That's so dirty of me

A Secret

*Secret is a painful thing, that's why people prefer to bury the past with the word secret. Because behind it is a hidden wound.

Zahra Affianisha*

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After reaching home, Zahra immediately rushed down from the taxi to the front door.

There was doubt when Zahra would knock on her door. Zahra's facial expression showed that she was currently not okay. His mind drifted nowhere since that incident.

With a bowed face Zahra immediately opened the door of the house without giving greetings or knocking on the door first.

Zahra's steps felt shaky as he climbed the stairs with his face bowed sluggish. Zahra walked down the stairs in limp steps.

"Zahra, are you home, baby?" Tegur umi managed to stop his steps.

Zahra sighed heavily, as if she was trying to let go of the heavy burden she was carrying tonight.

Zahra simply lowered her face and did not respond to the umi question.

Umi moves up the stairs by slowly trying to approach her youngest daughter who looks moody.

"Where's your brother, deck? how come he just went home alone?" Ask Umi again stick with her soothing and warming voice.

Deg

It was as if a hard blow had struck Zahra's heart upon hearing Umi's question.

"Alright, I've never been seen in your eyes." Zahra's mind is in pain.

It hurts, it really hurts Zahra. Not a single bit of his umi thought about Zahra, just about Annisa. Is it not visible at all? limp steps with a downcast face moody not excited. Once again, Zahra's heart was again scratched. Not a big scratch, but this is enough to make Zahra** strong hand, just an impingement.

"Zahra"

"Please not now, I'm so tired for today.." Cut the cold Zahra and leave the umi with a faster pace.

Just as Zahra had locked the door to her room, suddenly the sound of a car horn rang, a sign that the car was entering the front yard of her house.

"That must be them.." Zahra murmured to herself as she walked towards the balcony of her room. Zahra focused on looking towards the courtyard where the car was parked. Zahra saw a man get out of the car while carrying a woman. Zahra knew who they were, not only familiar but very familiar.

Yes, they are Razi and Annisa. A sister who cannot be separated.

A few minutes later, a man Zahra loved so much got out of the car while picking up a girl of his age. Him, Fia.

Zahra's Friend.

Oh, no.not a friend but a fake friend.

Seeing two scenes with the same situation but in different conditions made Zahra's heart again scratched, but this time a little deeper than the other wound.

Tik

A tear from Zahra fell on his hand.

"Am I crying?" Ask her to herself. He rubbed his face rough, but still the tears continued to flow even more profusely than before.

"This, weird. Usually I'm not this weak!," murmured Zahra in her entanglement.

Small smile, "But it doesn't matter, anyway I'm just on my own.no one's looking.."

"Well, no one sees my weak side here."

Zahra hugged her chest tightly, feeling all the tightness that was churning in it.

Have I really lost?

Did ya?

Oh, please God wake me up from this nightmare. Wake me up, Lord. Inner Zahra was crying.

Suddenly from outside came the sound of footsteps walking towards Zahra's door, the sound of heavy footsteps.

"Zahra?," I heard a voice calling from outside.

"Hiks.hiks.please open this door Zahra.." Call umi while crying loudly. Zahra did not respond at all to his sumi calls. However, he simply walked over and approached the door as his right hand touched the doorknob and his ear stuck to the side of the door.

"Zahra"

"Umi, we better solve this problem tomorrow when all things return to normal.." Razi's advice to umi.

"Zara.." Call umi not to listen.

"Annisa needs us more right now umi.."

Then they heard the sound of their footsteps away from Zahra's room.

Zahra P's. O. V

I heard the footsteps of Imi slipping away from my room and after that only a silent and silent voice in my room. Oh it is not a sound, but the dark atmosphere of the night that holds me tightly.

It's paining.

A truth that hurts and can make me fall into deep weakness.

The fia?

God he betrayed me!, he hurt me, he hurt me God!.

Aren't you angry at her?,

don't you feel angry because she has dared her to hurt me?

aren't you angry?

Oh, true!

