That's so dirty of me

Diaries

Raze P. O.V

"Sir, we're coming here well, not making a fuss. " The typical chirping sound of someone who is not so foreign is enough to interfere with my activities in compiling some santri documents.

"Sorry, madam. But you must obey the rules of the boarding school if you want to come visit. " Remove the delicate Nabila.

"We came all the way from the city to this place not with a playful distance, mbak. We're tired too, ma'am. Need a break." Another girl's voice sounded. Maybe more than one person came.

"I understand, but you also have to understand the rules of our boarding school." It's outrageous. It's not clear if they're traveling from town to here. It must have been exhausting. Nabila should have given them relief, not behaved like this.

"This is yes, ma'am. We're here to meet Zahra who just moved a month ago from the city."

Zahras?

What do they mean my Zahra?

Are they perhaps Zahra's friends?. Friends who hurt her.

What else are they going to this place for?

What business are they looking for Zahra for, are they still not satisfied with humiliating Zahra?.

This can't be bi-dibi

"Zahra's? Oh, so you're Zahra's friends. No wonder he saw the behavior of Zahra who was so, uh it turns out his association gini anyway. "

"Eh, don't bring Zahra into this. We didn't do it right, but Zahra wasn't."

Uh, but why did they defend Zahra when she was insulted by Nabila?

"Oh, you're the same. Same problem though! "

This can't be allowed! Nabila is overdoing it.

I stepped my foot towards the gate, intending to stop Nabila's sickening chatter about Zahra's bad attitude. However, before my foot actually touched the gate a hand had held my shoulder. Makes me reflexively stop and turn to the owner of the hand.

"Fia? " I was surprised to find Fia standing behind me.

"Listen first, don't be too hasty. " The message is against me.

I sighed softly and nodded my head obediently. He smiled warmly and led me over to the wall, taking shelter. From here their voices are very clear.

"Eh, mom! cave still accept yes you say so be a cause of trouble, but if Zahra also you snagging pautin or you think also as a cause of trouble, sorry aja well cave do not accept. "

I was a little surprised, even Fia was just as surprised as me.

"Yes, Ann's. Udah, brush this off people do not know manners. Good intentions really rejected, so doubt me he's here dapet science. "

"Udah, Fa. Just calm down, can't emotions?"

"Njirr, you say you don't need emotions even lo the emotions anyway?. That was a noise made up only once. "

"Yee.. Kok lo nyolot anyway, Fa. Just ordinary times! "

"What's? You said I was a nyolot? you are the nyolot! Kok lo-"

"Udah napa anyway! We're here to see Zahra. Why the hell is it a storm? "

Why does it sound funny?

This is what makes Zahra comfortable with their presence, something she cannot get at home. Warmth.

"So usually, it's my friends. No need to be dirarannin." Fia said to me. I just used to respond to it.

"Rather than you making a noise not clear here, mending you go away. Find a place where you can respond to your bad behavior. " Take Nabila out to them.

Asstagafirullah..

I was really surprised by Nabila's true nature. I think he is a good man because it looks from his position as the chairman of discipline. Because Setau ku, pak kiayi could not have chosen to give someone a big responsibility for free.

"Ah this, ngajak ni people!"

"I said you go away, your behavior is unacceptable in this place. "

"Well, this song is a man. Ask in a tampol, huh?. Who was the first to riot? Lo begok! "

"Kok so me anyway, yes you guys are!"

"Eh, if you're not ugly-ugly Zahra first we certainly don't make a fuss here. Some people's good intentions you reject, have no heart?"

"Huhahahs.. Oh, my God, that's it. Zahra does not need to be asked, it is a fact of behavior -"

I really can't hold it anymore.

"He's a bur-"

Brakkk

I pushed the gate with a single push. I saw them all in shock with what I was doing. I guess, it must be them. Zahra's weird friends. I'm not surprised if Zahra wants to be friends with them, because just hearing a little conversation they just know if they are very entertaining friends.

