That's so dirty of me

The Part 20

That's why I Part 20

After Alif completely could not see his Abinya back, he then turned his gaze to look at Razi who was also looking at him. Long stared at each other for a few seconds then there was a crisp laughter present between the two of them.

Razi patted his sister's shoulder warmly, pulling her to sit back where they were before.

"I didn't know you were my sister." Razi acknowledged his surprise. Despite knowing that his father had other children, Razi never expected that the person was Alif, his cousin who had been his best friend.

"I never thought that our family matters would be this complicated, but Razi at least I'm grateful that my brother is you. If it was someone else, I wouldn't know how to respond when I see me and I don't know how to deal with it either." Thankfully it was Razi, because Alif could not guess how he would feel if it was someone else. There may be a slight reluctance as he was born to Papa's second wife.

"Well, but luckily it's the two of us. The secret of God is so perfect that I never thought there would be such an event because usually this kind of thing is only in the storybook or in the television. In fact, because he himself who experienced Razi could immediately feel that the pleasure that God gave him was never intermittent.

He's very happy.

Given the scenario they had gone through, Alif also knew God's gift to them was too wonderful. "Hem, God is very kind to us." Although they lost their parents at a young age, it did not affect them much to feel grateful. Because he did not really remember how to meet his parents because at that time he was still very small.

Small so that the only thing that filled his head was the affection of his two adoptive parents who had been raising him all along.

"Regarding Annisa, you don't have to worry about her because I will speak directly to Abi and Umi. You just need to prepare yourself and all the preparations you need at your wedding." As an older brother, Razi will replace his father's role to Alif. The two of them had not met for a long time so the feeling of brotherhood in need of each other had never been felt for real.

Alif was stunned, for a moment a warm feeling filled the depths of his heart. "Then I will rely heavily, Brother." He felt touched.

He has an older brother now and the feeling he felt was different when he asked Abinya for help. Alif is also used to acting to help others without anyone willing to paddle him. Tonight, he was no longer a strong young man but transformed into a submissive brother.

When he has a problem later, there is his brother who will help him face the problem. Already he said not if starting tonight he will not be alone anymore because he has Razi, his brother.

Smiling sincerely, "Then what about those huts? You and Fira are about to get married which must have taken them by surprise. You were previously brothers so knowing you were married makes them want to not think no-no. So, do you have a solution to this?" Alif was already known to be brothers in the boarding house with Fira so it would be very difficult to cope with the situation.

This is different from the case of Razi who is not too famous brothers with Zahra. In fact, Razi is more famous for his brotherhood with Annisa which always makes people jealous.

"On that.." Alif tried to think hard what plan he would run for this situation. Hem, if he were to announce it directly then it would definitely be impossible since Fira would definitely know right away. Alif did not want Fira to know because this was a surprise for his wife later. He wants Fira to be surprised on the day of their wedding.

Thinking long, Alif finally got an idea that is a little silly but very easy to run.

"I have an idea!" Shouts pleased.

 

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"Mas Razi really long back home, indeed Pak Kyai had talked about what the same Mas earlier?" As soon as Razi opened the door Zahra's house immediately greeted him. She gently grabbed her husband's hand and kissed him.

Before answering his wife's complaint, Razi kissed her forehead long before pulling her to sit on their family couch.

"Zahra, I just met my sister." Report Razi was happy to not be able to hold back his happy feelings. He was very happy to meet his sister.

Surprised, Zahra grabbed her husband's hand for him to hold. "Mas didn't lie, did he?" Ask Zahra to make sure.

Razi without hesitation nodded his head confidently, "My sister has always been around me and unconsciously we have both been in a friendship since we were both small."

A friendship?

Somehow Zahra's mind was directed at Alif because the only person Razi had ever acknowledged as a friend was Alif. But that's not possible because Alif has his own family?

"Mas, that's not Alif' right?" Zahra asked doubtfully.

"No, my sister is indeed Alif. When I met Mr. Kyai, Alif and I were brought together to reveal a long-buried secret. Mr. Kyai also confirmed that we were both brothers born to different mothers." Razi briefly explained his conversation earlier when he met with Pak Kyai and Alif.

