THE SHADOW OF THE PAST

The BML Part 6

#Infant_Masa_Lalu_6

"I already have a son" I continued.

Rangga turned his gaze away from me. Get up.

I must prepare my heart to accept the reality that is about to happen.

Rangga looks emotional. Response clenched.

Was I ready when he left me, I wasn't that strong.

But it is better, is not a good relationship should begin with honesty.

Rangga sat back down, his hand raised my bowed face in tears.

At first I saw his eyes blushing, he looked angry. I've never seen his face like that.

I just closed my eyes again.

"When you look at me!" said later.

I dare to look at him. Those eyes turned soft.

"I think you already understand me very much dear" said Rangga felt a disappointment in it.

I wanted to scatter in his arms, but I could not read the answer that would come out of his heart.

"You doubt my love, what's wrong with a widow. I love a widow, not a wife". Further again.

I gasped, Rangga left me who was still disturbed with eyes that began to dew.

My fear that blinds my heart to the sincerity of Rangga's love for me.

He must have been disappointed, but there was relief in this heart it was not a problem for him.

After a while I tried to contact him as usual. But Rangga didn't pick up the phone or reply to my WA message.

I feel so guilty that I doubted him. Never Rangga like this, it seems like I have really disappointed him.

The Word invited me back to meet. Not in his office like a few days ago.

I put my car down and headed to the place that Firman asked for, a place that was actually not far from my house.

But maybe it's because I didn't get hooked I just got here this once.

I entered and was greeted kindly by the front staff. And show the place that has been ordered mas Firman.

"Mr sir" my regards when I get to his desk.

Mas word looked up to take his eyes off the screen of his phone. He moved his seat.

I looked around a private room like I was on a date I thought, I was sitting in the corner nearby.

"What message do you want?" Ask then while thrusting the menu list to me.

"Take a drink sir" I answered and pointed to one of the drinks.

"Don't pick up the pangil, just like always" he asked. "We're just two of us" he continued.

"Awhile yes" she said when she received the call into her phone.

He stepped past me, I rewinded my body giving him a way.

I shifted to where the Word was sitting, he did not have to pass me later.

After a few minutes he came back. And sitting next to me very close. I shifted to take distance.

He took out a piece of paper I handed over the other day.

We haven't reopened talks until our order arrives.

"Good fun, excuse me" The young waiter

"Em the plan for beauty clinics and salons huh?" Ask later without seeing me.

"Contract per 5 years amounted to. " mas Firman rephrase some of the points I wrote.

"What does this mean?" He asked, I moved closer and explained his point.

I slightly lowered my body to be able to see the paper together.

A moment later I turned towards him, our gaze met, our faces almost touching. We sat down and we touched each other.

I'm moving back away. Ah why is there such a strange swish in this heart when we are close.

I gulped down my order drink to cover my nervousness.

The Word put the paper in his hand. He resuscitated his body, staring at the sky of the room.

"Bil..you remember no time .. "he said arrived, Mas Firman smiles remember our memories.

I was dating Firman from 2nd grade Junior High but he was my first love.

Starting from my friendship with his sister Ayu since Elementary School, the feeling just flows and binds my heart to him. He was already in Class 2 High School at that time.

A moment later I was brought back to the atmosphere with the taste that had existed at that time. 4 years together with too many sweet things that we passed, he said, and I can't get rid of it also from my memory of the hot, dusty style of schoolboy courtship. We also did not feel racing to open the memory of that time.

We really got carried away in the atmosphere in the romance of love last mada. And I don't know where I didn't realize at first, maybe because I was too deeply lulled in the memories of my first love.

We were no longer distant, a strange feeling churned in my chest. The face of the word was right in front of me, his eyes closed his hands clutching mine. I feel like I lost consciousness. My chest pounded as my face warmed.

Suddenly the shadow of Rangga's face flashed in my mind, when I closed my eyes to welcome the kiss of the Word. I quickly regained my senses and moved backwards.

"Mas, sorry" I said half-pushed it.

"Bil, I'm sorry. I can't control myself" said Mas Firman, looking sorry.

I don't know, it's my fault, too. Dissolved in past intimacy.

"If you're sorry, too" I don't want to be selfish. I also enjoyed that taste. The sense that arrived was back when I was near him.

"The reason for this cooperation seems better not to continue, if we will find another place". Although it was hard I finally made that decision.

I already have Rangga, and mas Firman already have a family. I can't guarantee myself not to be tempted by the sensation that the Word is trying to revive.

