That's so dirty of me

Extra Part 1: The Way of God

***رَبَّنَا لَا تُزِغْ قُلُوْبَنَا بَعْدَ اِذْ هَدَيْتَنَا وَهَبْ لَنَا مِنْ لَّدُنْكَ رَحْمَةً ۚ اِنَّكَ اَنْتَ الْوَهَّابُ

"(They pray), O our Lord, do not lean our hearts to error after you have guided us, and grant us mercy from Your side, verily You are the All-Giver."

(QS. Ali 'Imran 3: Verse 8**)

***

I stared at the pretty face of Zahra who looked blushing red withstanding embarrassment.

I smiled, stroking Zahra's face for the last time.

I smiled faintly looking at her face that was slowly looking down over the pink virus imprinted sweetly on her white cheeks.

I slowly touched his chin, making our eyes meet again.

I breathed before saying something that made me look strong in his eyes.

"Sir, you must go to a place that can restore your heart. Take care of yourself, deck. Love your husband and be devoted to him. If God allows us to meet again then it is a meeting to tighten the divine rope. Brother is happy if you are happy."

Say it with one breath. I saw the movement of his eyes that widened in surprise. Slowly a clear stream flowed down her beautiful face.

She was crying and this made me even less powerful to face her wounded face. I lowered my hand to prepare to walk away, but again Zahra reached my hand, not letting me go.

Her sobs even made me want to not want to come down with tears.

I looked down at the coldness of the floor, not having the courage to look at his wounded face. I carefully took off Zahra's trembling hand that was grasping my hand.

As soon as his hand was released I immediately turned around and stepped away. I could hear his voice growing sobbing but I still had to do this. No matter what happens I have to stay in my mind. Going and disappearing healed my heart wound. Rest and try to forget all about it.

***

I closed my door slowly and then turned around intending to look for a guest room, but before that actually happened when I just turned around the first sight I found was umi, abi, and I was just about to see my wife, and Annisa who's having a chest. From their point of view I could conclude that they wanted to ask for an explanation from me.

"To the family room. " The absolute pinta abi made me and the others inevitably nod obediently and continued following his steps towards the living room.

As soon as we sat down on each sofa.

The atmosphere here is very quiet and a little awkward, maybe this is because the time we gathered was not right. It's almost 2 in the morning but their faces show no signs of getting sleepy.

"We've heard it all." Abi's voice started the chat. I was not surprised to hear his words, even if I was surprised it would be too late to be surprised right now.

"So, the conclusion we came to from the conversation between the two of you is that you both have a strong desire to be together, but all you can't do is because of your selfish decision Razi, why are you acting like this towards my daughter?. Hasn't all your doubts been clearly answered that Zahra wants you too? " Talk abi makes me stunned.

Yes, Zahra does have the same taste as me. All my doubts have been answered, but this matter is not as easy as I thought.

Although Zahra proved to love me, what about the other relationship?

A relationship that Zahra easily accepts only because of her carelessness.

I couldn't hurt anyone else, because I knew how Alif felt about Zahra. Yes, I remember very well how to look at Zahra with a gaze that cannot be underestimated. And I'm not stupid to hurt her either, Alif is my second cousin's sister after Dira. They are both very precious to me.

"Abi, please forgive Razi's very selfish attitude towards you, especially to your daughter, Zahra. But honestly, abi must know that the decision Razi took is not something easy. It's not like Abi thought, it's something difficult. " I answered trying to be as calm as possible. I saw abi's forehead creasing, clearly he seemed to ask for more explanation than me. Abi's silence is proof for that.

"Abi, Razi was very happy when he heard that Zahra also felt the same way as me. But all that is no longer useful abi, Zahra has chosen with the others. Razi is not so stupid as to choose selfishly by hurting others just because Zahra also wants Razi. Forgive Razi, abi. Razi never meant that to Zahra. " My request apologizes and ends my explanation. The atmosphere was silent again, no one spoke anymore. Maybe because the atmosphere here is so serious that it makes them reluctant to say something that is not important.

"But you've hurt my daughter, son. You made her cry." Sendu abi managed to make me shut up.