I forget that God never sided with me or if God never actually existed, never existed!.

You idiot!

I should have realized all this from the beginning. Hahaha, am I complaining to God?

THE BULLSHIT!!!

Fuck God!!!

Fuck the friend!!!

Fuck the family!!

Everything is a charade, understanding Zahra that they never really existed.

Dergdd..

Dergdd..

The vibrating sound of my handphone scattered my daydreams and returned me to my conscious world.

I moved towards the bed and took my phone with difficulty.

"Andrini?" It was like whispering to myself. Before answering Andrini's phone, I was neutral to the hoarse voice from crying earlier. Not forgetting that I rubbed my face deftly to wipe away the trail of bad tears, even though Andrini could not see it, but I still did.

"Callo.." I finally answered her phone.

"Zahra?"

"Are you ok?" Andrini sounded worried.

"Yeah, I'm ok. What's the matter, why are you so?" I asked to come back not to like it.

Across there I heard Andrini as if she was breathing out, sounding heavy.

"Lo who is patient well, Ra, I understand what you rasain after the incident at the club was enough to make you down.." Andrini answered my confusion. Oh, so it spread to the school kids. No wonder, considering my position at the school.

"Gue is okay, besides the incident at the club did not mean anything to me, not too important." My elak broke Andrini's pity on. I bite my lips with all my might, keeping my sobs that could suddenly break if I talked about the incident earlier.

Nah!

No one knows if I'm crying. It can't happen, it won't.

Andrini is silent not to return my objections. Only the sound of his breathing was heard lightly.

"Ann, if there's nothing important to talk about mending I just close this phone, tired, I need a break."

"Ra?" Call Andrini sounds more serious.

I let out a heavy sigh, thinking about what Andrini was going to talk about until it sounded this serious.

"What else?" Just pissed. I really want to disconnect this phone and go throw my tired body on the beach kapuk to give her a warm embrace.

"Forget her!." Andrini's orders are serious.

"What?"

"You mean?" I don't understand.

"Lo don't pretend to bego Zahra, I know if you are currently really sick. He's not a good friend, Fia hypocritical Zahra!." Clearly Andrini with a rising voice.

I kept silent and did not dispute Andrini's explanation. Well, it's true Fia's not a good person for me. He deceived me by pretending his sympathy for me. Understand the journey of my life and my empty mood.

That was fake.

That's masked.

And it was just a charade.

"Gue knows that right now you're really hurting Zahra. I know you're feeling sick right now, I know Zahra! I know-"

"Certain why? why do you know I'm hurt, you want to laugh? you want what?" Cut me off in a voice that doesn't lose emotion with her.

AUTHOR P. O. V

"So, I'm not going to admit to that stupid thing. But, I want you to avenge Zahra, you have to take revenge!."

"You mean?"

"Lo must take Alif from Fia, Zahra. You have to prove it to Fia if you can't be underestimated this easily. Because you are Zahra, the queen of the school who will never give up on something you want to have. Lo is Zahra, the coldest girl and respected by everyone."

"Prove Zahra, if all the titles you hold still you hold and you're accountable, because you're Zahra." Andrini said with a sharp voice and directly pierced Zahra right in his heart.

"Yes, you're right, I'm Zahra. Zahra who has a dark side, she was wrong to play me." Zahra's will was round, enough they all underestimated Zahra. It's enough they're all playing Zahra. Zahra was fed up and it was time for Zahra to play the game they made. Zahra ready.

"Hahaha.in the end Zahra finally I can hear what I have long wanted to hear."

"Thank you, but what you want to see and hear is not this, but tomorrow.."

"Ok..ok..gue wait but you still want our plan tomorrow?, inget dong."

"Yeah, just calm down. I wrote it right and I will never forget it. Wait for me tomorrow.."

"Ah, I'm waiting for you.."

"Eh, I'm closing well, tired I want to rest.."

"Oh, okay. Just close it and I just want to say 'Zahra Affianisha, welcome to your new life page and of course with a new environment too'.bye.."

