THE SHADOW OF THE PAST

The BML Part 12

Shadow of the Past part 12

#Infant_Masa_Lalu_12

But everything has happened, I cannot cancel this marriage, nor do I intend to. But how do I deal with Karina next. I just gritted her, to hold her fast until our show.

"Honey you believe me, I can't do that" Rangga grabbed my hand. Many times I have breathed my breath. It's not a small matter, it's a matter of a child's life, it's a matter of many hearts.

I shook Rangga's hand slowly, and left him. I trust him, even without him explaining anything. I only regretted his innocence or rather a folly.

I can't possibly keep quiet, our marriage is only 3 days away. Although only managing the event in a simple but still must be prepared as well and as perfectly as possible. It's a sacred moment for us.

There was a knock on the door of my room, I got out of bed to open the door. Rangga emerged from behind the door, his hands clenched against his chest. I opened the door wider and let him in without saying anything

I turned from before him and walked towards the window of my room, Rangga followed my steps.

I threw my eyes out the window.

"Honey, don't punish me like this" he said softly. "I'm not so happy" Rangga hugged me from behind, his breathing felt warm on my back. I just closed my eyes.

Rangga turned my body around, making me able to look at his handsome face which now looks haggard, I know this must not be easy for him, as well as for me.

Our smiles disappeared these few days, and I don't know when.

I put my hand around her, waking my head in her field. I just want to be happy with him, even though I know tomorrow won't be easy for us.

I'm not a saint, I've even shared a heart. But for this, I don't know how it will end. I'm just stalling until the wedding day comes. And find a way out after that.

My grandmother hugged me the happiest man in my marriage. I am thankful that I can still bring happiness to her. My mother bulikku and all who understand my struggle until now.

"You're so beautiful" a bulek stroked my cheek. I hugged him tightly. Without this fairy godmother, I don't know what my life would be like. Andilnya very big in my life.

"Well..?"

"Badish"

I cried haru, not just me all the people closest to me.

Prayers for me and Rangga.

My room was decorated in such a way, the fragrance of flowers pierced my sense of smell. I sat in front of my dresser. Rangga stood behind me, he helped me open my hair ornament.

"Darling I want to open this" I said, pointing to the kebaya shirt I was wearing.

I pushed him to the door "you go out first" I asked.

Rangga turned her body "was married" she protested.

"I'm not ordinary" I reasoned.

"I also want to change clothes first, baby" he said then away from the door.

"Well, you've gone first" gripped me

I sat down at the end of my bed, waiting for him to change clothes. I stole a glance at him, as he undressed the clothes attached to his body. That compass, that chest, that arm, ah. I can't deny that body charm makes my heart shake.

"Darling clothes hanger dong" he asked. He's bare-chested heading towards me. Give up the clothes he just wore for the event. "Which book?" Ask later.

I wanted to get a hanger and clothes for him. But Rangga's hand pulled me in his embrace, The fragrance of his body tickled my desires. Ah I was only able to close my eyes enjoying the sensation of a dull and roaring taste in my chest. Even if it's not my first.

Now I'm putting myself in this whole soul. Want to embrace the pleasure of making love completely. I could feel a heartbeat in the chest of the field of the man who was now my husband.

Rangga raised my face, his face approached, our eyebrows clashing against each other. I welcomed the soft lips. Our breath is hunting each other. Our hands were squeezing each other, when our lips came back together.

I pulled my hand, and put on my husband's chest, stroking him gently. My desire has been soaked, ready to embrace the delights of heaven with my Spirit.

Rangga's plan to lay me down in a combination of colorful flowers, the fragrance of his body increasingly arouses the passion that has spurred, Rangga kissed my forehead and whispered a million words of love, I smiled terlena. Her tongue crept into the back of my head, her face gently kissed my neck, my body shook. I can only afford to be shut down.

We were right on the clouds, ready to fly higher. There was a knock on my bedroom door. Ah it felt like it had flown high but then crashed back down to earth.

We looked at each other convincingly. And the knocking repeated faintly I heard the voice of my sister Arya from the direction of the door. There's a bit of a look of annoyance on that handsome face as well as I really am.

I hurried to get up and tidied up, I opened the door and found Arya in front of him.

"What's the deck" I asked to see my sister's panicked face.

"Grandmother sister, grandma arrived crowded. It collapsed in the room" my sister explained.

Oh, my God, Grandma, Rangga's coming after me behind the door.

"This is Om just ready for the car, going to the hospital" continued my sister.

"Yes, my sister changed clothes first, you guys went straight to the hospital"

Arya walked quickly down the stairs. I'm back to closing the door. The passion that was burning was instantly extinguished and gone. I hope my grandmother is okay.

Rangga looked at my ladder all the way to the hospital.

"In the ICU sister" Arya was waiting for me in the lobby when we arrived. I hurried to walk quickly.

Mom welcomed me, her eyes were puffy. My grandmother never complained of any pain. At most just in the wind and after asking to be scraped his body will be back.

We waited anxiously outside the ICU, a Doctor came out of the room.

We stood up, approaching him.

"The patient had a heart attack, but his condition has improved a little, only to be monitored in the ICU room". Obviously the young doctor.

"The family can convey to the administration, want to be with the heart doctor who tomorrow for the next examination" he explained later.

Rangga and I stayed overnight in the hospital. We fell asleep with our heads turned on each other. I hugged the arms of Rangga.

"Bill.. Nabila" I heard mother's faint voice, she patted me on the cheek. My eyes just opened one, I was still very sleepy and my body was in pain all from sleeping in the open room.

"Already adzan, morning prayer first" he said later.

I shook my arms slowly to wake her up. He forced her to open her eyes.