"Razi's Ustad?" Call Nabila shocked. I turned to her, giving my dislike towards her. Chilly.

"Razis?" I heard one of the girls mention my name in disbelief.

"Anjirr, very handsome. Pantesan aja Zahra never give us permission to squirm his sister, it turns out very handsome. " Histerical one of the girls I think is too much.

But what was that?

I heard him say that Zahra didn't give her friends a chance to meet me?

Why does it sound funny?. Zahra must have been telling the wrong thing about me.

Make a prayer, "Keep up ethics and manners when talking, do not let your way of talking as if describing your true nature and morals. Astagfirullah, this is a shame on the cottage." I glanced at the others, not showing a smile or hospitality as usual.

"Us-ustadin.. Nabila didn't mean to be"

"I'm sorry, assalamualaikum." Pamit ku without waiting for another greeting answer also without waiting for Nabila to finish his speech.

Yeah, that's a pretty polite reprimand for her.

                           ***

After lunch, I immediately rushed towards the Umi residence. On the way, I was ceaselessly praying in my heart that their coming would bring something happy to Zahra. I didn't want to see her sad anymore, enough until that day I saw her crying. It was also because of her love, Alif.

Although it hurts, but this is the reality. If Zahra had chosen where her heart would be anchored. I'm sincere, very sincere. As long as he is happy. As long as he smiles again as he did. It'sit's okay.

With all this fact, I am not wrong to choose a candidate for priest who deserves it. Who is also able to successfully sit there his deepest heart. Which maybe I always dreamed of sitting there sweet.

But, once again. God chose another.

"Sister Razi. " Call Fia who is already standing in front of the door of the Umi house.

I smiled warmly in return for his friendly greeting.

"Assynolajet.. Fia." Greetings correcting his greeting. Fia smiled clumsyly.

"Vaalaikumussalam.. Hehe.. Yuk, brother in. Umi and Pak Kiayi happen to be inside. Is resting. " She said as she led me into the living room.

There, I found Zahra's friends who had a dispute with Nabila. However, this time the three of them were wearing more covered and comfortable clothes. Unlike some time ago, it was appropriate if Nabila refused them entry. Because the clothes they wear are very short of materials and open.

"Assynolajet.. " My greetings while sitting myself on the sofa. While Fia chose to sit next to the girl with glasses that I believe have a distinctive sound that is flattering.

"Vaalaikumussalam.. " Reply they are compact.

"Ekhem.. " I started to melt the atmosphere. Intended to make the atmosphere warmer and friendlier.

"Sir Razi, before Fia introduced Fia's friends. " Sela Fia's.

I nodded in agreement to Fia's proposal and immediately invited her.

"Sister, who is next to Fia his name is Latifa. The one sitting in front of this Fia was the Goddess and the one beside her was Ann. " Say Fia fluently and quickly.

"Well, they came here to apologize to Zahra. However, because there is currently a sister so this problem brother handle first." Fia was clear to me.

I nodded in understanding and gave a code that they could start a conversation.

Author P's. O. V

"That day, when the incident Zahra was humiliated in public for having expressed his love to Mr. Alif but immediately rejected Mr. Alif actually it was all my plan and Latifa. " Ann's voice sounded nervous. He did not dare to look at Razi.

"I know." Razi answered briefly, implied coldly.

Ann and Latifa gulped their saliva roughly. There was a dominant aura emanating from Razi. Her cold side and firm demeanor were very much felt for Ann and Latifa.

"We're sorry, especially me. " See Ann, please sound sorry. She bit her lips nervously.

"I don't know if Zahra's been an angel protecting my sister, Alvin. I misunderstood him.. Excuse me. " Ann's voice sounded hoarse and discordant. He was seen holding back his tears from breaking.

"I misunderstood him. I thought the cause of my sister's death was Zahra but, it turns out I was wrong.. Hiks. forgive me. " The cry he had been holding back from earlier he finally let go. However, he did not want to let out his loud voice and finally he muffled his voice by biting his lips strongly. It would be close to injuring the flesh of his lips if Razi had not rebuked him.

