That's so dirty of me

Catastrophe

"*You are too careless, that the path you chose is wrong. You don't realize that the place you're going to hit is a place full of thorns."

Lutfia Asakira*b*.

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Zahra P's. O. V

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"Dad?,"

"Zahra, wake up dong dek.ayo dong we go to prayer.." Annisa screamed loudly, trying to wake me up to pray together.

I wriggled comfortably on my bed, signaling that I was awake but it took some time to regain consciousness.

"Zahra, wake up dong deck.." Samar, I heard Annisa's voice calling me from outside. The voice that woke me up earlier I was sure it was a rare Annisa voice.

But suddenly I realized, confused as to why Annisa called me this excited. "Sir annisa?"

My head still feels dizzy and I feel why this morning came so soon?

Wasn't this too soon, when I felt that if I had just slept 3 hours ago and now suddenly the morning came, was this just because of my feelings or what?.

Not wanting to get dizzy, I put away the warm blanket that had hugged me and provided a comfortable warmth. "Yes, brother.." Turning it down, I got out of my bed and rushed to open the door.

"Assalamualaikum, Zahra." After I opened the door, the first thing that greeted me was Annisa's greeting voiced with a clear spirit. If I think about it, this is the first time I've seen her in front of me, because usually, like I said before, she's a delicate girl.

"Waa'alaikumsalam, oh my brother ngagetin Zahra aja, nyebelin tau no." I complained about half lying. I was surprised, but it wasn't because of the negative side. I was surprised because well, I was stunned by the nature of my brother that I just saw at this time.

Annisa laughed a little, "Hehe. I'm sorry to have ngaggetin you, but seriously you know the deck wait you wake up that patience makes sister so anxious you don't know. Moreover, it's very cold, brother cold to know. "

Hearing Annisa's reason I couldn't help but chuckle in annoyance, didn't she already say it herself if she was cold but why did she keep trying to wake me up?

In addition, before I heard him say want to pray together with me. Didn't I say last night that if I was an idol, did he forget this?

Then about this joint prayer, where there is prayer in the morning, if I guess maybe this is still at half seven, the dzuhur prayer time at this hour?

It's too diligent or what the hell?

"Sister, it's still the morning of our jihasih prayer dzuhur at this hour, right it's only half seven, sis?" I'm trying to remember him, maybe he forgot or who knows.

Just a reminder, even though I am poor in religion but I still remember the times of prayer that Muslims must do. Well, although not too deep but at least I'm not that bad, right?

"Oh Allah, Zahra.!" Annisa once again shouted, if the first one was yelling outside my room to build me up it's not too annoying but the second one this time is in front of me and as you can guess, it's very disturbing. So confused, Annisa why her hobby so yelling gini, what was previously this is her habit?

If it is said to be surprised, then yes, I am surprised. "Huh?" And this is my most natural response after getting a shock from her.

Shaking his head, "There is a dzuhur prayer deck at this hour, pray the morning prayer we have not yet dek.eh, have been playing dzuhur prayer aja." Annisa gave me an explanation that once again made me feel stunned.

What, what did he say?

I'm not wrong, am I?

He was screaming hysterically which I thought was a bull entering the house and was preparing to attack us but it was not a bull that came in but he was screaming hysterically unclear and unreasonable just because of the confusion about prayer?

Oh.

I don't know if his innocence turned out to be an idiot.

But wait, Annisa said this is not dzuhur prayer even shabuh no time, so what does this mean?

Turning my brain, I guessed what my brother meant. "You mean our brother wants to pray, morning prayer at noon?" ask me with an expression I can't draw.

Genuinely, this morning I was like a stupid bego who did not know where to go because he was lost on the planet Mars and with a million torments of sunlight that always highlighted me everywhere

Oh, shits!

I started getting embarrassed again.

Annisa's expression became confused, "Morning prayer by noon?" He asked doubtfully.

Hearing her ask like that, my response just nodded. What else his expression that looked puzzled made also confusion. If not my guess then whether this is directly Ashar prayer, hell I become more confused.

Annisa narrowed her eyes and thought for a long time. A few minutes later, Annisa laughed while hitting me on the shoulder.

Well, his behavior changed again. Within half an hour he had stunned me for the umpteenth time.

I had a chance to think, if this is the Annisa I know usually because I knew Annisa would not be as silly and weird as this. Being able to change her expression and behavior in just a few minutes, I wondered if Annisa in front of me was my sister Annisa.

Ah, or this is a side effect because it is too long locked in the prison boarding school.10 years there, it could be Annisa experiencing mental disorders.