Right, whatever I'm trying to say and explain it all stays the same in their eyes. Yes, I also admit that I am a jerk who made my little daughter cry. I admit that even I feel pain right now.

"I don't mean abi, I'm not-I'm sorry because maybe whatever I'm trying to explain will never change anything. I'm sorry abi. "

"You know, son, our biggest mistake was making Zahra feel neglected because of the world. A mistake I could never forgive as a father, and since then son, I have always reminded myself that it was the last time he felt pain in the world. And at that time I promised myself to make her happy, no matter what. Including having to take selfish steps." Abi obviously surprised me.

Taking selfish steps?

What does abi mean if Zahra's marriage will never happen to another?

"What does abi mean? " I ask scared.

Abi smiled faintly and moved straight up his body. He looks very good at the moment.

"Razi, rest assured that all will be well. Sorry, if we've been hiding everything from you all this time, son. "

I'm confused, what does abi mean?

What is Abi hiding from me?

Why don't I feel anything about this?

"A few days ago, we had a family meeting at a boarding school. We're talking about your problems that still don't get to the bright spot. Even we agreed that the marriage would still be carried out but the bridegroom would be you Razi, not Alif." Clearly her.

I froze, I felt all parts of my body become stiff and unable to move. Everything, what I heard and felt tonight was like a dream to me. I'm afraid this is just my hallucination.

"For a while you'll be staying at the boarding house with your extended family. "

And yes, I really don't dream. It's real and not my hallucination. I'm honestly happy?

"La-lu what about Alif? " Task me timidly.

Abi and the others smiled at me, their smiles were alarming.

"Alif agreed without us asking, he said that Zahra was not his match. Precisely when he performs prayers istikhoroh face or instructions that lead to Zahra never Alif can be. So, Alif didn't bother about this. "

I was stunned, it turned out that they had acted this far.

"Oh, it's very late. You better rest because after the dawn prayer you will go to the boarding school. That must be exhausting. " Say abi ended our conversation. I neither deny nor refuse. I just nodded obediently and by myself my body stood following abi's footsteps, yet I had to go to the guest room for tonight.

"Pig. " Call me slowly.

Abi did not answer but gave me a questioning look.

"Thank you for everything. " My sincere speech which was immediately replied to a soft nod from abi.

"I'm sending my daughter to you. " Abi's message made me give her a smile of confidence. And that way my night ends in this house.

***

The boarding house

Thank God, I have arrived at the boarding school some time ago. Right now I am sitting on the living room couch of Alif, my cousin sister. He is certainly my family too.

It's been a long time since I waited for Alif's arrival, but until now I still haven't seen the trunk of his nose here. Maybe he is still very busy with the affairs of the office and boarding school, it is not something that is surprising considering Alif is the successor to the owner of this boarding school, my uncle.

To be honest, it is not without reason that I want to see Alif, besides this is about an invalid proposal, I also want to make sure something I heard from Abi. Something that surprised me a little and wondered, is that true?

I waited for a moment when the sound of steps began to be heard from the south, precisely from the direction of the door.

"Assynolajet.. " The greeting of someone I believe from her voice is Fia. But it seems he is not alone because the sound of his steps sounds in a row.

And right, after answering Fia's greeting I immediately turned my gaze towards the origin of Fia's voice. There Fia was walking at her usual pace with Dira, my first cousin's sister. Dira is the son of Rum's aunt, the second child born after papah. Actually if sorted in line Dira family should be called a sister by another cousin. Although Dira is not that old, but from the lineage he was born from the second son of grandfather. However, because he knew his age was younger than other cousins, he finally preferred to appreciate the older one. Like Alif, he was the first son of an uncle whose grandfather's descendant was the third son after Rum's aunt. Alif was born earlier than Dira, therefore Dira called him by the name of brother. That goes for all my other cousins.

"How are you, big brother, is it still able to breathe properly or not? " Task Dira after sitting on the sofa. I know he didn't really ask me, he was very obvious to give me a mockery.

"As you can see, Alhamdulillah still can. " I didn't mean to make his mockery.

Hearing her, Dira looked at me intently. He then gave me a faint smile, grinning. Ah, I never did tell you that my sister this one is so weird. He used to say something with a terrible expression, was he okay with such an attitude?