"Also, there's important news we're talking about there. Alif will not marry Annisa but will soon marry Fira. He admitted to us that he was very serious about marrying Fira, even I could see that his determination was very great to want to marry him." He continued to tell how determined Alif wanted to marry Fira. Seeing him also reminded Razi of his experience fighting for Zahra. Equally liking the foster sister proves that their fate line is very close, especially with the same taste Razi can not guess whether this is because of their Papa blood or indeed because it is the way it is.

"What's? You guys are really amazing." Zahra didn't know whether to laugh or cry after hearing that. These two brothers were so strange, taking an interest in their adopted sister. Oh, my God, her Papa-in-law genes are really amazing.

"Don't laugh at us." Razi pinched Zahra's nose with a playful gesture, along with feeling amused with Zahra's expression that looked very cute.

"We chose each other's pairs based on closeness since childhood. So because we're used to acting possessively on each other's partners subconsciously the love is growing. So, naturally when the first big person we wanted to marry was our childhood sweetheart." Whether this is a habit or what but Razi and Alif both feel this bound feeling since instilling a protective attitude to their respective partners.

Act like a protective Brother but in fact it is a form of their love for their respective partners.

"Well, I won't laugh." Mengulum.

"But I'm a little confused, didn't Mas Razi ever say that you two had an agreement 15 years ago. I was with Mas Razi, then Annisa was supposed to be with Mas Alif. But, why did Mas say that Fira with Mas Alif? Is something going on?"They used to have an agreement, ah, rather both of their parents had an agreement. So inevitably they have to follow him.

Seeing the confusion of his wife, Razi immediately nodded in serious agreement. "This is what I'll take care of tomorrow. Since Mas is now a big brother to Alif then surely any business that smells old and needs a guardian will be handed over to me. I will replace Papa's duties later if Alif faces a problem. Regarding the agreement 15 years ago tomorrow I will contact Abi and Umi to explain in detail that Alif can not carry out the promise because he already has people he likes." From now on he is the guardian for his sister, replacing Papa's duties that have not been fulfilled.

"Could Annisa be happy to hear all this? Because when I saw him talking about Mas Alif, there was a flash of happiness reflected in his eyes." At that time Zahra had guessed that Annisa had a taste for Alif. If that was true then Annisa would definitely be very hurt to hear Alif's decision to marry Fira. Zahra, Zahra did not have the heart to see her brother like that because Zahra himself had felt how painful it was to see our loved ones together with others.

"My wife," Gently stroked the back of his wife's hand.

He then looked at her with a very soft look, "If indeed Annisa likes it then Mas sure if his heart is airy. He will let go of his feelings because the heart also cannot be forced as you with Alif will get married first. How does it feel to be reunited with a man you don't love?" He asked still with his gentle gaze.

At such a question Zahra recalled the day she was caught in pain. Going to marry a man she did not expect made her very frightened and hurt, she tormented every imagine Razi left her to look for another woman. Those were very painful moments.

Putting her head down softly, "Well, that feels really excruciating. Zahra doesn't want those days anymore." His words were not happy as he inched into Razi's arms. Zahra rested her head on the chest of the husband's field which warmed him greatly. Smelling the husband somehow made him forget how uncomfortable those moments were.

"Honey, that goes for Alif too." Clenching his embrace, Razi then raised his hand to gently stroke Zahra's back while occasionally kissing the scented top of her head in a rose shampoo. It's very fragrant and Razi admits he became addicted to it.

"Alif can't force his feelings to fall in love with Annisa. He did not leave Fira so the only way to satisfy his feelings was to make Fira his full possession. Alif is not willing and can not see Fira along with other men besides her, so do you understand now why Alif does not want to marry Annisa?" Continue to ask.

Zahra did not hesitate to nod her head, Alif is now fighting for his feelings. This also used to happen to her when she forced Razi to marry her. Hem, it was a tormenting moment.

"Mas Alif is right, the heart is not a trivial problem to be solved." Closing his eyes is comfortable.

"Then, what about Fira? Does he know if Mas Alif is going to marry him?" They used to know each other's feelings before marriage, so is it possible that Fira also faced the same problem considering their exact love plot.

