That's so dirty of me

Pupus (Two)

"Miss.."

"Yes.."

"Where is Razi going?"

Umi seemed to think before answering my question.

"Razi equals abi wants to go to the boarding house, there's business." Umi replied before finally greeting me and closing my room door.

To the boarding school?

Razi?

Abi's?

What are they doing there?

Is it possible.ah, shit!

This is totally insane.

Is this Zahra?, even you believe Razi loved you just because he helped you this morning, this is Zahra's bullshit!

Author P's. O. V

Zahra felt her chest become tight, she decided to get up from her bed because the pain in her stomach had begun to disappear.

Zahra walked back and forth in her room with a huffed and agitated feeling.

Not infrequently also occasionally Zahra ruffled her hair violently.

"Alright Zahra, it's not too late to stop all this. It's okay." Zahra spoke to herself.

He turned to face the window of his room and found a view in the courtyard of the house.

Umi hugged Razi's body tightly with affection, as if he was not willing to let go of Razi even if it was just a visit for a few days.

"If this is what you want, then fine.. I'll follow all your games.." Zahra muttered with a sly smile.

Zahra could no longer bear the injustice she had found in this house. And today Zahra has decided to fight, following all the games they played to Zahra.

Smiling wickedly, Zahra stared intently at the sight. "*We'll see who will play this game. I, Zahra Affianisha or you will be the ones to disobey her*." Inner Zahra cunning.

To begin the mission, Zahra decided to get out of her sleep and get ready to take a bath.

30 Minutes later...

Zahra was ready with a long sleeve shirt as well as with her black long stocking pants. Not to forget also he used face powder and tidied his long hair that decomposed loose.

"Ah, be ready" muttered Zahra excitedly as she smiled a smile of satisfaction.

Before the action, Zahra felt her lower abdomen in the middle. Gently caress it while muttering to himself.

"You who I gave you were really great, the pain I felt every obstacle instantly disappeared and left no marks. " Gumam Zahra was happy and immediately acted towards his goal.

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Zahra came down the steps excitedly and cheerfully, hoping that today her first mission could succeed.

"Sir Annisa.." Zahra's screams rumbled in the living room.

Zahra had not found Annisa in any room, until she decided to look for Annisa to the front because usually Annisa will check the plants she planted during her stay in this house. I like nature, that's it.

"Sister" Zahra's words came to a halt when Zahra saw that Umi was smearing ointment into Annisa's hand which was visibly wounded and bleeding with a worried expression.

Looking at that scene, Zahra could only hold back her jealousy with all her might.

"Give me God, it's sick." Zahra's prayer.

Because he did not want to struggle with his mind too long, Zahra also chose to continue his mission that was delayed.

Strengthening his heart, Zahra walked up to the two of them. "Sister.. Sister Annisa" Call Zahra as she approaches Annisa and Umi.

Annisa and Umi look a little surprised by Zahra's sudden arrival, not because Zahra was still sick, but Zahra's attitude of suddenly being soft and friendly to both of them was unusual for them, especially to Annisa.

Annisa felt a little odd with Zahra's attitude that suddenly called out to her cheerfully and politely.

"Zahra's? " Anisa was a little surprised.

"Greetings atuh, baby.. " Smooth umi gurgle.

Zahra Cengengesan got a reprimand from his uminya and immediately obeyed his ummah.

"Hehe, sorry, umi. Zahra forgot, assalamualaikum umi, sister of Annisa. " Greetings Zahra politely.

Umi smiles with a stiff attitude Zahra who looks very nervous and shy.

While Umi is happy with Zahra's change in attitude, Annisa feels that if Zahra is planning something that is certain only Zahra and God know.

I feel like something bad is going to happen.

"Annisa, answer your greetings." Tegur umi who managed to restore her consciousness as before.

"Ah, I-ya umi, what's up? " Anisa flares after returning from her daydream.

Umi shakes her head, a sign of anxiety with one of her daughters, Annisa.

"Umi, say answer me or greetings. " Enlighten umi repeated her words.

Annisa scrunched her forehead a sign of disbelief as she looked at Umi asking for the truth. In response to Annisa's silly gaze, Umi simply nodded enthusiastically happily. Annisa nodded her head while turning her eyes towards Zahra. Finding Zahra smiling sweetly with her hair loosely in the wind, she was very beautiful.

