THE SHADOW OF THE PAST
The BML Part 27
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The Part 27
I slowly opened my eyes, feeling heavy.
"Bil.." Siska's face looked anxious
Me where? Thought. My body is losing energy. I got Vivian right looking at me worriedly.
Siska hugged me, "I really don't know what to say congratulations or what, you're pregnant" between the joy and the crying on the pretty Doctor's face.
"But Sis, as I remember after the last relationship, I had a period, it was not much and not long as usual. I guess it's because of the mind factor"
"Yes Bil, sometimes it is like that, so about 10 to 15 days after conception there is blood coming out, people think it is menstruation, but it is not.
It could be due to embryo implantation" Siska explained later.
I held my stomach slowly and rubbed it. I looked at Vivian. A lot of feeling came from his eyes. He took my hand.
"Okay mom is great, take care of her mind, avoid stress, have to eat, I believe you are a great woman" Siska said.
I nodded, and tried to smile.
"I'll excuse you, there's an operation schedule, I'll be here again" Siska kissed me on the forehead.
I really don't understand what I'm feeling. I was pregnant when my farewell with Rangga was set.
What if Rangga finds out and asks me back, I can't take it back. But hiding this from him? I can take care of it myself, but what I'll explain to him later, if he asks his father. My head is getting sick.
"Bebz, what are you thinking?, not a lot of thoughts, must remember you are pregnant"
"That's exactly saiy, I'm confused"
"I understand bebz, but really I can not see Rangga back, he does not deserve you, not a weak man like Rangga that you need, born heart I do not willing, I do not want to, but all decisions remain in your hands".
"If you finally accept Rangga back, what can I do, if I'm to you, I have no right to interfere in your personal matters, I can only support you"
Vivian took my hand, no doubt the sweetness of our friendship.
Vivian turned towards the door when she heard a knock. And open it
Sintia appeared from behind the door, she walked quickly to me.
"Big brother why?" tanyanya.
"Silver is fine, said the doctor, just tiredness" I replied.
"In a moment, you're aunty Sint" said Vivian, Sintia turned to Vivian.
make sure what he just heard. Vivian nodded softly, her palms closing her mouth.
She must be confused as well to be happy or sad, Sintia hugged me, her eyes glazed over. Not a word came out of his mouth.
She nodded with a bitter smile, "Sintia is confused sister" he said later.
"Sister, sorry Sintia has not been able to nemenin brother, mama was a bit drob, all Sintia permission yes brother today"
"Yes, it's okay, Vivian is ready, greetings to mama"
Sintia wiped the rest of her tears, and hugged me before passing away lost behind the door.
Vivian's phone rang, she was talking about me.
" Lody's outside, I'll see him in the front first" I'm nagging. Ah, very quickly the news spread.
Not long after, Lody had already followed Vivian.
I tried smilingly welcoming Lody in the midst of the fatal war I felt.
Lody approached me, looking anxious on the face, there were still a lot of good people around me.
"Bil, how? What do you feel now?" Ask Lody to me.
"Dizziness Doctor, heavy head"
"Honestly I was confused, on the one hand I was happy to be an om, but on the other hand I was concerned" said the slender-eyed man.
I'm honestly saying that Lody represents the feelings of many people including myself, I smiled at her.
"Senengnya aja banyakin, so I can support me continue, sad it does not need" said I.
"Sure Bil, there's no need to worry about that, we're all on standby" Lody joked
"Doctor Wira has not been able to come, the new night can be, today the clock is full" explained Lody,
Though I didn't ask.
"Yes, it's okay"
"It's quiet to see you've improved, I'm back at the clinic first. Adek, om go first yes" joked Lody again as she shook my hand.
Vivian drove her cousin to the front
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That night Wira came, I asked Vivian to come home because there was Nini as well.
"Mba Nini to mushola first yes, mumpung mba If there is a nemenin" said Nini, very cheerful face, not like before when he just came.
"The doctor put it first" he added again.
"Ready" Wira said with a smile.
The woman moved her chair and sat next to me.
"You want fruit?" Barawannya.
I'm not feeling anything. I'm dodging.
"Drink only" I asked, Wira fetching water on the next table.
"Thank you" I said after I finished gulping.
"You're sleeping" he said later.
"Not too sleepy" I replied."It's still late at what time, it's still afternoon" I continued.
"Yes but you have to rest a lot, let's be healthy" he said.
"It's also a break"
"Sleep means siti"
"This too has fallen asleep" I replied.
"Sleep it, his eyes glare"
His hand closed my eyes.
I laughed, there was always something ridiculous.
I grabbed her hand that was still covering my eyes.
"Sir Doctor, thank you always for making me laugh" I told him.
I'm lucky to have friends like them, who love me so much.
The hero looked at me fixedly, too many things read there, and I was trying to deny it.
"Every time, I want to see that smile on your face, I know it's not easy for you. But I'm sure you're a strong woman, you can definitely get through this, and I'll always be there for you" .
Wira looks serious than usual, her hands are gripping me tightly, I forget that I still hold her hand earlier.