"If you want to cry, don't be held back. It's much better." Razi's voice gave a suggestion.

"I'm sorry, if I hadn't done evil to Zahra maybe he wouldn't have felt alone and lonely. If I had asked at that time, Zahra would not have been hurt. If only it was ak-"

"Everything's gone, there's no point in wondering. That's not good." Cut Razi doesn't like it.

Ann bit her lip and shook her head.

"I'm a fool, because I've never heard of Zahra. And my biggest mistake was making my sister's guardian angel cry. He was hurt because of my crimes.. I don't know if he's been that secret donor all along. I'm sa-"

"Confidential donor?" Cut Razi doesn't understand.

"What do you mean if Zahra.." Razi hung up his words. However, Ann knew where Razi was going.

"True, Zahra was an angel who secretly donated her blood to Alvin. He also secretly always gives Alvin a spirit. All of us, including my family, don't know this secret. Even the hospital itself doesn't want to tell us who donated Alvin's blood. At that time we were very grateful until finally Alvin was sentenced to be healthy again or free from leukemia cancer. "

Sneering, "If the hospital is silent, then how do you know if Zahra is the donor?" Confused Razi at once curious.

Ann was silent for a moment, but after her move she reached out to her backpack and pulled out a black book, a diary. A diary.

After taking it, Ann immediately thrust it to Razi.

"This is Zahra's diary. We know everything from this book, after a few days of Zahra's move we found her under his desk. This book explains everything, even the things that he has been hiding tightly.

The flash back

"This. " Tell Dewi as she thrust a black book into Ann and Latifa's table.

"Gue never felt like minjem notes, lo. I never felt like I was lending my notes to you either, and I never felt like I had a book like this. Wrong address. " Ann answered ketus.

The goddess breathed a rough sigh.

"Yes, you're right. These are not all of your words. It belongs to Zahra, left in her desk. "

Ann frowned disliking.

"So, so I have to take responsibility for this book back to him?" Ann asked mockingly.

"Zahra has moved if you forget, upss.not moved anyway, but it was discarded. Hih.. "

"Whatever, I don't care. Read it! Open up and read this book!. And I hope that after you read it, you're not sorry at all." Disconnecting the Goddess held back her emotions as she left Ann and Latifa's table still dumbfounded.

Ann turned to look at the book, and moved to bring it before her. He opened Zahra's diary slowly. Sheet by sheet tells the life of Zahra from the age of 8 years. Ann was a little incredulous about what she was reading, this was weird.

He spent many years on a short note and arrived at a sheet containing him, Alvin.

Ann was still reading it.

*dear, diary.

A while ago I got a new student, he's a boy. He was handsome, but I was more interested in making him a friend. No, no! Not that I liked him, but I was interested in making him a friend because a few weeks ago, I saw him lying helplessly in the space. At first I was not very interested, but when I heard both parents crying bitterly because their children needed blood donors but still they could not get it. I'm sad, he was so needed by his parents. His family. It feels so warm if I'm in Alvin's position. Well, that guy's called Avin. Nice right? Ah, forget.

Dear, because I was curious, I also ventured to ask one of the doctors who handled it. And you know what I heard from the doctor? He said that Alvin had leukemia. He needed blood at that time, Gol O. Lucky, I'm O. And because of that bravery I offered myself as the ultimate donor of Avin, a secret. The doctor is ready. And I routinely donate my blood for 2 weeks to Alvin. Thats okay.

At least, the expectations of his parents and family can be met and achieved, I am happy with it.

Ok, dear. I think I got here first for today. Bye*bbw*.

Ann touched her chest tight, she wiped the soft flowing tears over her cheeks.

Then he moved on to the next page.

*dear, diary.

