That's so dirty of me

The Part 15

That's why I'm Part 15

"Fia, is Fira here?" Once inside the dormitory Dira directly approached Fia who was visibly immersed in her mind.

"Yes, he's sleeping on my bed." Fia answered while pointing at her bed that Fira was sleeping in. Not only did he control Fia's bed, but his warm blanket was also a monopoly. Making Fia who had just been silent watching felt a headache.

Seeing Fira in a safe place, then Dira sat himself on the bed while managing his hunting breath. He does not know whether Fira came here by running or stepping fast because as hard as he chased after him Dira still could not catch up.

"Is he okay?" Fia asked worriedly because the last time Fira acted like this was when she had a fight with Alif. Making Fira evacuate to the dormitory and act spoiled not wanting to eat anything.

Dira honestly shook his head, there was nothing that could be hidden to Fia since they were both one family. Besides, it's good to know because Fia can also help Fira to be calmer again.

"I was actually not very clear about the situation because Fira was very angry and immediately left us at the dinner table. But for sure this problem has something to do with Annisa and Alif so to be clear again we better wait for Fira to say it." Dira did not know whether or not what Annisa said was true about Fira putting chili into their cooking. Because Dira believes that if Fira is as jealous as anything, she does not dare to do something this bad. Especially to the point of having to offend Annisa who everyone knows she really likes.

"So it's about Annisa." Mumbled Fia to herself. Honestly, he likes Annisa but not as deeply as he likes Zahra. He also does not know why he is not too enthusiastic about Annisa, even when he knows Annisa likes Alif from the first Fia never showed interest.

"I think I should talk to him." Said Fia while getting up from her seat intending to approach Fira. But before he could do it suddenly his hand was pulled by Dira, giving him a sleigh so that he could sit back where he was.

"We must immediately pray tarawih, delay first until we get down from the mosque." Fira reminded Fia. After all Fira also needs time to calm her heart and mind, being asked now would probably greatly interfere with her comfort.

"Well, you're right." A few more minutes will enter the prayer time so for that they must immediately get ready. Putting aside Fira's affairs for some time to give her time to calm down.

Glancing at Fira who is still closed, Fia and Dira then take their respective mukena and equipment during the mosque later.

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After they returned from the mosque, Fia and Dira immediately rushed to Fira who was still at home with her position when they last left her. Thinking whether Fira was asleep or not, Fia and Dira felt reluctant to call out to her. Fearfully, they interfere with Fira's rest time if he is already asleep. Due to the fact that people who are upset or sad are very easy to comfort themselves with sleep, the feeling of exhausting and sad makes them take a moment to close their eyes and rest their hearts.

"Didn't you guys go for a bow?" Sangau Fira's voice distracts Dira and Fia, just as the two of them approach Fira who is slowly coming out of hiding. Pulling the blanket that covered his head slowly, then his red, puffy peach eyes peeked timidly from within.

"There's no one here so you can get out now." Said Dira telling. He was sure that Fira was afraid that the people in this room would see her embarrassing appearance.

"Do you want a drink?" Fia asked attentively while helping Fira to sit herself on the bed. This concern is why Fira feels like she is treated like a hospital patient?

"If I want, will you be willing to take me?" There was nothing here so automatically Fia had to go directly to the soup kitchen to ask for a glass of water.

Hearing Fira's plain question, Fia suddenly spread her eyes staring at the table that usually provides gallon water for the students in this room. All rooms in the boarding house have this because sometimes the santri must be thirsty at night so to get out into the kitchen is not possible. Then be each room given this service to make them more comfortable.

"I really didn't mean to say that." Fia refused. Hell, he didn't want to go to the soup kitchen because the distance from their dormitory wasn't messing around. At least, according to Fia who stamps he must be willing to burn fat weighing 1 or 2 kg.

