That's so dirty of me

Razi

"Ugh..." Razi opened his eyes slowly. Trying to get the light from the sleeping lights into his vision. After his vision was clearer, Razi immediately circulated his gaze throughout the room. It was in the same room, but this time it was different. On his left wrist was an infusion needle. Not only one needle, but there are two infusion needles with different hoses. One infusion with a hose containing a white clear liquid and the second or last hose containing a yellow liquid.

Feels sore.

That was the first impression Razi felt towards his left wrist.

Razi tried to move his left hand, but it made his left hand feel sore because it accidentally hit his left wrist with a bolster pillow that had been there since Razi woke up.

"Uh." Razi's complaint held the pain.

Spontaneous right hand Razi immediately moved to raise his left hand and improve his position better.

Razi gave a sigh of relief.

Cclek

Suddenly the door of his room opened and followed with the entrance of a middle-aged woman.

He smiled with relief to find Razi had woken up.

"Eye." Call Razi lirih to Umi.

Umi smiled softly as she sat herself by the bed. He raised his hand gently to stroke Razi's hair.

"Alhamdulillah, how is it, son, still dizzy?" Ask me gently.

Razi hesitated.

"Little." The answer.

Razi was silent again. Silent.

A few minutes later, Abi entered the room and joined Razi and Umi.

"Have died, Alhamdulillah." Gratitude Abi while sitting himself on the side of the bed Umi. Abi raised his hand and placed the back of his hand on Razi's forehead.

Then, Abi raised his hand from Razi's forehead while nodding his head without making a single sound.

The atmosphere was back silent. Busy with their own minds.

"How long has Razi been like this?" Tanya Razi started the conversation.

"Calculate five days with tonight." Reply Umi sure.

Razi went back into silence, then smiled wryly.

"Ah, when it feels like just yesterday Razi helped Zahra's proposal." Razi chuckled.

Umi was still silent, looking at Razi with her own eyes.

"That night, why didn't you come back after saying no help to Dira outside?" Abi's voice was full of demands.

Razi was a little surprised, but a second later he was able to master his expression.

He brought his gaze towards the ceiling of the room.

"I'm sorry Razi, Abi. That night suddenly Razi had a sudden affair so that Razi did not have time to say goodbye to all of you. Razi is very sorry." Sesal Razi's.

The atmosphere was silent again, no one wanted to reopen the conversation. They are busy with their own thoughts.

"Don't run, Razi." Abi's voice was calm sounding resolute.

Umi stops her hand activity while lowering her from the top of Razi's head. He held Razi's right hand gently. Spreading a warmth.

While Razi?

He could still maintain his expression, trying to look strong as if nothing had ever happened.

"Abi and Umi will never tell you how Zahra was after you stayed that night, if you don't ask." Connect Abi.

"If you think running away from all this can make you forget it, you're wrong, son. "

"That feeling will get bigger and of course it will get sicker. "

Razi turned his face to face Umi and her Abi. Razi's face looked wet, well he was crying. His defense had collapsed in front of his two parents.

"Don't worry Razi, Abi. Razi is fine. Razi is okay." Razi's voice is shrill.

Umi shook her head weakly, looking at her dear son with mixed feelings.

How can he believe what the child says, if the circumstances and reality he gets far from what is said.

No, Razi is far from being okay. It is very fragile at the moment.

"Don't cry, son. "

No, this is not Umi's voice. But the voice of Abi who tried to be a crutch for his son stood back up.

Abi wiped the tears of Razi that flowed with his sad face.

"You're not very good at lying, son. " Say Abi lirih.

"You can't be like this, Razi is fine. This is indeed a risk that Razi must get because of Razi's own choice. You don't have to worry and worry about me, because all this has been a long time Razi thought about. Really, maybe this is the best. This is God's plan. So Razi really doesn't have a problem with any of this. " Razi tried to convince his parents.

Razi clasped his hands in Umi's hands while giving his best smile.

Shift the conversation, "Umi, Abi. Razi wants a hug.." Rengek Razi spoiled.

Hearing Razi's spoiled whimper, Umi and Abi could only smile wryly as they inching closer to Razi and hugged him warmly.

\*\*\*

"Sister. " Call Dira carefully.