Dear, I didn't mean any harm to Alvin at all. But I did it because I knew there was a girl who loved Alvin. He even continued to struggle even though he was repeatedly rejected Alvin. Latifa, the girl's name is Latifa. Beautiful girl with glasses with her typical crumb sound. Well, I didn't mean to eavesdrop. But I overheard their conversation.

Seriously dear!

But, I'm still scared. I am so scared dear! Latifa must have hated me so much for thinking that I was the one who caused Alvin's death. Yeah, I know I was wrong for not acknowledging Alvin as my friend back then and running away from Alvin when he had sacrificed his life to save me, but what a shame. I was so shocked and scared. That's why I chose to go. I know, yes I was wrong. But I'm the one who's hurt the most about all this. I'm very sick.

Dear, I also know Ann and Latifa approached me for wanting revenge. I know, but it's okay. Maybe this is my way of making amends to Alvin. No why.

Well that's okay, even though I'm not sure who they really are.

Maybe get here first, dear*.

"Even you know what we're hiding and want, but you stick around and pretend you don't care. What is your heart actually made of Zahra? Hiks.why are you this strong?. Hix.. Now what should I do, what should I do?" Ann is very sorry after knowing all the truth, she does not know what to do.

Maybe Zahra will apologize after what they did, or Zahra this time choose to close the door sorry and lock it. Remembering from the beginning of the first sheet Zahra had written about her life that was filled with loneliness.

"Ann, why are you crying?" Tanya Latifa was worried.

Ann did not answer, but instead showed a diary that had been given by the Goddess. Latifa picked up the book and chose to read it.

"Hiks.. Zahra, Fa, I've hurt her! I let Alvin down! What am I supposed to do?"

Flash back Off

 

\*

 

Razi looked at the book. He smiled faintly. And move to reach it.

He remembered a story of his past. The story that he had not realized had changed everything.

The flash back

Razi will return home today after getting permission to go home. Well, Razi had missed his little daughter so much, that he tried hard to complete all his duties in order to get home. However, darling. Razi was granted a 2-day leave. That was one day he spent on the trip. But Razi did not bother with all that. Just being able to meet Zahra was enough for him. How not, this has been almost 2 years Razi lived in the boarding house. During those two years Razi could only meet Zahra with his fingers. He misses.

Razi was on his way home when Razi took the time to visit the bookstore. Buy something for the princess.

The clock was showing at 23:49pm when Razi arrived at the yard. Razi's arrival was immediately welcomed by Bik Imah, a maid who had done well to guard Zahra as long as he was not here. Razi also finds out that his parents are very busy taking care of their business which is being intensively completed several large projects. This is also what makes Razi always want to go home, accompany Zahra who is lonely at home.

"Zahra must be asleep by now." Razi said with a tired expression.

"True young master, currently non Zahra was sleeping. " Say bik Imah justifies Razi's speech.

Razi smiled faintly as he left to go to Zahra's room.

Razi opened the door of Zahra's room carefully. Didn't want to disturb Zahra's deep sleep. With a careful step Razi also walked closer to Zahra's bed.

In her eyes was the beautiful innocent face of Zahra. He raised his hand to gently rub the cheek of the Zahra gembil.

"You look pale, deck. Sorry I just came by now." Razi said softly as he kissed Zahra's forehead warmly and after that he came out of Zahra's room. After closing the door carefully, Razi slightly shocked to find Bik Imah who had been standing behind him.

"Assstagapplause.. Bik Imah, nagetin. "

Bik Mima smiled warmly.

"Young master doesn't want to accompany non Zahra to sleep?" Ask her astonished.

Razi shook his head slowly.

"I've grown up bi, I've also been kapok hear Abi's nagging first. I don't want to repeat it and let Abi down. " Razi obviously sounded polite.

"It turns out the master did not forget the anger of the great master at that time, well even though the aunt knew the young master was just accompanying non Zahra to sleep and did not mean anything. But the great master has a point as well. It's a young master's choice."

Razi smiled faintly and sighed heavily.