Tuds...

Tuds...

Tuds...

Zahra's connection was immediately cut off. Zahra breathed deeply. Delete all memories that happened today. Well, Zahra should be back. Right, Zahra's back.

Zahra P's. O. V

But, Andrini's last words why did I become so curious?

Zahra Affianisha, welcome to the new leaf of your life and of course to the new environment as well

The neighborhood?

The neighborhood is a place?

What does that mean?, wasn't I just at school and not moving anywhere.

Ah, Andrini is. I didn't even change schools.

But what about abi and umi?

Will they remain silent with the problems I created like yesterday. But this problem is different. I've framed Annisa's sister. Is abi gonna hit me?

Did ya?

Oh, no problem, please hit me as much as you want as long as you don't send me to the trash. Pondok pesantren, I do not want to go to the colossal place, very unwilling.

Author P's. O. V

Zahra stared at her mobile phone, staring at the family photo which was very harmonious. Zahra rubbed their faces one by one, as if Zahra had never been there. He's not happy. He wanted to make everyone in the family photo aware of one thing - a small but very big mistake for little Zahra. Well, the mistake that zahra wanted to point out and show. But they are always misunderstood by them.

"I miss you guys." Zahra said in a whisper.

"Is it not obvious?"

"I miss you guys.." Gumam Zahra while hugging her mobile phone tightly.

"I miss you guys.." Zahra's words were barely heard and Zahra fell asleep, leaning on her weak body at the door.

Zahra's tired.

He's very tired.

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Zahra squirms spoiled in the arms of her beloved blanket. Indicating that he had woken up but not fully recovered Zahra's consciousness, still partially.

Zahra fumbled her thick blanket, after completely realizing her Zahra instantly opened her eyes wide and looked around her.

Zahra blinked her eyes hard. Zahra's breathing became irregular up and down, at this time Zahra was hit by a tremendous confusion that was very unexpected.

"Where is this?" Zahra asked confusedly.

Zahra circulated her gaze to all the rooms, where the room was of medium size, not too big and not too small anyway.

In the room it consisted of a small mattress that looked worn and dirty lined up around the twenties neatly. Not to forget also beside the mattress stood cabinets of various sizes, in each closet attached and written a word or name. Some people use Arabic and some use Indonesian.

"Where am I?"

Zahra's confusion is no longer just confusion, but has now turned into a very extraordinary fear.

"Oh, not God."

"Please don't tell me if this is in-"

"Assalamualaikum, Zahra?,"

"You're awake, huh?"

Zahra gawked at the greeting of a girl who was his age and of course Zahra felt this girl was pretentious to be close to him.

"Well, shall we take the water together?. You want azan magrib.." Invite the girl to gently pull Zahra's hand.

"Wait the fuck.." Hold Zahra.

The girl was silent and did not continue her steps.

"Who is this?," Zahra asked in an unfriendly tone.

"Kok lo sok friendly gini to me, um who the hell are you?" Zahra didn't like it.

The girl silently did not budge from her position.

Zahra looks irritated with this girl who still hasn't responded to her questions. "Heh, how come you even diem anyway?, I'm not a sermon!."

The girl was still silent in her position, yet this time the girl raised her face and looked straight ahead.

"Zahra, don't think you're the queen here because this isn't the place you come to.." The girl replied coldly. His voice turned hostile and not as friendly as the beginning met. It's freaky.

"You mean?"

"Welcome to the boarding house, Zahra.." Welcome the girl cold.

"PESANTREN'S LODGE?"

"Ehem.." Short the girl.

The girl turned her body towards Zahra with a very hideous appearance and expression. His lips were deathly pale, his body thin, his eyes bulging almost out and his dirty clothes were giving off a fishy smell.

"Yes, exactly A TRASH-MAN PRISON!"

"Op-pa...? penjjjaaarraa?"

"You-you lied..!"

"Why am I lying, Zahra? isn't it true that you're a very dirty girl!" Said the girl sharply as she continued to walk closer to Zahra who was walking backwards.