Swallowing spit, I tried asking him carefully. "Sister.sister is fine, right?" I was worried because if he wasn't okay then my mission would be in danger of failing.

"Oh Allah, Zahra, brother is ok. But you're not ok, deck" Annisa replied in between her laughter.

I scrunched my forehead, not understanding his words. Isn't what's not okay is him and not me. Then why would he say I'm not okay?

"Sister mean?" I was hesitant because according to the one who was having problems was Annisa and not me.

"Gosh, Zahra it's 3 o'clock not 6. You don't realize it's early in the morning? ." Obviously Annisa made me doubt my hearing. New effects build up so some senses are still not working normally.

"Haha, big brother can't do that ah, kidding big brother overdue."

"Joking?, you're not kidding me on the deck.Seriously, you know it's 3 o'clock in the morning."

As if the world had stopped spinning, I once again doubted my hearing.

"Are you serious about 3 o'clock?" I'm not sure you're still doubting my hearing.

Annisa nodded steadily assuring that she spoke seriously.

Ohhh,

Nah!

My suffering is complete today.

3 Hours?

Oh, shit. My head is also dizzy I feel the tumben-tumbenan air today cold to the bones.

And stupidly I why not be aware from the beginning if this is still very early in the morning. It was cold, dark again.

"We want to learn tahajut prayer, deck." Annisa continued to add further to my stupidity and surprise.

"Tahajut prayer?" I asked unconsciously.

Annisa nodded while embracing my shoulder, ah, this feels warm.

"Tahajut prayer is the most special sunnah prayer of any other sunnah prayer because we do it in the second or third of the night, where everyone sleeps soundly while we wake up and leave the pleasure to talk to God." Annisa said to me, I'm not sure but why would a fool pray in the middle of the night like this?

"Come.." Take Annisa while pulling my hand gently.

"But I'm still a hitch, brother." I honestly at once dodged Annisa's invitation subtly.

Hearing my reasoning, Annisa gave me a smile as she led me down the stairs.

"And we're just learning Zahra" Annisa said, breaking my hope of going back to sleep.

Annisa clasped my hands tightly, but somehow I liked her and enjoyed my trip to the family mosque comfortably.

I followed Annisa's steps into the mushola, where we found umi who had folded a cloth they used to call muknah.

Umi smiled looking at me, peeked at my forehead with Annisa's forehead after that Umi came out of the room while saying her greetings.

Annisa pulled my hand again and directed me to sit opposite her.

After I sat down, Annisa's hand moved to take a red paper bag behind her and thrust it at me.

"This is what, brother?" I asked curious while carrying the bag paper in front of me.

"Open dong, grandpa.." Instruction Annisa spirit. I immediately opened the paper bag with enthusiasm and it turned out..

It's not my expectations

I thought it was fuck but it turns out it's MUKNAH!!!

Well, it's not the treasure I found. Except a muknah with a dominating white color. I don't want to open the clear plastic that protects the face, just get here because I'm really not interested.

"Do you like deck?" Ask with a hopeful look.

Likey?

She just I like?

Want to know the answer?

NAW.

I DON'T LIKE IT AND I NEVER WILL!!!

"Like it?" Annisa asked with a smile that never disappeared from her face.

"Yes, I like it." Answer me lying as if I wanted to vomit.

Hearing my answer Annisa's eyes immediately twinkled. Like he was quite content to play me.

I just responded by smiling. However, honestly this heart feels happy also see there is a hue of happiness there. Annisa's never-so-happy face makes me feel sad sometimes, but wait a minute!

Why do I care?

Why do I think of things that are not necessary to think about?

Stupid jerk.

Then, he grabbed something from behind where he was sitting. "And this, last night when you tidied up your book, you found this book. So remember you, this is for you deck." Giving it up, he still smiled expectantly at me.

It looks new and neatly wrapped.

"Lost in a third of the night, Tahajut." I murmured I read the title of the book Annisa gave me.

Annisa smiled seeing me staring at her gift book.

"Well read, the deck. here there is a guide to prayer and the benefits of tahajut prayer." Annusa said, pointing to the book.

I just shrugged my head in my pretentious style, even though I don't really understand you don't wanna know.

Tahajut prayer?

What is prayer anyway, how foreign is it in my ear?

But why is this prayer so strange well, why should the middle of this mall in the works?

Where I'm still sleepy again, my head is still dizzy.

But, I wonder what tahajut prayer is?