"So, how now?. You must have heard everything from Abi, right? " Tanya Fia shifted my focus.

I nodded briefly in return, right, abi had explained everything last night. Hey, don't think weird.

The Abi that Fia was referring to was the abi that took care of me to this size. Zahra's Abi, my parents' best friend. If you ask me where my parents are then the answer is that both of my parents died in an accident 17 years ago. I don't know what caused them the accident but you should know that I've clarified it. I have accepted with grace that yes, God loves my parents more.

"Right, brother heard her last night. As you can see, brother is here with you. " I answered calmly. But, the expression they displayed actually showed a clear dissatisfaction.

Dira twirled his lazy eyeball, looking very disrespectful. How could I forget this, my sister is weird. Not just him, but all of them.

Do you remember Fia when she was in town?

I didn't believe it at first but when I looked with my own eyes I was finally convinced by that, ah, how crazy Fia and Fira were back then. They were both willing to take off her headscarf and dress scantily just to get close to Zahra. It was something very terrible, but fortunately this problem was not until the smell of the family in the boarding school. If they smell, I can't guarantee they'll be okay.

"Then, what about the college sister in Egypt? " Take Dira.

I smiled at her question.

"So I confirmed it a while ago, maybe not now." Answer me.

"So, you chose to go and leave Zahra? " Tanya Fia doesn't like it.

I was stunned, then shut my mouth tightly. Holding back laughter that is ready to explode if I don't control it.

"Is this funny? " Tanya Dira plain.

"No, I don't mean that. I'm getting married to Zahra it's a decision I've made. But I was a little curious, how could I not know that some time ago a large family had a meeting? " Task me curious. Hearing abi's brief explanation last night I became very curious about this. They had a meeting without involving me. It's like they've planned everything from me. Abi also said that Alif also participated in this plan, and what annoyed me the most was why did Alif never say anything about this?. Why didn't Alif tell me about this?

"Are you kidding? " Tanya Dira slightly offended me, how could I not be offended if she asked like that. Just think about the feeling of things that are not playful, let alone played with then it is not something natural.

"Joking, how can you say something like this is a joke to me?"

Dira frowned then raised both his hands into a cross position in front of his chest, cross his chest.

"I didn't say it. " Didn't Dira makes me more toyed with, even Fia has now laughed a lot, well I realize if I was really played by the two of them.

I gave up and chose not to serve them both, ah how nosy they both are.

"Look... " Dira's voice interrupted me. I stared at her in silence, waiting for the continuation of her speech that called for attention.

"Don't I tell you 3 weeks ago that I'm going to take over the game, end it my own way, you're forgetting something important." Ejek Dira ended his speech to me. I was silent, thinking about what happened a while ago.

As I recall, my last meeting with Dira was when I was sick. Ah, I completely forgot about this, the strange words that Dira made at that time I thought were just emotions and nonsense. I never thought if he really did it.

"For the matter of family gatherings, it's also because of me. Fia and I have told all of them to Ustad Kholik, I told my uncle that Zahra actually likes my sister. I also said that brother likes Zahra." I was silent, actually at this time I was very shocked by what Dira said. Why is he that close?

"Don't be surprised, Fia and I don't actually have the guts to talk about this crazy thing. But even so we still stepped up because we could not bear to see the misunderstanding between the two of you. As we thought, they did not believe. We were confused to convince them until Fia finally said that they had to see everything with their own eyes. Watching you two. "

Watching me?

How could that happen?

So all this time I've always been supervised by a boarding house family?

It really surprised me.

"And that's the beginning of family meetings here. That simple. " End of Dira.

I'm not satisfied with what they explained. I want to know more. But before I actually asked the sound of knocking on the door and greeting first intruded on me. I answered my greetings and let me go in. As I thought the figure who knocked on the door was Alif, Alif walked in and sat on the sofa beside me. Seeing that the person I was waiting for had come, Fia and Dira were also allowed to retreat. They both understand this is a matter between men and neither of them should be the two of them who as women interfere in this matter.

"How are you? " Tanya Alif first started the chat after Fia and Dira had actually come out. I nodded slowly.