Fira smiled faintly, feeling comforted by Fia's current silliness. "Now I understand why Zahra used to be so close to you rather than close to me." He said reminiscing about the crazy deeds they both did in the city. With the frills of looking for the experience of school in the city, they ventured to dress like city people in general who are not too closed. At first their plan was fine because Razi and Annisa did not know too much about their behavior in school. But when Alif entered as an apprentice religious teacher then another story, they both did not expect that Alif would intern there. Automatically their behavior is clearly visible in front of Alif and immediately get all kinds of lectures or sermons that have become their daily food in the boarding school.

After getting a long lecture from Alif, Fira no longer acted rashly and immediately changed her appearance at school. But it was different with Fia who hung out every day with Zahra. Fia had to carefully change her appearance for Zahra to get used to her clothes.

"Given the past again, I will always be reminded of all the drama we do. Hem, I miss my friends in town." He longed to meet the Goddess, Andrini and Latifa. He wanted to be like those who were still in school in the city first, joking and doing silly things that would have aroused laughter when he remembered it. At that time, they were really ridiculous.

"They must miss you and Zahra too, if only they hadn't been stuck in the frills of XII class they might have come to visit you." At a glance seeing them, Dira could immediately guess the personalities of the three of them. Ridiculous and mocking, yet that's what makes people laugh when they see their strange interactions. No wonder Fia would be at home in the city nor was it any wonder Zahra easily forgave their crimes because the memories they made together were paramount regardless of how great their mistake was to Zahra.

"If it's a holiday they'll come visit here." Sighing in relief, Fia then recalled back to Fira who was still entangled in her grief.

"Fira, I heard you had a problem with Miss Annisa and Mas Alif. That...can you tell us?"

Well, Fira did not mind telling Fia this matter too since they were a close family. From small to large they were used to growing together so he was not too worried for his reaction.

"I admit it if it's all my fault. I was wrong for putting a lot of chili into their cooking because I was so upset with them. Umi invites them to cook in the kitchen to create a competition so that Umi can be impressed with the cuisine they make. Well you could say if what they cooked was mostly to please Umi. But when I noticed them in the kitchen while cooking, they cooked more to attract the attention of Mas Alif. They even openly asked me what I liked and disliked. It made me angry and act impulsively, putting a lot of chili into cooking when they acted negligently." Snapping both his hands agitated, he was very surprised and disappointed when Alif snapped at him earlier at the dining table. Previously as big as Fira's fault was, Alif would have wondered gently and carefully not to offend Fira. But tonight everything no longer applies just because Annisa, well.he was very sick and also disappointed with Alif.

"My impulsive actions turned out to be seen by Ms. Annisa and immediately said if I can't repeat it again later. I was also actually quite surprised to hear Annisa's direct statement and didn't know what to say to respond until Mas Alif suddenly appeared again. Mas Alif heard Miss Annisa's complaint that made him quite angry, he immediately yelled at me at the dining table in front of Ms. Annisa directly. I was so embarrassed to also be angry that Mas Alif did not act as gently as usual therefore I immediately fled here." Out of anger, he ran away from everyone and decided to stay in the dormitory for a while. He doesn't want to see Alif anymore so the only way to hide from Alif is to stay here.

"Awhile...!" Fia got up from her seat and stepped back and forth like a person who had just lost something. "Why...why do I feel if you like Mas Alif?" He asked with an expression that was difficult to describe.

Fira did not dodge and immediately answered honestly, "I really like Mas Alif." Honest answer.

Fia shook her head in panic while sitting back where she was. "It's not like you mean." Grabbing one of Fira's hands to hold.

Yeah, it's weird and Fia admits it. But he could not help but think this strangely if the way Fira told how disappointed he was to Alif as if Alif was having an affair with another woman. Besides how close Fira is to Alif if it is normal then he will not act this recklessly. Alif chose to side with Annisa which should make Fira happy because her idol finally got closer to her brother. But hearing the story of Fira earlier is not what Fia got, Fira actually does not like to see Annisa and Alif close. So inevitably he will think different things.

"Yes, that liking is what I mean. I like my brother not as a brother-in-law relationship but as a lover." Fira replied confidently but her voice was a bit smaller. Although he did not mind it, he did not know what Fia thought of him. Maybe he likes it or not Fira can not guess it, because the brain circuit Fia is much smaller than Dira. or maybe it can be said if the brain circuit Dira extreme for normal Fia.