Hearing Dira's call, Razi immediately turned his gaze from the window and turned to look at Dira's face who was smiling thinly beside the room door.

Razi cleared his throat lightly giving Dira the code to enter her room. Dira nodded obediently and closed the door of Razi's room slowly.

Dira walked slowly towards Razi's bed, after arriving beside Razi, Dira did not occupy himself at all. He just stood up, staring at the calm face of Razi who was full of calmness.

"I'm sorry Dira, brother. " Say Dira apologized. He was still focused on his initial activities. Look at the face of the brother.

"That night Dira had no need to say"

"Son't forgotten her, deck." Cut Razi down. He looked at Dira's face with an aura of her calmness.

Dira's eyes look teary-eyed holding back her cries.

"That night Zahra nyariin brother continued, Zahra also did not want to come out before brother came. Everyone was confused by Zahra's attitude. They don't know what to do to get Zahra out of her room." Dira's voice sounded hoarse.

"Sister will see him, brother will explain everything. " Razi's breakup intends to stop this conversation.

Dira was silent, long enough. He knows that Razi is currently trying to hide from his problems.

"Zahra is here." Dira.

Dira bit her lips timidly.

Razi smiled faintly, assuming that Dira's speech was a joke.

"Zahra is here, in the boarding house to be exact. " Ralat Razi.

Dira bit her lips timidly. He closed his eyes strong.

Yeah, Dira, don't be afraid. End all this nonsense, calm down, there's God on your side. Inner Dira gives spirit.

Dira opened his eyes confidently, looking at Razi with all his courage.

"Zahra is here, in this house." Dira's voice is brave.

Razi widened his eyes in shock.

"Dira, what do you think of the deck?" Razi asked inexhaustibly with Dira's mind.

Dira smiled wryly.

"As you said, you want to see him, don't you?. Now you can meet him. Ah, no, you don't have to bother coming up to her because she herself came to see you, she's outside if you want to know." Said Dira firmly without fear.

Razi rubbed his face rough. He was angry and happy to hear Dira who said that Zahra was in this house.

He was angry because he was not ready to meet Zahra. It is also still in a state that is not fit for heavier loads. Moreover, this is a matter concerning the heart. Something very sensitive for Razi's current situation.

But besides Razi being angry and sad, he also felt happy because the idol came to see him. Well, at least the miss that he missed could be a little treated. Just a little, nothing more. Because, however, he was well aware of his position in Zahra's eyes.

"Actually what are you planning, deck?" Frustrated Razi faces Dira's unpredictable attitude.

Dira smiled wryly.

"Preventing you from running away from your own problems. You know exactly how to start a game, but you don't know or pretend you don't know how to end it." Answer Dira sarcastically.

Razi shook his head weakly. Trying to get rid of Dira's mind.

"Sister is not running away from this problem, but brother is trying to end it." Timpal Razi did not accept it.

Dira rolled his eyeballs off guard, tired as he faced his brother's stone head.

"You fool, that's the impression I get from you. "

"You think what you're doing right now is the happy ending of the game you're playing yourself?, you're selfish!."

"Dira, watch your speech deck. You're not seh-"

"Don't expect for now, you've given up, right?. Then let me take over this game. You just have to sit back and enjoy it. Let's see how stupid you are right now." Breaking up Dira does not want to be denied.

Razi shook his head in disbelief, wanting to argue, but the sound of knocking on the door reinforces his speech.

"Thank God, your room is soundproof. " Ejek Dira as she walked towards the door. Before opening the door he looked down at Razi, giving his slanted smile. Grins. Razi himself was horrified to find a change in Dira's attitude very quickly.

"The game has begun, so be prepared." Dira's voice will be full of ridicule.

Dira immediately opened the door, allowing someone to enter the room.

Zahra walked into Razi's room with her warm smile. He immediately ran as soon as he found Razi who was also smiling warmly at him.

"Sir Razi, Zahra kangen." Zahra hugged Razi impatiently.

Razi gulped his spit roughly. He was confused about what he would behave like in front of Zahra.

He looked at Dira worriedly, asking for help. But not his help, Dira just shrugged his shoulders indifferently. He looked the other way, no matter what.