"That's not true.."

"Oh, so you're evasive if you're the family's trash, is that it?"

"No!"

"Honestly, Zahra. If you've realized all this time that you've never been needed in that family, you're nothing but trash."

"Don't come any closer! please stay away!" Shouted Zahra in fear as she continued walking backwards.

"You're just pretending you don't care if you've never been seen in their eyes.you're not a part of them.."

"No.no..no..!Ttttiiidddaaaackk.."

Brakkk

"Aww.pain.." Zahra complained in pain while holding her head that hit the floor.

Zahra looked around her room with a faint feeling.

"Oh, it turns out I just had a bad dream.." Thank goodness Zahra was relieved.

Zahra pinched her head which felt throbbing as a result of hitting the floor of her room.

"Damn, why am I sleeping here?" Confused Zahra was mixed with annoyance at finding himself asleep at the door.

"Well asleep, floor vacuum plus a nightmare.duh, why my life is so good well today?. It was a strange dream again, why am I so scared, Dad?"

"Ah, this must be because of Fia and Annisa damn it. If only they hadn't cooperated, then tonight would have been a beautiful dream and not this strange nightmare. Look out for you, don't think I won't stay silent about what you're doing, just wait." Zahra said determinedly as she walked up to her bed and returned to lying down because of her unstoppable drowsiness.

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Zahra went down the stairs quickly, there was no one she could find in the living room.

Feeling hungry, Zahra finally intends to go to the dining table. However, after reaching the dining table there was no greeting or reprimand that Razi and Umi gave to him.

It's not like a typical day for Zahra, she knows her carelessness last night made everyone hate her. But Zahra remained adamant about feeling wrong. Since what he did did was not over the reasonable limit, that was his thought. Therefore Zahra felt fine and acted like nothing had ever happened in this house.

Zahra reached for the sweet loaf perched on the table. When choosing jam, Zahra did not find her favorite peanut butter among the jam bottles neatly lined up on the table.

As Zahra looked at Umi, Zahra immediately smiled. Her favorite peanut butter is in Umi's hands.

"Umi, Zahra wants her peanut butter, too.." Zahra's voice sounded cheerful and excited.

Umi stopped her activity of greasing the bread that was on hand with jam. Umi took a heavy breath, as if she was holding something back.

Umi averted her eyes and turned to look at Razi's face as she got up from her seat.

"Razi, umi to the back first well.mau help make a cooking. Today, I came home so it had to be special."

Razi smiled at Umi while nodding in understanding.

Zahra was a little offended by the attitude of Umi this morning, she felt unthinkable.

Yeah, I know if you're angry. I-i understand. But someday I'll realize that everything I do is a clue to all of you.

Zahra took a heavy breath while smiling bitterly.

Zahra got up from her seat and walked away from the dining table. Actually, leaving. There was no reprimand or criticism that Razi threw at him this morning. He feels a little strange.

Good thing, today I don't have to be surly in school.

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"Zahrah!" Call Andrini who is standing next to Zahra.

"Ac, lo.."

"Ready?" Andrini asked with a seductive expression.

Zahra smiled and nodded steadily.

Zahra led him to a nearby seat on the field so that he could see Alif's handsome face clearly.

But just now Zahra stepped, suddenly the step stopped.

"Zahra?" Call soft Fia.

Zahra turned her body and looked at Fia who was already behind her.

Fia looked very messy this morning.a pale face with very clear eyes.

Fia smiled bitterly at the face of her best friend. There was a longing and fear that Fia wanted to convey to Zahra.

But instead of greeting back, Zahra immediately threw away her face.

Seeing the favorable situation, Andrini immediately took action by pulling Zahra's hand and taking Zahra away from Fia. Securing power.

Fia grew more moody looking at Zahra who was already unwilling to listen to her explanation.

"Zara.." Fia muttered in a whisper.

"That's it, Fi." Tegur Dewi who had embraced Fia's shoulder warmly.

