THE SHADOW OF THE PAST
The BML Part 36
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Vivian told me there was a meeting tomorrow morning, discussing the opening of a new clinic outside the city, I didn't really contribute much in taking care of it just limited to sharing capital.
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Early in the morning I came as usual, just now there's Lody's car I saw, maybe part of it.
I went straight to the meeting room, Lody's getting ready there.
"Morning Lod" I said he took his eyes off the laptop screen instead of looking at me.
"Hi Bil, how are you?" Ask.
"Mayan is as usual hehehe"
Answer me
"Not seen Wira?" Ask me
"Before seeing, you were invited to a meeting too, not the three of us?"
Lody stood up and approached me, and sat at the table right in front of me.
"The plan is, we want to put the Wira there for a while, here will be a new recruit" explained Lody.
"But here patient Wira how, do you want to replace the new one?" My toot.
"For a moment" Lody replied I was just nodding.
"Morning Lod" Sapa Wira shook Lody's hand
The hero pulled out a chair and brought it closer to my chair.
"For Siti" she said with her special smile
"For Bambang" I replied.
Lody moved back to his laptop with a line of smiles on his lips.
Smiling to see me, though,
"Durian tree duku tree, Next to the waru tree, Look at your face every time, Never make me bored"
A pantun Wira chanted for me.
"Aihh what the hell, Lod denger no one is racing early in the morning" I told Lody, Vivian's cousin chuckled.
"A loud empty bag sounds, If your heart is empty, can I fill it?" Wira.
Lody's voice cleared his throat, then moved closer to the door.
"In a moment, I'm so thirsty, take a drink first yes" she passed white face flushed
"What the hell is bambang, eating wrong?" I asked to see the silliness of Wira this morning.
"From the Masjid there was Azan, His voice broke the night, It is time I declare, I love you deeply"
It also happened, lest today's meeting was just a pretext for Vivian and Lody, to make room for Wira to express her feelings to me.
Aihh said friend, even add this burden.
"Wira, don't joke like this, it's not funny ah, I don't like it" I said.
"I'm not kidding Bil, I'm serious, I love you" Wira looked at me fixedly.
"For the first time in my life I've been in love, I was happy at first, I was a normal human being, too, but when I knew you weren't alone, I hung up on that feeling and kept it in my heart. But when you get back on your own, am I wrong to think that I'm being re-expressed?"
"Wira, I love you just as much as I love Vivian, Lody and others, please don't complicate our relationship with feelings, with a feeling called love"
My head turned again, the problem of the Word has not really been completed, now the Hero.
"Why don't we try to live first, I just want to take care of you, always be around you, wipe your tears, and I just want to make you happy".
The hero looks sharp with his words. What's wrong with these guys.
"Wira, you see, I'm pregnant with Rangga's child, I'm still attached to her until this baby is born, and I haven't thought about love or anything, I just want to focus on my child".
Obviously I went to Wira, I don't want my words to hurt this nice guy.
"Let me be with you, I promise to keep my attitude, I just want to take care of you, I accept you as a friend like to others, it's fine as long as I can stay near you"
"I don't care, a thousand times you reject me, ten thousand times I will come to you, I just want to make sure there are no more tears, I just want you to be happy"
I can't answer anything, what to say.
"Most importantly I've expressed my feelings, this feeling is so torturing to me"
Wira.
"And now that you're torturing me, you're putting me in an uncomfortable situation" I said.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way, really Bil, I just wanted to see you happy, if someday your happiness wasn't from me I'd rather take you off"
I was silent, completely speechless.
"We live as usual, never stay away from me, even with the reason not to want to hurt me" Wira pinta told me.
She seemed to be able to read my heart, wanting to keep her distance.
"Already, no need to think about me, let me always think of you" he continued.
I try to smile, I don't know where this stream takes me. Not wanting to be overwhelmed by this feeling of heart, who goes let go, I'm tired, let me live for my baby and my son.
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Trying to be ordinary after all these events is difficult aka not easy. Putting aside matters of the heart, let all flow as they are. Undergoing ordinary activities, but ordinary all their attention.
My usual activities in these 2 months, mas Firman somehow means he left a parcel for me, a ring as a wedding ring we used to give he said so, it's up. At least he kept his promise that was all that mattered.
Rangga he did not contact me also since that night, I also did not want to beg again, enough chance I have given many times.
My love for her seemed to melt with time, eroded with dwindling hopes. I don't want to expect much, about him. I can live without it, I can support my baby. Foolishly, if he really loves me he should also find out about me, not me who always begs him.
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"Assalamualikum "
"Waalaikumsalam" I was surprised to see Arya who was standing in front of the door of my room
"Arya, why don't you come here" I said
My sister was just smiling.
"Surprise" he said.
I also stood up to greet him, his mouth agape at me. Replace him who is surprised
"Sir Nabila pregnant?" Ask
"Not knowing" he protested.
I went up to him and he kissed my arm and hugged me.
"Why don't you hang out with the family in solo?" Ask while stroking my distended stomach.
"I called mom" Arya reached into her pants pocket.
"Wait not now" stop me.
Arya put the phone back in her pocket.
I sat back in my chair, Arya sitting in front of me, implied confusion on her face.
Actually confused where to start? But finally all I can tell you even if it's just the outline.
"Sister divorced from Rangga's sister?" Asking in disbelief, he covered his mouth with his palm.
I nodded in my answer.
"But pregnant sister, brother Rangga does not know, brother does not tell?" Ask Arya.
