THE SHADOW OF THE PAST

The BML Part 19

#Infant_Then 19

"Mhba.. Nini is not strong anymore, Nini just go home to Cempaka yes?, Nini does not want to be here.

Nini could not hold back her tears.

Ah Nini, this mother of yours is just trying to maintain her love, the love she dreamed of. Only until the baby is born.

But will Rangga be able to survive with his confidence in me.

What if Karina did not keep her promise while now she has played her cunning way

Ah Nabila very complicated your story..

I took a deep breath. Clekit clekit it felt like my heart.

I see Nini's packed her things. I can't help it to stay here either.

"Nin, I'm not sorry" I said

"Mba, Nini was very supportive mba and mas Rangga, you are a perfect and complementary couple. But now, Nini doesn't know what happened to you. Nini thought it was no longer the same mas Rangga. Mba Nabila is good, beautiful, smart, mba can get better than mas Rangga who can be happy mba Nabila" Nini looks serious with her words.

"Sorry Nini presumptuous to talk like that, Nini love equally mbak, Nini really not willing, sorry also Nini can not be good anymore as Rangga" he continued.

I hugged the young girl, Believe me Nin will surely rise as well happiness to mbak someday, my heart.

"Mbak can't make you make nemenin mbak here, mbak anter to Cempaka, all of you mbak go to the office" said I.

I went back to my room and took my bag.

Nini was already preparing in the middle room with her suitcase.

"Come" I said

Nini followed me while pulling her suitcase.

I drove him to the front fence of Cempaka's house.

"Mba Nabila be careful, take care of yourself" he said. I smile.

The car went straight to my office, not yet at 8 is still quiet, only the motorbike saiful OB I saw was parked.

I accidentally didn't get off, I put my head on the car seat.

Nabila .. what do you want dear..?

I ask myself to be anxious.

I was shocked when I heard a knock on the window of my car. Apparently Sintia, apparently I fell asleep just now.

I'm coming down, Sintia looks at me with a worried face.

"Sister sick?" tanyanya then saw my disheveled face.

"No Sint, the part came, continued to fall asleep" I replied.

Sintia seemed still not satisfied with my answer.

Sintia's got me in.

"Silver breakfast first, let the Ipul mas buy it"

"No Sint, Brother is not a laper" I said.

"Okay, please Sintia if you need anything"

I smiled, and I knew he was worried about me.

However I am now, I am always grateful to have all of you who love me so much.

Nabila. zest.

Sintia gave the newly printed item order letter to me.

A big order comforted me enough this morning. At least God gives happiness on the other side of my life.

"Sintia, contact the partner who is built yes for the stock of the fabric, if you are ready to make the proposal"

"Ready brother"

"Oh yes if you need additional freelance daily workers, make the work. Ask Mr. Jaya to call brother yes" I continued

Sintia raised her thumb.

Until noon Rangga has not contacted me, they should have come home from earlier. I wanted to call him, but I broke my intention. Let him call me.

I went back to my work. There was a message on my phone, I immediately smiled, I immediately picked up the incoming video call.

My handsome man smiled at me.

"Relse .. Assalamualaikum "moan.

"Waalaikumsalam handsome" I replied

"Sister, Armand is off next week, Armand is there?" ask me

"Armand is just the same mother, father again in Kalimantan" he continued again.

"Yes dear.kak Nabila wait yes" I replied later.

A kiss and a greeting she gave me before hanging up the phone.

If Armand was here, there was no way I could stay in Serayu, and surely he would ask Rangga, Armand loved Rangga so much. Ah "Think Keri " (think later).

I went back to my computer.

My phone rang again, not Rangga, there was Ayu's name on my phone screen.

Tumben he called me.

"Assalamualaikum Ay" my greeting after sliding the green button on the screen.

"Bil, busy?" tanyanya.

"Okay, can anyone help?"

"No, my friend needs it. But good if you meet first Bil, he wants to make a new uniform, ask to be played all".

"Oh ok siaapp Ay, just set the schedule. Don't forget the info in the concept, let me prepare the design choice first"

"Yes Bil, then let the submission first on behalf of the company"

Ayu hung up. May my deal bathinku.

Huff already Nabila his time Working Work...

The busyness of the day was enough to distract me from the problems of home.

It doesn't feel like it's afternoon. Lazy actually came home.

There was a knock on the door, Sintia appeared after.

"Where is Mr. Andre going to meet, emm in the meeting room what directly goes up?"

the Word did too.

"Silver is lazy down, ask over ajha yes" I replied. Sintia understood.

"Oh yes Brother, all Sintia go home first yes, have been awaited by Ferdy below"

"Yes be careful, go straight home don't crawl" my god. The girl smiled.

Sounded a knock, must be the Word. I let him in.

"Still busy?" ask after opening the door.

"Not really" I nodded.

"Before I met Rangga at the hospital" I turned my eyes from the monitor to the Word that was sitting in front of me.

"Yes, she's Karina Nganter's in control" I said.

"Why is there, take Ajeng's medicine again?"