"Yes already, I went upstairs first ya bi, want to rest. Auntie also should rest do not torture herself. " Pamit Razi who was immediately embraced by bi Imah.

However, before Razi actually climbed the stairs Razi immediately turned around and said something to bi Imah.

"Bi, please don't tell Zahra about my arrival. I want to surprise her. " Razi's message and after her he completely disappeared from bi Imah's sight.

At 03:32 in the morning.

After finishing the tahajjud prayer and bathing, Razi immediately went down and walked towards Zahra's room. In his right hand he tucked a book that he had bought at the bookstore yesterday. However, before his move completely fulfilled his initial goal he brought his feet first into the kitchen.

He walked down the kitchen and took out some kitchen ingredients from the refrigerator and condiment cabinet. After everything seemed to fit his plan, Razi walked out of the kitchen and continued to walk into Zahra's room. He carefully opened the door of Zahra's room and carefully walked into Zahra's room. Zahra was still asleep, looking very slumbering. Razi kept the book that he had been carrying next to Zahra's bed and after that his hand moved slowly tucking in Zahra's long, mischievous hair covering her face. Razi smiled warmly. Then he moved his head down, sideways to Zahra's ears. Then he sincerely whispered a series of prayers that always adorn the night of his tahajjud. Prayers that always make him feel peaceful even though he and Zahra have a long distance.

"Aamiya. " Lirih Razi is sincere. He lifted his face and looked back at Zahra's innocent face.

After looking at her he got up from his seat and moved out of Zahra's room, closing the door carefully.

He then brought back his foot into the kitchen area.

Razi rolled up his long sleeves cheerfully. Then he began to pick up a butcher's knife and a chicken. He positioned the chicken meat in a comfortable position, so that when cutting later Razi can be easily and not difficult.

After everything was finished, Razi immediately moved to wash his hands thoroughly. Continuing the Second Activity. Making Zahra's favorite steamed brownie.

Razi is not good at cooking, but if it concerns Zahra, Razi will do anything to make her smile.

Azan dawn was reverberating right after Zahra's steamed brownie cake he took it out of the steamer. Razi smiled proudly and left the kitchen. In front of the kitchen Razi again found Imah who was preparing to go to the market.

"Young master, aunty to the market first well. For his breakfast non Zahra bi-"

"I'm the one cooking, hmm.. Aunty help wake up Zahra. Ajakin morning prayers before aunt leaves for market. But auntie, don't tell me that I'm a bi. " Cut Razi politely. After all his plans were sorted out, Razi resigned from bi Imah and walked back to his room. Performing dawn prayers peacefully.

After he finished his duties as a Muslim, Razi immediately went down and walked to Zahra's room. There, Razi saw Zahra sitting pensively holding a book that Razi had deliberately placed.

"Assynolajet.. Little princess?" Greetings Razi as he walks into Zahra's room.

Surprised, Zahra smiled and found Razi's arrival and immediately hugged Razi.

"When will I come home?" Zahra asked happily.

"Jawab dong greetings brother."

"Vaalaikumussalam.. Zahra kangen. Brother when to go home, how does Zahra not know if brother comes home?"

Razi stroked Zahra's hair dear.

"Sister came home last night, midnight. You're sleeping, you can't wake up."

Staring guiltily, "Sorry Zahra yes, brother. "

"What the hell are you decking, there's nothing to forgive. Do you like the book you hold? "

"I like it, brother. What else is this from Prince Zahra, you must like it. "

"Where did that come from my sister?. Brother hasn't told me."

"Zahra knows, in this book the fragrance of Razi is still sticky. It's really fragrant, brother. Just a brother who smells like this."

"Ahahah.kamu this there-there is a deck. "

"Hehe.. Emh.. Sis?" Raut Zahra looks serious.

"Yes, why the deck?"

Scared, "Sister will be in here, right?"

"Yes,dek. Brother diem is here. But, later in the afternoon you have to go back to the cottage. "

Hearing that, Zahra's eyes looked teary.