Still staring at the book, I began to voice my curiosity. "Sir, what is tahajut prayer?, why have I never heard yah" I asked honestly because this is the first time I heard about this prayer, let alone this is done in the middle of the night.

Annisa displayed her smile again from hearing my question.

"Yes, you must have never heard the deck, people pray at midnight and not obligatory prayers either." Annisa answered briefly.

I am not satisfied with this explanation, there is still a lot of curiosity about this prayer.

Why do it at midnight, and why not during the day?

And also most importantly, if it's sunnah prayer why sister Annisa want to do her hard work. This is not mandatory.

It makes me curious!

"But why do you want to pray if it is only sunnah prayer and why should it be in the middle of the night?" I asked to the point because I could not resist my mounting curiosity.

Annisa chuckled at my question which might sound funny to her and not at all to me.

I just grimaced to see my stupid question was laughed at by Annisa, if Razi's brother existed for sure he would also laugh at my stupidity.

But luckily he was out of town so I could act without his knowledge.

"Why should it be done if it is just sunnah prayer and why should it be midnight?" Smiling, Annisa looked at me.

"Hem.this is a good question." Annisa's voice sounded muttering.

"Because tahajut is not an ordinary sunnah prayer, tahajut is the most special sunnah prayer. Wh why?

because it is done when everyone is still sleeping soundly, because it is done when everyone enjoys the pleasures of the world. Others sleep, well you know why we pray tahajut?" Annisa's question provoked my response with her argument which I find frankly interesting.

I'm silent about not giving any response because I'm currently focusing on Annisa's next words.

"Because He came down to earth." Connect Annisa.

Him, who?

Come on, don't make me curious.

"Who is he?" Ask me spontaneously.

"God," He answered confidently and without hesitation.

"God came down to earth with his thousands of soldiers or with thousands of angels to meet the servants of Allah who perform tahajut prayers. When we pray and pray, thousands of angels surround us and say amen in every prayer we say."

Hoaaa.oath!

I got goosebumps, but is what Annisa said true?

Will God come to see me if I pray?

"And special is that God will accompany us, chat with his servant.really that is the thing we wait for the deck the most." Annisa said excitedly.

Did ya?

Is it true that Annisa met God, even the two of them chatted.

"Really brother?,"

Annisa laughed again at my question. But this time Annisa's laughter was very, very loud and noisy.

Did he forget if it was midnight?, if heard by neighbors they would be disturbed.

"Goodoo, not the deck. Don't get me wrong, you never see what God looks like. O Allah, only the elect can see it."

See, it's just a prank.

Unknowingly I shuffled away from him, "Keep?"

"Well, we don't see it but we can feel it. feel it when God is embracing and hugging us warmly. At that time, we can spill our sadness, talk and tell him if our day trip is not always happy and not always happy. Sometimes we feel alone and lonely, falling down and not knowing what to do except complain to him. God will gladly embrace us, providing warmth that no one can afford. Except for God." Annisa smiled slightly after ending her explanation. And somehow I saw that smile looking sweet and sincere, not contrived.

And also, somehow Annisa's explanation made my heart feel tight. Not because of hatred, but rather the feeling of loneliness and alone. Well, this feeling is a feeling I really want to bury deeply. But instead of disappearing, this feeling is getting sicker and more crowded at all times.

God, this is really sick.

I am not strong to have to bear this burden which every time will be more and more burdensome, I cannot bear it.

"Sister, I go back to the room first." I immediately stood up and left Annisa out without waiting for her answer.

Author P's. O. V

Annisa stared at her sister's departure blankly, at first glance she could see that there was a wounded look in her eyes but she wasn't sure about it.

"Did I say something wrong? " Anny asked confusedly.

                          ***

"Annisa, your dog's gonna tell him to come down for breakfast. It's already seven o'clock. Honey, his favorite fried rice's gonna get cold." Shouted Umi from the kitchen.

"Yes, umi. " Anisa shouted back as she climbed up the stairs.

Hearing Annisa's reply, umi spontaneously displayed an amused smile on her face. It's good to start today.

"If only Abi and Razi had gone home, surely this house was getting crowded and fun" the inner Umi was wondering.

After a long wait, Annisa and Zahra finally went down to the dining table. Zahra's current appearance was extremely messy.

Moist eyes, disheveled hair like just waking up.

"Umi, did you make steamed brownies for me?" Zahra's question looked excited.

Umi simply responded to Zahra with a pleased nod.

After getting a nod from Umi, Zahra immediately sat on one of the dining table chairs and found something special.

"Waw, balado fried rice." Annisa's cry is no less her spirit with Zahra.