"But. Aren't you brothers?" Fia really did not understand how Fira could like her own sister. Though it will never be possible to be accepted anywhere, whether it be religious, legal or family no one wants to tolerate it. Well if there's a way out but what about Alif's feelings?

Could he be willing to accept Fira or just the opposite, Alif refused Fira's recognition?

Subjecting his head sadly, "I know and I don't know how I could have fallen this deep." The answer began to sound sad.

Why does falling in love have to be her own sister? Why isn't it the other guy she likes? Why should her brother?

Fira really can't understand this.

"If Mas Alif knew he would never forgive you"

"Have stopped Fia, don't worsen her mood anymore." Cut Dira can't stand it. He knew that Fia was surprised and could not accept this but that did not mean he could judge Fira. This feeling grew because it was supposed to be so they couldn't question it.

"He was right Dira, if Mas Alif knew he would hate me so much." Of course Alif would be shocked and end up hating him. After all, which brother is not afraid to see his sister like him romantically? That would be so scary!

If he knows you like him he will be very happy. The mind is helpless. Why does he feel like he's back in the middle of Zahra and Razi's relationship?

"Well, maybe it's hard for you too so what if you try to see another guy here. Who knows then you can forget about your feelings for Mas Alif." Fia gives advice to Fira so she can forget about Alif. After all, the closeness of Annisa and Alif is a sign if they like each other. So, Fira has no other way but to forget about Alif.

Fira was silent, for a moment he weighed what consequences he would get to keep his feelings. Then, he also weighed whether it was possible for him to continue struggling with these futile feelings?

Fira thought it would be impossible.

"I.would try." His murmur hesitated, he doubted if this feeling could be let go.

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"So, actually Mas Alif has a brother from Papa's second wife?"

Zahra was quite surprised to learn that her in-laws had two wives with one child each. This surprised him too much.

Razi smiled amusedly at his wife's cute expression, while combing her long and delicate hair Razi again told her about his family.

"That's right baby, Mas has one younger brother whose whereabouts are still kept secret. But we will soon find out because Mas's sister was betrothed to Annisa. Remember, Umi and Abi used to keep our matchmaking secret from you. No, actually Mas who wants to keep it a secret from you, is afraid that the person who Mas likes does not want to marry Mas." Back when he was told Zahra was his match, Razi immediately told Umi and Abi that they could not tell Zahra. Abi also suggested that they live separately to avoid things that could not be avoided.

"Yes, and because of Mas's decision I almost got married to another man!" Zahra was upset when she remembered her impulsive behavior that immediately accepted Alif's proposal without considering her feelings.

Razi laughed out loud, pulling his wife into his warm embrace he occasionally kissed the top of his wife's head fondly.

"Yes, I plead guilty." Because of this action he almost lost Zahra, he reaped a lot of pain at that time and just faced it with silence.

"But Mas, if it turns out that Mas has nothing to do with boarding schools then why does Mas have a house here?" Zahra asked curiously, according to Razi's previous explanation he had no blood relation to the family in the cottage. So, if it had nothing to do then why would Razi call Dira, Fia, Fira, and Alif as his cousins?

"We have no blood relation. Both of my parents can stay here because Papa used to be an adopted son here. Because of being an adopted child he was also given the right to build a house here, this house that we are currently occupying is my parents' second home. When the two of them died, this house was immediately passed on to me."

"Then, what about Mas Razi's sister's mother?" Zahra asked curiously.

"Papa's second wife said Umi died when my sister was 5 years old. Not wanting to disturb the comfort of his first wife and Papa, Papa's second wife told him before he died if my sister was raised by someone he trusted. Papa's second wife also had time to make a deal with Umi and Abi, which is if my big brother will be married to Annisa. So, just have to wait for some more time before we can meet him."

"Zahra hopes Mas's sister is as amazing as his brother." Please Zahra sincerely.

Razi smiled, pinched Zahra's soft cheeks fondly. "Be assured, the children of Papa are good and wonderful people."

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