Fia turned her head towards the Goddess, shaking her head in disbelief.

"Wouldn't.."

"I won't let Zahra feel any more pain."

"Come.." Invite the Goddess to take Fia to the nearest seat with Zahra.

Zahra was seen circulating her gaze, looking for the figure she was waiting for.

"Where is he?" Gumam Zahra was curious.

Patience is a word that is very easy to say, but very tiring if done. That was what Zahra was feeling right now, Zahra couldn't wait to snatch Alif from Fia. He wanted to show that he could also play Fia like he was playing himself.

"Crazy, Ra, you wear shampoo what the hell? very fragrant.." Oceh Latifa while kissing Zahra's hair in amazement.

Zahra smiled amusedly at Latifa's chattering.

"Oh, this is my usual shampoo.."

"Seriously, it's really fragrant, when you wear regular shampoos.." Latifa still does not believe.

"Oh, Latifa! you can't be at it anyway?mr. Alif knows.." Andrini's instructions stopped Latifa's question.

Sontak Zahra and Latifa immediately turned their eyes towards the center of attention of all the girls.

And

The alif?

"Ann, is that serious, Mr Alif? crazy, he looks so different wearing this shirt, he's more handsome.." Honestly Latifa was fascinated.

Yes, today she was a little different from this kind of clothes. Same with prince tam-ah, shit!, why remember him again. Sigh, forget about Zahra because she forgot about you too.

"Zara.."

"Zahrah!" Call Andrini disperse Zahra's daydream.

"Eh, yes Ann..What's up?" Answer Zahra.

Wrinkled confused, "Kok lo dumbass anyway? in the call-up do not say, lo why the hell, so strange today?" Latifa did not understand.

Zahra smiled slightly in response to Latifa's question, she did not want to say that she was thinking about her brother. Weird right?

"At the question instead of the answer, uh you're behind the nanya.."

Zahra was silent, her eyes were focused on Alif reading the prayer.

"Ma shaa Allah, besides being handsome, Mr. Alif also has a melodious voice.if only Mr. Alf read the holy verses to me.." amazed by a girl sitting next to Zahra.

Hearing the girl's voice, Zahra smiled sinisterly.

"Yes, if only the holy verses were read to you, precisely beside your grave would be the voice of Alif more beautiful.." Sahut Zahra was annoyed to be mixed with satisfaction because it had made the girl frightened.

"Goddessa.." The girl was privileged.

Andrini and Latifa immediately chuckled to see Zahra pranking the girl next to her.

Zahra was just a duckling to see their reaction, for him securing power was more important than her.

2 Hours later

The studies have been completed and all students can rest.

But not with Zahra, for him this moment is the right time to carry out his plan.

Zahra saw Alif coming down the steps while having a casual conversation with one of the teachers.

"Are you ready?" Ask soft Andrini.

Zahra exhaled heavily and swiftly nodded steadily.

"If you have doubts, it's better not to.."

"Hey, is this Ann?"

"I'm ready, I'm so ready!" Elak Zahra is not to be denied.

Andrini smiled faintly and nodded slowly.

"Well, if that's what you want.." Pasrah Andrini's.

Zahra touched her chest lightly, feeling the sound of a heartbeat that kept pumping her chest. Zahra smiled doubtfully, this heartbeat felt very heavy for Zahra to take a step.

Zahra began to step for sure, dragging her feet firmly to move and not become paralyzed.

Every step Zahra took was an indisputable heart. He must have Alif sooner or later because then he believes he can hurt Fia, his fake friend.

Zahra smiled triumphantly, although it was not certain that she would be accepted but a voice that continued to cheer in Zahra's head said that she would have Alif's heart today.

"Just a few more steps and everything will be completely missed". Mumam Zahra spirit.

Well, seeing Alif's position getting closer to her made her even more eager to cheer.

"Zara.." Suddenly a voice that was already very familiar called out to him.

"Fi?" Zahra's steps stopped immediately.