"Fira still doesn't know, it looks like Alif is planning to give her a surprise when the wedding day arrives. As we did back then, it feels so good to see your funny surprised expression."

Razi guessed Alif's goal was this, the same as the marriage he and Zahra had. Everything seemed vague to Zahra and did not make her enthusiastic. But after the Kabul ijab was over Zahra was very surprised to see the person who knocked on the door of his room was Razi, well, the frozen shocked face was still clearly ringing in Razi's memories and it would never be forgotten as it only happened once in a lifetime.

"If that were the case then Fira would definitely be very surprised. Mas Razi also could not laugh at me at that time because anyone would be surprised if the person he loved chose to leave but suddenly on the day of marriage came as a prospective husband. Zahra was very surprised, you know!"

At that time he was scared and could not believe it was the real thing. Because when he confesses his feelings to her, Razi resolutely refuses on the grounds of not wanting to hurt Alif's feelings. But look who knocked on Zahra's room door? Well, of course it was Razi himself!

"Who laughs, I was so fascinated with you back then." Denied Razi feeling amused. He had no time to laugh because that day he was very fascinated to see how beautiful Zahra was with a different appearance.

"Now aren't you fascinated anymore?"

Laughing, "I'm fascinated to see my wife every day. But the day was different, it was you who for the first time used the appearance of a good Muslim. That's why I will never be able to forget that important day, the day my wife managed to make the angels in heaven jealous of you."

Feeling her cheeks heat up, "Mas Razi is a dreadlocks, huh!" Increasingly inching to buy her husband.

"But if they marry later the cottage people must be confused to see this. Because that cabin guy knows they're both siblings so it's impossible to marry them." Zahra shifted the subject, unable to bear the dreadlocks from Razi.

As Zahra raised the matter, Razi immediately recalled the idea he and Alif had talked about earlier. It seems silly but at least it's helpful, "Well, this is a task you have to complete with Dira and Fia."

Raising his head looked at Razi's face, "What task?" Confused ask.

Smiling little, Razi did not know if Zahra would accept it because all he knew was that Zahra was not that type of person.

"It's easy, you just need to spread the word that Alif and I are brothers. Then, also spread about Alif who does not have any blood relations with the cottage family including Fira. Do not forget about their wedding plans that will be held on the 2nd of Shawwal so that everyone hut does not misunderstand the bond of Alif and Fira later."

Surprised, Zahra turned away from Razi with a somewhat complicated look. Razi fears Zahra is balking at this arrangement-this

"So, can we gossip?" The question sounds ridiculous.

Razi hesitated, "Actually no but since this is not a bad thing so it's okay." He answered while assessing the change in expression of his wife who looks excited?

"Don't worry Mas, this problem is not a difficult problem for us to do. For us women, talking about and spreading the word is a fun thing to do. Hem, I haven't done this in a long time."

Razi was worried, "....." He forgot his wife was a real woman.

Grinning, Razi blatantly looked at his wife with a menacing look. "But you must remember one thing, when spreading the news do not forget to tell them that this news can be spread to anyone as long as it is not heard by Fira. Because the purpose of this mission is to make a surprise for Fira so do not fail. And if you fail to complete this mission then you will get personal punishment from me while Fia and Dira will find punishment from the boarding school." Huh, Razi threatened playfully to make Zahra become more serious about completing her task.

Zahra knew what her husband wanted to do and obediently nodded her head obediently not wanting to anger him. If Razi is angry it is the greatest danger in Zahra's life. Indeed they will not fight or fight but Zahra must be willing to lie helpless on the bed after a night of serving the anger of the husband.

He's so savage, ah!

 

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3 Days left and my mood was still bad.

2 weeks ago Umi and Abi talked about Annisa with Mas Alif. Then after that night I never again met him even though I intended to avoid him but still there was always this feeling of longing from the heart.

Days without her whereabouts suddenly Umi and Abi come to me, they say that my wedding falls on the 2nd of the day tomorrow. So I have to get ready for the wedding I don't want.