"Dir.. In-"

"Zahra, I'm out for a second. There's something I need to talk to Umi and Abi about." Cut Dira girang.

Razi patted his eel in annoyance. He was really played by Dira.

"Oh, of course. You can go." Zahra agreed with Dira.

Once again Dira smiled obliquely staring at the rigidity of Razi facing Zahra's attitude.

"All right, I'm leaving." Pamit Dira opens the door and exits.

Razi lamented how crazy Dira's plan was, his cousin was indeed very difficult to guess. Even He to his own horror faced the stability of Dira's attitude.

"Sir Razi?" Call Zahra slowly. His voice slightly muffled Razi's chest. Razi cleared his throat uncomfortably with a position like this.

Understanding that Zahra immediately let go of his embrace and then immediately moved up onto the bed. Reveal Razi's blanket and lie down beside Razi. He made Razi's right arm his pillow.

Meanwhile, Razi only gawked to find Zahra's movement that was no longer uncomfortable but became very uncomfortable.

Hey, don't forget the fact that Razi saved a taste more to this girl. He was also trying to retreat and disappear from the girl. But, what now?

Of course this makes Razi more tortured and frustrated. Well, they shouldn't be like this. This was something that Razi had avoided a long time ago.

God forbid, if Abi sees this then my history is finished. Inner Razi was worried.

Zahra covered part of her body and Razi with a blanket. Then he positioned his body sideways towards Razi. Looking for a comfortable position and ending up hugging Razi warmly. Zahra drowned her beautiful face inside Razi's warm chest.

Dugs

Dugs

Dugs

Zahra could hear the sound of Razi's heartbeat beating abnormally. However, Zahra did not bother with that thought. He would rather ignore it.

Maybe it's because of the pain. Inner Zahra did not bother.

Unlike Zahra who chose to ignore him, Razi actually considered this a dangerous thing. How not, Razi is trying his hardest to neutralize the sound of his heartbeat that does not want to be compromised. Moreover, Zahra hugged him warmly, put his face on the chest of the field belonging to Razi, of course Razi increasingly frustrated with this. His heart was increasingly unable to cooperate.

"Zahra?" Call Razi carefully.

Zahra. He didn't respond.

"Zahra, don't be like this deck. " Razi said carefully not to offend Zahra.

Zahra did not respond, he even more tightened his embrace on Razi's body. He further drowned his face above the chest of Razi's field.

Razi is further confused by Zahra's very strange attitude. Well, Razi admits Zahra has been spoiled ever since. But, he's not as pampered as today. Zahra was impressed to hide something if behaving strangely like this.

"Zahra, hey. " Shocked Razi when he felt the clothes on his chest wet.

"Hiks-" Isak Zahra began to sound.

Zahra cried, that's the conclusion. But what caused Zahra to cry?. What was the source of Zahra's crying like this?

Razi was confused and angry.

Well, Razi was confused as to why the girl of his heart suddenly cried. Razi was also angry to see the girl crying. And one more thing not to forget, that Razi is like a fool who does not know what causes Zahra to cry. He was like a stranger to Zahra.

Razi shifted his body sideways to the right. Makes Zahra more comfortable with her position. Razi tried to raise his left hand carefully. The effect of the infusion needle still makes his hands cramp. But that was not a big deal for Razi.

Razi placed his left hand on Zahra's body, more precisely on Zahra's back. He hugged Zahra carefully, pulling her gently in his warm embrace.

Kiss the top of Zahra's head dear. Gently stroked Zahra's back, pulling her deeper into her arms. Spreading a deep sense of longing. The warmth he never felt and got from anyone. Zahra realized that.

Not wanting to lose to Razi, Zahra did the same. Finding a position as comfortable as possible in Razi's embrace and increasingly tighten his embrace. He's very homesick. No, ah this is not just a miss.

But the sense of need for each other.

The feeling of wanting to complement each other,

And

The feeling of wanting to have each other.

Razi further tightened his embrace, inhaling the fragrant shampoo that Razi said was now an opium to him.

Yes, Allah. I know this is wrong. I know this isn't supposed to happen, he's not a lawful person to me, I know it's true. But for now, Lord, just for now before I leave, let me act selfishly. Inner Razi.