"Have you guys had breakfast instead of shouting obscurely. "

Umi, I'm sorry Zahra if all this is just Zahra's play.

                        ***

"Hallo, Fia." Greet Zahra when the person she's going to is answering her phone.

"Assalamualaikum, Zahra." Salam Fia meant to offend Zahra subtly.

"Hehe, I'm sorry waalaikumsalam." Answer Zahra with a cry.

Across there, Fia just shook her head.

"O Allah, Zahra, you will again be the process of emigrating in time yes you forget the very important thing, the greeting is prayer tau." Fia Advice.

Zahra scrunched her forehead, looking thoughtful.

How does Fia know if I am in the hijrah process?. Zahra is confused.

Curious, he tried asking. "Where are you going if I'm in the hijrah process?" Zahra asked with a probing tone of voice.

"Oh that.hem of-oh from sister Annisa. Yes, Malem, sister Annisa called me.." Said Fia answering the suspicions of her best friend with a flattened chest.

"Oh, he. Well that's the kid with the bucket mouth!, nothing has been played by it." Maki Zahra doesn't like it.

Across the street, Fia grimaces Zahra's curse at Annisa.

"Well, oh, why are you calling me this afternoon?, what's wrong?" Tanya Fia tried to shift the conversation.

"What's so weird about Fi I called you in the afternoon like this?" Zahra asked in a weak voice.

Oh, my God, I said it wrong again. Zahra's mana's the man of fiction again. Inner Fia was worried.

"God, you're nothing, Ra?, you don't misunderstand it's napa dong, I'm talking gini because tumben you just call me.."

Zahra just nodded her head happily. However, there was something strange about Fia. Zahra felt that Fia was very polite today, especially in the conversation, Fia's way of speaking was very similar to Annisa.

"You're weird, Fi. How to say you're like Annisa, I don't like." Zahra said to the point saying her dislike for Fia. Zahra doesn't like anything to do with Annisa, it's a natural hatred of her since she was a child.

Across the street, Fia's chest is deflated for lack of reason against Zahra who is too sensitive and sensitive to everything.

"O Allah, Zahra, you will emigrate, I will not follow in the footsteps of my friend." Fia's looking for an excuse again.

Zahra smiled faintly at Fia's reply, which broke her suspicion of her best friend. He also thinks so, if his best friend changes then he also has to change.

"Oh, kirain. Uh, I have some good news for you."

"Good news?"

"Yes, good news Fi.."

"What happy news?" Fia asked enthusiastically.

"Related news that I'm just pretending to change." Zahra answered directly, making Fia who was there start doubting her hearing.

"Well, what do you mean Zahra?, I don't understand."

Twisting her eyeballs, "Hem, actually I just pretended to move in front of Annisa the same umi."  Zahra explained patiently, Fia was never this late when talking about a plan. He's a little furious.

"Why.?" Tanya Fia was sad.

"Because I'm working on a plan, I'd like to frame Annisa. I need your help dong Fi, yah-yah"

Fia was silent about Zahra's request.

He was shocked by what he had just heard.

Turns out Zahra wasn't really sincere about doing any of that. He lied and he deceived everyone around him.

"Why are you so stubborn, Zahra?, why are you so stubborn?" muttered Fia more to whisper.

"What, Fi?, what were you talking about?"

"Well, I didn't say anything."

"So I heard you were like a ngo-"

"When, Zahra?, when are we doing this?" Cut Fia quickly divert the conversation.

"Now!,"

"In ordinary places, you must know. "

"OK.." Fia replied sadly while trying to control her voice to stay normal. If you can be honest, Fia felt sad about what she had heard earlier. He thought it was over but in fact it was the beginning of his destruction.

"Why do you have to go so far as Zahra and why do you dare to take such a big risk?. Don't you ever think for a long time that all this will hurt you?, do you never think that the steps you take are too big a risk?. You're selfish zahra!, you're selfish!. Do you think your plan will work?, but I'm sorry Zahra. This time I can't help you hurt anyone else because the one who will feel the most pain is you!, not Annisa's sister. Again I'm sorry, I have to tell Gus Fansyah your plan. I'm sorry, but I really don't want to see anyone hurt again. Especially for you Zahra." Inner Fia was sad while wiping her tears.

"Ok, if so I take a shower first well.kalo I'm ready to call ok.." Zahra's message and connection were interrupted without waiting for Fia's approval.

                          ***

Zahra P's. O. V

"Sister, sister Annisa..." I shouted to Annisa with excitement because in a few minutes my mission will be accomplished.