I should be able to get used to it because Mas Alif has told me from far away that I have been in the sermon of others and will get married soon in Shawwal. Indeed, he had told me many times but I was still not used to it. I was reluctant to marry another man and I was reluctant to spend my life with another man. Though the word love comes from habituation but I doubt it because I am sick, like his own blood brother. So I thought it would be difficult to recover from this terrible disease.

Ah, thinking about it makes my heart always sick and unconsciously I prefer to spend time in the room alone. If Mas Alif was here it might feel different but the fact is he never came home. Never go home, just look for me never and this is enough to make me confused.

In my heart I wondered if he knew I was getting married? Or was there an uncomfortable feeling in his heart when he knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with another man?

Although it was small, but was that uncomfortable feeling in his heart?

I think my illness is getting worse. How could Mas Alif not feel comfortable when he knew I would marry someone else because the one who proposed this marriage from the beginning was Mas Alif himself. He pushed me away so far that I could never see him again.

It hurts so much, my heart hurts so much, God.

"Fira, let's see your wedding dress is ready." Call Umi.

Turning my gaze from the mirror, I saw Umi walking up to me with a very sweet smile. It was as if sending me to live with that man was the best choice he had ever made in his life.

Is it as good as the man that makes Mas Alif, Umi and Razi very enthusiastic to accept it?

I really want to see this guy's nose!

"Yes, Umi." Answer me obeying it. Grabbing Umi's hand, I then followed her bringing me to the living room. There I could hear the laughter of women in a good mood.

"This is the bride-to-be, Fira, let's try on your bridal outfit immediately." The boutique owner's voice kept everyone focused on looking at me. At first glance I could see their envious gazes when they looked at me.

Strange, why is everyone always looking at me with this kind of view? It doesn't happen a day or two but almost two weeks!

They looked at me with mixed eyes but more feelings of envy and temptation. Well, I'm getting married but they shouldn't treat me as if they're getting married to an Arab prince. Huh.obviously they are too much for me.

"Look, her slender waist was a perfect match for this dress." The owner of the boutique once again made everyone's attention fall to me.

"True, this wedding dress is perfect for her. Fira, what if you try it first in the room? I'd like to see if these clothes fit your body shape." One of the women suggested.

Tried it?

If you look around, these clothes are very complicated so maybe I will have trouble wearing them.

"Don't worry, Umi and I will help you use it." Because the wedding dress seems complicated, the boutique owner suggested to help Fira introduce.

I felt very reluctant but when I saw everyone's expectant gazes I felt bad to reject them.

"All right." I said decide.

Then, I was brought back into the room to try on my bridal outfit.

"Wearing is difficult but it's okay to make a once in a lifetime moment." He said while helping me wear this bridal outfit. Her long and graceful dress also with her soft white color gives the impression of a princess who will soon meet her appearance.

Just looking at it Fira liked it a lot but since this was not for the person she loved then there was a sense of reluctance to wear it.

"Well, that's okay." Say it with a smile that I try to make as natural as possible.

Once in a lifetime?

Fira knew he might look evil while saying this but deep down Fira did not want to spend the rest of her life with other men. He does not want to hurt the feelings of others because he hopes for him, Fira does not want to trap the happiness of the man because far from his heart Fira knows that he is sick.

The pain is unusual and may never be cured for the rest of his life.

After an hour of struggling with my wedding dress, it was time for me to decorate my hands with henna. The hena that the man wanted me to use was a brown hena from Mecca directly which he said the man bought before returning home from his studies.

Umi told me when the man came home from his studies he wanted to give this hena directly to me. But because he had business in the city for a few months the man couldn't give me. Then when his proposal was accepted by Mas Alif, the man was determined to give it away ahead of our wedding day. And now, in front of me there is already a hena that will be decorated in my hands.

The color is very beautiful reminiscent of the evening in the city of Mecca. The sky will be covered with faint brown rays but calm the heart. It's a very pretty color.

Did the man think of this scene when buying it?

"Grow your hands away." Umi said to me.

I extended my right hand to the ornamental Umi first. Shut up, I just stared silently at my hand which he had started to give a beautiful line also pleasing the eyes.

Hem, my heart feels squeezed when I see this. Why.why wasn't I born to other parents just so that me and Mas Alif could be together?

Oh my God, why?

Seriate...