"You sleep, I'll be here to take care of you"
I'm still choked. Trying to understand the Hero I can't yet, or my pretense just doesn't understand the signal from him.
I began to close my eyes, not to sleep, but to think about all the things that were happening in my life.
Everything that has happened has destroyed this heart and soul. Every time I remember it, my heart is bitter, my love is too deep for it, but my wounds are the same. My tears were unstoppable, breaking through my closed eyes.
The voice of the Spirit sounded close to my ear, she wiped my tears with her hands, I was still kept closed trying to immerse my consciousness in the night embrace.
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I woke up when I heard the dawn adhan, I didn't see Wira maybe she's home, but the jacket is still in the chair.meaning last night she was right to keep me here. Nini is seen waking up from sofabed which complements this inpatient room facility.
Apparently the new girl prayed from the mushola, Nini pamit to the mushola after helping me pray just now.
The hero moved his chair closer, though,
"Morning, smile dong let be the spirit for today" he said.
I also gave her the smile she asked for.
"You're not coming home?" ask her.
"If it may be a bit unfortunate, it's 8 o'clock, if it can still be here" he said.
"Where? Did you eat?" Ask again. I'm also snuggling.
"The whole thing is going to end" the hero rang the bell that was on top of my head.
"Sus, the information is yes" he said.
Not long after a nurse came to bring a new infusion bottle and then put it up.
"Thank you just" said I and Wira
"Good thanks too, if there is any need to be able to push dibell" . He said then came out.
"Wira please turn off the AC cold" I asked Wira, she took the AC remote attached to the wall and pressed it to turn it off.
"Eh Bil, you don't know the same AC equation as you" he chirped suddenly as he walked towards me.
I'm flirting "What an ?" Ask her. He sat down next to me.
"No idea?, the equation AC and you both make me cool" Wira seems to have a talent for joking, she can always make me laugh.
"Basic".my words in the middle of my laughter.
"Em Main, what's not the best play?" ask again.
"Main games, play ball, play laptop" I replied, Wira dodged.
"What an?" Manya give up.
"Main who does not make bosen, playatapnya beautiful smile on your face" replied Wira while doubting the verse of the song. My stomach hurts from laughing.
"Again wait" that lip-decorating smile.
"What makes you happy?
I'm silent, as soon as I try
"What cement ?"
"That happy cement, since I've known you".
"Aishis.. Acute dreadlocks Doctor Yes"
I laughed until my tears came out.
"Udah ah. my stomach ache" I exclaimed to Wira.
So fun to not realize Nini was sitting on the sofa while smiling.
"I went to the cafeteria first, wanted to have a coffee first" he said.
"Ihh co cwet" Tempta Nini after making sure the Hero is far away.
"What apaan"
"Nini really supports 1000 percent" two thumbs up.
I just smiled at Nini who was so excited. Let those around me see only my smile, let me keep my pain without anyone needing to know.
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"Assalamualaikum, morning beautiful mama" Siska greeted me, then kissed my left right cheek.
"Well, you want to go home today?" Bargainly.
"Mauu" I answered quickly.
Siska herself checked on me.
"Good all, you can go home today, but reduce activity, rest at home".
Siska looked over as the door of the room opened.
"Wira" She cried to see Wira coming in.
"Siska hai" they shook hands with each other.
"How are you?" Ask Siska to Wira.
And they're Reunians, I let those who look carefree with this meeting.
"Whether are you here?".asked Siska to Wira, Wira seemed to blush. As if understanding the unspoken answer Siska chuckled.
"Yes yes, the spirit of the Doctor, our duty is indeed to heal".
I don't know what they're talking about.
They simultaneously saw me, finally realized there was also me here, I pretended to smile.
"We used to be a campus" Siska explained later.
"When's the invitation?" Ask a Hero to Siska.
"You go first" Wira just laughed.
"Contact me Nabila has, ntar WA ajha, Abi Hikmal kangen want to play guitar together" continued Siska.
The world is narrow. It turns out they were friends.
"Home home, abisin infusion only, drugs at home later to be delivered here. I opened the practice first, oh yes just go home after the medicine is delivered" explained Siska
"I've taken care of all the costs so I can go straight home"
"So ngrepotin right" said I sungkan.
"There is no troublesome term in friendship" Siska hugged me.
"Sir Doctor's spirit, I support" said Siska while shaking the hand of Wira.
The hero approached me, there was a smile on his lips that could not be quantified.
"I'll wait, I'll be anterin" he said later. I'm nagging.
"Oh yes tell the bebebz, I can go home" I asked Wira.
"Yes I called Vivian" Wira said.
She stood beside me, trying to contact Vivian, but did not seem to be picked up.
"WA ajha huh?" I'm nagging.
"Bil, you know it's not different on the 28th of October" he asked while typing a message.
"28 October is the oath of youth" I replied
"Too 29 what?" tanyaku later.
"October 28th Youth Pledge, if October 29th, I Oath I Love You"
"Ihh "I pinched the hand of the Hero who kept laughing.
Seriate..