"Aren't you going to leave Zahra again?" Ask her grudgingly.

Razi smiled smirkingly and shook his head slowly.

"Sister will not leave Zahra, brother will have promised Zahra if wherever you go will definitely return to Zahra. Inget, brother belongs only to Zahra. "

"But today my sister is leaving again!"

"Son't you have to demand knowledge, princess. After all, all this brother's struggle for you. One day you will understand."

"But Zahra was lonely, had no friends to talk to! Abi and Umi are always busy. Zahra lonely. "

Razi smiled wryly.

"Because it's your brother bringing you this book. "

"Huh? "

"Kalo Zahra is sad or lonely, Zahra stay write here. Zahra poured out what she felt. Tomorrow if you go home, I promise you will read. "

Zahra looked at the book in her hand with a smile and nodded happily.

"But brother promise well, must read. "

"Yes, I promise. "

Flash back Off

Tik

A single tear flowed gently from the corner of Razi's eyes. He looked at the diary himself.

Sorry, sister. Because I forgot that promise. Inner Razi was sorry.

"Sister. " Call me soft Fia. Trying to channel his warmth.

Razi smiled faintly and opened Zahra's diary carefully. He started reading Zahra's innocent stories.

One sheet with another sheet has different emotions. And this time Razi was completely aware of all the misunderstandings that occurred. He understood what Zahra wanted. He also understood where Zahra was going.

"Fi, you call your sister's family. Get them to come, it's important. And you guys, do you mind meeting Zahra? " Tanya Razi excited.

                           ***

*I am sick

And I feel tired. My heart is hurting, and I am very tired. My soul feels empty.

I doubt if my soul can still feel pain. My heart is broken, maybe dead.

I am tired of this and my tears continue to betray me. I lost to him.

The world laughed and judged me.

I hate this life!

I hate love!

I don't want to repeat it again because love has broken me and hurt me.

No, don't misunderstand me. I'm doing fine. Because the only one who knows the circumstances that have befallen me is me.

My heart hurts and I'm tired.!

Every time you get a bigger problem than before.

I have felt many miseries. A misery that no one has ever felt.

Left by friends.

Love claps one hand.

Dumped by those who should have embraced me warmly, my family.

And now?

He left too, breaking my expectations. Makes me hate Love.

I hate love.

No one understands me when I need it.

Whatisthis?

Because of their selfishness?

Or

Is it because I am too evil in their eyes?

I don't know.

Oh, maybe it's because the world is too cruel.

Yeah, God.

I'm not even your perfect creation. Which can accommodate the pain that continues to pour down my heart.

Lord, tell me what should I do with all the injustice I get?

Heart hurts.

I'm tired, so tired.

My heart is broken, maybe mat*-

"Zahra?"

Call Dira soft and manage to break Zahra's daydream. Even though her daydreams had collapsed, Zahra still remained unmoved. He still looked at his empty palm. Like a living corpse, it doesn't know the direction.

"When do you keep going?"

"Since you came home from my house, you never wanted to eat."

"Don't eat, just drink you never. "

"Look at the state of your body Zahra, he was tormented. It's pain. It needs energy.!"

"Jawab Zahra, don't hold on!"

Niente. Zahra did not respond in the least. Zahra looks like an undead with no direction. Is Zahra crying?

The answer is easy. After so many falls. After so many times he fell back, could Zahra still cry?

Of course not.

It is not clear if his heart is dead. Crying is of no use to Zahra.

He's tired and sick.

It was a suitable depiction for Zahra. He didn't give up, oh no. Zahra didn't stop hoping at all, she couldn't even stop.

Wh why?

I don't know.

He had convinced himself many times that all was lost and ended. He had also repeatedly convinced himself that all his hopes were in vain.

But Zahra's heart rejected all that. Zahra's heart seemed blind to what Zahra's tired body felt.

He chose to wait and continue to hope, despite the pain he got many times more than usual. He chose to believe that the man would come to him. He believes.