"Honey pray first" I said. Rangga woke up and stretched his body.

"You go home first, let Mother be the same Father who takes care. There's Arya, Candra and Om you too".

Mom asked me to come home first, but I couldn't until I made sure grandma was okay.

"No Buk, wait for the results first" I refused

"Cand, invite your parents to the same kantin first for breakfast" Candra my youngest sister who is now in semester 1, in a PTN disolo state.

Arya gave me 2 glasses of warm drinks and Rangga. And pamit wants to charge his phone in the minimarket in front of the hospital.

I looked at my mother who had just come from the cafeteria.

"Bentar ma'am, wait for the doctor first, he said to come again" I said.

Not long ago Doctor Anna whom we chose to handle Grandma entered the ICU room. He's been out for almost half an hour.

He explained about grandmother's illness, he confirmed his condition had begun to improve, and was able to communicate well. But for a while it remains monitored and there will be a few more checks.

Hearing him we were a little relieved, at least able to slightly reduce our anxiety.

"I'm sorry dear" I said to Rangga as we sat in the hospital cafeteria.

"For what"

"His first night in the hospital" I said a little embarrassed, remembering what happened last night. Rangga smiled, his naughty eyes looking at me.

After a few days the doctor let my grandmother go home. I asked her to stay with me, but Grandma refused.

He'll just rest a little longer.

Om Agus and Mbahlik and some families have gone home first.

The family came home 2 days ago.

My parents and two sisters are still accompanying my grandmother. And also Armandku and bulik lulik.

"Sorry sorry I'm having my period" I said, as Rangga teased me. We can only steal time between our activities.

Rangga put on a manyun face.

"Prophey" I said later.

"No guests" syntax entered while carrying a pile of files.

"Beautiful girl, but I'm not a big sister, I've never seen one. He said it was personal" he continued.

Deg. I remember Karina right away, I promised to preach her after our show. It's been almost 2 weeks.

I can't possibly meet him here. It's not possible at home either.

"Where are we going?" Asked the woman when I took her in my car.

I didn't answer. I occasionally look at that woman. I have to admit he has the perfect body shape. Chest puffed a small paddle and a round bamper he's a little taller than me. His thick hair he gave the color chestnut decompose beautifully. As a woman, I acknowledge her beauty.

I let her in, I took her to Rangga's apartment. His eyes looked around the white room. The look on his face changed when he saw the photos of mesraku and rangga bebaran there.

"I'm charging your promise". Karina to the point started the conversation.

I don't actually have any plans yet. Because yesterday I was preoccupied with my grandmother's pain and also the pile of my work. But I had to force my brain to think.

I didn't ask Rangga's opinion first for my deal and Karina's. Because he would not approve.

Karina was originally a. But maybe he realized the advantages he had and a weapon that could definitely knock Rangga, the child. He finally agreed.

Honestly no matter how much love Rangga to me, I remain afraid. Because everything can happen. Who can guarantee that Rangga will never have a taste in this beautiful woman. "Tresno jalaran soko kulino" can also grow seeds of that flavor. Because Karina applied for the conditions to stay together.

"Darling you don't go crazy" Rangga said upon hearing of my deal with Karina.

"Where is possible" Rangga covered his mouth with his right hand. His left hand is cluttered on his plate.

"Tell me this isn't true, I can't share" Rangga approached me, his eyes looking at me wishing I said this wasn't true.

"Darling, I was once in that position, and now Karina is just like me". That's actually my main reason.

"Until the baby is born, let him have a clear identity" I continued

"Are you sure you can see me marrying her?, are you sure you can share with her?" Rangga scolded me, wanting to shake my heart.

"You got another way out? I asked, my eyes staring at him.

Rangga just nodded.

"Continue?" Rangga again shook his head.

"She is not an innocent woman dear, who can simply accept circumstances or rejection. He's got a lot of ways to destroy us"

"I do everything to take care of our family, our parents, your career, my business, the future of all of us, there are many hearts to take care of"

"With this deal it's just me, you, and him. I don't want our family to figure this out"

Long-term I convinced Rangga. Would I be that strong to share a husband with another woman, definitely not. I'm just trying to take care of our family.

"I welcome the intention of nak Nabila to wave Karina to Rangga nak Nabila's husband" said Karina's father. The middle-aged man looked unpretentious. But not to cover his heart.

"Is Nabila really thinking about it" he asked again, I just nodded.

"Alright I on behalf of the Karina family accept this deal" he continued.

I looked at my husband's face. I know it's very hard for us. But what else can I do.

At least Rangga did not want to look at the face of his new wife. He would rather be with me in the room. Even when Karina forced to go out with him to buy something I needed to convince her many times.

And go with a flat face.

"Mother and Father are sorry as much as we can't take good care of our child" the middle-aged woman's eyes that still look beautiful were glazed as she said.

"Thank you for the greatness of Nabila's heart, sorry, sorry for us and Karina" the woman hugged me. Karina's father stroked his wife's shoulder, to calm her down.

"Everything has happened, may this decision bring good to all of us" I said slowly with a gamang

I'm on my honeymoon, but the truth is I got new honey for my husband. In such a way God tests his people.

Rangga barely let go of her ladder from me the whole way. I saw the look on Karina's face sitting behind us.

I was thinking about how we could live all three.

There's no way I'm taking her home. Karina doesn't want to be contracted home by herself.

It can't be in Rangga's place, too narrow for the three of us.

"Me and Karina sleep in the room, you're on a couch"

We just arrived at midnight in Rangga's apartment.

"I'm tired" Karina passed into the room, rangga put down her body on the sofa.

Seriate