"Thank God, as you see. " I answered convincingly.

"What about you? " My words turned around to question him.

"Alhamdulillah, as you see. " His reply made us spontaneously smile. Our family bond cannot be lied to.

"Zahra, why did you take it off?" I asked for his explanation. I was told by Abi last night about this, but I want to hear Alif's explanation from him myself directly. I want to try to find the truth of everything that happened today.

"Razi, I know that you've always liked Zahra." His voice began to answer.

"Do you know from D-"

"No. " Cut Alif fast.

"Yes, it's true that Dira and Fia came to me and told me about your feelings, but I actually knew from the beginning. "

"How come? " Confused me.

How could Alif know my feelings, wasn't I never told or told anyone?

Unless it's Dira and Fia. They did know it from the beginning even though I didn't tell them. Perhaps it is because they are women that their feelings become more sensitive to others.

"Hem, from the way you tell and stare at her. At first I doubted it, but after seeing your different gaze on her I was finally sure, you like Zahra-oh no, you don't like her but you love Zahra. "

"I became sure again if you two love each other after I saw firsthand how effective Zahra is towards you and do not forget if his strange gaze is always enthusiastic if it is near you. I realize one thing Razi does if what I feel is not worth what you feel. I'm not stupid enough to keep you two apart, I'm not that bad."

I fell silent, it's not what I expected. I thought Alif would give me a bullshit excuse that was hard to accept. I don't know if he knows this much about me and Zahra. I don't know if he's noticed and watched us this far.

"Alif, you didn't separate us. But you know what? We hurt you, don't you realize this? "

Alif smiled faintly, on his face right now there was only a calmness and peace.

"You're wrong Razi, don't ever think like this. Here there is God and there is always God, how can I make a decision without involving him?"

I'm stunned. I forgot this important thing. Alif is not that bad guy, he is not selfish in anything. There is God, there is always God.

"I understand. " My voice received all his explanations.

"Razi, I want to tell you something. " Alif's voice sounded relaxed.

I nodded and gave a gesture of waiting.

"Tonight I'm going to the city to finish the branch office business, it's valid for a few days, so I'm sorry I couldn't help you to prepare for your wedding. But one thing is certain, in shaa Allah on your wedding day I will come. " His voice asks for permission.

I nodded and said that Alif did not need to think about all that.

After our conversation was over, Alif and I immediately moved apart. Alif went to prepare for the city while I went to my room to rest. Because I cannot deny that the journey from the city to here is not something fast and easy.

***

3 Days later

I finished my recitation of the Qur'an with a hikmad and moved to close it, putting it where it should be.

I glanced at the clock, it was already 11pm, tomorrow was my wedding day with Zahra but Alif still had not given any news of her return. To be honest from earlier I felt an unwarranted feeling of worry. I feel uneasy about something I don't know yet, which is why I'm so worried about Alif right now. I was afraid that the premonition I was feeling right now was a sign for Alif.

Suddenly the sound of a car horn sounded from outside, I immediately stood up and walked to the door. And sure enough, I found Alif out of the car with the woman?

Alif was holding a woman who looked unconscious there. The woman's body was covered in a blanket, the woman's condition did not look okay. On his pale face there is a bruise that looks still fresh, Alif was not much different from the state of the woman.

On the face of Alif there have been several bruises, even on the back of his hand there are now several blisters.

"Abi, please this girl.. " The voice of Alif hurriedly brought the woman into the house. Seeing that, uncle and abi did not stay silent and immediately rushed to help Alif.

"What happened, why did the woman get like this? " Auntie asked worriedly.

"The story's long umi, help her umi.." Alif's voice was exhausted.

"That must be son, Razi please take Alif to his room, give him a red and sedative medicine.." Aunt's orders. I nodded obediently and prepared to take Alif walking after me.

"Eye-in"

"Don't worry about this woman, we'll handle it. Look at you, you're not much different from her circumstances, just take it. " The absolute uncle's orders were instantly embraced obediently by Alif.