"Alright, you still don't want to talk her way. I'll go out and bring you some food. You have to be strong and eat. You may be sad, but also pay attention to the condition of your body as well. Look, you're not as happy as we first met. You're thinner and paler. I hope this is all over soon. " Dira's advice as she got up from her seat and walked out leaving Zahra.

Zahra smiled faintly and raised her face towards the exit.

"Thank you.. " Sincere murmurs.

Back, Zahra was pensive. He did not even take his eyes off the exit.

Suddenly a shadow of someone he longed for stood there, "Zahra?" Call him by his bass voice. Surprised, Zahra turned her attention towards the exit. He didn't blink at all. Zahra was afraid that the figure in front of her was one of her delusions, which is why she did not blink at all.

The figure walked slowly towards him. He looks crying. Or rather fucked up.

Zahra widened her eyes.

Unreal.

That's what now swirling+ whirled in his mind, that figure was real.

Without realizing it, his tears had been sassy without the owner's consent.

The figure was getting closer, approaching Zahra.

Zahra was not calm and with a feeling of confusion he immediately went down the bed in a hurry. Run as far as he can so that the figure does not disappear from his attention.

Grep

Zahra smashed her strong body and hugged the figure tightly.

He dimmed his cries and drowned his tired face in the chest of the figure field. Zahra breathed the fragrance that came out of the body. Still same. It might not even change.

"Sorry brother.." His voice was sorry. He rubbed Zahra's back warm.

Zahra shook her head strongly.

"Zahra kangen sister.. Hicks.."

"Sister don't stay in Zahra anymore. Zahra is tired of waiting for her sister! Zahra's tired! Zah-"

"Std.. " Stop Razi while tightening his embrace. Stacking his sturdy chin on the top of Zahra's head.

"So I won't leave you again, sorry. Sorry brother who just realized all his, sorry brother who is insensitive from the beginning. Sorry brother.." Razi said sincerely.

"Hem. " Zahra's response was brief as he was still busy with his current activities. Inhaling the scented body figure that he longed for.

"Dengerin brother.. " Razi said, letting go of Zahra's embrace. Zahra snatched away, but she followed Razi's impulse. Razi held Zahra's shoulders tightly. Staring at the two beads of Zahra's eyes that he could only look at from a distance, first.

"Today you have a surprise. Brother wants you to get ready, you mean brother.you have to eat and then take a shower. Look at your body look slimy. Brother doesn't want you to be like this, ok. Now do what your brother says. " Razi's orders were firm.

Zahra blinked her eyes in admiration. He could actually feel Razi's domineering aura coming out.

"Hey.. " Call Razi gently while stroking Zahra's innocent face. He looked at Zahra inside. Zahra did the same, lulled by the gentle treatment Razi gave her.

Zahra seemed to be able to see if there was a longing that really wanted to be conveyed from behind Razi's gaze. It seems like he can feel the same.

However, after realizing his attitude that had already crossed the line. Razi shook his head weakly, obliterating the strange thoughts that had gnawed at his head.

Zahra was confused. Zahra could feel as if Razi was holding something back.

"Don't daydream again, remember brother's orders. Because in an hour you'll be here to pick you up. "

Zahra stared disappointedly at Razi, not because of the orders he gave. But because he realized if he did not feel any more gently rubbing on his cheeks.

"Don't lie!"

"That's not gonna happen." Razi said confidently as he brought his face closer to Zahra's face. Staring at the bead of the eyes was mellow and ended up peeping at Zahra's heartfelt forehead.

Zahra closed her eyes spontaneously. A warm kiss that he had not felt for a long time.

"Sister goes, assalamualaikum." Pamit Razi walks away from Zahra.

Staring at the sturdy back that was moving away, Zahra smiled happily. There was an unwilling sigh that he felt.

"Thank you, God. " Zahra murmured sincerely while preparing the preparation of his bath.

