My First and Last Love

#feeling Guilty.

Yuna decides to leave, leaving Hani and Azof in there. He cannot interfere with their time. But they still have privacy. It's not good to interrupt both of their time.

Jian tailed his woman from behind. He continued to follow wherever Yuna went. Until finally, the woman sat on the chair. They arrived in front of the hospital. The atmosphere there still looks crowded.

Yuna did not speak a single word for a moment after she decided to sit outside the hospital. His forehead was slowly sorted with one hand, while the other hand looked weakly helpless. Actually he's feeling fucked. Between sadness, joy, and greater than that, is the guilt that never ends.

Jian looked at the woman. He did see there was chaos in Yuna's heart. Although the woman tried to be quiet, and did not want to talk to her, Jian could not easily be fooled. He even knew what Yuna was thinking without having to hear a direct explanation from Yuna.

" Ahem.."

Jian sat himself down into a knee-deep position before Yuna..

" Don't bother me first, Jian.."

" Why ??"

" Don't get me wrong, I just don't want to be bothered for a while.."

" When is the time until when ? Until you completely forget that guilt ??"

" How do you know ??"

" My Yun feeling was so easy I guessed.. What else are you trying to hide from me, Yuna.."

" Do I have to tell you everything ??"

" If you don't want to talk, it doesn't really matter either. I'll still know even if you're always quiet.."

" If you already know, then go.. I don't want to be disturbed right now.."

" No.."

" Jian, come on.. I'm begging.. Just this time, I want to have some alone time.."

" The last time, you made a big mistake involving many people feeling wronged, is this time you will also do the same ?"

" Jian.."

" I don't think there's any harm in me staying here, whether you're distracted or not, I don't care at all.."

" Then it's up to you.."

The two of them were silent to each other, and made the atmosphere turn so quiet. The reverie that brought Yuna to a protracted distance made Jian feel this woman was giving him a tough challenge.

" Talk to me, who knows how you feel better.."

" I don't know.."

Jian held onto Yuna's hands that looked pure white, yet no longer felt as soft as silk.

" Don't shut everything down by yourself. Although you are a strong woman, but I am sure not always a strong woman is able to withstand the pain of her heart alone. Tell me everything, I'll hear everything through to the end.. How ??"

" As you say, guilt is certain.." (he stopped saying ).

" Why ??"

" There is still, even bigger than before.."

Jian stared at the face that was still bowed listlessly.

" If all this time, I've only felt guilty about you, then another now.. I don't even know it seems my problem involves too many people.."

" Then you think this is all your fault ??"

Yuna just nodded. He tried to wipe away the tears that almost flooded his swollen cheeks.

" If you feel that way, then in the future, do your best for us.."

Yuna turned to look at Jian closely..

" You're sorry aren't you ??"

Now Yuna nodded answering a question from Jian..

" If you regret it, not in this way resolve it.. But you have to take responsibility for your mistakes.."

" What's that like ?"

" We never blame you for all the problems that happen, but you yourself are aware of it, and feel responsible for everything, then the path, is only finished in one way, he said, make us feel like you're a woman we deserve to defend.."

Yuna fell silent. He took all the advice Jian gave him very seriously.

" Yuna.. Want you to assume anything, we never thought this was all your fault.."

" Jian, I'm sorry.."

Jian shook his head. He knew for sure that Yuna's fault was only one, she didn't believe in herself or anyone else. For him Yuna's struggle to save him was more than anything. But the woman had always even felt she had no price for others..

" I've let you guys down.."

" Hate yourself.. Think of yourself as useless to others, but when do you keep doing this ? If you were a bird, would you forever be trapped in a cage and not be able to fly freely like others.. It's enough you've been shackled by the dark times you've been through, now, free yourself from the prison that locked you up and not let you run away from it.."

Yuna was still silent.. The words of this motivator always sound impressive.

" Make us proud in front of everyone to have been defenders of women like you.."

" Can I ??"

" You are a woman we are very proud of. Did you forget before your name finally dimmed, you are a famous woman adored by anyone who sees you, can you do it again like before ?? It can make others proud to know and idolize you.."

Yuna just seemed to be watching..

" It seems you should try it.. You have to learn to know yourself, to understand what you want and what you need.. Make yourself happy in your own way and after that, you can tell if others feel proud of what you've done, or vice versa.."

Yuna nodded. Honestly speaking, although not all of Jian's words he understood, but he could draw a small conclusion from there. That life does not need to rely on others to see it from the good or the bad side, but how he can see and know himself to make others feel that he should be proud.

......

A woman was smoking a cigarette that she slipped on her two fingers. By playing his favorite rocking chair in his study, he looks so adept at playing the two objects at a time. It seems like he is relaxing enjoying his free time.

" Mrs.."

Phew..

" Why ??"

The woman was giving off her cigarette smoke.

" I've done the duty that mistress gave me.."

" How did it go ?"

" The results are very satisfying.. All the higher-ups of the few companies we chose to work with, all of them immediately agreed to this cooperation.. And it is estimated, with the role of Lord Jianan, then our company can all grow bigger later.."

" I think we can put a lot of capital to start this cooperation, tell all the companies that move with us, if our company will bear all the capital for the initial cost.."

" good, Madam.. As you have commanded.."

The man left and left the same Tiansha as before, playing with his cigarette and his rocking chair..

" That young man was very useful to me, since he had invited me to cooperate, I had never suffered a loss and instead, I was able to make a huge profit. It's okay if now I bet some M to start this cooperation, because in the end, the money could quickly get back into my hands.."

He released the cigarette smoke back with a very satisfied face.

A few seconds later, he switched off his cigarette, which was only the tip of a fingernail. He then switched to taking his phone, and trying to contact someone..

" Hello.."

Across there, I could hear..

" I want to owe your company seven hundred billion.."

' What ?? Is the money not too big ??'

" I'll give it back in a month, and I'll make sure I won't let you down either.."

' Oes..'

" Take any of my companies as collateral if I can't get the money back.."

' right, yes..'

" Hold my word.."

The man on the line seemed to approve their decision. After a while, the conversation finally closed.

Hhh..

Tiansha leaned back on her wobbly chair, and tried to sleep up there..

....

" Mr, I've done what you told me.."

He was seen contacting someone from behind the phone. The bespectacled man secretly reported a happy news for the success of his hard work in America.

' Good, come back here, and say it completely after you return..'

" Okay, Mr.."

He closed his conversation and then stepped towards the car that had been seen waiting for him earlier..