THE SHADOW OF THE PAST

The BML Part 5

#Infant_Masa_Lalu_5

"Bil.." when Firman stood up, he stood up and sat right next to me, he shifted the wheeled chair closer to me.

I pushed my chair away but the shit behind me hit the wall.

"Why did you betray me" he asked me in shock. His eyes were sharp as if piercing the recesses of my heart.

I was silent about what I should answer. He who leaves without news, he who leaves me alone is pregnant, he who divorces me.

I immediately remembered Ayu's story. Ah suddenly my tears melted, this once torn heart again feels pain.

I returned his gaze.

"Sorry Mr. Firman, I'm here because I'm talking about business interests, not personal matters" I said.

Mas Firman didn't budge he was still looking at me. Waiting for the answer to his question.

"For if I live with the angry Mas Gugun as your family says, there is no way I am here as I am now" I said later.

Firman began to lower his gaze.

I began to understand his condition after my meeting with Ayu back then. I tried to erase the hatred in my heart.

"Bil, I'm sorry" Firman grabbed my hand, and grabbed it. I tried to pull him but he was too tight to look at him.

"Mas.leave it" but mas Firman seemed to release my hand.

"Our son?" He looked back at me with red eyes.

His question sounded like lightning, startling and terrifying.

"I miscarried" I had to lie to her.

I want this all done soon. His eyes grew even sharper as if he did not receive my answer.

"I was 16 years old then, myself, I didn't understand how to take care of my womb, not to mention the psychological pressure I had to accept, I knew what it was like, I knew what it was like, and there's nothing for me, I'm not that strong". I said to convince the Word.

Word kissed my hand again, his mouth said sorry many times.

"As we already have our own life, mas already bahagya with the household mas, I also have my own life".

I'm trying as wisely as I can. "As I have buried my past deeply, I have forgiven all who have hurt me in the past. I'm happy now.

And keep walking forward too. Let the past pass, do not let it seize the mas on this day or tomorrow. It can not be forgotten but it is better not to remember it" I quote some words of wisdom that often bulik lulik advised me.

I pulled my hand that was still held in her arms, for a moment I wanted to wipe her tears.

But soon I paused, I didn't want to revive the taste that was once between us.

I left him later, I tidied myself up. Good thing there weren't many people I met until I got in my car.

I saw my phone there were some messages and messages from Rangga.

"Assalamualaikum" my greeting when Rangga received my pangilan.

"Waalaikum hail, has the meeting finished?" He heard a soft voice on my phone

"It's over" I replied.

"The result is ginama" he asked again. The result.I was silent for a moment.

"It is still considered the offer of the value of the contract, because there are other people who are also interested in the same place" my reason.

Inevitably we lived in one city and had to meet again.

My mind became chaotic I chose to go back home and lay down my body.

My phone vibrated with a message from a foreign number. It turns out that the Word. He asked to meet again to continue the discussion of the rental place earlier.

I hesitate to continue this partnership. This deal will reopen my communication with him and I don't want that.

But on the other hand just a place mas Firman in accordance with the new business that I will run, I do not need much remodel that will certainly take a lot of cost.

It is spacious with parking in front and side. Access is easy to reach. I haven't found anywhere else that fits or is better than this.

"I'm downstairs" WA from Rangga. I hurried up and down to the middle room where Rangga used to sit. I round out my determination to walk forward, it's time to know my true status.

I hugged Rangga from behind, I can clearly smell the fragrance of her hair. Rangga grabbed my hand and kissed it.

I then sat next to him. Rangga observed my disheveled face. He tidied my hair.

"What's wrong?" tanyanya.

"I want to talk seriously" I said later.

"I'm listening" Rangga said as he grabbed my ladder.

I steadied my heart, I did not want to linger long to keep my mass meeting.

Better to know from my own mouth than anyone else. And. Also to answer my curiosity how he reacted to my mass.

"You love me, do you really love me?" my many.

I lifted one leg up onto the sofa so I could see his face. Rangapun raised one leg and we faced each other.

The man closed and kissed my hand again.

"With all my soul" Rangga assured me.

"Do you still love me and accept that I'm actually a widow?" many doubt.

Rangga opened his eyes and looked at me.

"Why not?" he said with a smile.

I don't think Rangga is serious about that. He must have thought I was joking.

"My neighbors are serious" I said in a higher tone.

"meaning?" Rangga took off his gang. His eyes are looking at me.

"I am a widow" I said again.

I could see Rangga's face changing. He must have been surprised.

"I already have a son" I continued.

Rangga turned his gaze away from me. Get up.

I must prepare my heart to accept the reality that is about to happen. Rangga looks emotional. Response clenched.

Seriate