For a long time in this position, no one made a sound. Silent.

Silent.

They refused to say a single word. Don't want to ruin the mood.

Until Razi realized something. He smiled smirk.

"Zahra, we're not supposed to be like this. " Razi's warning be careful. However, in contrast to what was said, Razi's body actually denied the tongue. He still did not move from his position.

Reluctant.

"Sir Razi, Zahra kangen." Zahra's voice raspy.

Razi smiled wryly, he was the same as Zahra. Even very long.

"Where was my sister that night?. Zahra is sad, why did you die, Zahra?" Ask Zahra.

"Didn't you promise after the show is over you'll see Zahra, but why did you leave?" Ask Zahra to be sad.

Razi stroked Zahra's back gently.

Don't be like this, brother will be harder and harder to let go of your deck. Inner Razi.

"I'm sorry brother, deck. That night suddenly my sister had business. Brother wants to say goodbye to you guys, but brother didn't have time. So you'll be deputizing through Dira, deck. Sorry, brother." Regret Razi, lying.

He gulped his saliva rough, nervous. Pray in your heart that Zahra will accept the reason and not have to ask more.

"What business?" And Razi's prayer was rejected, do not forget that Zahra's curiosity is very big. Razi also had to be patient with Zahra's curiosity this time.

"Office business, there's some paperwork you should check." Lying Razi.

Zahra. Razi thought that Zahra had given up on asking. But, once again Razi had to gulp his saliva roughly. Zahra has not given up.

"How important is the document so that you have to leave Zahra?. What is Zahra hiks-"

"Hey, don't cry deck. No, you're more important than anything. Even your brother's life, you're much more important. Brother didn't mean to leave you, but if you give up all the work to Abi, it feels like big brother is so evil to do that. Brother doesn't want to burden anyone. Better brother bear it." Cut Razi half-truthfully.

He raised his left hand slowly. Touching Zahra's soft cheeks, stroking her carefully. Zahra was only silent to Razi's treatment, she was secretly happy.

Razi smiled warmly and raised his left hand from Zahra's cheek. However, his movements came to a halt when Zahra who suddenly held his hand. Slowly lower it in its original position. Touching Zahra's cheek.

Razi was surprised, of course. He didn't know Zahra was doing this.

Moreover, unexpectedly, Zahra tightened her grip on the back of Razi's hand so as not to be separated from the handle.

He looked into Razi's black eyes inside. Razi did the same. They are drawn to each other's minds. Long silent, suddenly I don't know who started the two of them even approached each other, eroding the distance that had become a barrier for them. Zahra slowly closed her eyes, waiting for something she had hoped for so much until finally the sound of the door opening shattered their atmosphere.

Razi spontaneously moved his face away from Zahra's face, raised his left hand unconsciously and it succeeded in making his left hand feel pained because his spontaneous movements resulted in the infusion needle slightly shifted.

"Assynoltomodel.." Greetings Dira while entering the room without guilt.

Razi breathed a sigh of relief in being able to survive the devil's trap.

Alhamdulillahot. Inner Razi was grateful.

"Corn, brother. " The commandment of Dira to someone who is outside.

Zahra frowned in astonishment, wondering who the figure that Dira was carrying was.

A beautiful girl came in with a tray in her hand.

Zahra smiled warmly, it was Annisa. Her sister.

"Assalamualaikum, brother?." Greetings Annisa soft while keeping a tray on the nightstand.

Razi and Zahra answered Annisa's greetings politely.

Annisa raised her right hand, sticking it on Razi's forehead.

A few seconds later, Annisa smiled warmly while nodding her head in excitement.

Then, he prepared the water and the medicine he brought. Open the slurry cover and mix a white powder into the still hot porridge. Stir it slowly.

"Let's eat, brother. Annisa bribe." Annisa said while positioning her body sideways towards Razi.

Razi nodded obediently, intending to shift his body but was held back by something.

"Ekhem, Zahra disavow from Razi's bed. You see, he was very troubled just to eat porridge. " Sindir Dira relax.

Zahra patterned her eyes in disbelief and ended up staring intently at Dira.

"Why should I go down, Razi can still eat porridge even if I don't go down. " Say Zahra is fierce.