"Don't Bill, I agree with everything, we stay for the contract" forbid the Word.

"The promise will be more professional, our relationship is limited to this cooperation. Promise" he said again.

We walked together to the parking lot, and he walked me to the side of my car door.

As my hands moved, wanting to open the car door, so that I held each other by accident, I pulled my hand and gave her a chance.

The Word stood right behind me. I could feel her sigh when her body leaned slightly as she opened the door.

My unravelled hair slightly touched her face from the wind, I could see her eyes closed enjoying the smell of the glass in front of me.

"Heart" he whispered so slowly that I could feel the warm sigh in my ear.

I cursed myself all the way. Why let that taste come back.

Why do I seem to open the way to the Word. Why can't I refuse it.

Why can't I break it. Why does my chest shake when I'm near it. I humbled my helplessness and stupidity.

I want to throw away the shadow of the Word from my brain. Always present and present again. I tried to wake myself up, affirm that mas Firman already has his own family, he's married, he's hurt me and he's just the past and I already have Rangga.

I wanted to throw away the sense that came back, which made my chest rustle as I was with her.

Rangga, right now I need his warm embrace to return to maintain my sanity, throwing away the shadow of the Word from my mind.

But why has he been avoiding me for days he won't talk to me.

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I went straight in when Rangga opened the door for me. I finally gave up, and admitted defeat that this is a game of longing.

I threw my body on the couch, Rangga followed me.

I turned my body towards him..

"Evil ..nasty " cried out while hitting the man's arm. I was crying, I was fucked.

Rangga hugged me and calmed me down.

"I'm sorry" I said in his warm embrace.

The man kissed my head and hugged me tightly. I apologize not only because I doubt it, but also because I cannot resist the presence of the Word in my life now.

"I'm sorry, too, baby" she replied.

I need this man to love me, care for me and keep me from my foolish actions.

Rangga sat down below me, his eyes staring at me.

"I want to be your priest, I want you to be the mother of my children, I want to be with you until death to pick me up, I want to marry you, I want you to be my rib"

I don't think Rangga will say this now.I looked at Rangga in amazement, I felt like I was the happiest and luckiest woman.

"Will you be my wife?" tanyanya.

Rangga how can I reject you my inner, I'm aghast for sure.

She hugged me back and kissed me on my forehead. I smiled, this is really romantic.

"I want to be as soon as possible" said Rangga later.

I pinched his plate, he just chuckled.

"I miss" he said spoiled "you know miss it turns out to be torturous" he continued.

I smiled half blushed, I missed too.

I just wrestled spoiled in the man's arms. Listening to his chatter that made me feel like I was not on foot anymore on earth, flying over.

"It's late, I go home first" I said. Rangga escorted me to the parking lot.His gang did not come off all the way to the ground floor.

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I immediately reported this good thing to my family. They finally got another good 2 months day.

"2 more months?, I want it tomorrow" Rangga said as I told him.

"Ihh. kebelet ya"my god "hurts very fast". Rangga just laughed.

"I want a simple event just for the family" Rangga agreed.

"Oh yes tell me mom's with dad on the 10th of his application".

"Hahh very much in a week dong" I protested.

"Mama can't wait to see her ex". Rangga

It was a little doubtful but I finally had the nerve to ask her one last thing about my history.

"You know what I am." I didn't continue what I said. But Rangga already knows the direction of my question.

"Everybody must have a past baby, and I've told you all, doesn't a good thing start with honesty. They do not dispute that" explained Rangga. I smiled with relief, nothing else scared me to step forward.

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"Sister, Mr. Andre wants to meet his own brother" said Sintia entering my work space.

"Say there is an important point that must be explained directly" he added.

I again kissed the hidden intentions of Mas Firman with this meeting. Though this I can represent, because he has agreed everything in accordance with what I submitted .

"Where did it go?" Tanyaku later.

Sintia stuck his shoulder, "he said he would contact his own sister" he continued.

Surely a message came in from the word mas number.

"I'm waiting in the car" he wrote. What the hell else this guy at that time he promised to be professional. Today changed again. I asked Sintia to meet him.

"Sister out first yes, oh yes don't forget you check the order file that entered yesterday" Sintia nodded.

I headed to his car parked next to my car. He opened the windshield and asked me to get on. And somehow I returned to obeying his orders, without rebuttal.

"For if there is a sign of the ladder in my office, it can also be, or here" I said shortly after entering the car mas Firman.

Firman was silent. He started his car and took me away from my office.

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