***

Author P's. O. V

The young man still could not believe what was happening today, he stared at the house he was in now turned into a very beautiful place. Filled with beautiful decorations and looks graceful. And in front of her now, stood a middle-aged man who was staring at her happily. From the glare of his eyes that began to tear up in tears, there was a look of relief depicted there. He is happy because leave-ah, more precisely who will keep his beloved daughter is someone right. Someone he believed could escort and guide his daughter down a better path and he was so relieved of it all.

"Pig. " Call the young man while hugging the middle-aged man with a deep embrace will highlight the longing.

"Abi taught you to be a tough guy, not a weak guy. " The middle-aged man, called Abi, learned that the young man he had raised lovingly had grown into a strong and resolute adult man was now crying in his arms.

The young man could only smile wryly while wiping away the trace of tears on his handsome face. Once again he smiled, smiling happily until his dimples appeared shy.

"Live happy. " Pinta abi made the young man smile meaningfully while nodding vigorously.

Abi patted the young man's shoulder slowly as he led him inside, towards the place that would be the gate to justify his little daughter whom he had dreamed of for a long time.

"Can we start now?" The voice of the middle-aged man to all the invitations and relatives, especially to a young man who was sitting cross-legged bravely before the elders and elders.

Nodding everyone and the young man made the elders nod in agreement and start the show. Open the barrier gate slowly and begin to bind someone who will accompany the young man towards his ridho.

Slowly the young man took a breath as he kept remembering the word of God.

*يٰۤـاَيُّهَا النَّاسُ اتَّقُوْا رَبَّكُمُ الَّذِيْ خَلَقَكُمْ مِّنْ نَّفْسٍ وَّاحِدَةٍ وَّخَلَقَ مِنْهَا زَوْجَهَا وَبَثَّ مِنْهُمَا رِجَالًا كَثِيْرًا وَّنِسَآءً ۚ وَاتَّقُوا اللّٰهَ الَّذِيْ تَسَآءَلُوْنَ بِهٖ وَالْاَرْحَامَ ۗ اِنَّ اللّٰهَ كَانَ عَلَيْكُمْ رَقِيْبًا

"Oh man! Fear your Lord who created you from one self (Adam), and (God) created his spouse (Eve) from his (self); and from both of them God bred many men and women. Be afraid of Allah for whom you ask each other and (maintain) family relations. Verily Allah is ever watchful and watchful over you."

(QS. An-Nisa' 4: Verse 1*)

The word continues to make the young man's heart warm, he is sure as sure if his little daughter who will be part of his life is the ribs that God destiny for her. He did not even forget how hard the struggle and obstacles he had gone through to get to this point. He also did not forget even some time ago he preferred to give up fighting for his little daughter, but it turns out the power of God is the best scenario for him. How man runs or lifts his hand upon all things, God will never remain silent. If man is tired, then with the goodness of God and the love of God the all-romantic will continue. And yes, the young man was very grateful for God's kindness and compassion for everything. Especially for today.

***

Raze P. O. V

After ending my Qur'an with the prayer that the apostle prayed, I took a breath of relief at least one key I had obtained. Yes, a very important key. You knew? My little princess asked for the dowry of an Ar-Rahman letter, I was so amazed and amazed by her. I thought she was going to ask for something that girls out there used to ask for but it turned out I was wrong, my little daughter was different wasn't she?

After taking enough breaths I gave a nod to Abi, yes I was ready to accept and bring the princess back into my arms.

Abi stuck out his hand which I immediately greeted with a feeling that I could not draw.

I stared at the sharp eyes of abi who seemed to bind me to return his gaze. After shaking hands with each other, it was clear that Abi took a breath before saying the sacred words.

"Ananda Muhammad Affianka Razi BIN Muhammad Affianka Fahriandi I married and I marry you to Zahra Affianisha bint Muhammad Affiarul Hadi with... "

***

Raze P. O. V

"WELL. " The screams of all the invited guests and the extended family made me spontaneously immediately give thanks. Abi patted me on the shoulder and immediately greeted me with a hug of happiness that I could not draw. While in Abi's arms, I was unceasingly grateful for how great and many blessings God has bestowed today. Alhamdulillahot.

"Come, get your wife. " Abi's voice made me realize and immediately nodded enthusiastically. I was directed to walk up the steps of our bridal room, me and Zahra, my wife.