Dira looked at Zahra lightly, mocking.

"Down, Razi must eat." Dira's voice is still the same.

Zahra rolled her eyeballs lazily, then shifted her position slightly.

Dira increasingly gave a mocking look, such as saying 'Who-you-you-be-stupid! '

"Down, not shifted." Kekeh Dira's.

"But ak-"

"Down. "

"Yes-yes, I'm down. " Say Zahra gave in as she came down from the bed with ogah-ogahan.

Dira smiled obliquely looking at Zahra's labile attitude.

"I will feed Razi. " Stop Zahra while walking closer to Annisa intended to take a bowl of porridge, but was immediately held by Dira.

"This is Annisa's job, you don't have to bother." Dira's Voice.

Zahra groaned in annoyance, not accepting.

"But I want to, anyway I don't feel bothered." Elak Zahra's.

Dira again gave a slanted smile, grinning.

"Alright, but sister Annisa is more painstaking in doing such a thing. Are you?, I doubt. Better not, just let Annisa finish her job. You come with me, sit here sweetly. " Say Dira firmly while pulling Zahra to sit on a sofa.

Zahra according to ogah-ogahan. He sat down with annoyance. Giving a murderous look to Dira.

While Dira?

Don't ask. He behaves indifferently. As if nothing had happened.

Zahra turned her gaze towards Razi and Annisa.

Annisa feeds Razi painstakingly and cleanly. Sometimes they talk. Talking about something ended with a laugh from Razi.

Zahra who saw the sight felt a little uneasy. He seemed to not accept if Razi and Annisa could get that close.

He's wounded.

"I'm out. " Pamit Zahra went straight out without waiting for an answer from the others.

Razi stared at Zahra's strange departure. He felt like Zahra was jealous.

But is it true?. Inner Razi hesitated.

Meanwhile, Annisa and Dira gave each other a slanted smile.

New beginning. Their minds together.

                            ***

"This is what Zahra's wedding theme wants, deck?" Umi asked seriously while staying focused on dismantling a book that showed pictures of weddings with different themes.

"......"

"Do you want a simple one or what, deck? "

"......."

Umi stopped her hands, raised her face and turned to look at Zahra who looked dreamy. Umi sighed heavily, staring at the heart.

"Zahra's? " Call Umi slowly while touching Zahra's shoulder. Zahra was stunned and managed to return from her daydream. He looked at Umi calmly, as if nothing had ever happened.

"Dec, why are you hem?" Umi asked with her calm voice.

Zahra wavered, staring at any direction of origin do not look into the sharp eyes of Uminya who is soothing.

"Zahra is okay, Umi. " Absolutely answered Zahra trying to look convincing.

Umi fell silent and chose to agree with Zahra's answer, not indifferent. But Umi deliberately did this to test Zahra.

Umi continued her activities, silenced.

Zahra looked back, thinking about all the events and problems that happened to him some time ago.

"Umi's. " Zahra's voice sounded weak.

Umi gave a small smile, then raised her face looking at Zahra. Warm gaze. He did not answer or speak out to fill Zahra's call. He just gave his questioning look.

"Does Zahra really have to get married?" Zahra's question started to get serious.

Umi smiled warmly then reached Zahra's hand. Grasping her warm.

"If Zahra is still not ready, we can postpone it some time. Umi tau at the age of Zahra who just entered 18 years is still very young to start a household. If Zahra is not ready, we can postpone it for a few months. " After Umi, it sounded calm. Trying to answer the princess' confusion.

Zahra shook her head slightly, disagreeing with Umi's reply.

"Zahra is not ready yet, but.. " Pause Zahra hesitated.

Umi raised both her eyebrows in curiosity.

"Does Zahra have to marry Alif? " Task Zahra carefully.

Umi sighed softly, giving her a shady look.

"Why did Zahra ask like that, Zahra forgot Alif was Zahra's own choice, not ours. So why should Zahra question Zahra's own choice at a time when it was Zahra's. " Confused Umi.

Zahra stunned.

Right, it was his choice. Not the choice of his parents or anyone else. But it was he himself who chose it.