"Waalaikum salam." Annisa finally answered Zahra's greeting.

Zahra greeted Annisa with a big smile, trying to make Umi and Annisa not think strangely about her change of attitude. So that he can carry out his plan smoothly and smoothly.

Don't su'udzon, maybe this is a good start for Zahra.

Annisa decides to trust Zahra rather than her bad thoughts. Truly, Annisa felt sorry for thinking no-no to Zahra who was none other than her own sister.

"Ehem.. " Umi's speech cleared her throat to start the conversation.

"So, is there any need for Zahra to call this beautiful Umi child in a loud voice? " Tanya Umi was intent on joking.

Umi's jokes not make Zahra laugh but instead make him feel pain in his chest.

Umi child?, if Annisa is an umi child then what about me who is standing in front of you right now. Am I your son too?. Inner Annisa miris, do not blame how sensitive Zahra is at this time because what Zahra feels is something that not everyone feels. Ignored by your own family, how does it feel?

Annisa looked at Zahra who was like she was daydreaming, "Zahra, what's wrong? how you daydream, deck. " Smooth Annisa's mouthful as her hands gently stroked Zahra's back gently.

Zahra just stared into her brother's face, until she finally shook her head while smiling.

"I'm just-" Thinking.

"just? " Repeat the curious umi.

Zahra took a deep breath and closed her eyes for fear of getting an unwanted reaction.

Zahra, spirit!.

Finding Zahra back in silence, Annisa thinks Zahra is daydreaming."Zahras.. " Call Annisa.

Nervous, Zahra tried to look reassured, "I just want sister Annisa to teach me to pray with njai. " Zahra said softly, trying to keep her voice from sounding normal. Shifting his gaze, Zahra did not want to ruin his ending with a nervous look.

Long Zahra waited and still did not get any response. Zahra thought that Annisa and Umi did not believe her until she finally felt a warm embrace on her body.

Stunned, Zahra averted her gaze and found that Umi was hugging her full of water.

"Um-"

"O Allah, Zahra, thank you for the guidance you gave her. Alhamdulillahot.. Yes, Rabb. " Thankful, Umi did not want to let go of her embrace to Zahra because honestly she was very happy after hearing the sincere request of her daughter who she had been waiting for for a long time.

Smiling faintly, Zahra did not know how she should respond to her sincere general happiness because as you know, this is just her play. "Yes, umi also please teach Zahra. " Asking for doubt, honestly he did not have the heart to hurt her like this.

Seeing uminya hugged the sister warmly, Annisa was hesitant and happy to hug her sister warmly. It's a lie that Annisa doesn't feel any feelings. He still felt Zahra's change was too sudden and strange.

Smiling motherly, Umi pats Zahra's back dear. "That must be son, umi and the others will help you move closer to God. "

Again Zahra can only smile thinly in response, this has already happened. Backwards will give you nothing.

Releasing her embrace, umi gave Annisa a knotty smile then looked back at Zahra who was still wearing a mask face, "Yes, we just go in yuk, here hot. Better to talk inside the house. " Take Umi while pulling Zahra and Annisa follow her into the house.

Following Umi's footsteps pulling her into the house, Zahra silently stared at her bare back.

Forgive Zahra umi for acting so far to you. Zahra does not mean evil, Zahra just wants to make your dear child who has been overflowing with affection also feel the pain I feel. Zahra wanted Annisa to feel lonely and foreign, so Zahra would feel that everything was fair.

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"Now you have written Annas and Al-Falak. Tomorrow night brother will test your shipment, so don't forget the hapalin. Hapalin is also easy to deck, it is a short letter. " Anisa's advice sounded very chatty to Zahra.

Responding to her, Zahra did not need to say a single word and just nodded her head in understanding.

Tonight is the most historic night for Zahra, because after years of not reading the Qur'an finally tonight he re-read it.

Annisa will act as a teacher for Zahra as long as she learns to study the Qur'an and pray.

When Annisa started teaching her lessons, Zahra sometimes looked at the face of her second sister with a deep gaze. While staring at Annisa, Zahra did not show much expression on her face. Just looking at him and that was only occasionally.

I know that I will continue to be hurt and will always feel isolated in this place even though my little plan works. However, at least once the plan is successful I will no longer be alone. Because when that happens sister Annisa will feel the pain that has been shackling me.

"Zahra, how do you daydream?" Annisa's reprimand instantly restores Zahra's consciousness.