I ran down the stairs in casual clothes to the kinian and in high hills shoes that I bought a few days ago. Everything looked harmonious and elegant as my unraveled hair was loose.

"Sister.." Call me surprise Annisa from behind.

"Goddessa, Zahra.." Annisa said annoyed while stroking her chest.

He did look annoyed, but his smile was never separated from his face.

Okay, well maybe right now he can smile but just look at what will happen some more time, you will definitely regret it for a lifetime because you never stopped by that place or oh, oh, ok maybe you'll get hurt and cry out wailing from today's incident. Hahaha.come on, Zahra, let's do this party with fun.

"Hehehe.sorry my beautiful sister, assalamualaikum.."

"Waalaikumsalam, what is hem?can someone help you?" Ask Annisa to the point.

Annisa widened her eyes after noticing my appearance.

"Where are you going, deck, how are you doing today like you normally would.?"

"Hehe..that's why I want to ask for help brother, please send Zahra to the bookstore, can't you?" Ask me casually. I'm sure, he would have accompanied me away because after seeing my big change, he would have been nice to me.

"Yes, you can, but do you have to wear this Zahra outfit?" Annisa's asking still sucks.

Is it wrong that I wear gini clothes?, he is the one who wears syar'i clothes no one is angry. Here, I wear clothes like this he protested against the strangest clothes he was, where if out of the house wearing a veil again. like a stray ninja!.

"Yes my brother.Why?" I tried to hold back my emotional surge.

"God, Zahra, you're in the hijrah process, deck. So you have to learn to wear a hijab..." Annisa's advice while touching my unraveled hair.

I gently brushed off Annisa's hand so she wouldn't think anything non-no about me.

"Not that Zahra does not want to, but only that Zahra wants to buy clothes and books from Zahra's own savings. Alhamdulillah, Zahra has about 8 million in Zahra ATM and that too Zahra savings from first class High School "I said reasoned.

I did have savings at my ATM since I was in 1st grade High School, that was my honesty. I lied about buying books and clothes. Because honestly I don't really like reading books much less buying them specifically.

"But, deck-"

"Oh my brother, let Zahra live independently.." My request is with a made-up face and expression.

Finally.annisa was devastated and willing to accept my opinion.

"Come.." Take me while pulling his hand.

Especially this?

He's holding my step!

Now what else does he want to protest, right?

What other rituals does he want to say?.

"Now, deck?" Ask her with a plain expression.

Oh, shits!

This kid really does, already know I'm neat like this yeah kale go next year.

Fucking weird.

"Yes, now dong sis. What time do we go next year?" Answer me starting to get angry.

For a long time this child did not fight well. Huh.zahra News.

"Now?, why not just deck, let Razi come along too." Relaxedly.

Whats?

What did he say?

Razi?

I'm not mistaken if Annisa said Razi's sister?

"Sir Razi?"

I asked to confirm that what I heard may have been misheard. Understandably, not only the mouth is khilaf but the ears as well.

"Yes, Zahra Razi came home today and the happy news is now that Razi is on his way home." Annisa answered with sparkling eyes.

Yes, your beloved brother is home today and well now he is on his way.

Oh, blimey!

If Razi comes home then the plan I have neatly arranged will definitely be destroyed and I do not want it all to happen, if it happens I will never have a chance again.

This can't be allowed. I need to find a way for Annisa to go with me right now.

"Oh my goodness, brother. Brother did not think well if Razi must be tired of running out of a long trip. Ih, brother is selfish!." My fishing rod.

"Not Zahra, not a selfish brother but Razi himself who said that after reaching Razi's house will take us for a walk." Annisa's rebutting fast.

It's free for me to say that the end of him is mute.

"But we're gone for just a second.." I refused again to beg. Releasing a mainstay facial expression that is actually very disgusting to me.

"Well, Zahra please..Zahra wanted to buy clothes from Zahra himself. Stand by, brother, let Razi be happy to see Zahra.." Please me again.

Lord, please help me just once.

"But what time are we home?" Annisa asked for certainty.

"Not long, brother. Before Razi's brother here we're here too."

"Hem, okay, deh. But, chuck yeah deck." Said approvingly.

Hearing his approval, I just drag him right away eh, errat. I mean, I just pulled her hand right behind my back.

The rare scenery is indeed, the modern and fashionable one but the old and old. Very outdated.

Actually I'm ashamed to bring him, but for the sake of achieving the mission I have to do something stupid like this. Oh, yeah, I have to text Fia first.

Fi, I've been on the road with Annisa. We met her at a regular place, ok.

Seriate...