But Zahra had his own reasons for doing this, and Zahra was very careless about his actions. He does not know if the result of his carelessness can impact so far.

"Did Zahra have doubts about Alif? " Task Umi ensuring Zahra's confusion.

Zahra shook her head confidently with her answer.

"Alif is a good person, and Umi knows it well."

"Then what are you thinking, son? " Confused Umi fishing Zahra.

Zahra was silent, she did not want to tell Uminya about the problems that plagued her heart. He also hesitated if his feelings would be avenged.

"Son, your marriage is only three weeks away. There's no time to play. Because household problems are serious problems not trivial problems. " Remember Umi to Zahra.

Zahra smiled wryly, she forgot if this was indeed her carelessness.

"We're going home, we're going to town. You'll be pinned there. Zahra can only be active in the house. Not outside. While in pingit, Zahra can learn to cook with Umi. Matrimony or whatever it is leave it to the others." Decide Umi while closing the book. Stand up from his place and stroke Zahra's head crest dear.

"Couple your stuff, son. This afternoon we are off to town. " Umi said while saying goodbye and coming out died Zahra who was pensive. Digesting every speech Umi with her sluggish face.

"I'm stuck again with my stupid choice. " Isaac Zahra is beginning to sound. He cursed all his choices that ended up hurting himself.

                           ***

"Sir Razi sat in the back with Zahra and Annisa alone, Abi. Kasian, brother is still sick, he cannot sit in the front seat with Abi. " Pinta Annisa to Abi who is putting their belongings into the car.

Abi nodded obediently and agreed to Annisa's request. After obtaining Abi's approval, Annisa quickly takes Razi from Umi and breaks him into the car. Looking at the sight, Zahra just snorted dislikely and followed them into the car.

After getting into the car, again Zahra just stroked the chest to find the scene where Razi was leaning his head on Annisa's boat.

With his eyes closed Razi did not worry too much about the attitude of Annisa who is so strange today.

Razi sits between Zahra and Annisa. And of course he still did not realize the existence of Zahra who from before entering the car had put his face bent. Her mood was completely toyed with today.

The car runs at normal speed, relaxing. Not very hasty.

Zahra P's. O. V

I chose to throw my gaze outwards, it felt very uncomfortable to see Razi's brother who fell asleep sweetly on Annisa's shoulder.

Sometimes I have to throw my breath heavy, either but being in this place makes my chest tight and burning.

Oh, I hate this feeling.

It was getting dark, and it was an hour longer on our way. Some time ago we came down to perform the prayers of magrib and isya while resting for a while. Stop by a restaurant and take time for Razi to take his medicine.

Ah, I want Annisa's position. Nagging Razi's fussy sister taking medicine with a myriad of mocking remarks. If only.

I glanced at Razi's sleeping brother on Annisa's shoulders, very peaceful and calm. Although his face looks pale, but it does not affect the slightest bit of good looks. Ah, I miss her so much like this.

The atmosphere in the car was very quiet, Umi, Abi and Annisa fell asleep due to exhaustion. Razi, don't ask. From the beginning of the journey, he fell asleep in the car.

Oh, I forgot. You don't think the one driving the car is Abi. No, it's not Abi. But it was Mr. Sumanto, Abi's personal driver who was accompanied by his wife Bik Sumar.

Bik Sumar looks still fresh accompany the husband to stay conscious and not sleepy. They talked about their children at home. No fuss, even just a faint sound.

I let out a long sigh, very bored with the atmosphere in the car.

Suddenly the car shook violently, passing through a hollow road. Umi and Abi are undisturbed and still the henchman sleeps. Annisa too.

Mr. Sumanto apologized to me, I chimed in casually and said that it was not a problem.

Suddenly my neck felt warm. Not only that, but my shoulders felt heavy.

I glanced to my right side.

Deg

This is Razi, with his pale face he is sound asleep on my shoulder. I smiled with gratitude, how much God understood my desire.

I still look in the shade of his face. Ah, even though he looks pale he is still handsome.

Razi's brother squirmed uncomfortably with his position and moved in search of a comfortable position. I don't want Razi's sister to move back to sleep on Annisa's shoulder, so I also help her find a comfortable position by improving my sitting position. Razi's sister got her, completely cut my neck.