"Zahra, don't do this stupid thing, they set you up Zahra! they're not as good as you think!." Said Fia emotion while reaching for Zahra's already cold hand.

"How's this, Fi?"

"How are you this greedy to me? after everything you've taken from me. You also want to take them from me?" Zahra asked coldly.

"I don't need that nonsense and your baseless compassion, sorry." Zahra said coldly as she passed leaving Fia and continued her steps back to resolve her heart problem.

Fia was silent, she was silent. He can't say anything more. Ah, he forgot that Zahra was a very stubborn person. Zahra does not easily melt, except with those he trusts. But Zahra is still Zahra, he is used to his selfishness.

He forgets or may deliberately forget that living alone without listening to the explanations of others is something very scary.

What about Zahra? ah, he still remains strong with his own life opinion. No one knows, even Fia's best friend still doesn't know him. He's different.

"It turns out I still don't know you very well. I'm sorry, I still don't understand the real you.." Mumbled Fia was sad.

Zahra continued to step up until she actually stood in front of Alif.

Alif was silent and did not know what to do but take a step by going back to the office.

"Wait..Alif!" Hold Zahra.

Alif's steps stopped. He was silent without sound.

"What I'm saying is important!" Zahra did not want to be denied.

Alif could be heard taking heavy breaths and turning his body towards Zahra.

"What's so important that you have to gather everyone here?. Is this about my lesson grid?" Ask Alif kindly.

Zahra was stunned when she realized she was surrounded by people. However, as fast as lightning he controlled his emotions, as if he had indeed deliberately gathered many people.

"Why silence?, he said something important." Tanya Alif disperse Zahra's daydream.

"Oh, yes Alif.this is not about your lesson tap-"

"Sorry, Zahra, but here I am a teacher and not as your friend.please use polite language." Tegur Alif cut off Zahra's speech.

Zahra's cheeks instantly flushed like boiled crabs from enduring embarrassment. In addition, the students who gathered cheered him excitedly.

When else try to prank Zahra if not today, it really is a fortune they thought.

"Eh, yes sir I'm sorry.."

"Next.." Alif said firmly.

"Emm.pak it's about the heart." Zahra said slowly.

Alif frowned, not understanding.

"On the heart, you mean Zahra?I don't understand.." Alif sounded worried.

"I mean it's I want to express per-"

"Sorry, Zahra, I have to go back to TU. I forgot if there's an important file that I have to take care of.." Cut Alif wants to leave Zahra immediately.

"Wait.pak.."

"I'm sorry again once again.." Please Alif sound tense as he steps back.

Not wanting to lose a chance, Zahra ended up taking a shortcut.

"ALIFF..I LOVE YOU." Shouted Zahra off.

Hearing that everyone who was there was instantly in shock. Some are hysterical and some are scornful.

Alif instantly fell silent. His face turned a red. He was angry and upset because he felt that his pride had been dropped by Zahra.

"YOU DON'T WANT TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND..THE FIRST AND LAST." Shouted Zahra again with high confidence.

Everyone cheered loudly at Zahra's request to be considered very brave.

Alif clenched his hands tightly. It felt like he wanted to run back to the boarding house and hugged his uminya tightly. Asking for warmth over Zahra's treatment of her.

"Java!"

"Thank you."

"Don't accept it!"

And all sorts of screams are coloring today.

"Zorah..." Call Alif slowly.

"Well.." Zahra replied with pleasure.

I know your answer is for sure..

"Sorry I can't accept you.."

Doarrr

Like in a lightning strike, everything there was instantly silent.

Zahra blinked her eyes while laughing. Cut off his stupid hearing.

"Hahaha.ah, you Lif can also joke yes.your answer is 'yes' right?" Zahra asked with tears almost spilled.

Alif shook his head strongly.

"I'm sorry Zahra, but I can't take it." replied Alif firmly.

Zahra was very surprised to hear that, it felt like the world wanted to be destroyed.

"But why?, your refusal must have a reason, right?" Zahra asked with a voice that had started to sound hoarse.

