THE SHADOW OF THE PAST

BML Part 3's

I wiped away the tears that were starting to melt. It's all just the past, and I don't live for the past.

"I'm fine Ay, I know you won't be able to leave me if you know. But it's all over. You see I'm fine" I tightly grip Ayu's hand.

"I'm looking for you but no one wants to tell you where, you and you disappeared, no one wants to tell me". I'm getting late in the story

"I can't believe what they're saying, if you've gone and lived together with Mas Gugun, the man they say is your son's real father".

My eyes narrowed, Gugun faintly I remembered the angry man who was always nongrong at the front post of the village hall, who often teased me . What does that have to do with me.

"Even when Gugun's own house told Firman that you were married to Siri, I still did not believe. I know you're not like that" Ayu cried as if "but I don't know why the Word believed it all, I've convinced him it's not true, but he didn't budge. I don't know like someone's closing their eyes".

Apparently they made up stories to get me down in the eyes of Firman.sunguh I never thought that far they did it.

"Your son?" Ask ayu later. Which jolts me.

I took a deep breath, I didn't want them to know anything about me or my son.

I nodded slowly, as if I understood I mean Ayu did not continue the question.

"Mas Firman is married, do you remember Ajengkan? Our upperclassman who had the car dealer, mas Firman was betrothed to him".

I actually don't want to know anything about Mas Firman but I can't forbid Ayu to tell a story.

I woke up in the middle of the night my chest was pounding, my feelings were riled up, Ayu's story this afternoon carried over in my dreams.

The man's face was suddenly present in my dream.  I squeezed my hair, trying to erase the clear image of his face.

Feels like my phone is vibrating, WA notifications are on. I grabbed it slowly.

[I miss... ^_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________.

Ah my heart ripples, at the end of this Rangga often write sweet words for me.

The flutter is enough to divert my heart, and disguise the shadow of the Word in my mind.

[Tumben hasn't slept] he continued.

[I know, I must have missed me again, huh? 😁]

I smile at myself reading her messages. I haven't been able to write a reply pangil tone has sounded.

"I can't sleep, don't know why I'm suddenly confused with you" the spoiled voice of Rangga was able to make my chest rustle.

"Stypically doesn't mean kangen?" I said pura protest.

"Usually very kangen but this ngetnya more" he then.

"Ih. basic, I like to digombal" I said spoiled.

I heard the laughter of Rangga.

I dissolved in a beautiful foam a taste, the more I held back the longer I wanted to pop out.

I love him not only now but a long time ago, not that I didn't realize it, but I was just afraid to fall deeper into this sense.

Gombalan Rangga delivered my sleep tonight.

"Sir, for the ethnic game series that combines batik nusantara production has gone yes, but while we were past the old client" explained Sintia niece mba Vienna who is also my right hand.

I checked the file that Sintia put on my desk.

At the age of 25th Alhamdulilah, I have been quite successful financially. The fruit of my hard work since school and the support of the good people around me.

Those dreams little by little had already come true.

My business began to develop and much in demand by consumers, in addition to production I also already have 2 offline sales outlets aka Boutiques.

My online store already has a lot of customers, a pretty big house, a vehicle, and I've been able to meet the needs of my entire family.

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"Dear, I can't even throw up anymore" Rangga asked me to stop bribing her. I put the plate on the table, and took the warm tea next to it. Rangga just screwed it up a little bit.

I looked at the right hand of my heart that was falling weak, clutching it tightly.

Superheroku is in the works, giving up too finally after having a long debate to be able to take him to the hospital.

"The hero loses to a mosquito" Godaku. A wry smile adorned his pale face.

"I'm out for a minute, there's an appointment with the client at 11. I'll be here again at 1 o'clock. Wawan just came back". My pamit.

"Hour 1yeah?" Ask Rangga to make sure. Her lips were spoiled.

It turns out that it is true that adult men are sick fussy and efficacious more than small children.

"Yes dear" I said angrily while pulling his nose.