Uh, it's very amused and feels comfortable.

I can no longer see his face because of his position like this. But I am happy with this position.

Haha.. Ah, I think I'm going crazy.

I glanced at Razi's hand. His hands are clutching each other. Like he was cold. But Razi's brother was wearing a fairly thick jacket.

Astagfirullah.. (Thankfully remember, try to get used to it).

I forgot, Razi is sick. He needs something warm.

I took the initiative to reach out to Razi's brother, cupping his hands warm and slightly tilting my sitting position to make it more comfortable.

It's very comfortable.

My eyes feel heavy, this position makes me comfortable and sleepy. Slowly my vision faded and darkened.

                            ***

I woke up when I heard the sound of the gate of my house being opened by Mr. Murjo and Mr. Dedi, the security guard of my house.

I breathed a sigh of relief because I was grateful to be able to get home safely.

I glanced at my hand that was holding the warm hand of Razi, heavy indeed. But I didn't want to go to Annisa again so I decided to wake Razi up.

"Sister.." Call me slowly. I keep holding his hand.

"Sir Razi woke up..." Call me again. This time Razi reacted, he moaned softly signaling he woke up from his slumber. I felt my neck tickled with fine hairs and I believed that it was Razi's eyelashes adjusting his eyes to the light of the car.

After a few seconds, I felt Razi's body stiffen.

"Zahra?" His call sounded weak.

I smiled warmly as I opened the car door and pulled Razi slowly to follow me out of the car.

Razi's sister complied and got out of the car.

"What about the others?" Ask Razi confused.

Ah, why does Razi look so funny today. So anxious.

"Later Mr. Sumanto takes care of." Answer me as you walk while breaking it into the house.

I'm selfish, right? Whatever. But I don't want to be preceded by Annisa anymore. This time I will not remain silent.

I opened the door to Razi's room and put Razi's brother to bed. I pressed the light switch, making Razi's room bright.

I pulled the blanket and lifted it up to Razi's chest. He looks exhausted.

"You rest, deck. "

I shook my head and sat beside the bed, facing Razi.

"I'm here anyway."

"You must be tired, take a break. My sister is okay, she is in the room too. " Kekeh Razi tries to seduce Zahra.

"Now, Zahra's resting?" Ask Zahra plain.

Razi smiled warmly.

"Yes you're sleeping, deck. Gotta." Razi replied firmly.

Zahra nodded obediently and walked towards the open door. Move shut the door and lock it. Then he turned towards walking towards Razi.  It was Razi's bed.

After arriving he immediately raised himself on the bed Razi, revealed the blanket and positioned his body sideways towards Razi. Pull the blanket up to the chest and end up hugging Razi warmly. Inhaling the fragrance of Razi that he missed.

While Zahra was comfortable with his position, Razi was even stunned by Zahra's attitude like this.

"Zahra?" Call Razi with his weak voice.

Zahra shook her head, knowing that Razi would definitely forbid her from sleeping next to him. She knew Razi would definitely refuse her to sleep by his side.

"Sister.. Hix.. " Isaac Zahra is heard.

Razi gasped for the second time, well this is the second time after the incident at the boarding school.

"Zahra why are you, dek?" Panic Razi worried.

Zahra shook her head, not wanting to make a sound.

"So, I'm not sorry, ka-"

"Just leave Zahra like this. Zahra was fine with her brother. Zahra would feel comfortable and calm if it was with big brother. Zahra please, leave it like this. " Zahra's voice is hoarse.

There was a happy feeling of hearing Zahra's confession, but Razi was a little confused with Zahra. Either way, from the day he received Alif's proposal, Zahra became even more quiet and crybaby. Zahra will be very whiny jikpppa with Razi. And it was proven twice.

However, every Razi asked Zahra what caused him to be like this Zahra would always be silent and would not speak.

What's wrong, deck? Why do I look as if you haven't been happy since that day. Don't make me keep hoping, deck. O God, what exactly is Zahra hiding from me?. I'm afraid that what I think is not what I expected. Razi's mind was sad as he pulled Zahra into his arms.

Zahra was surprised, but she immediately returned Razi's embrace.

He's comfortable.

And of course happy.

**Connected..

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