PRISONER OF LOVE LOVE THE WIDOWER
Part 25's. Walking with Time 2
“Halo, my doctor Ridwan, his mother Anita, was found dead in her sleep..”.
“Doctor Ridwan? Died?! He means at his house?!”
“Iya, sorry I have to convey this, but Anita may need support here, she is alone here. But I will wait until there is family here, and report ...” I don't hear what's being talked about anymore. I only saw the face of Mama who had been asleep forever. Why would I have to go home last night, if I knew, I wouldn't have come home last night. I'll have a chance to talk to him at least.
“Nita, Koko said, she will be here soon.” I don't care, I just want to be with Mama. Holding her hand, hugging her, because maybe I don't have a chance anymore. “Drink first.” Doctor Ridwan kindly took me for a drink and left me alone.
Before long someone came to my side, I was on my knees lying under Mama's bed, holding her hand, warming her, not wanting to let go, just tidying her hair up.
“Ta..” I know who's coming.
“Mama promise to HK both Ko, he who fussyitetin I take leave. Why..” Koko can't answer me either.
“His destiny. Mama has calmed down.” When you're there, you'll know any words of comfort can't take the pain away. Only time can, nothing more can offer the pain of loss.“Papa you already know, he's here today. Maybe afternoon or evening until.”
“Still Ko..”
“You have something on the phone? Nearest family?”
“Cuma Aunt Yuni. Umpit phone..”.
That day was a nightmare, I still couldn't believe it, when Aunt Yuni came, hugged me along crying with me I guess I could hardly cry anymore, it felt numb. A few hours later the ambulance came, Mama had to be taken to the funeral home. Koko set everything up that day, there was a staff with her, arranged everything, I don't think I can think anymore. Don't know what to do.
“Ta, Mama must be taken to the funeral home.” Auntie is now talking to me.
“Later Aja Aunty.”
“It's already two hours..”
“Nanti.” I don't want Mama to go to a place she doesn't know.
“Ta..”
“Ga pa-pa, just wait not pa-pa in a moment, later I say to the ambulance funeral home and the officer.” Ko Derrick's voice makes Auntie willing to wait. “Alan says they wait a minute.”
“Iya Pak.” Aunt out leaving me alone with Mama. Koko sat with me instead.
“Mama won't be coming home again,... “
“Mama go home to God's place. I am happy Ta. People say that people who die peacefully are going well. But if you can't take him off like this, it's Mama.”
“I nyesel semalem not coming home cepet Ko. Not saying anything to Mama.”.
“Not your fault. That's the way it is. If we know when he died, we have made a farewell party. You can already be independent, it's good for your Papa, your mother also feels calm. The parents if their children are independent feel they have succeeded, feel they have finished their duties.”
“Iya, Koko knows. But nobody is ready either, ..”
“Mama-Papa Koko is gone?” I'm tired of crying, looking for a talkative now.
“Udah 10 years ago, Mama 5 years ago.” So Ko Derrick has also been at this point.
“Gimana.”
“Where to spend it?” He was silent thinking. “Stay running in time. Try say goodbye, believe they are happy, say thanks to them, try let it go by the time. It’s never easy. Walk step by step. It takes time to forget the pain, that's all..”.
“So?”
“Everyone is so.”
I'm still sitting next to Mama, looking at her face, if given 1 minute of my time. I just wanted to say, I love her, thank you for everything. But I wasn't given that chance, I just believed he was happy. But he knows I love him very much.
“I have to what?”
“Mama will be taken to the funeral home, prepared to be bathed, formalin everything, you can accompany there, there is a bed. Someone will take care of everything. Papa you until 5 o'clock to Jakarta. You ready to bring, the clothes Mama you want her to wear.”.
I move, it feels like opening his closet looking for his clothes can make me cry. Aunt Yuni helped me choose, I managed to get through it with just a glass. When the body was taken away, I couldn't help but cry. Because I knew she would never come back, no hug could ease her pain. There really isn't...
I had to step up while enduring the pain. Want to be ready, or not...
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Notes that doctors do to determine kemat*ian.
Check the pain response by pressing on the chest bone*a.
Check if there are reflections from the pupil of the eye that follow the light
Checking the pulse
Checking the presence or absence of heart rate
Checking breath.