I just got in my car when I saw a video call from Lulik bulik.

"Assalamualaikum.." Armand's face was immediately plastered on my phone screen.

"Waalaikumsalam dear.

A bulik face appeared behind Armand.

"Ka Bil , tomorrow after Armand wants a vacation there. Armand just took the report card. Mommy promised to take Armand to Nabila's place if Armand can rank" explained my little man.

Lulik lulik smile smile behind him.

"Oh yeah... How many ranks is Armand?" My toot.

Armand showed two of the camel's fingers. "Oh yes greattt armand, ntar kak nabila ready for the prize".

"Horee. "he cried cheerfully.

My son has grown up now in 2nd grade SD.

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"Bulik" welcome me, I hug the angel-hearted woman tightly. I don't know why it's always good when I meet him.

Following my little man who immediately hugged me. I kissed her many times. This bond is very deep. They just arrived.

"Bulik Armand I invite nengokin my friend may ya?" My love.

"Follow along" Armand who had been playing immediately ran over.

"Armand ain't tired baby" I asked later, my little man was clinging.

Bulik nods to accept my request" Change clothes there first "he said later.

I deliberately cooked Rangga's favorite food. The conditions were much better than yesterday.

His smile saw me coming in. His expression changed when he saw Armand walking after me.

Without saying I already know what to ask.

"Salim used to be the same brother Rangga" I told Armand, and held him close to rangga.

"Haiiy who is this little hero" greeted Rangga sumringah.

"My son" I answered, an answer that came from the bottom of my heart but was only responded to as a joke.

Rangga smiled broadly welcoming Armand's small hand.

"Means not brother Rangga but papa "goda Rangga later. His eyes were glaring mischievously at me.

"Ih.." I replied as I pinched his small plate, Rangga chuckled.

"Armand" knew my little man was short. A sweet smile adorned her tiny lips.

"Eh but really you look a lot like you love his eyes" said Rangga then looked at the details towards Armand. My chest gurgled faster.

"What pain does he have?" armand asked looking at me. And divert the previous conversation.

My two boys are playing. They're busy putting together the lego I just bought.

Seeing this scene slowly. My little family.

I turned my attention to the laptop in front of me. Some work I should finish immediately.

There was a knock on the door, a beautiful nurse appeared from behind the door

"Excuse me, good afternoon" he said kindly "check first yes, uh there is a handsome sister" he continued later. I stood up and approached.

"Where's sust?" Tanyaku later. After he finished checking on Rangga.

"Everything is good, if tomorrow the results are still good it can go home. Wait for Doctor Harun visit tomorrow Ma'am" he explained later.

"If you need something can pull the bell yes, I'm sorry first" he said again. At first glance I can see the difference in gaze to Rangga.

"Thank you sust" I said almost simultaneously with Rangga. The nurse smiled.

"Beautiful" I said later when the nurse had passed from the door.

"Yes beautiful" said Rangga, my eyes narrowed towards Rangga. Rangga scrunched his forehead as if asking what my fault was.

"Pantes ajha kerasan, continue to be awaited wawan mas ohh already there are beautiful sisters to" I melengos go and return to sit on the sofa.

My lips are coming forward. Rangga scratched his head.

"Ar. tar if you are big, if you already have a boyfriend or wife, if he is praising a woman you pura ga denger, oh oh not later he said, if he was, how does not horrify me. Em you said ajha that your girlfriend is more beautiful. uh don't also later she sulked and said you are dreadful. em.." Rangga's index finger knocked on her forehead style looking for ideas.

Armand gawked at Rangga. As if understanding Rangga's intentions, my little man then laughed both hands shut his mouth.

"Jug it down, brother" he said later. "Dad likes to hug if the mother pouts, then the mother does not become angry" he explained.

I laughed and approached both of them. I kissed Rangga's gnarly armand.

Armand was so enthusiastic about telling Rangga to his mother. I just smile hearing it.