Beside me there is an abi who looks calm and firm, beside my left again there is an uncle who behaves the same as abi.

The process of climbing these stairs felt very slow to me. Actually I can't wait any longer, but it doesn't feel funny if I act impatient and become the laughing stock of the invited guests.

To be honest right now I feel an indescribable feeling. My chest had never stopped beating so hard even my knees felt like jelly at this time. It is a feeling that cannot be described.

After we got to the door of Zahra's room, I let out a slow sigh and then with trembling hands began to knock on the door of our bridal room.

Tok~

Tok~

Tok~

3 times knocking on the door finally the door of this bridal room was opened.

Deg

I stared blankly at the scene in front of me. Even blinking, I'm not willing to right now.

How not?

There, a girl stood with a gracefully covered white dress plus a transparent veil embedded sweetly on her side.

Allah Masyaa.

That's Zahra, my wife.

She looked very beautiful with her thin veil, she was much more graceful if it was like this.

"R.. Zi?" Zahra called me in disbelief, I know for a fact that at this time she felt very surprised by my arrival here. I smiled and softly said hello .

"Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahiwa. " My greetings as I slowly entered into Zahra's room. Making Zahra more frozen in place. The group that accompanied me just stared amusedly at me from outside the room, even Dira and Fira blatantly uttered seductive words, making my face feel warm.

"Vaalaikumussalam.. " Bisik Zahra answered my greetings. He was still staring in disbelief at me who was now right in front of him.

"Why is my brother here? " Zahra's voice began to sound hoarse, even his tears had flowed smoothly on both of his cheeks covered with a veil.

I smiled warmly. Look, how sweet Zahra is right now.

"Aren't you allowed if your husband comes to pick up his wife? " My temptation further made Zahra shock mixed in confusion.

"Isn't.isn't hicks.. " Isaac Zahra could not continue his remarks, Zahra was crumbling her bridal attire restlessly, she looked like she wanted to do something yet as she held it.

"Come here, greet your husband with your warm embrace. " My voice while carrying Zahra's vibrating body in my longing-filled embrace. Getting an impromptu hug like that makes Zahra inevitably embrace me back with a hug that is not less tight. Zahra drowned her veil-covered pretty face behind my chest, crying and shedding her mountain-shade longing.

I hugged her tighter and tighter, soaking her hair that was now still closed, ah how much I missed my little princess. I miss her so much. I couldn't have imagined it if I had left Zahra, I'm sure my life would have been empty.

"Ehem, don't be so cool yourself, there's still an event you have to go through today. " The repulsive Tegur abi made me and Zahra let go of our embrace, even we only realized the ridiculing and seductive gazes of the people present there.

With trembling hands I took out a diamond-eyed gold ring that was pinned on Zahra's pretty finger. Zahra accepted her with a timid smile. Even I had a chance to see how cute Zahra's eyes were when she saw the same chicin also pinned in my day, this silver ring.

Umi approaches Zahra and is seen whispering something that makes Zahra nod awkwardly.

Zahra slowly moved to grab my hand, her hand felt trembling and wet. I want to laugh at how embarrassed he is right now.

After Zahra finished kissing my hand, I began to move to grab Zahra's head and bring her to my front. Pray in our hearts that the path we choose will have a good impact on everyone and God will be pleased with us. Then it ended with me peeping his forehead warm and sincere.

***

After all the events were over, Zahra and I chose to sit and relax with others in the family room, even from then on we were always the subject of temptation for all of them. Actually I was embarrassed, but considering this is something that makes me pound and this is the first time, it feels lingering outside to calm the heart is not a problem.

"Are you tired, hm? " Task me as gently as possible to Zahra while holding her hand gently.

"A little bit, but it's nothing." Embarrassed answer. I smiled warmly as I stroked her hands gently. At the moment the other family is cleaning up some things that I don't know for sure, be here just the two of us.

"Zahra, Alif sends his greetings to you. He could not attend because he had an accident last night. " My voice made Zahra's forehead frown. I'm sure he still doesn't understand.

"I'll explain everything, but not here. We should take a break. " My voice again made Zahra just nod obediently even though she was very clear to be full of confusion.

Seriate..