                            ***

This was already showing at 3pm, but the figure that Zahra was waiting for was still not showing the trunk of her nose. There was a sense of disappointment that he felt, could it be if the figure he was waiting for was just nonsense?. He hesitated because he was disappointed too often.

" Beneficial"

"Assalamualaikum.deck?" Greetings Razi who has stood with a smile that looks like him in front of the door.

Zahra smiled happily, then walked up to Razi with carefree steps.

"Vaalaikumussalam.. " Reply Zahra smoothly .

Thankfully I remember. Zahra's mind gratefully stroked her chest.

"A long time, brother? His promised brother will come in an hour, uh but it's been almost three hours Zahra wait.! Ih, why is my sister even smiling anyway? nothing is funny!."

This time Razi could not help his laughter. He laughed in front of Zahra. Zahra was stunned to see Razi who could laugh off like this. For him, this was the first experience Zahra could see Razi laughing. Well, of course after ten years.

"You're funny when you're angry, you're more beautiful."

Blushes

Zahra could feel if her cheeks warmed up and also she could make sure that at this time her cheeks must have been flushed like a boiled crab.

"H, brother! What the hell, not clear. Udah ah, he said to take Zahra out, yuk.. Zahra was ready 2 hours ago." Sindir Zahra while suppressing the last word.

Razi gave a clumsy smile and immediately grabbed Zahra's hand. Grasping her gently, taking Zahra's steps to follow her obediently.

Zahra who received this kind of gentle treatment could only smile shyly. Fortunately Razi did not see his face that had been confirmed to be in an abnormal state.

                           ***

After reaching the destination, Razi immediately let go of Zahra's gentle hand grip. He smiled faintly at Zahra, while Zahra was very confused to find Razi's attitude that looked like he was hiding something.

"We're up." Razi said awkwardly.

Zahra could feel that there was something Razi had hidden from her.

"Why are we going to Umi's house, brother?" Aware Zahra after realizing that they are now in front of Umi's house.

Razi smiled warmly, raising his hand to touch Zahra's soft cheek. However, as fast as lightning Razi instantly distanced his hand from Zahra's face. He realized he had crossed the line.

"You'll find out when you get inside. " Razi said trying to melt the atmosphere that had been awkward for a while.

"Come on. " Take Razi and walk first in front of Zahra. The death of Zahra who is still stunned by Razi's attitude. He looked at his hand that Razi had held, there was a sense of unwillingness when he found out that Razi no longer held his hand anymore.

Strange brother, that was romantic! Now then?. Zahra's mind is upset.

He then ran small following the steps of Razi who was preparing to enter Umi's house.

"Why did we come here ka-HAH?" Shocked Zahra.

Zahra was so shocked to find her entire extended family in this place. Not only his extended family, but all his friends were sitting sweetly staring at the presence of Zahra enthusiastically.

"Sister.. This is..? " Bewildered Zahra while looking at Razi in shock.

Razi smiled warmly and whispered something to Zahra.

"Sister has kept the promise of the first brother, bringing the little sister's daughter back." Razi's whisper was warm.

Zahra looked at Razi in disbelief, thinking Razi had forgotten all about her. Including the promise of both.

"Sister... Hix.. " Sobbing Zahra instantly broke out in Razi's warm embrace. Razi who was not ready to be hugged could only smile faintly.

Maybe after this brother will learn to forget you, deck. Brother must keep the promise of the last brother, take you to your future priest who has been embedded sweet in your heart. And it's not a sister. Remember, even if that day comes, your brother's heart is only yours. Not others, even if you can't have your heart. Inner Razi.

Dira who saw that scene could only stare at me.

You're great and you're stupid.

Seriate...

Kyaa.. Dateng again, okay, this time I want to ask for help to readers story dong why can Nemu this book in the application and why also readers are interested to read, inget the beginning of yahhh..

Want to know the life, let the more spirit so you write it 🤣

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Again I apologize for not responding to comments readers, sorry**.