"If tomorrow to the hospital again, Bulik same om follow ya" pinta bulek. We were sitting in the back garden. Armand and Agus are asleep. I'm nagging.

"Looks like Rangga's a nice guy and understands you very well. Bulek still remembers the first time you told him about it 3 years ago" continued bulik later.

I'm still silent. My eyes stared far away.

"You still doubt?" Ask again.

"When afraid of bulik" said I lirih

"When you feel unworthy of Rangga, he's too kind". Bulik rubbed my hair soothing.

"Everyone has a mass, and you have a right to bahagya. Don't get hung up on the mass. Don't let the shadow of the past grumble before you". Speak wise bulik.

But I really feel scared. I was afraid that if he knew all about my mass, he would accept me.

Rangga sat in bed, the infusion was removed from his hand. A big smile was making her face look beautiful when she saw Armand coming up from behind me.

He got out of bed and greeted my little man.

"Assalmualaikum.." we said later.

"Waalaikumsalam, hello brother" Rangga hugged the armand and kissed him.

"This is the same mother as Armand's father, know me" alternately greeted the om and bulik Lulik.

"Can you go home?" Ask me then.

Rangga.

"Lost wait for administration." Further.

We all sat on the couch.

"You look a lot like Ibram" bulik Lulik observed Rangga's face. Mas ibram Rangga's eldest brother.

But bulik can know. I looked at the bulik with a confused face.

"Still with Rangga is mba" Rangga laughed.

"Last seen you fit still SD still snot" continued bulik lulik again.

"Ah mba Lik where there is Rangga ingusan" the bell later.

Both of them look familiar. Om agus just a smile.

"Mas Agus also did not change much well, just a little contained was very thin hahaha" said Rangga. They have known each other for a long time.

Seeing me confused bulik explained. If Annisa mba is her college friend is also a gang with mba Vienna as well.

Indeed Rangga had told when he had lived in this city.

"The world is narrow, yes, this is again this muter. But thank God you can communicate again" continued Om agus.

"Good day, I'm Rini from the payment section. Everything is finished. These are all files. And here's the insurance card. Thank you" the bespectacled woman handed him a green map.

"Oh yes because you use insurance, there are a few small parcels from our hospital rums". A parcel ditas with the hospital logo is given.

"Thank you " said it later.

We had a great conversation along the way. On the advice of bulik while Rangga I take home. Because he lives alone in his apartment. At least to speed up recovery.

I also agree that in my place at least many take care of.

"Bil tomorrow Om same Bulikmu want to visit some friends here. Kasian Armand if you come tomorrow Armand is the same as you" pinta om Agus.

"Om can't be long after the day after the day has to go back. Let the armand be just as bulikmu here. Next week, it's going to be" he continued.

"Yes, ready" I replied.

I delivered Rangga to the guest room on the top floor.

"You rest ajha first, tar me ready for food first" I said.

Rangga held my ladder when I wanted to get out.

Our position is facing forward. Rangga held my hand and kissed her.

"Thank you" he said later.

Her gentle gaze made my chest beat fast. I nodded slowly. Rangga hugged me tightly.

"I love you" he whispered. I love you too, my heart.

Today Rangga forced out, he wanted to take Armand on the road.

I also had to say. Even though I know he hasn't recovered properly.

Today is really mine, we are like a very happy little family.

They look so close and familiar like father and son. I just sat watching them. I'm happy, and suppose this is a reality. 

I'm allowed to go to the toilet when they're both playing.

"I'm sorry, sorry, but" I said, because I was busy replying, I accidentally hit a man in the hallway to the toilet.

Looks like some shopping items also fell on the floor. I picked up some things that fell off.

I was shocked not to play when I stood up and handed him the dropped item. 

I took a few steps back and my chest arrived claustrophobic. He was no less surprised than me. His eyes are watching me.

"When?" Yakinya. He still remembers me apparently. Not much has changed with the person in front of me. He is as handsome and sweet as ever. Only his body was more firm and contained.

Seriate