Zahra blinked in surprise, "Ah, yes, what's wrong sister?" Ask Zahra in a daze.

Seeing Zahra who was seen in a daze, Annisa then shifted her sitting position to get closer to her. Then after the distance disappeared, he hugged her with a feeling of affection.

Meanwhile, Zahra was very surprised by Annisa's rapid movements and suddenly hugged her. For Zahra this is his first hug after a long time Zahra waiting. Warm and comfortable, that was the first impression that Zahra felt at this moment. I don't know, what feeling that Zahra has that she admits that it's comfortable and soothing. In fact, he had forgotten what his original purpose was here.

Ah, it's been a long time since Annisa didn't hug this warm.

Long enough to feel a warm feeling, Zahra finally regained consciousness. "Sister." Call Zahra in a whispering voice because Annisa is so close to her.

Annisa did not flinch at all with the call of Zahra and still hugged Zahra's body while closing her eyes. Until some time they kept silent while hugging, Annisa finally made a sound.

Annisa felt that her heart was yawning right now. Ask the employer to immediately release and release him. Tight, that's what Annisa's feeling.

The pain and hurt that his sister Zahra had inflicted was enveloping him at this moment. Unlike Annisa, Zahra felt that her throat was stuck hearing Annisa's plea. That old wound, the long-buried old wound finally came to life again adorning the dark heart of Zahra.

The flash back

"Abi.. Abi.. Zahra.. " Shouted an 8-year-old girl named Zahra to a middle-aged man called her abi.

"Sorry, baby, Zahra can't come now because there's a job out of town. " Say abi subtly refused little Zahra's request while taking off a small Zahra hug slowly from her waist.

Slipping Zahra's small head while looking at her tiny eyes that were now in the liquid. "Zahra lives just as much as you used to love." Taking off her gentle rub, Abi pulled the suitcase that had stood firmly beside her while walking away from the sad little Zahra.

Zahra's little face turned crimson and her eyes grew increasingly heated, resisting the fall of the water source of weakness. Unable to be with Abi, Zahra finally ran into the house to find uminya.

Zahra found her umin in the room packing up and preparing to leave.

"Umi.umi where to go, Zahra can follow umi.. " Little Rengek Zahra while hugging her beloved doll.

Umi still ignored Zahra's small request and focused more on the items to be taken away.

"Umi Zahra can come.. " Prevent Zahra when she will generally move out of the room while carrying things.

Umi turned her head and stroked Zahra's hair slowly.

"Sorry umi, baby. Zahra can't come because Umi's not going for vacation, but your sister Annisa's sick dear. So, over the next few days Umi will be at the boarding school to take care of your sister.. " Umi's speech rejected little Zahra's request subtly.

Zahra shook her head and continued to whine nonstop. Umi is overwhelmed by the face of the little Zahra until suddenly abi comes to take off the arms of the little Zahra so that the little Zahra beloved doll fell and accidentally stepped on by the feet of the umi. Umi and Abi go to the boarding house to take care of Annisa without looking back, seeing little Zahra who is sitting helplessly with a doll that has been dirty due to earth. Seeing the departure of Umi and her ashes can not do anything, little Zahra who still can not do anything can only spill her sadness by crying.

"Umi's.. Zahra fear.. Abi Zahra wants to come, Zahra is scared here.. " The little Zahra cried out in fear, hoping that umi and abi would hear her fear and would kindly take her away. However, instead of turning around abi and umi just keep stepping away and lost from the sight of little Zahra.

"Umi's.. Abi.. Zahra fear.. "

Flash back off

Zahra felt her cheeks warm up, crying. Zahra cried unintentionally as she remembered her childhood that was more similar to dark times.

"Sister please remain a little Zahra brother who had lost and today returned again. Brother please, don't go again, because sister misses you so much, deck" Please Annisa sincerely. Annisa misses those days, when her sister acted funny and fun.

Zahra's heart was further broken and torn apart when Zahra heard Annisa say 'little zahra'. Zahra wiped her tears violently and forcibly released Annisa's embrace. Zahra thought if this was not the case Zahra would be trapped by the game of Annisa, yes, Zahra did not want to lose the game he made himself.

"Zah-uh "

"Zahra to the room first sister. " Pamit Zahra stood up and went straight to her room without waiting for the approval of Annisa.

