you were born and unlucky to love each other again.If only your father had dared to tell your mother honestly it would have been different, maybe, however, being second remains bad in the eyes of others.

and if your mother finds out I don't think she's going to push because your father's heart has been written the name of another woman, no woman is willing to share let alone the feeling of endings ending sadistically right" she said again, and again I just nodded.

"once your semester exams are over, find your dad and talk to him about what your dad wants? go back to your mother or split up.Tell her to be honest sooner rather than later hearing from someone else, and if later separated there is good you accompany your mother first because after being betrayed will not be easy to live the day and at least there is nothing left that is you who give her the spirit to survive and also grasping it tightly when everything feels difficult.Maybe your mother will also be traumatized when she saw your father remember some events ago, but if it continues to be held until when else? the longer the delay the deeper the hurt so the sooner the better Ra. we also will not know how in the future at least we have tried and also have tried as much as possible.hopefully everything will improve over time. and Ferdi if he continues to love you until now keep it in the spirit again because surely he has experienced a difficult time when his feelings are ignored by you, let's just say you both treat each other.

and about the feeling I've tried, you also know SE bucin what I am with bima right? then why did I choose Ibra? because I know that Ibra cares for me very much and also does not dare to hurt you even though my heart is not fully his but at least he will not hurt and also not hurt. there's nothing wrong with Ra to try if we don't try we won't know" he said at length and also touched my heart.

"thanks yes nis you are the best, I haven't even told you about father and mother you already know" I said again.

"Mici who told me some time ago somehow I don't remember" he said again.