"No need I explain Zahra.this is my privacy."

"Oh, no. I need to know what reason you rejected me, is it because of Fia?" Zahra asked with a probing look.

"No, it's not because of Fia." Elak Alif is honest.

"Is this because of last night? is this because of Annisa?"

Alif was silent and did not react.

"Alif, I can explain all that!it's all because of ak-"

"Maybe! but the rest wasn't because of last night.."

"Then?" Zahra asked confusedly.

"What should I say?"

"It has to be, if it doesn't mean you're my girlfriend."

"Because I've been beating up a girl."

"Whitteens?"

"I have proposed to her and will marry the girl." Alif sounds happy.

"Applying?" Zahra's murmur was barely audible.

"Other girl?"

Did ya?

Deg

It was as if a hard blow had struck Zahra's heart. It doesn't hurt for the body, but it has a very painful impact on the inner Zahra.

"Well.seriously?"

"Ah, lose this spit.."

"Anjay, Mr. Alif lamar another girl."

What's more, hearing their hurtful comments makes Zahra samakin hurt.

Zahra P's. O. V

It hurts!

Alif proposed to another girl?

Who her?

why dare to step over me.

"Who?" Ask me not to accept.

"Secret."

"Hahaha.secret?"

"Only I and God know."

"Well, if it's a secret. But why should it be that girl? why not me?" Ask me with hunting breath.

Alif turned his gaze looking while thinking.

"Sorry Zahra I have to go back to work anyway everything is clear now, there's nothing to talk about anymore." Said Alif coldly as he passed away leaving me.

I immediately sat down on the ground. What else to say, it's too painful.

The alif?

Alif already has another girl.

Tik

The water fell on my hand.

I cried?

In a crowded place like this?

OH, NNO!

STOP ZAHRA!

Stop all this stupidity. Don't cry here, you'll look weak and everyone will mock you weak.

But, I can't dodge it. It's too painful for me to forget, is that how heartbreak feels?

Ah, naw. It's not a broken heart, it's a disappointment because I've failed to get it. Then, Fia will laugh at me and I will forever be stuck in the memories of my handsome prince's past. I want to divert my heart.

This is God's sick.

I have lost!

Too many wounds.

I'm weak.

"Zahra, come here.." Call Andrini while touching my shoulder.

Andrini and Latifa raised my helpless weak body.

"Come, follow us.." He said as he pulled my hand into a room, precisely a warehouse.

After they got there they both immediately sat me in one of the empty seats.

Ah, warehouse.

I remember this place where I always bullied or bullied new students. Beautiful memories I feel.

"How, Zahra?" Andrini asked gently with a smile.

"Lo don't pretend to bego instead of you who cuddle the kids to watch me? yeah, you don't know the end result." Answer me annoyed.

Well, if only they hadn't gathered those kids to watch me then I wouldn't have been this angry as possible.

"Wo.wo.casual Zahra, kalem dong." Latifa said in voice.

Andrini was smiling faintly. Impressed by the ridicule in my eyes.

"Oh, must it hurt?" Andrini asked with a pitying look.

Ah, shit!

I hate that look.

"Well, he's sick, use him again. Udah, ah lo instead of nenangin even more make me keles, Shit lo!"

"Ops, sorry if you feel that way." Please Latifa sounds mocking.

What the fuck are they, why is this weird?

Even every time they say something sounds like mocking.

"Zahra, you want to hear a story?"

"News?"

"Ehem, this is my secret with Latifa. So, you don't tell anyone.."

"Confidential?"

"Dad, you must also be very familiar with the main character. He's not a stranger to you anymore."

"You mean?"

"There was once a naive male student in high school."

"He is a transfer student, but just entered this school he immediately became famous and the school artist. But one day, he accidentally meets a beautiful girl. That girl's called Zahra."

Zahras?

Wait, this is like my real life. Perhaps what they mean is..

"Alvin?" I asked in a barely audible voice.

Seriate..