After Zahra's back disappeared from Annisa's bedroom door, Annisa let out her breath slowly.

Removing the burden of his heart.

"True, you do need time for that." Annisa muttered talking to herself.

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Dertt..

Incoming message notification sounds. Razi checked the incoming messages.

"Eye?" Razi was confused when he found the notification from umi because it is not usually sent a message, if you contact Razi usually Umi directly call him without sending Razi a message like this.

**To: Razi

Assalamualaikum, son.

Umi ask for help dong, please activate your WA. And after that, call us..

Assalamualaik..

Umi❤**

Although confused, Razi still follows his general intrusion.

"Why, Zi, is there a problem.? " The reproach of a man who is the same age as Razi.

"Gus fansyah, no problem really.. " Razi answered confidently to the man called 'gus Fansyah'.

"Why does your face look like a confused person?" Ask a confused fan.

"Oh, that's gus. Umi I texted he said tell open WA. " Razi answered while activating the data and opening his WA account.

Gus fansyah just nodded her head in understanding.

After opening the WA, Razi's long finger immediately moved agilely looking for his umi account and after finding it, Razi immediately opened the message sent umi.

After opening it, Razi finds a photo that Umi sends to him. In the photo, there is a figure of a girl who looks down while reading a book that should be a translation of the Qur'an. Gnashing his forehead, Razi thought that the figure in this photo was a familiar figure to him until suddenly his eyeballs smashed, showing a huge sense of shock.

Zahras?

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Zahra P's. O. V

I really wasn't okay because of that. At first, I felt comfortable and happy with the hug Annisa gave me. However, when Annisa started to say something I started to remember my dark past. Where at that time I had just stepped on the age of 8 years, but could already feel the bitterness of life. That incident, I promise I will not remember it again because really this heart will be very sick and painful if you remember it again. However, the incident made me regret making this game. I don't know, but it's too painful for me to deal with. It's too painful for me to go through. But because I've been stuck so I have to complete this mission. I have to, even if I'm going to get hurt in the end with the reality I'm going to face. But, I have to finish it.

Trd...

Trd...

Trd..

The ringing of my cell phone shrieked loudly in my room. Breaking off my outside world and making me instantly attracted to my real world.

"Ann?" I muttered when I saw that the one who called me was Andrini.

Because I didn't want to wait long, I picked up the phone from Andrini.

"Hallo, Ann?"

"Hallo, Zahra, it's me Andrini. "

"Well, I know what's going on?"

"There's nothing at all.. "

"Keep that there's nothing about calling me? "

"Zahras.. Zahra.lo that never changes yes, every time people want to joke always you take it seriously."

"Continue?"

"Gue bring good news to you and just make you one."

"What happy news? "

"Zahra tomorrow you're not in? "

"Hm, I don't think so, why? "

"But the shabbiness went in?"

"I think so, why? "

"Good, means you can take part in the study.. "

"Shit, lo, happy news from where to study.. "

"Shats! Shit! Shats! Shit!

I was horrified first, so, tomorrow the day after that there is a lecture and you have to come in because you have to shoot Mr. Alif."

"You mean?"

"Ih, the day after that lecture, Alif who led so you can freely see him. Well, when the study is over you can dechetin him. He doesn't have a girlfriend, so this is your chance to shoot him"

"But, Ann, Alif doesn't want to date.. "

"That's just his talk, well who knows if you shoot him immediately accept. And again this well, this is your first love time anyway you want to release him so aja.lo must prove if your charm can conquer anyone, including Alif. "

Is Alif my first love?

"Hm, seriously."

"Seriously! "

"Ok, I'll try. Alif was my first love. So, there's no harm if I shoot him. "

Yeah, it's not a problem because I'm sure I like Alif.

"Good, you are pinter. Uh, let me go to the kitchen first. Called by mama.. "

"Well.. " And click, the connection is disconnected.

I sighed heavily, thinking of the plan Andrini suggested to me.

Him, right.

Alif was my first love, wouldn't it hurt to try to have it?.

Isn't this good?

Then that way I'll know that I'm not sick, my handsome prince, I'm sick of paying too much attention to him.

Well, this is an experience. What's more tomorrow night is the most beautiful night for me, because my mission will take place. It might hurt, but at least I'm satisfied with what I'm doing.

*So, myself?

If I want someone else to be in my position. Isn't that fair? What I felt was also felt by him.

Zahra Affianisha*

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