"Have, but there was no response even a woman who picked up the phone sister" Arya saw me not believing hearing my answer.
Arya was puzzling, all this was hard to believe, let alone done by a Rangga.
My sister just nodded, sadness in those eyes.
"Oh yeah, why are you suddenly here?, use all the surprise, successful show brother really surprised" said I.
"Arya was no less surprised" he replied.
"Arya has an internship here for 3 months, would ride in the house brother Bila, his office is not far from here" he explained.
"What did you come here for? Keep going alone with the internship?".
"Dianter temen earlier, 3 of my apprentice friends, the same as I nginep tempet sodara also" he explained.
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"Sir, mas Wira is fun, his guitar playing is also very good, his voice is also good, good" praised Arya on the figure of Wira whom he knows these two minguan.
I just smile, they both have the same hobby like music, Wira also offset Arya and her friends who are adrift of her underage.
"Rooking boy doesn't like baper so if he sings songs for his sister" he asked with a teasing smile.
Guys turned out to have a kepo soul as well, not least my sister.
"Oh, ayuk ni la tuo, the catech is a paper-paper like a school slave be" I replied.
Arya just chuckled, she thought her brother was still possible.
"Well sapo tau, pacak bae right, in his sea can be dived in his heart who knows" god again.
"Dem ah, unison brother, is that your friend?" ask after I finish breakfast.
"Bareng Ajha's sister" he replied.
We also go hand in hand, quite since there is Arya, I do not need to drive alone.
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Today there is a preparatory meeting to open a new branch of our clinic outside the city.
All are ready one hundred percent there, in the afternoon we leave the four of us. The road trip is about 5 hours.
"It's safe?" I asked because with a big stomach this will definitely be quite riweh.
"The doctor has two Bebz calm down" Vivian said.
"Just calm down Siti, we are all Alert team" Wira added while showing her arm.
"Okay, we leave at 4 pm" said Lody.
"Wira off starting today?" Ask Vivian to Lody.
"Yes, next week also hold there temporarily, we just roll with Dani"
Answer Lody
"While Bebobz, ordinary ajha his face, every day has also met it" Vivian seduced to Wira. The doctor just chuckled.
That kind of joking is common to us, because that's how we get closer. I'm starting to not play games, Wirapun seems like that but I don't know, we don't think all normal is excessive.
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"How many days, brother?" Arya asked that afternoon as she carried my bag of clothes to the front porch
"Three days" I replied.
Not long after Lody's car seemed to enter the house, Wira went down and put my bag into the back trunk. And opened the door for me, after saying goodbye to Arya Wira was up again.
"But the big brother is my name" Arya pinta said when the car's glass was lowered.
"Surely, take it easy there are Alert troops" replied the Wira again, Arya waved her hand.
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The trip was tiring, fortunately there was a toll of our trip faster, although several times stopped at the rest area, because I could not resist urination.
"His feet don't hang, they're swollen" Wira said, yes, Vivian asked me to put my feet up on her lap, I leaned against the window I had given her a pillow.
"Later until the hotel is soaked in warm water yes" said Wira again.
"Yes, Doctor" I replied.
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The Opening Event was going on, sure enough, everyone present, who was an average woman, always shrouded the Doctor.
Vivian shakes her head.
"Think of most K-pop artists yes bebz" he chirped saw someone who asked for a photo.
I just laughed, seen Wira to wipe his sweat.
"Siti, please" she said without a sound, I looked at her lips.
"What?" I asked, he gave me a code I don't understand.
I don't know if I'm standing, and I go to him and then I leave.
All eyes focused on me.
"Thank you" whispered Wira to me.
"Thank you is not enough, nothing is free" I said, Wira chuckled.
Maybe they thought I was his wife, I heard them talking about me, Wira just smirked.
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"Thank you, Wir, help us" Lody said before we left this afternoon.
"It's Lod together, santuy" replied Wira
"Bil, take care of yourself, sorry I can't say anything to you every day anymore" her eyes looked at me spoiled.
"Thou didst acknowledge me, Arya, what is Nini?" My toot.
Because if the hero does not go home, the two children must be confused.
"His eyes were insensitive, and he was left asleep" the doctor's lips were soaked, I laughed.
"Jagain bambang junior yes" he said with a smile.
"What the hell" I replied.
"It feels like the world belongs to both, we are called to contract Lod" Vivian said with a lazy face.
We laugh too. No hero must feel different, my day is always there him even though I consider him a friend, can not be more than that.
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There's Dad's car in my yard, I'm asking Lody to drop me off in front of the fence.
"Assalamualaikum" my greeting as I entered the house, invisible to no one.
But I see a lot of footwear up ahead.
"Waalaikum salam" someone answered my greeting.
My mother came up from a room near the stairs.
"Mama" my pangil was shocked.
Mama hugged me and kissed me, she rubbed my stomach.
"Bil" is my mother's voice.
"Mom" I hugged her she cried hugging me and kissed me too.
In an instant everyone came out, there were Rangga's parents and Anis's mba, my parents and Lulik's bulik.
I was like a sickly person who was being interrogated, only able to stay still and bowed, all eyes were on me.
"You really upset us, this big problem you never talk to us about, what you consider us to be" the usually gentle Lulik bulik was unable to hide his regret.
There is nothing I can say except tears that do not stop flowing.
"Where is Rangga now?" bulik Lulik asked me, I just nodded.
"The new flight from Kalimantan, he lied to us, he said everything was fine, we thought he was here we called again when he got here, it turns out he was moved there a few months ago" explained Anis Rangga's older sister.