"Mas nemenin Ajeng Cek Lab" he replied hesitantly.

I just smiled wryly, finding the reality of my life.

Two people who claimed love died to me, both accompanied his wife to the hospital.

Gini very much Bil the fate of your love Nyesek..

"Haiyy" as Word touched my hand, breaking my daydream.

"Let's daydream" said mas Firman again.

I just smiled, a bitter smile to be exact.

Mas Firman was silent. Staring at me, there was guilt in those eyes.

"You love Rangga?" tanyanya.

I took a deep breath and exhaled.

"There's no way we're getting married if I don't love her" I replied.

"But you still love me" said Mas Firman sure.

I smile back.

"If also ordinary man mas, If not hypocritical if If still dear mas Firman, but not to have".

"Mas Firman, remain the first love when" I said again.

Ishhh continues to say try and talk about the problem of gini love.

"Bad asked me to divorce Ajeng"

I looked back at Firman.

"Why?" my many.

I think Mr. Sudrajat is wiser than his wife.

"Father knows I don't love Ajeng, you said you want to until when I torture myself to obey your will"

I waited for Firman to continue his story.

"Mother is actually also supportive, because you know Ajeng can not have children, but mother is not a selfish mother like before, she feels sorry for Ajeng"

"Ajeng does not want me to divorce, he wants me to marry again but does not want to be separated from me".

O Lord Word, your life is no less complicated than my story...

Life is playing us both. I can't comment on anything either. We both have complicated and painful love problems.

We were silent for a while.

The sound of my phone broke both of us.

Rangga finally called me.

"Waalaikumsalam" I replied in greeting.

"Still in the office?"

"Him home soon, home?"

"But until baby, see you haven't come home yet"

"It's a selesei again"

Rangga hung up on me.

The Word looked at me.

"Aren't you hurt?" tanyanya was surprised to see my calm.

"Yes sick, where there are women who do not hurt their husbands with other women". Answer me

"Why did you survive?" ask again.

"Mas himself why still survive with Mbak Ajeng?" The silent Word could not answer me.

"Too many things cannot be explained by words, cannot be seen with the eyes, and cannot be heard with the ears but we can only feel without being able to express"

"Not all desires can be realized, although we can actually be, but because there are many hearts that we must understand, many feelings that we must guard, we finally put aside our own ego"

"And that's what we are now, this is our weakness and our weakness, depending on which angle we judge it from"

I don't know where the words just came from. But that's the picture of my heart now.

I stood up and packed my things.

"Mas, come home to the end of his acceptance" I pulled the hand of the Word to stand up from his chair.

"I delivered "he said later.

"If you bring your own car"

"If so, if the anther mas ajha"

"Haiyahh. moduss, dah ah" I walked ahead of Mas Firman, but quickly his steps back parallel to me.

"If time could be replayed, Bill"

Mas Firman mengandai.

"If only time could be turned back

I want you to stay here

We go through the love story we live

I can't afford to go when you're gone

I drowned quietly in a quiet night..." Senandaku with the right sound and continue the sentence mas Firman to a song that quite hits on tiktok, tiktok,

He looks so nervous he ruffled my hair. I laughed at his expression.

I didn't see the car, but it was Firman parked across the street.

"Be careful" message. I just smiled and said hello.

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Rangga is invisible in the middle room as usual. I went straight to my room, no Rangga. I heard the water, it looks like he's in the bathroom.

I carded my bag on the desk, took off my blazer and put it in the basket.

Rangga was seen coming out of the bathroom.

"Hi dear" she said.

"Dah seger ajha is babang" I said smelling the scent of soap that spread across the room.

"Sorry it wasn't your call all day, abis anter Karina was directly meeting until the afternoon at the hotel". As usual, Rangga hugged me from behind.

Ohh. kirain. Bathinku

"Honey baby is okay, I take a shower first yes, cook the babang dah scented gini, adek still smell acem" I said.

"No papa stinks of acem, the gaping of love" I pinched Rangga's stomach, he just laughed.

I saw Rangga laying down his body as I came out of the bathroom.

He was busy playing his phone.

"What the hell is that?" Toku then sat next to him while taking a look at his counselor.

"This is a friend sending a funny video" he replied.

He put the phone on his side and turned to look at me.

That teasing gaze, ah I have to throw away my ego, cooling down this desire is not a good strategy to deal with Karina, I can't turn that flavor off.

I have to keep it, more than just love, but self-esteem.

"Dear"

"Hmmm"

Rangga tucked my hair loose behind his ear.

"I miss" he whispered to me...

Come on Nabila..

"I miss so much" I said

Rangga kissed my cheek, then my lips.

"Dear I love you" Rangga looked at me gently.

Karina, just be careful if you ruin my night. I pray that he sleeps and wakes up in the morning.

"Look again" Rangga pinched the tip of my nose. I nodded slowly.

Rangga pulled me in his deck. I just closed my eyes. Enjoy the sensation of taste that some time yesterday had faded. Nabila enjoy your night baby ..

Seriate